I Just Came to Borrow a Light Chapter 24:

"This big face," Yuan Wu snorted at the screen, threw the phone aside, and put down the camera, "Did you just say that you have a late-night snack?"

"You both know Jiang Chengyu and Guo Xiaoshuai," Lin Chengbu sat next to him, face to face with him, "be active, even if it passes by, you can't escape."

Yuan Wu frowned.

"Tell me if you know them both," Lin Chengbu said, "you told me, I'll cook something delicious for you."

"When I'm the big head?" Yuan Wu glanced at him.

"Big head is more capable than you," Lin Chengbu sighed, "If you were big head, everything would be solved, big head is smart and sensible."

Yuan Wu clicked his tongue: "What do you mean?"

"It means you're bored," Lin Chengbu stood up and went to the kitchen, "the supper is gone, so be hungry."

"I remember," Yuan Wu leaned back on the sofa, half-squinting, "I remember, I don't know later, I remember now."

"Remember what?" Lin Cheng quickly walked back to him.

"I sometimes remember a lot of things," Yuan Wu closed his eyes, "a lot..."

"Remember what?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"I don't know," Yuan Wu suddenly got a little irritable, opened his eyes and looked at him, "I don't know! I can't tell what it is when I mix it up! Don't keep saying that I'm not active or not! I don't even know what I want to do actively. !”

Lin Chengbu didn't speak.

"I don't want to run away! What to face positively!" Yuan Wu stood up and walked back and forth in the room, "It's annoying! It's a mess! It's a mess!"

"Don't worry..." Lin Chengbu stopped him and put a cup of yogurt in his hand.

"But you are in a hurry!" Yuan Wu stared at him, "You are in a hurry!"

"...Yes." Lin Chengbu nodded.

Yuan Wu didn't say anything else, and sat back on the sofa, holding his head with his arms on his knees.

Lin Chengbu moved very lightly in the kitchen and didn't know what to do. Is it a late night snack?

Answered his question myself, presumably making a late-night snack.

Remember.

Yes, I remember Jiang Chengyu and Guo Xiaoshuai.

But he doesn't remember what those names had to do with him, what they were supposed to look like in his memory.

He's not blank, not nothing, he has memories, memories, but they're all mixed up, confused and clueless.

Many times he couldn't even tell if it was real or just his imagination.

I'm so tired... I've always been tired... You say, there will be many people in this world who shouldn't exist... such as me...

You are unhappy because of me... A lot of things are because of me... Why don't you laugh, I told you a joke, I think it's funny, why don't you laugh... Am I redundant, The extra is actually me, right...

You said, would we have been one person, if only one person, that would be fine, right?

There is one that shouldn't exist.

It's me.

Yuan Wu inserted his fingers into his hair and scratched fiercely a few times.

It's the same voice again, the same words again.

He didn't want to run away, but he felt scared in the confusion, afraid of clearing his mind, afraid of suddenly seeing and thinking of some truth that seemed to make him despair.

Yes, the truth.

He knew something was waiting for him in Chaos.

Getting closer.

The long-standing repression and avoidance still failed to escape, and approached little by little.

Like he never knew who was talking and what he was talking about.

Now I have to tell myself.

Got it.

It's Yuan Shen.

As soon as the name comes to mind, it's like breaking some balance, throwing him into confusion and fear, followed by uncontrollable restlessness and more and more frequent headaches.

And drowsiness wrapped in vertigo.

Is this an escape?

It wouldn't be so hard if you didn't know anything.

Is it an escape?

When Lin Chengbu poured the boiled fermented eggs out of the pot, he saw Yuan Wu, who had been sitting on the sofa holding his head, and began to tremble.

He threw the pot into the sink and ran to Yuan Wu.

"What's wrong?" He hugged Yuan Wu, and found that he was shaking violently, and his whole body was covered in sweat. In this weather, he would have to run for more than ten minutes if he wanted to sweat like this.

Yuan Wu didn't answer him, he just frowned, his expression wasn't painful, but it wasn't uncomfortable either.

"What's wrong?" Lin Chengbu hugged him tightly, "Tell me what's wrong?"

"Very sleepy." Yuan Wu whispered.

"Drowsy?" Lin Chengbu glanced at the time, it was almost 12 o'clock, and it seemed that there was nothing abnormal about being sleepy. "Are you going to sleep?"

"Yeah." Yuan Wu responded, and slowly stopped shaking.

"Then..." Lin Chengbu was about to say that you should go back to the bedroom to sleep, but Yuan Wu suddenly leaned on him. He had been struggling with him, but now he suddenly loosened, and he was a little shocked to help him. Touching Yuan Wu's shoulder, "I fell asleep on you?"

Yuan Wu didn't answer, closed his eyes, and even slowed his breathing.

Lin Chengbu stared at his face, and when he tilted his head back, he quickly stretched out his hand to hold it up: "Aren't you, do you have other problems? Are you asleep or dizzy? !”

Yuan Wu's eyes suddenly opened a slit: "Shut up."

After speaking, he closed his eyes again and fell asleep as if he had passed out.

"...Oh," Lin Chengbu replied after a long time, "then you go to bed, do you want me to help you sit and sleep?"

Yuan Wu did not respond.

Lin Chengbu hesitated for a while, then dragged Yuan Wu into the bedroom and threw it on the bed.

He originally wanted to carry Yuan Wu in, but in that position he was afraid that Yuan Wu's stomach would be uncomfortable, so he wanted to carry him in, Yuan Wu was not too small, he was afraid that he would slip half of his hands and throw Yuan Wu on the ground. If you can't get away with a beating, if you fall into a brain again...

After being thrown onto the bed, Yuan Wu quickly turned over and pulled the pillow to make himself sleep more comfortable.

"Damn it," Lin Chengbu looked at him suspiciously, "Are you pretending or falling asleep or faint?"

"I'm sleepy." Yuan Wu said in a nasal voice.

"No," Lin Chengbu was speechless, "Aren't you asleep?"

"What's the matter," Yuan Wu lowered his voice, as if he was about to fall asleep, "I'm exhausted."

"...Forget it, you can sleep." Lin Chengbu sighed.

Standing by the bed for a few more minutes, after confirming that Yuan Wu was indeed asleep, he turned around and left the bedroom and went to the kitchen to eat the bowl of wine-stuffed eggs.

This night, Yuan had a fairly stable nap, and there was no abnormality. Lin Chengbu didn't take ice cubes to pour his crotch, and slept directly next to him.

Because the information provided by Guo Xiaoshuai was too surprising, he had no other thoughts at all. He fell asleep and dreamed of two Yuanwu all night.

He also recited the stubborn spell like a fool for a while trying to tell the difference between the real and the fake Yuanwu.

And he read it like that, the elder one, and he looked at himself several times in his dreams.

But I forgot when I woke up.

It's a pity.

When he opened his eyes, his first action was to turn his head to look at Yuan Wu. After realizing that Yuan Wu was not on the bed, he rushed to the living room within a second.

"Very agile." Yuan Wu stood in the kitchen.

"Hungry?" Lin Chengbu breathed a sigh of relief, "I'll make it, I don't have your only specialty here."

"What?" Yuan Wu asked.

"Instant noodles," Lin Chengbu opened the refrigerator, "Have a sandwich? Or go out to eat? I have nothing to take you out to eat today."

"I'll do it," Yuan Wu said. "You have all these things in your kitchen."

"What are you going to do?" Lin Chengbu sat down at the table.

"Sandwich," Yuan Wu smiled at him, "You can guide me to make it."

Lin Chengbu didn't speak, staring at Yuan Wu's face, the chill seeping up from his back little by little.

"Is it okay?" Yuan Wu asked again.

"Okay." Lin Chengbu nodded.

Yuan Wu took out the eggs from the refrigerator, took a bowl and started to beat: "Actually, I'm quite skilled at beating eggs."

"Yes." Lin Chengbu responded.

Yuan Wu's smile just now made him feel scared.

He had seen that smile before, but he didn't know at the time that such a sunny smile belonged to Won Shin.

"Yuan Wu." He tried calling.

"Huh?" Yuan Wu looked up at him.

"You never told me about your brother," he said.

"Brother?" Yuan Wu's eyes went blank for a moment, but he soon lowered his eyelids and continued to beat eggs without speaking.

"Your brother's name is Yuan Shen," Lin Chengbu continued, "you mentioned it once before, when Xiao Nier came to you to get something, you said that it was Yuan Shen's ex-girlfriend."

The movement of Yuan Wu's hands stopped.

"Do you remember?" Lin Chengbu noticed his reaction and tried to say, "Remember Xiao Ni?"

Yuan Wu didn't speak, put down the bowl in his hand, propped up the table and stared at the bowl in silence.

"Where is Yuan Shen?" Lin Chengbu bit his lip and asked. He felt a little risky when he asked, "Guo Xiaoshuai said that he has not heard from him for a long time."

"What do you want to know?" Yuan Wu's voice suddenly became cold, and when he looked up, his eyes were as sharp as a knife.

Lin Chengbu could almost feel a pain in his face.

He regrets it a little bit. He should wait until Yuanwu finishes making the sandwiches before asking. At least he can eat the breakfast that Yuanwu made for him...

But the plot has already developed here, and it is impossible to rewind, and it turns out that if you continue to slow down and move forward, Yuan Wu will be left with too many opportunities to "self-adjust" and take a step back.

"I want to know," Lin Chengbu took out the photo from his pocket, put it in front of Yuan Wu, and pointed at Yuan Shen, "Where is Yuan Shen."

Yuan Wu looked down at the photo.

When his eyes landed in front of his fingertips, his breathing suddenly became rapid, and he couldn't tell if it was fear, anxiety, or sadness.

Maybe both.

Before Lin Chengbu could think of what to say next, Yuan Wu grabbed the photo and ripped it into pieces.

Lin Chengbu didn't go to grab the photo. It doesn't matter whether the photo is complete or not, what matters is that Yuan Wu saw it.

Saw two people.

Yuan Wu took the photo fragments to the toilet and threw them into the toilet, and flushed them twice in a row.

Lin Chengbu waited for a while, but did not see Yuan Wu come out. Although he felt that the possibility of suicide by using the water in the toilet was too low, he got up and went into the toilet.

Yuan Wu was sitting against the wall, holding his head and crying bitterly as he saw it on the boat for the first time.

The painful roaring cry that was forcibly pressed into his throat made Lin Chengbu's heart twitch and pain. The pain spread from his chest to his arms, causing a burst of numbness.

He didn't know what Yuan Wu was crying.

I don't know the last time.

But this sadness is conveyed and clearly felt.

No matter what the reason, Yuan Wu was in great pain.

Lin Chengbu didn't speak, and sat down against the wall opposite him, looking at him face to face.

This is a kind of torment. He sat opposite Yuan Wu, watching him cry like a struggle, and clearly felt the pain emanating from Yuan Wu's body.

But nothing can be done.

No comfort, no words to say.

The time passed little by little. Lin Chengbu didn't look at his watch. He didn't know how long it took. He only felt that his whole body was sore and his head was soaring. He only knew that Yuan Wu had not made a sound for a long time.

Just sit there quietly, holding your head.

Lin Chengbu thought he was asleep, but he could still see his interlaced fingers rubbing gently.

"He's dead." Yuan Wu said suddenly.

These words were said too suddenly, with a little resonance in the small space, causing Lin Chengbu to bounce on the ground as if frightened, and sat up straight.

Yuan Wu still didn't move from his previous posture, just like he didn't say that sentence.

"Who died?" Lin Chengbu asked softly.

"Yuan Shen." Yuan Wu's voice was hoarse and low, but Yuan Shen spoke clearly.

Won Shin is dead.

Lin Chengbu looked at Yuan Wu, feeling that he didn't know what to say or what else to say. Yuan Wu was silent, and he could only keep silent.

From silence to speech to silence, Yuan Wu always held his head like that, as if trying to isolate himself from the things around him.

Lin Chengbu wanted to touch him, pinched his arms, and hugged his shoulders, but he didn't dare to move.

Yuan Wu's body language clearly and clearly refuses any contact.

Like a long time ago, he didn't allow anyone to touch him, Lin Chengbu grabbed his arm and was slapped at random.

That's all, stay with me in silence.

Until the early morning sun slowly changed from the window to the bright noon sun, Yuan Wu didn't speak again, he wasn't even sure if Yuan Wu knew he was still here.

The sun slowly slanted past, and a small square of light poured in from the small window climbed up the wall little by little, and finally disappeared.

Lin Chengbu felt that he had probably reached his deadline.

The soreness in his body has disappeared, replaced by numbness. He has moved his legs a few times, but his buttocks can't move much, and now his **** is not his.

I don't know how long it will take to get my **** back.

If his **** is necrotic, can he ask Yuan Wu to make a claim?

Where's Yuan Wu's ass?

Is there any necrosis... Do you want to force it to check...

"You know what?" Yuan Wu, who had settled down, suddenly opened his mouth.

Lin Chengbu was still startled, but because of his butt, he couldn't jump on the spot and could only raise his head suddenly.

Yuan Wu also raised his head, perhaps because he had been bowing his head for too long. When he raised his head, he seemed to be dizzy and leaned back.

"What?" Lin Chengbu asked. After speaking, he realized that his throat was on fire.

"If a person sincerely wants to die," Yuan Wu said, "how powerful is it."

Lin Chengbu didn't answer, and didn't know how to answer.

"Are there really people who shouldn't exist?" Yuan Wu looked at him.

"No." Lin Chengbu said.

"Yeah...no..." Yuan Wu sighed softly, "I'm hungry."

"Want to eat?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"Yeah." Yuan Wu nodded.

"I'm going to cook," Lin Chengbu wanted to stand up, but as soon as his leg moved, he was so numb that he almost shouted, he gritted his teeth and pinched his leg, "Damn it."

"Hungry." Yuan Wu said.

"I know, you wait..."

"Very hungry."

"Ah..." Lin Chengbu groaned, not only his legs were very sore and numb, but he also had no energy at all, he gave up the idea of ​​standing up and propped himself on the ground, "Wait for me... "

"I starved to death." Yuan Wu looked at him.

"I see," Lin Chengbu slowly crawled towards the door, "Do you know how I feel now?"

"I know," Yuan Wu said, "I'm so numb that I can't move."

"I thought you didn't know," Lin Chengbu climbed to the door, holding the door and turning to look at him, "If you know, don't rush me."

"I didn't urge you," Yuan Wu said, "I just expressed my inner desire."

"I have received your desire." Lin Chengbu sighed.

"Xiao Bu Bu," Yuan Wu said in a low voice, "You think I am Yuan Wu, right?"

Lin Chengbu, who had already stood up halfway holding the door, knelt back to the ground after he said this, turning his head to look at him: "Yes."

"What if I'm really not," Yuan Wu said, "Have you thought about it?"

"I thought about it," Lin Chengbu's voice trembled, "but you must be."

"Do you know Yuan Shen?" Yuan Wu looked at him and asked, "Why are you so sure."

"Because," Lin Chengbu leaned in front of him, "from the day I met you, you've been like that, the same as your high school photo, when I met you, you hadn't become like this bird, I'm looking at you..."

"It turned into a bird." Yuan Wu took his words.

"...Yes." Lin Chengbu nodded.

Yuan Wu smiled.

This smile gave Lin Chengbu the strength to stand up. This was Yuan Wu's smile, the kind of smile that didn't make him happy.

"What time is it?" Yuan Wu asked.

"It's more than six o'clock," Lin Chengbu looked at his watch, "just after six o'clock, today is a day trip to the toilet."

"Are you free at night?" Yuan Wu looked up at him, "I want to go out for a walk, but I'm suffocated."

"Okay," Lin Chengbu replied immediately, "Where do you want to go?"

"I don't know, I didn't think about it," Yuan Wu rubbed his forehead, "I just wanted to walk around."

"Then go out after dinner?" Lin Chengbu asked, "Or go out to eat?"

"Go out after eating," Yuan Wu slowly stood up against the wall, "I'm too hungry to walk."

"You're not hungry, it's a cat." Lin Chengbu helped him.

"It's not easy for you," Yuan Wu slowly walked out. "Take time to see a psychiatrist, do you have a tendency to be abused?"

"It's you who should see it." Lin Chengbu said.

"Me?" Yuan Wu turned his head, thought for a while and frowned, "I won't go, my scars can't be torn apart by others."

"Will you tear it up?" Lin Chengbu chased after him.

"Sometimes," Yuan Wu replied nonchalantly, "there will be some complete small clips, like other people's stories, the feeling of what happened to others, but... but it has my name."

Lin Cheng walked up to him: "Which name?"

"Want to hear a story?" Yuan Wu looked at him.

"I think." Lin Chengbu replied succinctly.

"Something I suddenly remembered," Yuan Wu said, walking slowly to the living room and stretching, "I will tell you all of a sudden."

"Whose story?" Lin Chengbu asked while moving his arms and legs.

"Yuan Shen and Yuan Wu."