I Just Came to Borrow a Light Chapter 32:

When Lin Chengbu came out of the box, he almost collided with the waiter passing by the door.

"Oh my pot of soup!" The waiter was startled.

"I'm sorry." Lin Chengbu gave her a hand.

"Are your friends coming for dinner?" The waiter smiled and whispered, "I thought Boss Jiang was there."

"It's not him." Lin Chengbu said.

"You won't serve the food yourself when he comes," the waiter said while walking away with a smile, "It's not easy to serve... I can't serve well in this house today."

"What's wrong?" Lin Chengbu asked casually.

The waiter stopped and lowered his voice: "I don't know if it's a cult or not. There are seven or eight people in the room."

"Why?" Lin Chengbu was a little curious.

"I stopped talking as soon as I went in, and then I swiped a sentence, someone said that there are only the last few of us left, and they look at people with special eyes... scary, not at all. I know if you are watching, and, although the coats are different, they are all black T-shirts with terrible patterns printed on them." The waiter frowned, "Are you saying they are drug addicts? "

"There shouldn't be anyone going to a private restaurant to gather people to take drugs..." Lin Chengbu asked, "What pattern?"

"It's just a painting of all kinds of dead people," the waiter said, "something that hanged or cut his wrists... Hey, I didn't look closely, didn't dare to look at it."

After the waiter finished speaking, he walked away with the tray. Lin Chengbu stayed in place for a while before slowly walking towards the kitchen.

He doesn't know if he thinks too much, maybe it's because of the suicide message board he saw before, maybe it's because of the paintings on the walls of the old factory building, and the ones in Yuanshen's house...

He was busy in the back kitchen for a while, and after finishing all the dishes for Yuan Wu, he fried two signature dishes, both ordered by the box.

"Brother Lin, did you deliver your friend's food yourself?" asked the waiter I met just now.

"Well," Lin Chengbu nodded, holding the tray in one hand, "you can see the box off."

"Hey..." She sighed and brought the dishes from the box, "I hope they finish eating and leave soon, I don't even want to go in."

"As for what?" Lin Chengbu smiled.

"They let boiled water go in just now. When I went in, someone was crying, and no one comforted him. They all stared at him and cried," the waiter tutted twice, "I was so scared that I just put something in there. ran out."

"Tell Sister Sun later and ask them to pay attention to this box so that nothing happens." Lin Chengbu said.

"Well, okay." The waiter responded.

The box Lin Chengbu arranged for Yuan Wu was a high-end box facing the small garden in the yard. The small garden was surrounded by the corridor, and there were a total of six boxes facing the garden. , just saw Yuan Wu walk into the small garden from the corridor next to him.

He suddenly became nervous, and the direction was exactly what the waiter said was a room full of weirdos.

As soon as Yuan Wu turned around and saw him, he asked, "It's very fast, is the meal ready?"

"There is another stew." Lin Chengbu stared at Yuan Wu and felt that he was in a normal mood. "They will bring it over later, so we can eat it first."

"Okay." Yuan Wu followed him back to the box.

Lin Chengbu put the three dishes on the table: "These are my specialty dishes, as well as Chunzhi's signature dishes, tofu, pork ribs, beans..."

"Beans are also a signature dish?" Yuan Wu looked at it, "Is there any cabbage in your signature dish?"

"You have a taste." Lin Chengbu smiled.

Yuan Wu took a bean and looked at it: "Dried beans?"

"Tast it!" Lin Chengbu glared at him, "So much nonsense."

"It scared me to death." Yuan Wu put the beans in his mouth, chewed it twice, and glanced at him.

"How is it?" Lin Chengbu sat down.

"Something is stuffed in the beans? Salted egg yolk?" Yuan Wu took another one, "Minced meat? What else?"

"Is it delicious?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"Well," Yuan Wu nodded, put the beans in the bowl and opened it with chopsticks, "what else? It's very fragrant..."

"Net oil." Lin Chengbu said.

“What is net oil?” Yuan Wu asked.

"...it's net oil." Lin Chengbu replied.

"What about my big head?" Yuan Wu looked at him.

Lin Chengbu laughed: "It's lard oil, what can I say, it's pig muscle|the kind of net-like oil in the seam, which is more fragrant than lard."

"I've never eaten it," Yuan Wu looked at another plate, "this is your tofu, the one I've been begging for, right."

Lin Chengbu sighed helplessly: "Yes, eat my tofu."

Tofu is really delicious, and it's worth the burden of the number one signature dish.

This is Yuan Wu's evaluation of tofu.

"How did you do it?" Yuan Wu asked.

"Fried." Lin Chengbu answered simply.

"This blind man can tell after a bite," Yuan Wu said, "Is it a secret?"

"Well," Lin Chengbu nodded, "my master's craftsmanship is passed down from men to women, handsome but not ugly..."

"Is it still a big one or a small one?" Yuan Wu gave him a sideways glance.

"What size?" Lin Chengbu was stunned.

"Face." Yuan Wu said.

"Shit." Lin Chengbu laughed for a long time.

Because I don't drink alcohol, the dishes that Lin Chengbu picked were also bland, so they both finished eating after a while.

Yuan Wu didn't give much praise to the dishes, he only said that he liked it. For Lin Chengbu, this sentence was more useful than anything else, it was just like Yuan Wu said he liked him.

"Your craftsmanship," Yuan Wu lit a cigarette, "is a bit unexpected to me, Chengyu used to say that you are good at cooking, but I thought it was because he chased you and you gave him shit, he also said Delicious."

"You said that," Lin Chengbu smiled, "to make him anxious to hear you."

"I know why he ran here when he was okay," Yuan Wu took a cigarette, "Not only for you, but also for the vegetables."

"Is it delicious?" Lin Chengbu said with a satisfied smile, "You can come over if you're okay, come over and tell me if you have time, I can make it at home, except tofu, everything else can be made at home ."

"Want to go to my house?" Yuan Wu looked at him.

Lin Chengbu nodded.

"Let's take a while," Yuan Wu thought for a while, "I'm still... adjusting during this time. I have to go to Dr. Liang's place for at least a few months, and I usually want to be alone."

"Yeah." Lin Chengbu nodded. Although Yuan Wu seemed to be normal now, it would not take a month or two to heal the wound in his heart.

The two sat for a while, Lin Chengbu was about to say to send Yuan Wu back when he saw someone coming out of the box over there.

"Have some tea," he hurriedly took the teapot, the guests in the box had to pass by when they wanted to go out. He didn't know whether Yuan Wu knew about the existence of the message board, but he still didn't want him to go out. Seeing these people, "I tell you, this tea..."

"Are the people over there leaving?" Yuan Wu interrupted him and asked.

Lin Chengbu's hand holding the pot paused and stopped in the air.

"I'm fine." Yuan Wu said.

"They..." Lin Chengbu hesitated. Those people had already walked over, their jackets were all buttoned up, and the black t-shirt the waiter said just now couldn't be seen.

But as she said, these people do look weird, the kind of weird that can be seen at a glance, their faces are expressionless, and their eyes are blank and empty.

"Have you searched for a glass of wine with a smile?" Yuan Wu calmly took the teapot in his hand and poured a cup of tea.

"...Yes." Lin Chengbu said.

"Laughed out a glass of wine," Yuan Wu looked at the tea in the cup, "Yuan Shen has been using this id since high school, and has been using it for many, many years."

"Really." Lin Chengbu looked at him.

"Have you seen that message board?" Yuan Wu took a sip of tea. "The message board is nothing to be afraid of. I can't see anything anymore. The website has been blocked."

"Is it... a suicide website?" Lin Chengbu frowned.

"Well," Yuan Wu nodded, "it's...a terrible suicide website, a website that tells you that life is meaningless and teaches you how to die."

"Fuck." Lin Chengbu whispered.

"Those who have thoughts of suicide, even if it's just a little bit, once they get in, they can't get rid of them. These people will tell you like brainwashing that your world is hopeless, and no matter how much you struggle, you won't be able to get rid of them. There is hope, you can only be freed by death, they tell you how to die, how this person died, how that person died..." Yuan Wu's voice was a little hoarse, "I knew that when there was such a place, Yuan Shen had already Been there for over a year."

"Is no one in charge?" Lin Chengbu was a little angry, "Is this abetting?"

"I called the police," Yuan Wu glanced at him, "The website has been blocked, but...it's too late."

"Then they..." Lin Chengbu stood up and took a look, those few people could no longer see, "They...are they? Are they right?"

"I don't know," Yuan Wu leaned on the table and turned slowly with the cup in his hand, "I heard you talking to the waiter outside, and I went over to take a look, but... I don't know. "

"What should I do then?" Lin Chengbu said.

"I don't know, what can I do?" Yuan Wu smiled, "What can I do?"

Lin Chengbu didn't speak again.

Yes, what can I do? Yuan Wu called the police and the website was blocked, what else can I do?

Lin Chengbu suddenly could understand how Yuan Wu felt when he faced all this. His own brother was trapped in such an incredible darkness, but he had nothing to do.

That feeling of helplessness and hopelessness.

"People who really want to die," Yuan Wu lowered his voice, "You can't stop it, really."

"I want to drink milk tea, tribute tea." Lin Chengbu said suddenly.

Yuan Wu didn't say anything, he looked up at him.

"Uncle," Lin Chengbu reached out and touched Yuan Wu's hand twice, then clenched it and shook it gently, "Uncle, would you like me to drink a cup of milk tea?"

"Don't act like a spoiled child," Yuan Wu narrowed his eyes, "a big young man."

"Yuan Wu invited me to drink tea and milk tea." Lin Chengbu said.

Yuan Wu clicked his tongue: "You are annoying, you know?"

"Gong tea," Lin Chengbu said, "I know where it is, it's not far away, I used to drink it when I passed by after get off work, and his family has the thickest milk cap of all the tribute teas I've ever had. ."

"Little girl," Yuan Wu took out his hand and stood up, "Is this meal billed?"

"No," Lin Chengbu also stood up, "Come here when you want to eat, you don't have to pay the bill, come and eat, and leave after eating."

"Let's go," Yuan Wu stretched out his arms, "Please drink milk tea."

"Also," Lin Chengbu pointed at him, "I'll curse if you call me a nickname again."

"I'll listen to you." Yuan Wu put on his coat.

"Your uncle." Lin Chengbu said.

"Yeah," Yuan Wu nodded, "It's right that my uncle is you."

Lin Chengbu didn't answer anymore, seeing that Yuan Wu's mood was okay, he didn't care about anything else.

Yuan Wu should know that he was interrupting, and he was very cooperative, which made Lin Chengbu feel very at ease. Anyway, Yuan Wu was trying to get rid of those shadows.

It's just that he was a little depressed. He knew that he shouldn't have brought Yuanwu over for dinner today. Once this world is small, it will be as **** as a novel.

"You said," Yuan Wu walked slowly to Gong Cha with him, "Can you discuss with them, add money to buy a cup with only milk cap and no tea?"

"No," Lin Chengbu laughed, "I tried it, but people don't sell it that much."

"I didn't know I liked cream so much before," Yuan Wu thought for a while, "How about I get you a cream rum someday..."

"What day?" Lin Chengbu immediately asked.

"That's...that day." Yuan Wu said.

"I don't have any hope without a specific time," Lin Chengbu sighed, "It's just that you used to make special tunes for Jiang Chengyu all day long, and you managed to tell me to do it once, but you still don't know the year of the monkey and the month of the horse."

"Wait when I give you a present," Yuan Wu yawned, "This doesn't require any tools, you can do it with a measuring cup."

"Okay," Lin Chengbu looked at him, "I remember it."

"Remember." Yuan Wu said.

There are a lot of people shopping at night, and the milk tea shop is doing well. The two of them stood there and waited in line for 20 minutes before finally getting the milk tea.

Nowhere to sit yet.

"Let's find a chair on the side of the road..." Lin Chengbu looked left and right, and there were people sitting on all the chairs as far as he could see, "Come on."

"Go back to the car for a drink," Yuan Wu said, "it's not too far."

"I'm afraid I'll run out of drink when I get back to the car." Lin Chengbu said.

When I was seated in the car, Yuan Wu still had a full cup of milk tea, and Lin Chengbu had only the bottom left.

Yuan Wu just followed what he said last time, put the straw at the junction of the cream and the tea, and just took two sips, Lin Chengbu's side was already empty.

"Hey," he shook his glass dejectedly and glanced at Yuan Wu's glass again, "Why are you drinking so slowly."

"Because I support." Yuan Wu said.

"Then you can't finish drinking, let me have some." Lin Chengbu immediately lifted the lid of the cup.

Yuan Wu glanced at him, sighed, and handed the cup over: "Okay, drink it."

"Then I'm so sorry." Lin Chengbu said.

"Come on," Yuan Wu looked at him, "the acting is too exaggerated."

Lin Chengbu smiled, took the cup in his hand, and took two sips: "Have you just eaten?"

"Yeah." Yuan Wu nodded.

"Is it delicious?" Lin Chengbu said.

"I've asked eight hundred times in one night," Yuan Wu adjusted the seat back, leaned on the back of the seat and closed his eyes, "If you ask me again, I'll say it's not delicious."

"Don't ask." Lin Chengbu said with a smile.

The car was parked on the side of the road, and outside was a busy street.

Flickering neon lights, passing traffic, people coming and going, the car windows changing content like a screen.

Lin Chengbu quite likes this feeling, the world is still complicated, but there is a small quiet space beside him.

Yuan Wu was beside him, closing his eyes and resting, the light and shadow flashing on his face was surprisingly quiet.

After drinking the milk tea, he put the two cups on top of each other and turned to look at Yuan Wu.

That's when he'll have some ideas.

A hug, a rub, a kiss.

On Yuan Wu's forehead, the hair hanging down from the forehead, the bridge of the nose, the eyes, and the lips.

He approached slowly, holding his breath as if he was about to do something big.

But it's really a big thing. This is the second time he wants to kiss in Yuanwu's "awake" state, and the first time he is tortured into a car, this time...

The distance is very close, he can clearly see Yuan Wu's slightly trembling eyelashes, Yuan Wu's eyelashes are not thick, but quite long.

"Actually," Yuan Wu suddenly opened his eyes and looked at him, "I'm not in a good mood right now."

Lin Chengbu froze suddenly, the embarrassment of being discovered and rejected on the spot came over him.

"I've been trying my best to adjust and try to control it," Yuan Wu said, "but emotions can't be controlled just by trying to control them."

"Yes." Lin Chengbu replied softly.

"When I think about some things, it hurts," Yuan Wu frowned, "When I think about Yuan Shen, the people he met on that website, the things he saw, he experienced the darkness, I just..."

"You have done what you can," Lin Chengbu put his hand on his shoulder and squeezed lightly, "don't always associate these things with you, it's not because of you How is it, do you know?"

"I know," Yuan Wu closed his eyes, took a deep breath and let it out slowly, "I know."

"Shall I take you home?" Lin Chengbu said softly, "Go home and sleep?"

"Okay." Yuan Wu nodded.

Lin Chengbu drove to Yuan Wu's house, but neither of them spoke.

After Yuan Wu came back, there was a big change from before, he was no longer as indifferent as before, his temper seemed to be lessened, and Lin Chengbu hardly saw him get angry again.

But this change made him a little confused. Yuan Wu, who had always been cold and tough, seemed to have become... much weaker.

Is it because the torn wound doesn't require him to disguise again, or it needs to face the pressures of the past again, he doesn't know.

"It's here." Lin Chengbu parked the car downstairs of Yuanwu's house.

"Oh." Yuan Wu responded, closing his eyes and didn't move.

"Do you still want to go out for a few laps?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"No need," Yuan Wu slowly opened his eyes and moved his neck, "Thank you."

"Don't keep telling me thank you, I'm not used to it." Lin Chengbu frowned.

"Are you used to scolding you?" Yuan Wu said.

"It's not," Lin Chengbu sighed, "I just think it will give birth."

Yuan Wu said nothing and looked out the window.

There was no one outside the window, and there was nothing to see, just a lamppost, but Yuan Wu still watched for a long time.

Then turned his head and patted him lightly on the shoulder: "Small steps."

"Huh?" Lin Chengbu looked at him, Yuan Wu had not called him by his name in such a serious way for a long time.

"Let me," Yuan Wu put down the car window, lit a cigarette, and leaned on the window, "I'm quite clear about myself, I always say that Yuan Shen is not normal, but just myself, Growing up like this, I can't say I'm healthy."

Lin Chengbu didn't speak.

“I’m not used to someone being nice to me, and I don’t know how to be nice to others,” Yuan Wu took a breath, “When someone is nice to me, I get scared because I don’t know how to respond , how should I get along with people who are good to me."

"I see." Lin Chengbu said.

"I told you to go to bed or something," Yuan Wu turned to look at him, "don't take it seriously."

Lin Chengbu looked at him.

"Even if I really think so, I wouldn't do it," Yuan Wu patted his face, "Understand?"

"What do you want to say?" Lin Chengbu grabbed his hand.

"Dr. Liang said that in my situation, I have to take it slow, and psychological counseling will take a long time," Yuan Wu said, "How long is a long time, no one knows, you have spent so much on me. Over the years, the silly boy has turned into a silly young man..."

"I'm not stupid." Lin Chengbu clicked his tongue.

"I don't know how to build a very close relationship with people. Do you understand what I mean?" Yuan Wu looked at him, "You're not stupid, you should know what I mean?"

"The relationship between the two of us is now closer than before," Lin Chengbu looked at him, "Can you feel it yourself? I feel it all. Are you trying to say that you did this on purpose."

Yuan Wu looked at him and said nothing.

"Okay, I understand," Lin Chengbu said, "Go back to sleep, and go to Dr. Liang's place tomorrow morning?"

"Yeah," Yuan Wu got out of the car, closed the door, and leaned on the window again after thinking about it, "I said, don't go across the street and stand guard."

"No more," Lin Chengbu said. When Yuan Wu turned around and walked into the building, he said again, "Tell me when you go to see your grandparents next week, and I will accompany you." /

Yuan Wu turned to look at him.

"Did you hear that?" Lin Chengbu glared at him.

"...I heard." Yuan Wu said.

"Just say what you said today," Lin Chengbu still glared at him, "I just listened to it, now I say it, you listen."

"Hmm." Yuan Wu thought about walking back and laying on the car window to look at him.

"Go to see if you are sick! If you are not good to others, just follow me!" Lin Chengbu said, "I have worked hard to treat you for so many years. Possibly! I didn't say anything when you were a lunatic, but now that you're feeling better, you want to run away? No way, I'll tell you!"

Yuan Wu opened his mouth to speak, but was interrupted by him.

"Shut up!" Lin Chengbu pointed at him, "Why don't you tell me, I can feel it myself! I think you treat me better now than before! Can you hear clearly, Uncle Yuan!"

Yuan Wu didn't say anything, looking at him, he seemed a little lost.

"Ask you!" Lin Chengbu raised his voice.

"...Understood." Yuan Wu said.