I Just Came to Borrow a Light Chapter 35:

Yuan Wu rode on the bench and waited for almost ten minutes. Lin Chengbu didn't come out of the building. He looked at the time, bent down and closed his eyes with his forehead against the chair.

I guess it's too cold to eat at noon? For such a long time, I have to be dehydrated...

Yuan Wu slept for a while with his head on the stool, and when he opened his eyes again, he was woken up by Dr. Liang's phone call.

"I'm downstairs," Yuan Wu answered the phone, "I'll go up."

Lin Chengbu still didn't come out, Yuan Wu rubbed his crushed forehead and sent a message to Lin Chengbu while walking towards Dr. Liang.

-I went up first, I ran out of paper and called me.

But Lin Chengbu didn't answer him.

Today, Dr. Liang talked to him mainly about going to the old man and the old lady in the morning. After he finished speaking, Dr. Liang did not comment much on what he experienced.

"You said you felt compelled to give them the keys," Dr. Liang said. "It's like a ritual, and we can understand it as putting an end to the past, right?"

"Yes." Yuan Wu nodded.

"Then the full stop has been drawn this morning." Dr. Liang refilled his glass with some water. "After that, don't blame yourself for this."

"...Well." Yuan Wu responded.

"It's really not easy to do," Dr. Liang smiled, "after all, the experience and environment at that age have a very big impact on people, but you have to be able to know when you want to think like that again. Why do you think like that, and how should you deal with it.”

"It's difficult." Yuan Wu said softly.

"Of course it's difficult. If it wasn't difficult, there wouldn't be so many psychological problems," Dr. Liang said. "It's the same sentence. You can only change if you want to change. Sometimes it's much harder to deny yourself than to affirm yourself."

"I will..." Yuan Wu frowned, "Take your time..."

"You can take your time, but you can't use it as an excuse," Dr. Liang looked at him, "Do you understand me?"

"I mean it a little bit now, don't I?" Yuan Wu smiled, "I feel a little bit."

"Fix it as soon as you realize it," said Dr. Liang with a smile, "don't be lazy."

Every time I came out of Dr. Liang, Yuan Wu felt refreshed, but after a few days, he would go back a little.

This makes him quite depressed, and some habitual thinking really makes him irritable.

The only thing that makes him feel more at ease is that this state of walking back is slowly decreasing at a very small speed.

Maybe he really should listen to Dr. Liang, stop huddled in his room, go out and go back to his normal life, work, friends...

Even if he is alone with Lin Chengbu, sometimes he feels that he has a lot less time to think about it.

Actually, Lin Chengbu is quite an interesting Jehovah. He doesn't feel irritable when he's with him. Before... I really didn't notice it.

Tsk.

However, Yahweh did not wait at the place to go out as Yuan Wu imagined. Yuan Wu went all the way to the side of his car and saw no one.

No one was in the car.

Yuan Wu walked around the car, feeling a little magical.

Bends down again and looks under the car.

I should be under the car, I shouldn't be here...

Someone honked his horn behind him, and he turned his head to see a familiar red car approaching.

But why he looked familiar, he didn't remember for a while.

The car pulled up beside him with the windows down.

"Xiao Wu!" Someone in there stretched his head and shouted.

Yuan Wu was stunned for a while, then glanced at the car, and after a few seconds, he said somewhat unexpectedly: "Chengyu?"

"Get in the car." Jiang Chengyu beckoned.

"Why... you?" Yuan Wu glanced at Lin Cheng's bicycle, "Lin..."

"Get in the car and tell you." Jiang Chengyu opened the car door.

Yuan Wu hesitated for a while, then got into the car: "Where's Lin Chengburen?"

"The hospital," Jiang Chengyu said as he turned around, "just now..."

"What?" Yuan Wu interrupted him in surprise, suddenly feeling a little cold in his hands, "Hospital? He's sick? What's going on?"

"Acute gastritis," Jiang Chengyu said, "he..."

"Acute gastritis?" Yuan Wu stared at him, "How... how did you know?"

"Can you let me finish?" Jiang Chengyu gave him a sidelong look, "How do I know, who else can he find other than me when everyone is at work."

Yuan Wu didn't speak, just looked at him.

Jiang Chengyu waited for a while, then glanced at him again: "No, are you all right?"

"Aren't you going to tell me to finish?" Yuan Wu said, "Are you finished?"

"...No," Jiang Chengyu sighed, "he called me and said that he had to drive to the hospital for acute gastritis. You and Dr. Liang were chatting and didn't call you, so let me directly Come pick you up."

"Acute gastritis?" Yuan Wu frowned, his voice a little low, "How come?"

"He said it was cold at noon," Jiang Chengyu said, "he's been having a bad stomach, what did you two eat for lunch?"

"...ice cream." Yuan Wu said.

"Lunch?" Jiang Chengyu was stunned.

"Well," Yuan Wu nodded, "Lunch."

"You two are awesome." Jiang Chengyu smiled.

"Has his stomach been bad all the time?" Yuan Wu asked.

"Occupational diseases, before I arrived in Chunzhi, why didn't I work in those small restaurants and eat irregularly," Jiang Chengyu said. "It's a long time, and the stomach is not good."

"Oh," Yuan Wu pressed his forehead, "I don't know."

"You don't know it's normal," Jiang Chengyu said, "I haven't seen him a few times before."

Yuan Wu said nothing.

Jiang Chengyu's car turned right after driving to the main road, Yuan Wu looked outside: "Where to go?"

"Hospital," Jiang Chengyu said, "I have to stay in the hospital for observation. It is very serious."

"Yeah." Yuan Wu responded.

Lin Chengbu went to the nearest hospital. He arrived in a short time. Jiang Chengyu drove his car into the parking lot, and Yuan Wu was suddenly a little scared.

"Let's go." Jiang Chengyu got out of the car.

"I...not going." Yuan Wu sat in the car and didn't move.

"What?" Jiang Chengyu was stunned, leaning on the car door and looking at him, "Aren't you going in?"

Yuan Wu didn't say anything, and after a while he responded: "Yeah."

"No," Jiang Chengyu was a little confused, "Why? You're already here, so you just stay in the car?"

Yuan Wu glanced at him, opened the door and got out of the car: "I'll go back."

"Xiao Wu," Jiang Chengyu clicked his tongue, "Aren't you, he just said something very vain, why don't you go see him in this situation?"

Yuan Wu turned his head and stared at him for a long time, then nodded: "Yeah."

Jiang Chengyu opened his mouth but didn't say anything, then raised his finger to point at him, but still didn't say anything, then turned around and walked over to the hospital.

"Nurse," Lin Chengbu lay on the bed in the observation room, looking at the hanging bottle, "Can't this be adjusted faster?"

"No," the nurse glanced at him, "don't adjust the speed yourself! What's the use of taking the medicine so fast and not absorbing it."

"...I don't feel like I have anything to do," Lin Chengbu sighed, "Is it okay not to fight?"

"Is the chairman waiting for you to read the documents?" The nurse frowned, "I don't care about my own body."

Lin Chengbu smiled and was about to speak when the door of the observation room was pushed open and Jiang Chengyu walked in.

"You're here?" As soon as he saw Jiang Chengyu, he immediately sat up and looked behind Jiang Chengyu, "Where is Yuan Wu? Did you pick him up?"

"Yes," Jiang Chengyu looked at his face, "Is it so haggard in an instant?"

"Where's the person?" Lin Chengbu found that there was no one behind Jiang Chengyu, "Did you send him back?"

"...Ah," Jiang Chengyu looked up at the hanging bottle, "yes, he went back."

Lin Chengbu was stunned for a while, feeling a little inexplicable, and lay back on the pillow: "Oh."

After the nurse went out, Jiang Chengyu took a stool and sat beside the bed: "Are you a little disappointed?"

"What do you think?" Lin Cheng turned his head.

"In fact, he was at the door of the hospital just now," Jiang Chengyu said. "Suddenly he couldn't come in. I think there was something wrong."

Lin Chengbu turned his head back: "What did he say?"

"I basically didn't speak, so I couldn't come in. I want to go home," Jiang Chengyu said. "Is there any psychological problem that hasn't been resolved? I said at first that he didn't object to coming to the hospital."

"I don't know," Lin Chengbu frowned, "his dad... died of illness. When he was hospitalized, it seemed that no one in his family let him go to the hospital. Is it because of this?"

"Maybe," Jiang Chengyu sighed, "I don't know when this guy will be back to normal."

"Are you waiting for him to go back and make money for you?" Lin Chengbu smiled.

"That's what I said," Jiang Chengyu smiled, "Although he is my rival in love, I have been with his friend longer than my rival. If it weren't for you, maybe I would still be chasing him..."

"Why are you like this?" Lin Chengbu tutted, "I was originally quite a literate person, but no matter how much I talk and do things, I can't show it."

"I think about it and forget it," Jiang Chengyu said, "Yuan Wu's character is good for being friends, but not for falling in love, at least I can't stand it."

Lin Chengbu felt tired after chatting with Jiang Chengyu for a while. Although he told the nurse that he was all right, in fact, the sudden onset of acute gastritis made him feel a little collapsed.

"Go back," Lin Chengbu said. Jiang Chengyu usually sleeps during the day, and only gets up around dinner time to deal with the bar. Now it's almost time for him to get busy. "I'll take a nap."

"Are you hungry?" Jiang Chengyu asked, "Can you eat now?"

"I'm not hungry, nor can I eat," Lin Chengbu said, "I haven't been so weak for a long time...I just want to sleep."

"Okay then," Jiang Chengyu looked at the time, "call me if you have something to do. If I don't hear you, I'll call the office and ask them to call me."

"Yes," Lin Chengbu nodded, "Thank you."

"Do I have to say you're welcome?" Jiang Chengyu stood up.

"Don't be so polite." Lin Chengbu smiled.

Yuan Wu was sitting on the stone bench outside the hospital door. Now it's cold, and the stone bench is no longer warm to the buttocks. After sitting for more than an hour, it is still cold.

He felt that he would have acute enteritis or something if he sat down again. He just stood up and wanted to warm his butt, when he looked up and saw Jiang Chengyu walking out of the hospital gate.

He sat back quickly, looking down at his shoes.

Jiang Chengyu walked very fast, and he didn't look around. He walked past the stone bench and didn't find him sitting here.

Yuan Wu didn't want Jiang Chengyu to see that he was still here.

He's been wandering around the hospital since he got out of the car, he's scared.

Fear of the hospital.

I don't know why there is such a fear, or some kind of resistance. He has too many bad memories of the hospital and the patients.

Won Shin, the father who couldn't see him in his last days, had to go to the hospital constantly.

More about Yuan Shen.

Yes, Won Shin who goes to the hospital every week, Won Shin who needs to take medicine uninterruptedly, Won Shin who is lying on the ground twitching in pain, and Won Shin who always has a faint hospital atmosphere.

He's afraid of that.

Won Shin is like this because of you. Your father is sick, who knows if it will be because of you?

Grandma's words are always so precise and lethal.

He hasn't been in a hospital in all these years, he's working out in the gym, running, hoping he can stay away from it.

Although now he keeps telling himself that it has nothing to do with him.

But still can't control it.

If he didn't want to eat an ice cream dinner at noon, why would Lin Chengbu be lying in the hospital now?

It's because of you.

He stood up a little irritably, walked back and forth along the road in front of the hospital, sat back on the stone bench, and crossed his legs.

Someone looks at him, but he doesn't care and closes his eyes.

Dr. Liang taught him many ways to calm himself down, deep breathing, meditation, self-hypnosis...there is always one that suits you.

Half an hour later, Yuan Wu opened his eyes and slowly let out a breath.

An uncle was looking at him next to him. Before he closed his eyes, the uncle was there. Now he opened his eyes and asked, "Qigong? Meditate?"

"Meditation." Yuan Wu gave him an inscrutable smile, got up and walked towards the hospital gate.

Walk as fast as you can, and walk into the hospital in a guru-like manner before the courage has worn off.

For someone who has barely been in a hospital in memory, the hospital is a dizzying place.

Standing in the hall for five minutes, Yuan Wu still hadn't figured out where he was going to find Lin Chengbu.

But he didn't really want to call Lin Chengbu. First, he felt that it might affect his rest. Second, once he called, he would have no chance to regret leaving the hospital.

"Sir," a leading doctor finally saw him, looked him up and down, and then came over and asked, "Is there anything you need help with?"

"I'm... looking for someone," Yuan Wu guessed that his image of not getting a haircut for a long time and his now blank expression, in the eyes of the leading doctor, are a bit like a medical trouble finding fault, or he is not mentally healthy and does not need to be responsible for that. Yes, so he squeezed out another smile, "My friend...has been to the hospital with acute gastritis..."

"Is it an emergency?" the doctor asked.

"I don't know, it should be," Yuan Wu said. "It was said to be hospitalized for observation."

"The observation room is over there," the doctor said with a smile, "I'll take you there."

When Yuan Wu pushed open the door of the observation room, Lin Chengbu was sitting on the hospital bed, and a nurse was dialing the needle for him: "Take a break before moving around."

"Well, I don't think I..." Lin Chengbu pressed the cotton swab in his hand and glanced at the door as he spoke. When he saw him, he was stunned.

"Finished... needles?" Yuan Wu suddenly felt a little embarrassed and asked at the door.

"Ah," Lin Chengbu responded, and then quickly lay back on the pillow, "hit... it's over..."

"Didn't you just say that you're all right?" The nurse smiled when she saw him.

"I... didn't... say..." Lin Chengbu closed his eyes.

The nurse packed up her things with a smile: "It's true that you don't have a good time. You will have to have injections for the next two days, and you will need to observe. If there is any problem, the gastroscope can't be avoided."

"I... didn't... hide... The doctor said that I am innocent and don't need a gastroscope." Lin Chengbu said.

The nurse explained two more sentences and then went out. Lin Chengbu opened his eyes and looked at Yuan Wu: "Why are you here? Jiang Chengyu said you are going home."

"Well," Yuan Wu walked over to his bed, bent over and looked at his face, "I don't need to pretend to be weak anymore."

"Ah." Lin Chengbu smiled a little embarrassedly.

Yuan Wu could see that he smiled reluctantly, his face was bloodless, his lips were still a little blue, and he was indeed still very weak.

"Why are you here!" Lin Chengbu asked again, although weak, he couldn't suppress his surprise.

"I've been... at the door." Yuan Wu sat on the small stool beside the bed.

"Then why don't you come in?" Lin Chengbu looked at him in surprise, "Do you want to... do psychological construction?"

Yuan Wu smiled and said nothing.

"Jiang Chengyu just left for a while." Lin Chengbu said.

"I only came in when I saw him go out," Yuan Wu said. "How are you feeling now?"

"It's...well...well..." Lin Chengbu dragged his voice, thought for a while and then clicked his tongue, "You're just looking at your rival and me being alone like this."

"My rival in love?" Yuan Wu looked at him, "When did Jiang Chengyu become my rival in love?"

"I tell you, don't believe it," Lin Chengbu grinned at him, "Sooner or later you two will be rivals in love, really."

Yuan Wu stared at him for a while: "Can you eat now?"

"I can't," Lin Chengbu said. After thinking about it, he quickly changed his tone, "Yes."

"Can it or not?" Yuan Wu said.

"After the doctor says I don't vomit, eat some liquid food," Lin Chengbu said, "I want to eat millet porridge and egg custard..."

Yuan Wu looked at him without speaking, then turned around and walked out the door after a while: "Wait a moment."

"Are you going to buy it for me?" Lin Chengbu chased after him and couldn't help laughing. After a while, he whispered, "It would be nice to make something for me..."

A few minutes later, Yuan Wu came back with empty hands.

"Don't know where to buy it?" Lin Chengbu asked, "Just..."

"The doctor said you don't want to eat tonight." Yuan Wu said.

"Wh... I rely on it," Lin Chengbu was stunned and sat up, "Did you go to the doctor?"

"Well, I said how to eat the acute gastritis just now, people said to fast tonight," Yuan Wu narrowed his eyes, "want to fool me?"

"...Then what am I," Lin Chengbu was a little unwilling, "then I'll be hospitalized tonight, and I have to eat rice porridge and egg custard in the morning tomorrow."

"The doctor said that you should go home for observation, and just come in for injections on time," Yuan Wu hooked his lips, "no need to be hospitalized."

Lin Chengbu stared at him for a long time without saying a word.

"Huh?" Yuan Wu looked at him.

"I don't care!" Lin Chengbu threw back on the pillow, "You make me millet porridge and egg custard, I won't be better if you don't make it! You can do it yourself!"