I Really Didn’t Want to Be the Savior: 【Remarks in May 2020】

I'm really ashamed that this month's reward speech has been delayed until today.

What do you say.

This autumn is indeed an eventful autumn.

People are soft-spoken, but a duckweed is swaying in the sea.

Looking back at my journey, it has never been smooth sailing, but rather bad luck.

I am, indeed, a very simple person.

Writing a book has three goals.

One, to support the family.

Two, be loyal to your hobbies.

Third, the name remains in the history.

I have never dared to call myself a genius.

After all, there are not many people who have written a book for fifteen years and have achieved nothing.

In this industry, those who write about my year have either already held a great covenant, or have already recognized themselves and changed their careers.

The feeling of not being popular for fifteen years is difficult to describe in words.

Life is only a few decades, and I don't know how many fifteen years can be wasted here.

In the dead of night every night, I always think, when I get old, if I can't press the keyboard again, if I can't write a beautiful story, will I regret the choice I made.

I have always told people that I am very peaceful, and I do not envy and envy those great gods.

But I seldom tell others that what I call peace is not born like this, but kneeling in the quagmire again and again unable to struggle, and finally slowly learned to face reality.

My reality is simple.

I'm too weak, too rotten, too rubbish.

I am using the talent I don't have to force myself into an industry that doesn't match my talent.

After all, readers have sharp eyes. If I can really write a good book, why wait fifteen years?

I think I'm smart, but I'm ridiculously stupid.

A truly smart person should have gone to a more suitable path long ago.

I don't know if I'm afraid of change or if I'm not reconciled.

The ups and downs of these days, the author sees it, and the reader also sees it.

In fact, I understand the demands and positions of many people, as well as the rights that everyone wants to fight for.

I thought about saying something.

But I woke up suddenly, I didn't deserve it.

Others worry that they won't get more generous rewards after the book is popular.

If it was fifteen years ago, I would have had the exact same worry and the exact same indignation, when I was young and bloody.

But when I look back, in the fifteen years behind me, I haven't even been able to write a book of value that is coveted by others.

Not one year, not two years, but fifteen years.

There are very few fifteen years in a person's life.

Fifteen years later, I still haven't been able to write a book worth fighting for.

So I thought, what am I fighting for?

A man who hasn't been able to write a red book for fifteen years, what does he deserve?

It's hard enough to survive.

The current trend of "Savior" is also the best I've been in this industry.

I tell myself that no matter how violent the wind and waves are outside, it is not my life after all.

What I should care about, and what I should always pay attention to, is that I must be worthy of my book and the readers who have always supported me.

So I'm trying very hard to keep my head empty.

I don't think about anything, just a very simple thought.

Write your own book.

I smashed my writing. How will the outside environment develop in the future, whether it gets better or worse, what can I expect?

Who will support my family?

Help me pay my debts?

Am I worthy of myself and the readers of this book until now?

Also, I don't know what everyone thinks of the quality of the recent chapters in Salvator Mundi.

From my point of view, I am not satisfied, I have never been satisfied with myself.

This book will inevitably become more and more difficult to write later, and the difficulty of creation is increasing exponentially.

It must be logical, the scene is constantly enlarged, the details must be started, the characters must be vivid, and the plot must be interesting and fascinating. The so-called truths I talk about must be interesting and interesting to the readers. Can be thoughtful.

The core of this book's creation is actually very maddening.

This is the biggest difficulty I'm facing right now.

I have to, and can only focus on this matter with all my strength.

Otherwise, I'm sorry to anyone.

When I reach middle age, I have smoothed out the edges and corners, but I still remember the original intention of writing stories.

I'm still arrogant.

Still want to be a writer who can write memorable works, rather than always being said to be codewords.

A hundred years later, there are still people who read my book and are excited, moved to tears, and laughed because of my book.

I'm still greedy.

I also want to be rich, as rich as JK Rowling.

At the same time, I have always believed that a writer's wealth can be equal to his talent.

I can't guarantee that this book will do it.

Thank you to all readers who subscribed, tipped, and voted for me during April 2020.

The following is the list of rewards for April, with the amount in parentheses.

Thank you everyone, you are so strong!

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