I Really Didn’t Want to Be the Savior Chapter 298: Break the inferiority complex, no longer lonely

Seeing Chen Feng's sudden embarrassment, Zhong Lei was a little nervous.

She wondered if she was wrong, maybe she should have lied and said it was all for you?

But she's not good at lying, and she finds that uncomfortable.

Zhong Lei is a very simple person with a straight personality.

She originally only liked music and couldn't hold anything else in her eyes.

She likes music because she has big dreams.

The roots of her dreams are childish and real.

"Leave something to this world."

Just ten words.

Some people often talk about it, and then live it as a joke in casual talk.

Some people do it all their lives, turning jokes into myths.

Zhong Lei is the second type of person, who does not talk about it, but insists on willful insistence.

There are three reasons why Chen Feng can attract Zhong Lei.

First, Chen Feng's "music" completely hit her.

This is what Chen Feng thought, but he didn't know it wasn't the decisive factor.

To attract Zhong Lei, talent alone is not enough.

Even if Chen Feng copied her own songs and resonated with her, it was not enough.

Wen have no first place, and Wu has no second place.

Being able to rank among the top 100 millenniums in the field of art that does not obey anyone is beyond ordinary people's imagination, even unreasonable, but she did it.

In the first time line, she debuted as a pop singer, with a humble identity to withstand the pressure of Zhou A, relying on her own ability to forcibly kill a **** path, and rise against the current like a reckless hero.

After she became famous, she still had to face such and such difficulties alone without any power, but she was fearless, and finally achieved such achievements and became an idol across the times.

Her stubbornness may be stronger than Chen Feng imagined.

She has a strange and absolute confidence in her bones, and she will not give in to anyone, including Chen Feng.

Even though she admired Chen Feng's creative ability beyond measure, and even wanted to apprentice, she still wanted to catch up or even surpass him.

She knows how to respect her teacher, but she will not follow blindly, which is why she dropped out of school.

She will not be addicted to the songs Chen Feng wrote to her, and she is still chasing her own inspiration tirelessly.

The second reason is that Chen Feng saved her life.

The third point is the most important.

Zhong Lei smelled Chen Feng's sense of responsibility. It was a kind of like-minded aura, and it was much deeper than hers.

Zhong Lei once asked Chen Feng, "Why are you so busy and tired all the time, don't you want to rest?"

At that time, she already had guesses in her heart, and she just wanted to get a conclusive answer from Chen Feng's mouth.

Now, Chen Feng has been silent, Zhong Lei waited for a long time, tilted her head and stared at him with beautiful eyes.

"Which... If you don't like what I say, I can change my words. For example... it's all for you..."

Chen Feng covered his face, "Don't do it."

Terrible.

He thought about it again, no way, he had to take a strong medicine.

Chen Feng tentatively said: "Then if I change my mind and ask you to stop creating now. As long as you promise me, we will get married right away, how about that?"

Zhong Lei was taken aback, "What nonsense are you talking about?"

"No, I'm serious, this song is too difficult, I don't want you to waste your youth in vain."

Zhong Lei was puzzled again, "I can write differently when I'm married? There's no conflict between the two."

Chen Feng shook his head, "It's not the same, this song is not a love song. It's sweet and greasy all day long after getting married. How can you write something so grand."

"You look down on me?"

"No!"

"Well, I can pretend to promise you, then get married, write quietly, and publish it when we die. Isn't this still the best of both worlds?"

Chen Feng was dumbfounded again.

Sure enough, I underestimated her. This is the real her. She is not so honest. Eight cows can't pull back what she has determined.

"This..."

He pondered quietly, as if this might be a perfect solution.

At this moment, Zhong Lei next to him suddenly let go of his hand, and also turned to hold the railing by the lake with both hands, and said quietly: "Actually you don't like me, right? You used to get married as a condition, just Want to use this to force me to finish this song, right?"

Chen Feng's heart thumped, and he slammed, "I...I..."

Zhong Lei's tone sounded a little depressing, "You really look down on me."

Chen Feng turned his face away, he suddenly couldn't keep up with these words.

Zhong Lei added: "I don't need conditions for what I want to do. I'm just a little sad. You say I won't lie, and so do you. In fact, I knew from the beginning that you didn't like me. Conditional feelings are not real feelings.”

"I'm sorry."

He said it.

Sure enough, lying is a hard thing to do.

"I knew from the beginning, so you don't have to say sorry. I wasn't a likable character before, so it's fine if you didn't hate me. No, you hated me in the first place."

Chen Feng shook his head, "No."

"You're lying again."

Chen Feng: "Well, it's a little bit, but it's not serious."

Zhong Lei: "What happened later?"

"It's not annoying anymore."

Zhong Lei: "But after you don't hate me, you feel ashamed of me, which makes you uncomfortable?"

Chen Feng felt that he was completely seen through, "Yes... yes. Why do you understand so much? Have you also studied psychology?"

Zhong Lei suddenly smiled again and shook her head sweetly, "I haven't studied psychology, but I have learned from you. I don't know what you've been through, but I understand your mood changes. I'm better than this Anyone in the world knows you better. Probably better than yourself."

Chen Feng: "This..."

Zhong Lei said again: "Are you worried, will I hate you after I find out that you are using me?"

Chen Feng nodded, "Yes."

He really wanted to hunt a ghost, or find a rope to hang himself.

It's terrifying.

So she knows everything?

I lied to her that I've been playing with fire?

There really isn't a single person who can make a name for himself in history.

I accidentally got lost in the innocence she used to disguise her feelings, and unknowingly, she kept exposing herself.

Totally seen through!

What is she going to do today, want to strip me naked?

Since she has known for a long time, in the previous time lines, we are all married, this...

Chen Feng got the answer right away.

Zhong Lei: "Actually your worries are unnecessary. I like you, it doesn't matter if you like me or not."

Chen Feng: "Huh?"

"Didn't I just say that conditional feelings are not true feelings. Feelings are not exchanges. Whether you like me or not doesn't affect me."

Chen Feng waved his hands again and again, "Oh no, aren't you a celibate?"

Zhong Lei nodded, "Yes, because I thought that I would never be able to like others in my life, and at the same time I wouldn't end up with someone I didn't like, so I planned to be single for the rest of my life."

Chen Feng wanted to give her a thumbs up.

Zhong Lei spread her hands again, "Besides, you just don't like me that much, there's always a little... right? I'm good-looking, sing well, and so affectionate, and now I'm so gentle to you , the heart of stone has to melt, right?"

Chen Feng blushed, "Yes... a little bit."

"Just can't handle guilt, right?"

Zhong Lei nodded: "So, let's be completely honest. That way you won't feel any guilt. Then you only need a little love to get everything I have. I will be very happy in my life, even if I'm happy as it goes on like this, I just wish you could be a little bit more relaxed."

"Of course, no matter what happens next to us. I'll do whatever I can, write what you want and what I want. The point I was when I said you looked down on me was irritating. here."

This is her, she can understand everything, yet make her life so simple.

Seeing that Chen Feng was still thinking about it, Zhong Lei put a hand on his shoulder again and shook it, "Also, you are a really troubled person. It's just you, do you understand? It's more comfortable now, isn't it?"

Chen Feng nodded, "It's much better."

"Confess?"

"Frankly. But I have to figure out where to start."

"Okay, I'll wait for you to organize the language."

At this moment, Ryan came over to say hello: "Chen Feng, we have to go back to rest first. When are you leaving?"

Chen Feng turned around and was about to speak, but Zhong Lei glared at Ryan fiercely, "We still have something to say! You guys are busy with yours!"

Ryan shrank his neck and hurried away, weird.

Before I knew it, it was already ten o'clock, and there was something going on tomorrow. The crowd dispersed one after another, and even the waiters left after cleaning up the scene.

Fatty Ou settled down in Caiweilu's guest room, and Uncle Long took care of him.

After all, Song Siyu is a lady and has to go home.

In the end, there were only a few people left in Caiwei's house, Lu Wei, Zheng Rou, Fatty, and Uncle Long.

After everyone left, Chen Feng and Zhong Lei returned to the small table in the middle of the courtyard and sat down.

There are also new snacks, nuts and drinks on the table, as well as a cup of hot strong tea and juice.

Chen Feng held the teacup and activated the brains of the galactic human beings. After thinking for nearly half an hour, he slowly lowered his voice and opened his mouth.

"My dream is real, not a dream."

Zhong Lei was amazed in her heart, but her face remained calm, she only said: "You continue to talk, I will listen, don't worry about me. I will listen quietly."

Chen Feng nodded, "I saw the future and experienced it... many times."

Next, he was talking and Zhong Lei was listening.

She tries to keep quiet and is a perfect listener.

Zhong Lei almost covered her mouth and exclaimed when she heard the dangerous place countless times, worried for him.

But again and again I heard that he really died in battle, and the worry became a reality, and the hanging heart fell to the ground again and again in a very strange posture.

She tried her best not to disturb Chen Feng's story, but this long story was really annoying.

He spoke for four full hours, and the time reached 3:30 in the morning.

"That's about it. That's what I've always had in my heart. I thought it was a dream at first, but I brought back your songs, and other people's songs, as well as "Mad Men Conjectures" 》 and Xingfeng Research Institute are working on these things. The future is always changing, I want to win once.”

Chen Feng crossed his hands and looked at her calmly.

Zhong Lei pondered for a long time, trying to digest everything Chen Feng said.

After a long time, she said, "Let's start from the very beginning when you copied my songs."

Chen Feng said: "Well, I want to say sorry to you again, all the songs I wrote for you were originally yours. I also sold your songs to many people, and in your heart I am your best friend. It's an illusion. It's because the song is yours and you're easily touched."

Zhong Lei nodded, "Do you think that you are a shameless thief who deceives the world, not as good as I hoped, and you have wasted my life. Right?"

Chen Feng: "Yes, now you know it all. It doesn't matter whether you hate me, hate me, or even if you don't believe it."

Zhong Lei's expression was complicated, and she asked again, "It really doesn't matter?"

Chen Feng crossed his hands, "Actually there is still a little bit, but I can't help it." First post https://https://

"You're really dishonest."

Chen Feng: "I thought about it anyway, maybe your feelings for me are hallucinations. I didn't dare to say it before, but now I'm sure you can complete Morrowind, I dare to say it."

"I'll think about it first." Zhong Lei pondered for a long time and her expression became solemn.

After a long time, she let out a long sigh, "This situation is too brain-burning!"

Chen Feng shrugged, "Yeah. But you don't have to worry about other things. You only care about our business. Even if you scold me or beat me, it's fine. If it makes you happy, that's fine."

"After all, compared to you, I was ordinary and humble in the past, and I didn't deserve you at all. I used to deceive myself to be an actor for the rest of my life, and to bear your favor with peace of mind, but I found this matter Confused me, made me interfere with my judgment, and I couldn't even figure out what was the right thing to do."

Zhong Lei rubbed her temples and shook her head, "Wait, don't talk, I'll slow down, my mind is a little confused, so I have to scratch it again."

Chen Feng is anxiously awaiting trial.

No matter how nicely she told the love story before, Chen Feng thinks that once she finds out that everything is an illusion, her heart will inevitably change again.

After a long time, Zhong Lei: "Tell me, why did you copy my songs in the first place? To make money?"

"There is a little bit of this purpose. Actually, I was very embarrassed at first, but you treated me so badly at the time, I couldn't be angry."

Zhong Lei: "So you stole my work?"

"Hmm."

Zhong Lei suddenly laughed, "It's not surprising, this is your temperament. When you taught me to fool Lin Youde, I knew you were a black-bellied person."

Chen Feng nodded awkwardly, "Yes."

"What happened later? We've all become friends, and you still copy my songs? Are you professional?"

Chen Feng: "Cough, I caught you because you are the most powerful. Let you sing your song, it will definitely become popular, and it is the safest. I need to accumulate wealth as soon as possible, so I choose the safest and easiest way. ."

"Then our business has started. You and Fatty Ou are also on the line, and you still copy me? You even ride a motorcycle to the scene of the car accident to copy, and you even stand by the fire and play guitar for me. Why?"

Chen Feng was even more embarrassed, "Because I found that you are too powerful, no matter how I copy it, it doesn't seem to have any negative impact on you, and the songs you write are getting better and better. I hope to squeeze your potential, Let you leave more."

Zhong Lei: "For example?"

"The fire, the self-burning, all the songs in the music box, including "Morrowind" of course, are works that you have never composed before. "Sleepwalking Virgo" is also, I have heard it before, but you didn't give it to My chance to copy."

"Co-authoring, I am a spontaneous leek. The more you cut the leek, the denser it becomes, right?"

"Actually, I think of you as a sheep with hair restorer."

"I'll kill you."

Zhong Lei hammered him a few times.

Chen Feng was confused, "Aren't you angry?"

"Of course."

"But you..."

Zhong Lei suddenly changed the topic: "You didn't plan to save the world at first?"

"Well, because I don't think I can."

"But then you went anyway."

"I originally just wanted to have a good try as a soldier, to find out how I died and whether I could live a few more days. Who knows if this is gone, there is no way to go back."

"This is your character. Like me, you don't dare to open your heart easily. Once you let others in, you can't break free."

Zhong Lei took a sip of juice and said, "You just said that you have gone to war every time since the fourth time, right?"

"Hmm."

"Every time?"

"Hmm."

"Where are the friends in the barracks? Where are the others?"

"All dead, always dying."

"Alas, in your world, mankind has perished seven times."

"Yes, I'm trying to keep the eighth time from happening."

Zhong Lei suddenly asked softly, "Are you sad?"

"It's okay."

"It's a lie again."

"Huh?"

"You still want to lie to me? Do you think I'm blind? Can't you see that you are unhappy all day long, with a galaxy hidden in your heart?"

"Well, it's still sad."

"Can you tell me a specific story about you and your comrades?"

"Okay."

She knew about Tang Tianxin's existence. At first, she was a little tasteful, and she secretly scolded others for being rude, but then she learned that the human mind of that era was in a state of being controlled, and they did everything they did. Reasonable.

Later, she heard that Chen Feng and Tang Tianxin's daughter could not be born again and again.

Chen Feng spoke in a calm tone, as if he was a bystander, but Zhong Lei could sense his mood ups and downs from his slightly trembling tone, but tears could not stop flowing.

Chen Feng spoke for another two hours. Before he knew it, the whole night had passed, and the sky outside turned white.

It's almost dawn.

After listening to this, Zhong Lei turned her head to look at the sky in the distance, and whispered, "I can't imagine how you are alone under the blow of sacrifice after sacrifice, watching the death of the person you care about, time and time again. I came here. I tried hard to substitute it, but I could only vaguely grasp a little of that feeling.”

Zhong Lei raised her chin slightly, and the seemingly endless tears in her eyes began to flow again.

Chen Feng held her hand, "You don't need to substitute, you just know."

"If you don't replace it, how can I forgive you that you really have another person in your heart and even have a child soon."

Chen Feng: "..."

After a long time, Zhong Lei kept rubbing her eyes, "The worldly concept and reason want me to hate her, but I can't."

Chen Feng was silent for a moment, "I'm sorry for making you fall into such a dilemma."

"But I thank you for your frank statement to me, and it also dispelled the doubts I once had." After speaking, she stood up abruptly and threw herself into Chen Feng's arms, "You are too difficult. You should have been earlier. Tell me!"

She finally got out of control.

Chen Feng patted her back for a long time, and she finally slowed down.

He asked again: "It's so incredible, why do you believe it so easily? Isn't this the most illusory lie of the most scumbag man ever?"

Zhong Lei broke free and slapped him while crying and laughing.

"Fuck you, if you were a scumbag, would you reject Lu Wei? And long before you started talking, I made up my mind that no matter what you said, I would believe it."

Chen Feng looked at her cheerfully, "Thank you."

Zhong Lei rubbed her eyes and patted Chen Feng on the shoulder, "Thank you for what I did, it was you who worked hard."

"It's okay, there's nothing you can do anyway, you can only stick to it."

Listening to his reluctant tone, Zhong Lei recalled that he had faced herself with the guilty conscience of being a thief for the past six months, forced a smile, and even had to face her burning emotions. New 81 Chinese website updates the fastest mobile terminal: https:/

In fact, he is very pitiful.

He's not even afraid of death, but he can't stand the guilt of lying to himself.

What a fool, you obviously love me too much.

Zhong Lei suddenly leaned forward and grabbed Chen Feng's hand again, "I don't know what kind of strangers the two of us were in the timeline of your first and second experiences. The future that I have experienced, for me, does not exist."

"I don't care about the future that doesn't happen, I only care about the present. I only know that without you, I wouldn't be able to become what I am today in just half a year. It's a journey of a lifetime. Instead, I want to thank you."

Chen Feng looked into her eyes, "Don't do this."

"I want to ask you one more question."

"What?"

"Did I like you before?"

"Didn't you tell me, we didn't know each other well before."

"Then do you think I like you now because of your talent or something else?" Zhong Lei took the word talent very seriously.

"No."

Zhong Lei: "Everyone is a complete person, the so-called talent is only a part, whether your talent is real or not, it is still only a part of you. If I really like you only because of your creative ability, then I'm no different from those women who want to ask you to sing and throw themselves in their arms."

Chen Feng was stunned, are the only children so good at self-defense?

I...I am so good?

"Guess when I first realized I might like you."

"When I was riding a motorcycle to save you?"

"That's right. It doesn't matter if you copy or not, right?"

"Yes."

"The incredible athletic ability you showed at the time was acquired in the future military camp?"

"Yes."

"The time you rescued Ryan was even scarier than the time you rescued me. Did you train hard to learn these skills?"

"It was hard at first."

"And then?"

"Afterwards, I was too strong. The people who trained me and the people who trained with me worked hard, but I didn't work hard."

"Look, you weren't that good at first, and you even wanted to hide and be an ostrich. But then you changed. You were no longer ordinary. I was attracted to you like that. But no matter when it was you , it's all you. Maybe this is your essence, but in the previous timeline, you didn't have the chance to show it."

Chen Feng thought for a while, "You are right."

"Then you certainly deserve me."

Chen Feng: "Uh..."

"I was hit a bit hard today. Just to be on the safe side, you will continue to move your future songs to me. I also want to see where my limits are. Then, I have to put some pressure on myself. You're still waiting for me, and when I write this song, we'll get married, how about that?"

Chen Feng thought for a few seconds, "Okay."

Today he confessed to Zhong Lei, but nothing has changed, except that he feels much more relaxed.

Zhong Lei is indeed a strange woman, and she cannot be judged by common sense.

He smiled gleefully, looking silly.

Seeing Chen Feng's completely relaxed look, Zhong Lei also smiled.

If it is as you said, I was too indifferent in the past, and finally passed by you.

That's my problem, not yours.

Life is like that.

Many women spend their whole lives waiting for their real son, but they can't.

When I am over thirty, I have to go on a blind date while complaining, get married and have children in a numb way, or simply die alone and start complaining about the unfair fate again.

Actually, I met someone at some point, but I just missed it.

I once missed you, just like Fatty and Song Siyu once missed each other.

Not this time.

Chen Feng, you are always changing.

Your change made me curious about you, and I always wanted to try to figure out the meaning behind every word you said. The more I figured it out, the more I couldn't extricate myself.

Now I like you more.

She looked at Chen Feng blankly again, watching his figure grow longer under the light of the rising sun.

She took a deep breath, thinking to herself.

You have to go against the light to dispel the darkness, which is destined to bear too much suffering for one person.

Your tone of storytelling is flat, but you must have stumbled in loneliness and cried out in despair.

You also worry that no one in the world can understand you, so you always hide it with a fake smile.

But from now on, I choose to believe in you, and you must believe in me.

I won't let you stand alone at the end of civilization again.

I'll try to understand your motivation for everything.

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How could such a great mission be without me?

I have no regrets and no regrets, and I will never back down.

Together we will create more miracles in this era.

Trust us, and you have to believe in your future self.

Just when Zhong Lei was in a daze, Chen Feng stood up, stretched, and said, "Okay, I haven't slept all night, go and rest."

"Hmm."

The two of them wanted to go home directly, but Lu Wei also ran out of the back room with dark circles under her eyes, so she just pulled them back and settled down in the guest room.

Zhong Lei slept until the afternoon. When she woke up, Chen Feng, Ryan, Ou Junlang, Meng Xiaozhou, and Lu Wei were sitting around in the yard.

None of the servants and waiters in Caiwei's house were present, and they should have all been called home to avoid them.

"Wake up? You wash your face first, eat something, I have something to announce."

Chen Feng said to her.

Zhong Lei nodded.

Twenty minutes later, when everyone finally arrived, Chen Feng stood up.

He held a fist-sized rock in his palm.

"I'm going to announce some things below. I'll give you the bottom line first. No matter how unbelievable what I say, you don't have any doubts. In order to prevent you from thinking I'm bragging, I'll give you a play first. ."

After he finished speaking, he picked up the stone and slammed his fingers hard.

The stone cracked open with a bang, then exploded again, and the dust flew into the sky.