Rebirth of the National Male God Chapter 509: The world is difficult, and there is still light.

In fact, depression is not just about people looking dull, sensitive and suspicious, and having a temper tantrum...how can it be that simple?

Once falling into depression, people will fall into a state different from ordinary people because of the changes in hormone secretion levels in the brain environment, which will lead to organic lesions of the brain for a long time.

Many people take it for granted that people with depression are those who are depressed and unhappy all day long.

In fact, as usual, even people who look "sunny" can suffer from depression.

Few people in depression suffer from "smile depression".

"Smile depression" is a symptom of a small number of patients with depression. This type of patient has a veil of smile on the surface of depressed mood.

"None" is typical of such a "smile depression" teenager.

He was a child who was picked up, and had no physical defects, but was a child who was abandoned.

So he was picked up by a woman.

Later, she became his mother.

Women didn’t take names for nothing, men don’t allow them.

"A captive slave does not need a name."

In a fragmented family, the drunk gambling man's domestic violence "none" always lay scarred in a woman's arms.

The woman always hugged him, gently touched his head, and told him--

"Child, sorry, you don't have a name."

"Children, you need to be strong."

"Child, you need to be optimistic."

"Children, be brave."

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So “None” knows better than other children to be strong, he will stress the inner pain, and externally force himself to be more “sunshine”.

And this is a serious split between internal and external manifestations.

The day when "No" met the girl for the first time, the sun was very nice and the breeze was not dry.

That's a different girl. "None" can see that she smiles the same as him.

When the girl left, "Wu" looked at the girl's back and smiled slightly, looking very friendly. He whispered:

"Please, you must be a weirdo!"

"Please, you must be a weirdo!"

The same two sentences are scattered in the wind with the wind, and there is no more sound.

It's night.

In the dimly lit room, all the painful past is rushing out of the heart of "Wu", and all the pain that has been experienced jumps out of the corner.

Turning in the mind of "Wu", looking back at my worthless past, looking at the extremely painful present, and thinking about the unknown future, as if I can't see any light, my life is trapped. , The body collapsed, there is no happiness.

As written by Zhang Ailing, Level-1 Level-1 walks into a place where there is no light.

There is such a scene in the script--

One day, "None" met the girl again. The girl looked up at the sky, her tone full of longing for the future: "So what do you want to do now?"

Without a smile, he honestly replied: "I just want to die."

"Don't tease me." The girl didn't take it seriously, after all, the expression on "Wu"'s face didn't look like someone who wanted to die.

But "None" is true. He is alive now because he thinks his mother still needs him. She was beaten many times for him. If he doesn't treat himself well, I'm so sorry for his mother.

But he really felt too tired to be alive, so boring.

He really wants to die. My wish is to die.

So for "smiling depression patients", behind the smile you see is the despair that you have no cure.

"Please, you must be a weirdo!"

This is "Nothing" when speaking to the girl.

The girl still thought "None" was a joke, and patted "None" on the shoulder, "Then I am also a weirdo! Haha! You are so funny!"

"I wish..." The sound of "no" drifted in the wind, meaning it was unclear.

"What are you talking about?" the girl asked cheerfully, innocently.

Later, the girl discovered Wu's family situation and psychological depression little by little.

It scared the girl once.

Not everyone in this world will reach out to help others when they find that others are in misfortune. More people will choose to stay away although they won’t step on them.

This is not a lie, as it is.

The girl found the "no" symptoms and told her mother her fears.

So everyone in the whole town knew.

"None" is still the same as before, with a smile on the corner of the mouth like ordinary people, walking alone on the outskirts of the road and muttering to himself.

But people in the whole town are in panic.

Adults ordered their children to be far away from "none", and the children ran away when they saw him.

Sometimes girls will look at "Wu" from afar, and they feel extremely guilty and guilty.

If it were not for her, things would not be like this now.

Every time at this time, she will always receive a smile with "No" turned her head, and the words gently spit out in her mouth: "Liar."

Okay, we are all weirdos... liar.

The girl is extremely guilty and guilty. Perhaps it is this guilt that is causing her guilt. She is constantly carrying her parents to collect information about depression.

When reporting for university volunteers, she chose the Department of Psychology without hesitation~IndoMTL.com~ She knows that "none" parents will not give money to "none" to see a doctor, and she has no such economic foundation.

"None" watched the scammer's girl leave, and the parents who had just died, breathing more and more difficult.

......

The girl who has left has worked hard to learn about the psychological aspects and understand the symptoms.

When the girl returned from school a few years later, she got the news that "No" had left.

No one in the town knows his whereabouts.

The girl does not know where "Wu" will go, but she remembers that "Wu" said that if it were not for her mother, his wish was to die.

And the girl learned from the people in the town that "none" and the parents who learned "none" had died after she left.

The girl cried.

While she knows more about depression, she has no fear of "none", and more is distressed and apologetic.

The girl went to the house where "Wu" once lived to see if there was anything left by "Wu".

The trace of time stays in a diary.

"Meet her on the first day, please be a weirdo like me."

"Meet her again, please be a weirdo like me."

......

"Cheater."

......

"Just taking the sleeping pills, while I can still hold a pen... I want to say to you: Thank you.

It seems that I just saw you. At the last moment, I actually realized that life is difficult and there is still light. "

"None" saw the books about depression thrown out by the girl's parents after the girl left.

The girl looked at the diary and wept.

After another year, the girl became a professional psychological counselor. Through the glass of the clinic, she seemed to see the profile of the man in the memory...