Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1049: Night Crow Quark II

Despite many adventures, I feel that I have become accustomed to the tension caused by abnormal things, but even if I can maintain a good attitude on the scene, there will still be some mental fatigue afterwards. Just like this electronic demon incident, even if it ended peacefully in the end, no unexpected changes have occurred. However, just to delve into the hints behind the electronic demon, and to prepare for future changes. It has already made the brain a little bloated. In comparison, sometimes I feel that when something is about to come, it is an extremely dangerous situation to spare my life to fight, but it has become a much easier thing.

To fight to the death, or even to die in battle, is not worth fearing. On the contrary, it is the preparation that needs to be done before the fight, which makes people a little timid. I thought so, trying not to let this tiredness show up on my face. However, it seems that Hakjing still sees it, and then she is taught to say "You are too slender".

I know very well that this sentence is not a compliment, but more of a lesson and persuasion. Bajing thinks that I think too much and think too much, but because of my superior thinking ability, I have a kind of thinking obsessive-compulsive disorder—thinking overflow. This is the description of Bajing.

"Only a small number of people can study the school work to the level of'excellent' in just two hours." Bajing said, "However, the school work is not that interesting. So, once you reach the ideal level in your mind in the exam, you will feel bored, so you can’t focus all your energy on school work. Usually I will delve into other things, and I will overflow For people. It’s impossible to stop thinking because of the reason “enough”. Therefore, the excess energy must be vented to other places. As a result, because the contact surface is enlarged, the depth involved also increases. I feel that it is not enough to think about it. Even if I feel tired, I also feel that I must be in the question that I think of, even if it is only a flash of inspiration. Get a standard answer, or an answer that I can accept"

Hakjingyi said in a natural tone: "However, people like A Chuan who have overflowed their minds have a flash of inspiration and new problems continue to appear. It is simply commonplace. It becomes fresh by chance. You can’t ignore it—A Chuan, look at yourself, is it like this? What you want is not the answers that other people get, but the answers that belong to you, so. Keep thinking about it. Instinctively the same things, but no matter how you think about it, the answers you get make you feel. It seems to be a little bit worse. Even things that have answers in the past need to be consolidated after a new situation emerges, or Generate new cognition. So, I can only keep thinking and thinking instinctively, even if I feel ridiculous, even if I know many questions, there is no accurate answer at all, but I just can’t bear it-no, just bear it. The description is not appropriate. When you think about all kinds of things, Ah Chuan, you never thought about what you are like without thinking?"

"I..." I have almost nothing to say, although I feel that Bajing’s description is not very appropriate, and she is just "wild road" in this kind of psychological knowledge, but because of what she said It was not "completely wrong", so I couldn't resist her statement. I know, some of the situations she said are what is happening to me.

"It's really rude, A Chuan, he is obviously a genius, but he pretends to be an ordinary person." Bajing's eyes are a bit sharp, and people can't help but want to avoid it. Time, you can do things that other people can do several times the time, but you consume energy to make yourself look like ordinary people. Obviously, energy is spent thinking about other things, but it insists that just schoolwork is no longer necessary. Stop working hard, thinking that my usual extracurricular development is also part of school work."

"I..." Faced with her accusation, I couldn't speak.

"No matter where they are, there are a lot of people. Just to complete the school work, they have done their best and can't reach it." Bajing's voice was a little heavy.

I think that the topic, unconsciously, overflowed from my thinking and turned into an accusation of "wasting energy". This is definitely a partial topic, but looking at the appearance of Bajing, she seemed to care about it, so I was silent for a while and continued on this topic. If you don't vent it here, I think it will be a backlog in Bajing's heart-this is a kind of pressure that I can't really understand. Now, I feel that when I say I am very slender, in fact, Bajing is really slender.

"I also often study late at night...I didn't tell other people." I said this, and suddenly remembered that I had to finish my studies late at night. Indeed, a large part of it does not belong to the school. The content of the schoolwork regulations, "However, there are also many people who have to spare some time for extracurricular hobbies, and only use a small amount of time in school work. Can you achieve good results?"

"Unfortunately, people like that are indeed no longer a minority in terms of the population of the world. However, they are still a minority compared to the number of people who can't do it anyway." Sharp eyes stared at me, "Even if only one person in ten can do it, that one person is enough to be called a genius, but your thinking efficiency is probably not only this one-tenth ratio, but even more. Rare."

"Ha, ha ha..." I smiled reluctantly. Ba Jing's statement has subverted my usual self-perception. I am even better than I think I am ordinary? However, no one had ever said anything like this to me before the Eight Views of the World. Moreover, in the adventure of the doomsday illusion, I have seen too many people who are much better than myself in all aspects of basic quality, which made me understand that I am just a high school student. Needless to say, "Jiang" is a monster, and there are fire escapes, Father Xi Sen, files, Jung and others, even if there is no mysterious Doctor Ruan Li...Huh? I suddenly noticed this contrast. I am the only high school student and the youngest one.

Strange. Isn’t it unnatural at first to compare a person of the age of a high school student with an adult at the cutting edge of a field, and a monster in an incomprehensible field? In this comparison, hasn't you already included yourself, at least in the same category as them?

I was a little stunned.

"It seems I understand." Bajing sighed, picked up his schoolbag, and said, "I'm going back. I've taken the disk away first. Go back and see if your diary is still there. Achuan, you too. Understand, you are not just an ordinary high school student, or an ordinary student pretending to be a top student. For you, there may be many people ahead, but there are more people behind you. So. You. You can be more confident in yourself. Although you have the ability, you don’t need to be too nuanced in everything. Leave yourself some breathing room. While thinking about your own things, you must also think about others’ things, and in two ways. They have reached the point where everything is comprehensive. But they will go crazy." She nodded my forehead earnestly, "Just the'delusion' thing here has made you exhausted, right?"

Sakiya did not speak during this argument, but. After Bajing said so, he seemed to have realized something. Looking at it with a worried look, before Bajing was about to leave the room, he bowed to me and ran after him. It wasn't until their farewell voice sounded outside the door that I came back to my senses. At this time, the door closed.

I stood there quietly for a while, although the topic turned back to me in the end, Bajing wanted to persuade me, don’t think too much, right? However, after looking at my palm, I couldn't help asking myself: Am I really tired for the doomsday illusion?

Of course! I cannot refute the fact that I am really tired. But another firmer voice immediately sounded in my heart: tiredness is a matter of course, exhaustion is also a matter of course, because my own choice would have brought such a result. Moreover, if you don't reach the point of exhaustion and burn your soul, can you face it calmly when facing failure? The answer is naturally no.

Perhaps as the Eight Views said, most people need to do their best and exhausted if they want to accomplish something "normal" in my opinion, but because what I want to do is absolutely "no So, for oneself, it’s harder than the average person’s effort to accomplish half of the things.

Since you want to achieve a perfect ending anyway, you must pay a price corresponding to perfection. This is a matter of course, it is very realistic, there was no success, and it landed in mid-air--no...maybe it is there? However, it never appeared to me.

"Gaochuan" is someone who has no luck. This is not so sure in the apocalyptic environment at the beginning, but it is extremely obvious after entering the hospital reality. The situation of "Gao Chuan" is very bad. To make matters worse, "Gao Chuan" has to shoulder the responsibility of several girls in this situation. Even if there is a little help, it is not completely acceptable. , The necessary choice, the cruel choice, the mortal consciousness, the embarrassing situation that makes people want to die, even when they are "luck", they must face it.

But, what can I do?

It’s a very simple thing to put an end to one’s life with words like "death, it’s over". For many people, death is terrible. Even if you want to commit suicide, you have to hang around for a while Fan. However, it is really easy to think that "I can die".

However, "Gaochuan" can't work, I can't, can't bear this feeling of complete failure that makes me feel halfway through, even if it is a battle death, it is more open than using "death" as an excuse to give up.

Accepting the name "Gaochuan" means that it is stronger than anyone who needs help, both physically and mentally. Then, no matter how much pain there is, it must be better than anyone facing desperate situation, both physically and mentally. Be stronger. Even if you understand that this forced behavior is the source of your pain, even so, there is no way to give up.

What is exhaustion in order to achieve the ending you want? It's not enough to cover everything. There are too many people, even if they are exhausted, they have to accept the fact of "failure". Maybe I will be one of them, but there will always be various situations that give me "new opportunities". This is what anyone who has to accept failure after exhaustion will be jealous. And this is the only lucky thing for "Gaochuan". However, accept such luck. It can be regarded as a manifestation of super no luck.

Because, no matter how many opportunities there are, there will always be new cruelties. But this is what I have already understood and realized.

It is not that simple to open a path to hope in the darkness and despair. It is not enough to have the awareness of thinking and execution, but luck is the most unanticipated thing. Therefore, if you don't think twice and work hard, you can't comfort yourself and say that you have done your best.

The path I chose, from the very beginning, required every effort. Only "possible" to reach the other end. Even if he is called a genius, there is nothing to be happy about. On the contrary, I feel that I am not genius enough, so if I feel that I am ordinary, this is my way to relax. Only in this kind of thinking can we get some room for respite.

My rest is different from the rest of others. Because what I have to bear is different from what other people have to bear. If you just live in good food and clothing. In a peaceful life, this is a very second thought. However. When this kind of secondary 2 situation has become a fact that has to be accepted, then it will become a very cruel and stinky beauty, and one must be proud of it, otherwise, such a life will definitely not live. Go down, so sad that you want to commit suicide.

Who would want someone he loves to face the desperate situation that life is better than death? Who would want to see his broken body? Who would want to use a broken body to save a lover whose life is worse than death? Who would be willing to, when I do my best for it, only to find that everything is just a dream, everything has to start again, or is it just beginning? It is a wonderful thing to be a hero. However, if you want to base your dream on the suffering and torture of your loved one, then who would want to be a hero?

But there is no way, "Gaochuan" really has no way. Because this is the reality that "Gaochuan" must open his eyes to see. It's easy to close your eyes, you can't open your eyes, and you can't see it, it's easy, but once you open your eyes and see these realities, you can't ignore it.

"So, Bajing, this is something you can't understand." I said softly to myself, "But, I don't want you to understand, because the price is too painful. There is no way for the color and Dorothy. However, you, Sakuya and Marceau should all be able to live a little easier."

Thinking about this, I looked up at myself in the dressing mirror. In the mirror, behind the "me", the electronic demon "Night Crow Quark" was floating quietly, and the hair-like flames were also Is burning fiercely.

"I, no matter what, I have to be a hero. Even if I can’t be a hero, I can’t stop on this road. Even if I know I can’t do it, I can’t avoid watching this road. Because , This is me, this is Gaochuan."

Thinking this way, the negative emotions that have been accumulated in my heart seem to have disappeared a lot. I smiled at myself in the mirror, so Gao Chuan in the mirror also smiled at me. His relief made me feel that I had grown somewhat.

"Then, warm up lunch." I said to myself in front of the mirror. He took out a cigarette and lit it, went back to the living room and turned on the microwave.

Noon has passed. Although things like this have happened, the house has not been destroyed and no one has died. It is a gratifying daily life.

After two o’clock, I opened my eyes from the bed and lay down for a while. Although I can’t sleep, there are always thousands of thoughts in my mind, but I don’t think I have come up with it, but I am more energetic than just finished. It was a lot easier when I was an electronic demon. When I picked up my schoolbag, I looked at the spectacles again. The image of the electronic demon was still there, which made me feel a little relieved. Although I don’t know what happened, the electronic demon is here, which proves that Hakkei and Saki are here. Disks taken back at night are unlikely to have problems.

If the electronic demon follows me in this form, it is better to study and restrain it...By the way, when you look in the mirror with other people, will they see the electronic demon in the mirror? This should be tested with Hakkei Sakiya and others. In my mind, I sorted out the afternoon classes and the student union work after class. What the boys talked about in the morning, and Mr. XX’s thoughts, made me have to prepare. First of all, I must verify the student’s disappearance in the old toilet through the relationship between the student union. Be stricter.

Furthermore, if there are cases where students are missing, and the student union has blocked news from cadres at my level, it would take a lot of work to find out. Because now, even if I have an electronic demon, I am still an "ordinary top student" before I can find a way to drive it.

"It's you, Quark!" I walked out of the house and glanced around, no one was there. So he waved his hand vigorously and called out.

However, no quark appeared on the finger. Sure enough, this kind of ordinary summoner can't do it? Moreover, even though such a posture was made without thinking, it was ashamed of the consequences. I hid my face and thought to myself, it's great not to be seen.

Thinking about this, a cowering half-body suddenly appeared on the wall in front of her--familiarly, she was pushed out of the corner of the alley. It was Sakiya. Then, the eight sceneries are also there. Sakuya turned to me and turned his head away from me. Her body trembled slightly, as if she was crying-but how could it be possible!

I have a bad feeling.

"Come out, Eight Views!" At this moment, I feel extremely embarrassed, and my heart seems to be swelling almost bursting. "You see, the one just now?"

Sakuya made a huge "pounce" and squatted on the ground violently shaking. Ah, is it a laugh? Sure enough, your stomach can't stand a smile, right?

Bajing walked out from behind the corner of the alley, staring at me, and suddenly covered the corner of his mouth with his hand, making a "poof" sound.

Enough!

I tried to hide my face, only to feel that my skin was feverish. Sure enough, the previous posture...

"It's you, Night Crow Quark!" Bajing suddenly made the same action as me, and made a "puff" again, "It's great, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha ——Your master ball, kid Gaochuan."

I pretended not to hear, and quickly walked past the two of them, and hurriedly walked over, not looking at them intently. However, the feeling in my heart is really ashamed. If I am alone, it is not so serious, but I realize that someone sees it in my eyes, and deliberately imitates it in front of me, and laughs out loud. It is really shameful! At this time, even with the excuse of "testing the electronic devil", this feeling of shame cannot be concealed!

"Don't, don't go so fast, Agawa, I can't make it." Sakiya struggled weakly behind me, and I thought to myself, is it necessary to laugh so badly? The pose just now doesn't actually have such a powerful laugh, right?

"You two, why did you come here? The Bajing family came to me~IndoMTL.com~ and then to the school, it didn't make the way?" I changed the subject.

"Hmm--" Bajing's laughter was not as serious as Sakuya's, but the smile in his tone overflowed from time to time, "Agawa is a boyfriend, so if you have a chance, let's go to school together, because, in the story, there is a male My girlfriend does this, right?"

"That's right for boys to pick up girls." I tried my best to ignore their laughter and said.

"I don't care anymore. It's okay for me to pick up Agawa, and I saw good things." Hakkei said this, and laughed uncontrollably with Sakiya, "I didn't expect the usual serious Agawa, too. Will do such a reluctant movement."

Hey, should you laugh enough for me, it’s not funny at all, okay?

"The recent kids will do it." I retorted: "This pose is very popular in anime games."

"But, I never thought that Agawa, a high school student, would do such a pose." Sakiya said, "Sure enough, are boys very childish regardless of their age?" (To be continued. If You like this work, and you are welcome to come to the starting point () to vote for recommendation votes and monthly tickets. Your support is my greatest motivation. Please go to read it for mobile phone users.)