Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1050: Sensual reality
As soon as I left the house in the afternoon, I was caught by Bajing and Sakiya who suddenly came over. The two of them laughed uncontrollably. This is a rare cruelty for peaceful daily life. I don't know why, I actually made such a pose when testing the electronic demon quark. It is an action modeled after the classic posture of the protagonist of a very popular game recently. Generally speaking, only elementary school children can imitate it like this. After not thinking about it, I suddenly felt very ashamed. After being seen by Hakkei and Sakiya, I regretted it and felt that I had really made a mistake. It is because the rare peaceful daily life is too long, so although mentally still being pulled by the latent undercurrent, is the overall tension really decreasing? I thought that after putting on a combat uniform and a certain degree of reflection, the situation would be much better, but this fact has proved that even if you wear a combat uniform, there is no way to completely return to the calm and meticulous level of the past.
Furthermore, in the end, I actually chose to avoid the sight of the two of them. Putting it in the past, I should be more confident to face the laughter of the two of them, and with a serious momentum, the laughter was wiped out from the beginning. This is also part of the misstep. In retrospect, it was actually that I had been doing things that turned myself into a laughing stock.
No matter what you do, you must have a sense of courage. Even if it is a fool, you must first become courageous in your own spirit. In this way, you will not be affected by the reaction of others. That is psychological toughness. A kind of performance-I have always understood it this way and demanded it from myself. Although. There have been many embarrassments in the past, people can't wait to bury their heads in the ground. However, in the adventurous environment of apocalypse, especially after combining with "Jiang", this kind of situation is more and more reduced. Now that such an embarrassment suddenly appears, it is especially unbearable.
"Are men so childish regardless of their age?" Sakiya asked. Although her performance seemed unintentional, I subconsciously felt that she did it deliberately. Such feelings and thoughts are simply unreasonable and extremely awkward.
"Sakuya." Hakkei said, "There is an old saying that men are teenagers at all times... Others don’t know it, but it’s really appropriate to put it on Agawa, I think. If Agawa was seven and eighty years old, It's actually very cute to still do such a thing. Moreover, I also think that Achuan will really become that kind of man." She said that, fluffing her hair, what she looked like at this time. More mature than usual other girls. But, I think, it must be an illusion. Eight sceneries and Sakuya... as well as Dorothy and Shishi, it is hard to imagine them as "mature women". Even Marceau, who was once an adult, once made me feel like a big sister. But looking back at the contact at that time, there is still a childish side to it. Such them. Sure enough, I didn't say my "childish" position.
Sure enough, the "Jiang" figure shows more mature charm. Although they are somewhat crazy, they won't say that Bajing is unclear if it is a thorn. Speaking of it, many times, Bajing’s tone and statement always appear ambiguous. When she thinks it is a lesson, she feels like this in her heart. When people think that she actually agrees, the essence is opposed, and only When exercising the rights of the monitor, he will speak plainly and clearly.
This, I'm afraid it's the characteristic of the Eight Views... will someone really cute this one? For example, it's hard for me to imagine that it's not the eight sceneries like this. Although the eight sceneries of this world are quite different from the one in the doomsday illusion, there are actually quite a few of the same places. Observing these days, as well as the relationship that has been rapidly getting closer since last night, I can more and more discover the similarities between her living here and her living in the doomsday illusion. Compared to when I first confirmed the eight sceneries of this world, I feel that her image in my mind has overlapped a lot with past cognitions. In addition to her, the same is true for Sakiya. Therefore, when I get along with them, I will be exposed to situations that generally don't happen, because at this time, my mood is more relaxed than when I was taking risks.
There is no way, I want to tighten my nerves, be alert to every detail change at any time, to analyze the effects of each interaction, but, in this long-lost, people can't help but recall the strange talk about the toilet, and The not-so-urgent time before going deep into the doomsday truth sect-even if there are some dangerous signs, people feel that "something must be done", but the daily atmosphere of relaxation will always be unknowingly Affect yourself.
Thinking about this, I have given up in my mind to prevent Hakkei and Sakiya from continuing to talk about the embarrassment before. Fortunately, even if I don’t say anything, no, I should say it, because I don’t continue to say it, so , The topic of girls between Hakkei and Sakiya will quickly shift to other aspects.
"How about the diary?" With a distance of one step ahead of the two, I, who walked quietly ahead, slowed down and asked them.
"Diary? Oh, ah, I don’t have much time to read it carefully." Hakjing said, "However, the electronic demon summoning program is gone."
"Yes, it's a pity. I wanted to check the night crow quark carefully. It feels like playing a doctor game with Agawa." Sakiya smiled and said, "It's a shame, Agawa, I know how. What's the matter? You know?"
In the doctor game you said, I was treated as a patient, right? Although there is a part of my essence in the night crow quark, it is really unhappy to be played by a female doctor as a patient.
"It's not a kid anymore. Is the play house game still so fun?" I muttered, but I didn't expect Sakiya to hear it. With a refreshing expression on her face, she said directly to me, "Yeah. , I am very happy, because Ah Chuan is a patient, and Bajing and I are female doctors. Even if it is imaginary, I can imagine A Chuan's various expressions. I am really happy."
Don’t say this kind of thing in front of someone you are delusional about, don’t you feel embarrassed? Thinking like this, I looked away from Sakiya. Although it gradually overlapped with the impression in the doomsday illusion, but. The overlapping part is now pulled apart again, and you really are not like the other two you, whether it is in the doomsday fantasy or in the hospital reality. But...
This kind of feeling makes people feel embarrassed and embarrassed, but you can see such a happy, natural and hearty Sakuya. It's really a very happy thing. Such a mood made the corners of my mouth involuntarily twitched. No matter if this world is a repeater trap, a mental illusion, or something else, you can come here and see them like this. I feel that even if this trip is extremely dangerous, it is worth the price. If it is a dream, at least at the beginning of the game, it is mostly a rare good dream.
"What's the matter? A Chuan, smiling silently by himself?" Hachijing stared sharply. "However, I really didn't expect that I would have such a close day with Achuan, going to school together, and encountering strange things. It was really hard to imagine before yesterday."
"Yeah. That's right. Although I am in the next class, this kind of fate is extremely rare, isn't it?" Sakiya said, "Before last night, everyone and I were just strangers. Now I feel that we have been friends together for a long time, and we can say anything. It is obvious that we only spend one night and one morning together, and we definitely spend less time together."
"It's a question of compatibility between people." Bajing thinks very seriously on this issue. "There are such tests in psychology. There are indeed many people between people, even if they are unfamiliar. People can talk very well after the first meeting. Although love at first sight is despised by some people, it feels ridiculous, and it can’t be felt or accepted anyway, but in fact, whether it is in psychology or physiology, there is always Basis. In the final analysis, it is a problem of matching. The matching of personality and genetic factors diverges in an invisible wave and harmonizes with each other. In the end, the situation that leads to a breakup is mostly succumbed to the problem of money. There is no such cruel factor at work. The situation of falling in love at first sight and then breaking up is actually very low. Therefore, the situation of being intimate at the first meeting is actually based on science."
"I don't know why, Hakkei, although I really hope that love at first sight exists, but when I hear you explain this, I will think it is a fallacy." Sakiya's words were unexpectedly sharp, so let Hakkei suddenly I couldn't accept it, the expression on his face paused for a while, that look was really funny. I couldn't help but laughed "puchi". It seemed that it was because of my laughter that I was infected, and Saya also continued to laugh, making Bajing seem a little overwhelmed.
"Why, what, am I talking about funny things? What, you science-blind!" At this time, the harsh measures of the Eight Views are not reflected at all. On the contrary, it makes people think that this girl is better than Always be "soft".
"Huh huh." She coughed vigorously, then changed the subject calmly: "Compared to these, let's talk about the quark problem. That will be the focus of action later, isn't it? But now , It’s no longer on the disk... is it here for you? Achuan, I think, since it was made based on you, it is a matter of course that it stays by your side after the program disappears. And, the mystery Although the program can no longer be found on the disk, its composition is already incomprehensible, and whether it will disappear thereafter is also a question. Whether it is a program or an electronic demon, it must not just be in the naked eye. I think it does not exist within the scope of observation? I thought about it after I went back. The “mystery” in Achuan’s mouth probably refers to something that humans cannot observe and therefore cannot understand. Although, in many cases, people can Through the rigor of mathematics, it is impossible to derive the possible situations. However, because from the beginning, there is no basic formula and cannot be observed, so there are actually many things that are unimaginable and incomprehensible. .
Human cognition of this world starts from what can be observed by humans. It is also based on human observation itself, which has a foothold for further development. However, there are too few things that human beings can observe. Human sensory organs are weaker than most animals. Inaudible sounds and invisible light. Even if various instruments can be made and placed in the entire universe, the unobservable but existing things are still there. There are countless. So, mysterious. Is it caused by something like that? It may exist in a high-dimensional state from the very beginning. Even if it is displayed in front of us in a form that we can observe, what we can observe is only a very small part of its truth-no, probably not even the truth, just like the distorted scenery after the light is refracted , Such a situation.
So, I want to understand the mystery. It is impossible. Before we can fully observe all the existence in the universe, we can only speculate the mysterious probabilities through the similarity of phenomena, and such probabilities will often mislead us. Therefore, mystery is dangerous. But it is also full of charm that makes people want to explore. Since the electronic demon is mysterious, it must have such characteristics, right? So, I am actually very curious about it, not just. What it can do, what kind of changes it will bring to the world, strictly speaking, whether its appearance is a good thing or a bad thing is in my mind. These are unimportant things, what really matters is. There is such a thing in this universe, this world, it's really—" Bajing said at this point and sighed contentedly, "It's really wonderful. "
Is it wonderful? He would use such words to describe it. However, it is not incomprehensible. At the beginning, when I was just exposed to the mystery and I had already seen the cruelty it brings, I also had this feeling. It is incomprehensible, dangerous, and scary, but it is full of charm. Doctors who study high-risk viruses may feel that way. I am not a researcher, I am just a victim, but even so, I cannot fundamentally deny the eight sceneries of today that have caused this kind of mood, but I cannot agree with it, because the world I see is really true. It's cruel.
So, I can only silently, quietly, firmly, and walk forward.
Faced with all kinds of people, put forward all kinds of ideas, when I asked myself, I could think of many contradictions, and the possible answers to these questions, but in the face of all this, in the end The answer is often only this one.
We can only move forward-only this answer is the only thing that can be carried out in the constant worries and contradictions.
"Is my perception correct? Agawa." After Hakkei's long talk about "mystery", he asked me this way. Next to her, Sakiya had long been a confused expression. Sakiya really did. It's not suitable for thinking so much. Bajing said before, I am too slender and think too much, but Bajing himself thinks a lot. After all, in our school, the standard for top students is not just as simple as having excellent academic performance. Being good at thinking and handling things is also a necessary standard. And Bajing is also in the circle of top students, otherwise, it would not be selected as the monitor. Our school is still different from other schools in the strictness of selection, and it is not so easy.
"I don’t know whether it’s correct or not, but I think what you said about the Eight Views is very reasonable." In this evaluation, my mentality was surprisingly calm. It means that it is correct. On the other hand, at least, with a person like me, you recognize your opinion. Can you satisfy with such an answer? Eight Views."
"Huh. He's such a slender man, I can't take any such questions easily. If you simply say-what you say is the same as I think-this way, I will accept it more easily. "Hakjing raised his chin, and said a little dissatisfied, "However, there is no denial, and you can be considered as passing the level. After all, you are a boyfriend, and the standard is lower than others."
"Huh? If it's a boyfriend, shouldn't it be more strict? Eight scenes." Sakiya said, "The others are of high standards."
"What about it, don't be misled by those people. Don't worry about strangers. The object is the person who decides to live with him for the rest of his life. If you care about everything, if you deliberately raise the standard, you will soon be unable to live. "Hachijing said to Sakuya in a lesson-like tone: "It's rare to be confused, and it's rare to be confused. If you decide who you want to live with, you must apply what you have learned from this sentence."
"Ha...Is that so?" Sakiya looked a little embarrassed.
"Thank you very much. Having a girlfriend like you is really a blessing for me to cultivate for hundreds of generations." I said in a pun.
"Ah, the words are thorny, don't think I can't hear them." Hakjing glanced at me again with a sharp look.
"You two, have digressed again. Agawa, is the quark really with you?" Sakuya hurriedly closed the field and said.
"Well, although you can't see it under normal circumstances, but when you look in the mirror, you will find it behind you...This point, I also want you to confirm it." This time, I replied readily.
"I want to confirm, is it possible for other people to see the quark?" Hachijing said.
"Well, what you can see and what you can't see, in some cases, the way you handle it is different." I said.
"It's really necessary to compare the details." Hakjing said disapprovingly, "I think it's the same in all cases."
"Where is it the same?" I complained casually.
"Whether it is not visible or not, as long as it works at critical moments, people will use their common sense to explain things such as vertigo and magic." The creature’s ability to accept very conscious reality is very weak."
"Is that so?" I thought for a while, and I didn't think it was unreasonable.
"Agawa is going to the student council today, right?" Sakiya interjected, "Is there anything we need to do? Because, after last night, I don't think I can live like before. I have to do something. However, I didn’t find that I had to do it by myself, I could do it... Hmm... I don’t know how to say it, although I think I should be able to do something, but what should I do? The exact goal, I feel a little uneasy."
Listening to her, I couldn’t help but look at her seriously, feeling hard to describe: "...So, Sakiya, do you have a time to confess like this?" Really, this is the same as my impression of the doomsday fantasy. are different.
"...Why does Agawa say this? Ah, because you don't know me yet? Yes, we just became friends last night." Sakiya said with an understanding expression, "But I have always been like this Yes, my mother told me that the so-called friends are those who can talk straight to the point. People who can’t face them with real and direct thoughts, people who can’t accept who they are real and direct are not. It can be called a friend, at most it is a level of "familiar person"."
"Oh, oh! It's a strict mother to have such an evaluation of friends." Hakjing said, "My family is more casual, because they said, what kind of friends I make will be affected. It’s just me, what an excessive adult. Don’t you care if your daughter suffers?"
"No...I think that the Bajing family said this statement after Bajing had his own ideas, right? I don’t think ~IndoMTL.com~ After having your own ideas, Bajing will make you suffer. "Sakiya smiled stiffly, seeming to have a deep understanding of this. However, what she said was the same as mine.
The Eight Views will not let me suffer, especially the current Eight Views. In terms of interpersonal ability, teachers and students have high evaluations. I think this evaluation is still higher than me. In other words, in terms of interpersonal relationships, I am actually just so-so. Fortunately, the evaluation of top students is not simply composed of factors such as academic performance, ideological level, action level, and interpersonal relationships. After I joined the student union, I have seen private assessments that are heavier than the public student files. As for the operation procedures of the inspection, it is not accessible to student leaders of my level. However, the level of detail and a little After confirming, the degree of realism that I felt, it made people feel that it must have consumed a lot of resources and energy.
I have thought about whether the school and the student union will work together to monitor the living conditions of the students on campus and the recommended odd jobs? In short, it is unbelievable. From the outside, it is just a public school that focuses on entering higher education. To be honest, before I personally experienced the work of the Student Union, I never thought that there would be a public school, which would look like this in private. It's like a testing ground for some kind of talent research project. (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point () to vote recommended votes, monthly tickets, your support is my biggest motivation. Mobile users please go to read.)