Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1054: Strange talk area

In the doomsday illusion, what was your impression of the president of the student council when you were freshman in high school? I can't remember it anymore. I often boast that I have a vivid picture of the past, but if I want to be more true, I just have a "visibility" feeling. I can’t remember anything about my infancy, and I can’t remember the strangers I met on the way to know the world, even the teachers and students of the same school, if it weren’t for what happened to them. In special circumstances, even the person I have helped has probably only had a vague impression. Even if I bump into it again in this world, I won’t remember it. The impression is probably only at the level of “this person is a bit familiar”. As far as psychology is concerned, the greater the experience and experience given to one’s own stimulation, the deeper the gully will be left on the cerebral cortex. However, if something is in fact in a very important position, its own words and deeds It does not have the stimulus to some people, so the memory left in the mind will also be enlarged, and it is only natural.

The position occupied by the president of the student council in this school is naturally very important. His decision-making will affect the entire school’s teachers and students from a certain factual sense. Chang himself is the starting point, but throughout the process of change, his importance will gradually be diminished as time and scale expand. The less people who come into contact with him, the diminution will be more serious. I think the student council president is such a position-to gather everyone's ideas, modify it in their own way, and then issue it as a decision, and in the process of implementing the decision. Even if you don’t want to, your position in the whole plan. It is also irresistible to be affected by the subtle changes brought about by others' thoughts, so that there will be deviations.

This kind of shift is inevitable. Even if the power of the student union is greater, even if the student union president is at the apex of the organization, the student union president is just a "being cultivated". "Student", it doesn't matter whether he contributes to social activities. Or how well he did it. Before he finishes his studies and devotes his life to society, no, a more simple and clear statement should be that before he turns twenty-five years old, he can only be regarded as a child by others. Of students only.

Change of status. It is very difficult, because it is not the identity but the concept that needs to be changed. To become a social man is actually very simple, just let others recognize you as a "social man". But to achieve it. But there are many elements that must be completed, and this process is not simple. It can even be said that no matter how strong one's will, there will inevitably be a situation where you can only wait and cannot do more.

Instead of identifying yourself. Changing from "child" to "adult" is more difficult.

In this world. There is also the notion that you will not be recognized as an "adult" unless you become a member of society.

Age, education, work, recognition by others, and self-recognition are all hardships that a true social person must face. To become an adult who truly has the right to speak in his own life, he must first Overcome these difficulties and become a social man.

Becoming an adult is very difficult. It is even more difficult to regain the childlike innocence after becoming an adult. Because becoming an adult is to overcome obstacles on an unknown road, and retrieving the past is just a process of retrieving what you once had, and in fact, you have never lost something from your life.

However, if you don’t become an adult, many things cannot be changed, because humans cannot do things that must be done by many people. In other words, under normal circumstances, a human being, no, even a genius, cannot surpass the plural human beings. As a human being, defects are inevitable, and this defect is like a weakness that cannot be remedied by oneself. "Impossible" is a regrettable description in many cases, but it is a necessary advantage when placed on the human group.

I think so, and I regret it. After all, everyone has thought of becoming a "superman", rivaling or even surpassing the entire human race by one person. No matter how many years have passed, it is common to all human beings. Ambition. However, if you think about it conversely, if there is such a "superman" that can use hundreds of times the efficiency of the entire human race to accomplish things that all human beings can do with concerted efforts, then the living state of human beings as a group is not just Is it a meaningless thing? For people who are not "superman", the necessity of their own existence will also be on the verge of collapse.

This is really a terrible thing, because Superman can live well on his own. His own existence is absolute value and meaning, and ordinary people of the same species have lost others. It’s like a lonely broken part, without any value or meaning-I think so, maybe it’s a bit extreme and a bit simpler, but I can’t tell the complicated things, and if I condense them, I’m Think so.

Ah, it's far. All in all, the president of the student council is not a superman. Although he is very good, he can sit in this position. However, he still lacks various factors for becoming a "social man" and "adult", and can only be a "child" and "adult". "Students" survive, and this process will continue for several years in the future, until age, education, work, recognition of others, self-recognition and other factors have reached a standard. "Children" and "students" are inherently unable to maintain an important position in a close and complex social activity.

In the doomsday illusion, such a student president and I will only have the opportunity to see one side from a distance when most people are in a meeting. His decision will eventually be given to us cadres and officers from the bottom, like a piece of parts, completed little by little, and then, in the process, the entire machine is already in operation. In this process, in order to overcome difficulties to complete the parts, we have to take our own ideas and proceed in a roundabout way. This is something we are most familiar with. In this process, how important the existence of the student president is, it must be more than me. , The others are at the same level as me. Even the lower-level cadres and officials have a deep understanding--

In short. His sense of existence can only be at the moment when the decision is announced, and then, like a punctured balloon, it disappears from our minds.

Such a student council president is sitting on the opposite desk now, watching me with that strange and a little familiar majesty. This is the first time I have been so close to this student council president, in my past memories. The vague impression of him was gradually completed at this moment. However, in terms of appearance, the student council president is indeed not very impressive. In other words, he is not handsome, but he is not ugly. It's just ordinary, and his majesty as the president of the student council, in my opinion, is also ordinary, and the way of looking is also ordinary.

The first impression is ordinary. Can't find other more suitable descriptions. It becomes difficult to confirm what is inside of such a person. I habitually profile him psychologically to infer his next thoughts and behaviors, but. There is no characteristic reference in him, as if. It is enough to put the term "ordinary person" on it. However, I understand very well that even ordinary people have their own characteristics. In today's situation, if it is not because of my lack of strength, it is the student president who has used more profound psychological knowledge to transform himself.

His "smell" is too weak to be considered an ordinary person. Of course, if the person who came was not me, but other ordinary cadres, you might think that he couldn't be more ordinary.

"Gao Chuan, have you heard such a sentence?" After I took my seat, the president of the student council observed me for about two or three seconds, and took the lead in asking questions, but he didn't finish.

I can only ask for the phrase "what?", because his pause looks like he specifically asked me to cater to him. If this judgment is true, it will subvert the previous "ordinary" perception. Because--

It's really completely ordinary, there is no characteristic, the guy who follows the rules, the personality will not be so prickly, right?

"Um..." The student council leader said slowly, without any tone of voice, "What is it? Vice president, you can tell me, I also forgot."

I can’t describe how I feel when I hear this.

The vice president should be accustomed to this situation, so he didn’t even change his face. He still had the serious and serious expression, saying: "After the soup bag was bitten, when someone sucked the internal body fluids , Will you be proud of your own deliciousness?-This is what the president wants to say."

The student council president’s expression is still that ordinary, no surprise, no embarrassment, and no surprise. He speaks in a voice that makes people want to sleep, not too big, not too small, and without ups and downs. : "That's it." Then, his eyes fell on my face again, and I couldn't help but think: Is it my turn again?

The atmosphere is a bit cold.

"Cough...Um..." I clenched my fist, coughed on my mouth, sorted out my thoughts, and said, "Is the mood of the soup bag more important than the disappearance of the students in this school? President. "In this case, go straight to the point.

"Yes..." The president still said that flat and slow, "I think those students are like soup dumplings. We should try to figure out and understand their thoughts in order to make the right decision. I did this, so I think my decision is correct. So, what about Gao Chuan, what about you? According to Mr. C, your behavior itself represents the decision of me as the president of the student council. A skeptical attitude..."

It turns out that this is the statement? Hearing this kind of questioning, but without any emotion, I felt that I had entered the rhythm a little.

"The soup dumplings that were sucked innards...To use such a cruel analogy, it seems that the rumors are true?" I asked in return.

"Yes." The president replied simply, "I answered, now, please answer my question. After you have thought about it carefully, are you dissatisfied with the fact that you have been concealed? I I feel that it is necessary for cadres at the level of Gao Chuan to block the news, because the situation is so serious that our student union cannot interfere."

Severe to the point? Obviously it happened on campus, but even the student union was excluded? So, who is it that recognizes the seriousness of the situation and interferes in it? In other words, what kind of organization is it? There is only one organization that can make students who actually have control over the situation of the school do nothing. That is the network of relationships constructed by the graduates from the past. I don't know if there is a core organization in that network. However, judging from the current intelligence, it is likely to be that way out of ten. Coupled with the weird nature of the operation of this school, then, the source of this core organization in this country may far exceed the general "corporate enterprise".

Has such an organization been aware of the existence of "mystery"? Only within a short period of time after Carmen arrived, did the "abnormality" in the old toilet be confirmed?

It's incredible. This world has never been weird or mysterious before. Generally speaking, people don’t directly think of this “unscientific” situation because of accidents. No one will take it seriously and treat it specially. The chairman should know the situation on the spot. But at this time, the words are unclear. What kind of cruel scene will make some big people think that this is a non-scientific phenomenon and take over it?

The first scene I thought of was naturally when I was in a doomsday illusion, when I personally experienced the strange talk about the toilet. In that huge data hedging space, which is similar to the daily environment, but tends to collapse, I saw the scene of demon cannibalism. The canine demon with the ability of transparency ate the students who strayed into its lair. Without being completely digested, it was excreted like this—the smelly and **** sight. The same smell is still exuding in my mind until now.

It is indeed not a scene that can be seen by ordinary people, but it cannot be confirmed because of this. It is abnormal-no, it is indeed beyond common sense, but it is not enough that weird and mysterious have never appeared. This world, which is completely scientific, has become a testament to the weirdness and mystery.

"I don't understand." I settled, and asked: "Since it is a situation where even the student union cannot intervene, then why is the information disseminated in the form of rumors? This kind of thing should have been prepared long ago It’s right to take precautions. With the ability of the Student Union, it is possible to eliminate the source as soon as possible."

"Yes... it can be done..." The president said with a blank face, slowly and monotonously: "But, I think that's too boring."

Wh, what? Because it's so boring? Although this is also a reason, it contradicts the previous statement, right? He felt that it was necessary to block information, so he had the current conversation, but the emergence of rumors was naturally the unfavorable result of the information blockade, but this was his interest again.

This guy... really is the type I hate the most. The self-contradiction in his thinking and behavior has become so obvious that he can hardly restrain himself. It is like a sign of mental illness.

"I think you should see a psychiatrist, president classmate." I summarized my thoughts so bluntly.

"The psychiatrist?...Why?..." A surprised expression slowly appeared on the president's face, and he glanced at the vice president beside him. It was as if his mood changed, and his tone was as slow as his tone.

"Because your mental state has been out of balance." The vice president said without hesitation, as if to kill his heart, but such a language attack obviously has no effect on the president's classmates.

The president gave a slow "Oh" and continued: "It's not a big deal. In short, Gao Chuan, please answer my question. Are you dissatisfied with my decision? Are you against my decision? The reason here is that I am dissatisfied with the manifestation of my decision, but now that you know the seriousness of the situation, do you still think that you should tell you the details? Or, should you tell the cadres and officials lower than yours?" When I said this, for a moment, I felt that the chairman's eyes sharpened.

I did not hesitate, because I cannot predict the thoughts of the student council president, nor can I judge his personality from the words and deeds so far. Therefore, all targeted programs cannot be accurately implemented. At this time , I think it’s more appropriate to follow your heart and express your thoughts straightforwardly.

"Yes, I think, as the top cadre of the first grade, it is necessary for me to understand the rumors that have spread in the first grade. It is precisely because this rumor is unusual and involves the personal safety of the students, so you can’t just be Looking at it as jokes and rumors, and therefore, I stand here.” I said: “I feel that I can bear the facts, and I should bear the responsibilities brought about by the facts, as to whether to tell other people the specific situation. "I paused here, and decided to say according to my own inner thoughts: "I think this is not something I need to think about, but a judgment that you should make, the president. My only dissatisfaction lies in the "being The highest cadre of the first grade was excluded from the truth.' This fact is only because it does not fit the status of the highest cadre of the first grade."

"...Hmm." The president and vice president of the student council stared at me together, without speaking for a long time. After that, the president of the student council said: "We all understand your sense of responsibility and self-motivatedness. Although. It’s only the first grade and won’t have direct contact with our work. However, Mr. C, who has direct contact with us, said a lot of good things for you. This can be regarded as a little bit, "Even the highest cadre is only a first-year student. 'You, can be a proof of participation."

"In other words..." I think the student council president has already made a decision.

"Yes...Vice President..." The student council president knocked on the table, and the vice president handed the file that he had been holding in his arms to me. Then, the student council president continued to say without a voice change. "Although intelligence has also been blocked on the Student Union, it is something that happened in the school after all. Therefore, the Student Union must keep the first-hand information. No matter how opposed by people outside the school, no matter how opposed by the school, it will be invalid. This is the tradition. We should all be grateful for this tradition and carry it forward."

"In other words, this information about the student disappearance case has been hidden by the student union? Is the student union still following up on this incident privately?" I couldn't help asking.

"Yes." The president nodded and admitted without concealment, "In short, we do ours, they do theirs, but they interfere, destroy and compete with each other. But there is no doubt that outside the school People have more resources. Our student union is just a subordinate organization that depends on them... I think Gao Chuan should realize this, right?"

"Yes." I replied.

"So, they are progressing faster than us. On the other hand, the first thing they find will be blocked or destroyed in the first time. There is not much intelligence we can get in the first place, except for the first Those of them are just leftovers leftovers from their eating. However, even so, we still did not give up. Gao Chuan, do you know how to catch up with other runners in a race where you don’t know where the finish line is, and get to the finish line first? ?"

"Persevere...and luck?" I said.

"Yes..." said the president of the student council: "Persistence and luck~IndoMTL.com~ are the most indispensable. There are many people who have the ability to do things, which is not precious. Gao Chuan, do you think you are Are there people who insist on having luck?"

"Yes." I can answer this question without thinking, although, in terms of luck, from another angle, he is a person with strong bad luck. However, bad luck can also be regarded as a kind of luck. As long as I am here, I often have a feeling that the world revolves around me. Even if various things happened later, this feeling disappeared temporarily, but it only disappeared temporarily. That's it. The more you know about the world, the stronger the idea that "oneself must be a very unique part in the operation of the world" will become stronger.

Me, the president of the student council, and the vice president looked at each other for a long while. When the bell rang at six o’clock in the afternoon, the president of the student council said in that unchanging tone: "Since Gao Chuan has made up his mind, and has gotten The recommendation of Mr. C, who is the alternate vice chairman, then, please take a closer look at this file before going home tonight. Because this is top-secret information and cannot be brought out here."

I nodded without making a sound, and neatly tore open the seal of the file, and took out the thin pile of reports and photos. However, at the first moment I saw my eyes, I saw the familiar logo and name-Doomsday Shinrikyo. (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point () to vote recommended votes, monthly tickets, your support is my biggest motivation. Mobile users please go to read.)