Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1056: Respective decision

The conversation after meeting with the students was a bit unexpected. I originally thought the scene would be more murky, but the fact is that even if the other person in the conversation didn’t get straight to the point at the beginning, as the conversation progressed, the content became quite similar. Be clear. Although it cannot be said that there is no "sense of conspiracy", from the perspective of the student council president, the decision made by the senior leadership of the student council has a very clear stand and intention for the sake of students. I don't think that even if the student council president did not mention all the circumstances in this meeting, it means that the goodwill he released was hypocritical. Either the student council president or the vice president, although they are very individual in their words and deeds, they also have deeper thinking and more socialized actions than ordinary students, but this is not possible. Evidence that characterizes them as "bad guys." Even from the standpoint of the students and feel the sincerity of the other party, I think these two people are "good guys" at least at the starting point.

Now that the weirdness and mystery are starting to work, I really feel that my feelings are becoming sharp, and I don't feel that my intuition for seeing people will make fatal mistakes.

The things accumulated in my past growth have not disappeared from my body and soul. I'm the same as before, no, I feel more like "believe in yourself" than before. When facing the president and vice presidents of the student union, it is precisely because they had a vague impression of the "past" that they can bring out this feeling even more.

I squeezed my fist secretly.

"President, do you think that after the old toilet was demolished, the whole thing was completely over?" I asked back.

"No. But that is the future, and it is only a possibility in the future. Before it becomes a reality. It is indeed an end." The student president replied in a very affirmative tone.

"I will continue to monitor the condition of the old toilet and take adequate protective measures to prohibit first-year students from approaching the old toilet before it is removed." I said, "I think it is necessary."

"If it is really dangerous, even you will be implicated." The president's tone is not strong, but the meaning of rejection is very obvious, "Gao Chuan classmate, maybe you think you are responsible. And you have the ability to face it. That kind of danger, but once that kind of danger appears, the only thing you can rely on is luck."

"I understand, this is a risk issue." I also said categorically: "However, I am the highest cadre in the first grade. Moreover, there are also first-year students who talked in front of me about going to the old toilet to verify the rumors... …If it’s just ordinary rumors, I will give up. But this time, I have a strong feeling. That’s why I came here for verification. The current situation is very simple, the old toilet will be demolished tomorrow? Want to do something What kind of students will definitely take action before tomorrow. I know very well that in the face of the last opportunity, even if some students hesitated before, the probability of taking action tonight will be high. If they encounter it What... This is my responsibility as the highest cadre in the first grade, and I believe it. With me, it will be better than without me."

"Strong sense of responsibility, ability, and confidence are not the key to solving problems." The student president's tone increased slightly, "Gao Chuan, why are you always sensible..."

"It has nothing to do with reason!" I looked at the opposite sincerely. It is true that my original intention to obtain this opportunity may be mixed with other things, but to prevent ordinary students from approaching danger and prevent students from continuing to participate Mysterious things are not contrary to each other. Especially after confirming the thoughts of the senior leaders of the Student Union, I became more and more convinced that my behavior was correct and necessary. The student union’s efforts in the toilet talk are already very reluctant. Perhaps if you go deeper, more students will have to bear the risk of death. Although they are called cadres, they are just underage students!

Here, apart from me, there is no one who understands weirdness and mystery better. As far as identity is concerned, I am a member of Whisperers and a student union cadre, and the positions of these two identities are unified here.

If in this school, there must be a person-he must be more "adventurous" than others, including ability, luck, courage, position, will, etc., and he must have more clarity than others His reason and position, as well as a deeper understanding of this adventure than others-then, who else is there besides me?

To protect the whole world, to protect a city, to protect the people around you, in fact, it is the same, that is—what you want to protect is where you live.

Sakuya, Bajing, and other students in this school, the teachers and students of the whole school, and even the expanded ones, everyone’s family and the city where I live, I want to be within my abilities. Do something for them. In normal daily life, there are enough people to maintain my position. My position is not necessary. However, in non-daily situations, I am more suitable than anyone to stand in front of everyone.

"I made this decision, not because rationality is at work, but a strong emotion that makes me have to do this." I said seriously and loudly to the student council president and vice president: "But, don't Think of me as a child who doesn’t understand reality. There are some things that can’t be done best by reason alone, and the result of thinking and acting only by reason is not necessarily correct. Because this is something that requires luck, isn’t it? Can you predict things with a computer's mathematical model? Human beings are small, and human thinking is also small. Therefore, even if it is not so rational thinking that drives me at this time, there is no problem at all."

The student council president and the vice president looked at each other for a while without saying a word. After that, the student council president said, "I understand, since this is the decision of the top cadre of the first grade, it does not actually conflict with the decision of the student council. , Let’s be your task for Gao Chuan. I don’t think the whole thing will change before the old toilet is demolished, but the necessary insurance must be prepared." He paused and continued: "Tomorrow , The demolition work will proceed faster than the time to be released as a rumor. Therefore, Gao Chuan, since he has this heart, I will stay in school tonight to prevent students from running there in the middle of the night, so that’s okay. ?"

"Yes." I answered very positively.

Enough, this answer is enough, no matter whether I am or these two people, this is the best conversation. Even in addition to "guarding", there are other thoughts. It doesn't matter, because as long as the idea of ​​"protecting something" exists in it, it is already very rare. The experience in the doomsday illusion has made me understand how extravagant and precious the idea of ​​"guarding" is, and to realize it. How difficult it is. I want to be a hero, and I feel that I have really worked hard, but when I think back to the doomsday illusion and the actual experience in the hospital, everything is so rushed, and one set of twists and turns followed. Just solving the most immediate problem is enough to make people feel frustrated, and then it's so "dead". There was no room left. Although I tried hard to do it, I did nothing.

Marceau did the same. After returning to the hospital, it’s okay, and I clearly promised. Thinking of it, I struggled with all my strength, but in the end it was like that.

I'm not reconciled.

However, there is no way. Everything that has become the "past" is an unchangeable destiny.

So, this time, it doesn't matter whether everything displayed in front of you is an illusion or reality. At least once, down-to-earth, start with things around you. Even if this is just a "dream", if you can't even do a good job in the "dream", what can you do when you encounter the real "reality"?

"Student Gao Chuan intends to stay there alone?" The vice chairman asked, "You can't do it alone, right? Although I don't want more people to take risks, but the necessary manpower... …"

"No! No need!" I moved my wrist, stared into her eyes, and said categorically, "I am enough alone, otherwise, if something really happens tonight, it will only increase casualties. Let's talk about it. , After something really happens, someone will come to support it, but before that, I will do it alone."

"Student Gao Chuan, you proposed to stay there to prevent the first-year students from running there to take risks." The vice president asked: "But in fact, there are more than one students who are eager to try because of the rumors. Grade classmates, do you think, how many of the students in this school will leave tonight?" She stared at me hard, "you alone won’t work. Although we have always thought that tonight Nothing will happen, so there is no plan to send someone to the scene. However, your persistence also made us hesitate. What if something really happens? Such thoughts will make me restless. . So, since the next action must be based on this bad prediction, it must be better."

"Yes. Gao Chuan, you made this decision on the premise that something might happen tonight, and we made the previous decision on the premise that something might happen tonight. Originally, we Opinions have been unified, but your presence broke this unification.” The student council president said flatly: “We were persuaded by you. Therefore, we had to arrange on the premise that something went wrong before we allowed you. However, since we, as the top of the student union, represent the will of the student union, the change in our thinking is the change of the entire student union. In any case, the actions of the student union still operate in the way of the whole group. When the change in your actions leads to a change in your actions, you will not let one of them take all the risks. Please make it clear again to Gao Chuan-you are not alone, and you are not only representing yourself. Maybe you are representing yourself. Others, being represented by others, are very disgusting things for some people, but without such thoughts and recognition, you are not a qualified student union cadre."

"I feel that if the premise is'things will happen', then more people should not be involved. If, as the president and vice president said, the test of danger is luck, not personal Strength, then, if there are many people, luck cannot be guaranteed to rise." I said: "Luck is very personal. I think my luck is good, but I also feel that if I were not alone. If you do, luck will change."

"You..." The vice president stared at me sharper, and she was obviously a little angry. "Student Gao Chuan, most of the things that you think will not be what you want. I also hope that you can Remember clearly."

"Sorry. Vice President." I said to her without any perfunctory: "My intuition has always been accurate, more accurate than you think. I am serious. I take my feelings very seriously, especially in This kind of time depends on luck. Which of you two has stronger self-confidence than me, saying what it feels like to believe in yourself? Or, in the data of all the members of the student union, who is with me? In the same way, can you trust your intuition without hesitation? It is difficult to act only on intuition. Because it is difficult to believe in your intuition, because, besides me, there will not be anyone here who will take their own instincts. Don’t you put safety on a seemingly ethereal intuition?"

The president of the student council lowered his gaze and pressed his temple with his finger for the first time. A thoughtful expression, and the vice chairman couldn't help avoiding my direct gaze.

"Luck may not come when you believe in your own feelings, but if you don’t believe in your feelings, even if luck comes, you may not be able to grasp it. Although according to the data, that The inconceivable things are unpredictable and dangerous. Luck is more reliable than strength, but it cannot be proved. Strength does not occupy any place in survival." As I said this, I couldn't help but think of my past, and I was convinced again. My own thoughts, "Luck may account for a large proportion, but strength is also important, and more importantly, confidence in oneself. Whether it is reason or feeling, you can only believe in the judgment at that moment and have enough Only by adding his strength to actions can he survive a danger that he can’t even understand and guess."

"...Student Gao Chuan." The president of the student council hid half of his face behind his palm and looked at me, "What you said is as if you have had similar experience..."

"It's okay to say that." I replied indifferently: "Yes, incredible danger. I have experienced it a long time ago and stood in front of you. This time, I am The best handler. Leave everything to me, president and vice president. It is enough for you to focus on daily management. Trust me, and then, look at the results, this is the safest way. "

"Gao Chuan, you are no different from other students. You are also a student of this school. Please don't say anything about'insurance' again." The vice president's attitude eased a little, but strongly Criticized: "We are the culmination of the students in this school, the actual controller of this school, the highest cadre of the first grade, don't be so arrogant to me! Because... you are also a protected member, and this is your positioning. ."

"Forget it, vice president." The student president said: "Gao Chuan is also a person with a strong personality... It's slightly different from Mr. C's statement."

"Mr. C also mentioned this point, so he was given the opportunity to meet this time." The vice president immediately replied, and glared at the president. The president's cheek hidden in the shadow of his palm was a bit embarrassed. However, because of the light, I can't see clearly.

"Well...it's really disturbing. Let a student who should be a protected position take on such a dangerous task alone. It's not about growing up." The student council president's tone has been so calm, finally A hint of emotion, "Let me think about it again."

"So, this is not for learning at all, nor for my own growth." I categorically said: "This is just to do what I do, and then take it for granted, nothing more. The purpose is for the safety of all teachers and students in the school."

"It's so easy to say." The vice president gave a "tsk" unhappy face.

"Yes, it's so easy." I smiled comfortably, "Everyone has something to be good at, and in the student union, I am the best at unbelievable dangers, and an expert in this field. .Although there has been no performance, it is only because I can only perform in this field. Please don’t worry, two people, leave everything to me."

The vice president fell silent, his eyes kept changing, and he must be constantly weighing the risks in his mind. However, the president of the student council made a decision faster: "I understand, no matter how we persuade, you will go on arbitrarily, right? Gao Chuan classmate?"

"Yes! Even if I do something out of the ordinary, I will continue to do it arbitrarily!" I answered loudly without hesitation, and all my doubts were gone before this interview. In the face of these two people, I don't need to think carefully about my own practice and my own thoughts. Express your attitude straightforwardly. Is the best response.

"Puff!" For the first time a clear expression appeared on the student council president's face. He couldn't help laughing out loud, "I'm sorry, I'm not laughing at you, but...it turns out that Gao Chuan is such a person." , Looking at the data and comments in the file, I can’t imagine it at all. To be honest, what happened before. But in this student union, very few people say it. Everyone doesn’t like to be so straightforward, and if they think it’s too passionate, just I’ll be a little embarrassed. Really, it’s the first time I heard someone say in front of the president of the student council, "Even if you are out of line. You have to be arbitrary."

I’m a little embarrassed. I didn’t feel embarrassed at first. It’s also my favorite to be straightforward. The way of turning around from the side is just the self-protection used in the past to adapt to the living environment, but. When someone said that in person and was laughed at, he immediately felt a sense of embarrassment that he didn't usually have.

The vice president seemed to be infected by the president, and he immediately erected the file folder to cover the lower half of his face, but I thought. Her mouth must be laughing.

"Understood." The conflicting atmosphere in the room was suddenly broken by the student council president's relaxed tone. "As the president of the student council, I believe that the cadres, especially the cadres who recommend themselves, are both an obligation and a responsibility. Taking responsibility after a cadre makes a mistake is also an obligation and a responsibility. I believe you, Gao Chuan, believe that you are the solution An expert on this kind of incident, I believe you have had the same experience, I believe you can do better than everyone here, and then..." His expression became serious, "Come back safely."

"Yes!" I answered loudly.

Because the student council president has already made a decision, the vice president didn’t entangle her anymore. She glanced at the clock and said to us, “It’s time to go back. I will have to study later tonight. If we don’t step up, we won’t be able to keep up. Have dinner."

"Oh? Is it so fast?" The president of the student council smiled and said, "Maybe this conversation was pleasant. Gao Chuan, I am glad to meet you. Then, before we leave, we will pay more attention to it. You, hope you can show your skills in the student union and make more contributions to the school. But first, you have to easily solve the crisis before you, as you said before, and then come back as a matter of course."

"That's a matter of course." I replied unceremoniously, because failure does not exist in my dictionary at this time. This is not a daily competition, but a crisis involving more lives. Only at this time, failure is not allowed!

When I left this multimedia building with the president and vice president, the president suddenly asked me: "What you said before was not just for the purpose of nonsense, right?"

"What?" I asked in surprise.

"You have encountered something like that." The president looked at me seriously.

"If it's nonsense..."

"Don't worry, it won't change the previous decision." The president and vice president glanced at them, and then focused on me again.

"No." In order to make the two of them feel at ease, I said in a more certain tone than before: "What happened to me is something you would never want to encounter in your entire life." Although, it comes from the source. Say, in fact, you are already in it. I think so, but even for them and more people, the state of "cannot really recognize the situation in which they are in", it should be a good thing to continue like this. Because, from another perspective, they are actually more powerless than me.

Because of the special nature of "Jiang", because of the existence of Mae, Sakuya, Hakjing, Marceau, Seiro, and Dorothy~IndoMTL.com~, I became more special than most patients with doomsday syndrome. , So we can move forward. Without these fetters, presumably I would be like most people, I couldn't even "start". That kind of me would be just an ordinary top student.

Only now can I put a halo on the nameplate of "ordinary top students" that others don't have. But in the final analysis, it is still because I am not the only person in the world in my eyes, but these other people are the source of my halo. Without them, it would be impossible for me to shine. Because, with only one person, "guarding" and "saving" are meaningless.

Although, sometimes I feel that other people are really a burden to myself, but in general, I like this kind of burden and I am willing to bear it.

Because--

This is me, this is Gaochuan.

Thinking about this, I said goodbye to the president and vice president outside the school gate, turned to the streets in the opposite direction, and walked alone in silence with a calm and calm mood. (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point () to vote recommended votes, monthly tickets, your support is my biggest motivation. Mobile users please go to read.)