Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1156: Nightmare City

The process of letting the ‘essential’ patients temporarily sort out what they have seen and heard by telling stories is called the "self-correction method" by Dr. Ruan Li. It has very strict requirements not only for the storyteller itself, but also for the story itself. As far as the story is concerned, before organizing the'sex' and the story's'sex', there is a key prerequisite, that is, "temporary creation". This story cannot be prepared and refined, but should be instant. For doctors who implement this treatment, the most important quality is to distinguish clearly whether the story the patient is telling is a "temporary creation", "already prepared", or "already prepared" , But pretended to be a temporary creation". For three different situations, a more complicated evaluation process will also be divided into the final evaluation. The worst, of course, is that "the story was prepared long ago, but it was disguised as a temporary creation", but the doctor could not distinguish it. As long as the doctor can distinguish it, then even if the story was prepared long ago, it will still be. There are gains.

The therapy itself does not mind if the patient knew about this therapy earlier, just as I knew it very well when I was performing this therapy. Dr. Ruan Li has mentioned the principles and principles of this therapy many times. The case is enough to prove that she doesn't care about whether she knows the patient.

From time to time, Dr. Ruan Li will deliberately interrupt when I tell a story, and then ask some questions that seem to me inexplicable or somewhat boring. In this regard, all I can do is to answer truthfully. After all, even if it is perfunctory, it does not have the effect of "perfunctory". So, instead of thinking too much.

At 11:30 in the evening, Dr. Ruan Li finally stopped the inquiry, finished the file, and said to me a little serious: "A Chuan, I'm sorry, you won't be able to go to school for at least one month, I will ask The school issues sick leave slips."

It seems that in the diagnosis result of Dr. Ruan Li, my condition is quite bad.

"I don't think I have any problems, and I will not attack others at will." When I said this, my heart was very calm, and I felt that this was my own heart. However, Dr. Ruan Li still insists on his opinion: "This is not a question of whether you want to or not. Whether you will attack others depends more on whether you feel hurt. It has nothing to do with whether you actually receive hurt. 'Being hurt' itself is a psychological problem. From the diagnosis, your current state of'mind' is very likely to magnify the'self being hurt' mentality. It may be an illusion, or it may be an inadvertent one by others. Small movements, or anything else, will make you extremely sensitive and enter a state of extreme self-protection."

"You mean, I have serious persecution delusions now?" I said.

"It's okay to say that. In fact, the delusion of being persecuted is originally part of your mental illness." Dr. Ruan Li said indisputably, "Of course, the actual situation is more complicated. You take it seriously. Looking at the story of the end of the world you said before, you have experienced all kinds of incredible in the story. You think that everything constitutes the current you. This means that your heart has become unstable. The efforts we made together in the past were destroyed. It’s extremely dangerous for a mental patient who is not at peace and decides to do something on the premise of the end of the world he knows very well. I think you should know what I’m talking about now."

"Mom, our only difference is whether the end of the world exists." I couldn't help but say.

"No, our difference lies in whether the very familiar end of the world exists." Dr. Ruan Li stared at me with a serious expression: "If in your story, the end of the world was caused by a meteorite falling, causing the first It might be better if there are n species extinctions."

"I don't understand." I was telling the truth.

"It's very simple. The common sense end of the world can be saved by common sense, but the very knowledgeable end of the world requires someone to do something very knowledgeable." Dr. Ruan Li asked me back: "You have seen me here In many cases, you know how bad things really are, but you just subconsciously don’t think about it. Human common sense has universal value and is a necessary condition for promoting social coexistence. Then, the opposite of extraordinary knowledge will naturally make People are separated from universal values ​​and social concepts, and all very conscious thoughts and behaviors are themselves characteristics of anti-social and anti-human tendencies."

"It's not that serious, Mom, I still know what universal values ​​and social concepts are. Don't my stories also have many manifestations of ‘sexual’ and positive energy?" I retorted.

"The basic structure of the story is based on the very knowledge, and the means to solve the very knowledge are also the very knowledge. This is the essence of the story. The plot of the people you are talking about is "sexual" and positive. , Is also full of very knowledgeable factors. A Chuan, haven’t you noticed? This story is full of extreme characters and thoughts, and a normal person can’t be so simple and extreme-these story roles are'colors' Except for you, it is more like a template for extracting a certain type of consciousness. You have explained it in your composition class. This way of writing will make the characters clear and representative. But, it It is the result of artistic processing—you treat the things that have been processed by art as things that exist in reality, and use such things as the basis to examine everything around you. What will happen to the result? I don’t need to say any more. Right?" said Dr. Ruan Li.

I understand what Dr. Ruan Li meant. Observing reality from an artistic perspective will only make reality "ugly". However, this "ugly" is just an ideological illusion. From a materialistic point of view, "world" is just a neutral word, it does not have the attributes of "ugliness" or "beautiful", it is just a mechanism, complex and indifferent, without a specific margin, therefore It cannot be fully observed in the true sense. Therefore, the so-called "the world is beautiful or ugly", the actual situation is "in the eyes of someone, the "world" is like this", without the premise of "in the eyes of someone", the meaning of the second half sentence cannot be established.

My doomsday story makes Dr. Ruan Li think that now I look at the reality around me from a negative attitude and perspective-if I say that everything around me is just an illusion, even Ruan is in front of me. Dr. Li is just a phantom of consciousness, which naturally proves the seriousness of my mental illness.

My position, my perception, make me unable to refute Dr. Ruan Li. The "reality" of Dr. Ruan Li and I are completely different things.

This is really the most impressive accident since I entered this repeater world.

"Before you can accept reality, I hope you don't run around randomly, understand?" Dr. Ruan Li said seriously: "The feeling of alienation, alienation and even rejection between you and the outside world will make you Have hallucinations, those hallucinations will make you have to use violence. Maybe in your eyes, everything is normal, but other people will not feel normal when they look at you."

Doctor Ruan Li made a lot of sense, and I was speechless at all. If I have to say that she has made any mistakes, it is just a disagreement with me in the perception of "common sense of the world". But I couldn't be sure if I showed the power of the magic pattern in front of her at this time, would it change her mind. This idea was subconsciously rejected when it came to mind. A strong intuition told me that it was useless to do so. Why was it useless? Believing intuition, I still didn't try.

The time is approaching zero o'clock in the night, and a series of treatments consume not physical energy, but ‘essence’. Both I and Dr. Ruan Li are really tired.

"Sleep at ease, A Chuan." Dr. Ruan Li packed up the materials, opened the'door' of the study and walked out, "Everything will be better, your condition has been repeated, but the past has not been solved one by one. Is it the same this time."

I sat on the chair until Dr. Ruan Li's footsteps completely disappeared, and then I got up and left the study and returned to my bedroom. Turning on the computer, I immediately received many email notifications, most of which came from Sakiya, Hakkei, Tomie, and Sakawa. However, there was no particularly important news. I replies casually, lying on the'bed', as if there are many things moving in my mind, but they are transparent, blurry, and have no shape, like clouds and mist, they will dissipate when I try to capture them, and they are The other place gathered quietly.

Wrapped by these unintelligible but existing thoughts, I don't know how long it has passed, when I am now, or why, when I was a little awake, I found myself standing on a long ladder. The head cannot be seen upwards, nor the tail downwards. The long stairs are only two meters wide, with deep and empty darkness outside the sides. The red'color' direction arrows are painted on the center line of the stairs, just like I just brushed it on, using very heavy paint, and it hasn't dried up yet.

The direction arrow is like telling me to go down. I didn't consider whether I should do this or not, my body was already moving, and I walked down. It seemed that after a long time, I was a little awake again, and suddenly realized that I was dreaming. And when I had the consciousness of "dream", all the ‘fog’ that hindered my thinking seemed to be blown away at this moment. I suddenly discovered that this long, headless and tailless staircase was filled with a gray ‘color’ fog. These gray mists are like spring water, just covering the knees, but they are quite deep.

This is an anomaly. Although it is impossible to judge whether it is caused by the defense mechanism of the repeater, whether it will be "mysterious" spread, and a mysterious phenomenon related to the electronic demon, but I am in a state of consciousness. "In the anomaly that is the main way of expression, it is certainly something. Moreover, judging from past experience, the ideological manifestations with "dreams" as the main body often turn into nightmares, especially when this kind of deep fog phenomenon is involved, some inexplicable situations will occur. For example, supernatural phenomena that cannot be explained by the cognition of rationality and sex.

This kind of abnormal environment often causes contacts to produce a lot of negative emotions in a short period of time. Sudden dangers will make the contacts too late to prepare. Moreover, they must meet certain requirements-this requirement is also It is often not logically'sex'-it can be separated. If you are lucky, the only thing that can give people comfort is that this kind of nightmare will not happen once "the death in the dream is reflected in the reality". In other words, dying two or three times in a nightmare will not produce irretrievable results.

Is this nightmare aimed at me personally, or is it a ‘spread’ anomaly on a larger scale? When I thought about it this way, light appeared in front of the seemingly endless stairs.

I walked into the light, and there was a dazzling white glow in front of me. When the light faded, what appeared before my eyes was a dark and dilapidated city scene. Darkness does not only refer to light. Although the top of the head is always densely covered with clouds and cannot feel the heat of the sun, the darkness is more prominent. It is a kind of sensory factors such as smell, vision, feeling, sound and so on. Atmosphere. The street is very quiet, as if there has been no people coming and going for a long time. When the wind blows, the flying confetti and the trash cans make people feel the decline here, and the shadows of the'yin' have enveloped the building in large areas. , But even in the invisible darkness, it is empty. There is no feeling of "being peeped by something" that often appeared in nightmares in the past. It just makes people feel that there is really nothing here.

Because of the emptiness and the silence, when there is a sound, even if it is slight, it becomes especially loud, and the sound is hollow, and there is no maliciousness or existence. Anything else that deliberately'stimulates' emotions. No one is afraid of the sudden noise in this silence, because there is no room for reverie in it. But it’s this kind of emptiness that makes me feel that something is swelling in my heart. That thing has been hidden deep in the deepest part of my mind in the past. It is the part that has been forgotten by instinct. It is like filling the emptiness of the outside world. Floating, rising, to break my head, jumped out.

This feeling is not pain in common sense, but it is more uncomfortable than any pain that the body can feel, and it is also extremely frightening.

Fear comes from the depths of people’s hearts, and external factors are just ‘inducing’ causes—this kind of cognition has become particularly vivid in this gloomy and dilapidated city. I endured this swelling deep in my heart, carefully observing the details around me, and only from the details can I deeply understand where the feeling of "ravaged" comes from. Although I know that this is a nightmare, the details of the scenery are not dim, but the nuances are'exposed' to the extreme. When you look closely, there is no sense of reality, like a picture that is too focused on meticulousness. But the paintings are extremely rigid.

The color of the whole city is thick and cold. I seem to be walking in a panoramic oil painting that wants to express extreme negative emotions. The scenes are both unreal and full of emptiness. I just feel that the mood of the whole person is more than usual. To be'excited'-I think the'excitement' of this kind of emotion is just an illusion, but under normal circumstances, there is too much information to fill the heart, but the emotional'wave' is covered up. But now, without the cover up, the emotion of'naked''waves' will make people feel extremely uncomfortable.

There is nothing here. I walked from the street to the end of the alley. The fog will change drastically within a range of 20 meters, and the color of the scenery 20 meters away will quickly become hazy. , There is only a general outline, but the mist within 20 meters is very thin, which can make people notice, but can't obscure the field of vision. Of course, these mists are also grayish. The process of changing the store from blur to clear is very abrupt, and it is obvious that the turning point of the distance of 20 meters can be felt.

I mentioned the trash cans, and there was a clanging sound on the street. These trash cans are as light as paper. The trash that leaks out when the trash can rolls is like leaves blown up by the wind in mid-air. Wandering for a while, as if their gravity was only one-tenth of the usual, but I didn't feel the change in gravity myself. In contrast, the trees rooted on both sides of the street are hard, so hard to make people feel that it is not a growing wood, but something fixed in the space. This weird feeling is only in You can only feel it after you have tested how hard it is, but you can't tell the clues just by looking at it. In addition to the first time, some shops can be entered, and the walls and'doors' and windows of some shops seem to be tightly fixed to the space, making people feel that no matter how hard they are, it is impossible to open and destroy them-this part A store is like a background with a texture that is forbidden in a video game and has no substantive content.

No, in other words, the nightmare city I'm in now is like a video game scene made by hand. If you look at it this way, you will feel that the anomaly here is no longer an anomaly.

This thought reminds me of electronic demons. Although there is no evidence for the time being, isn't it a good match for electronic demons to appear in a nightmare like a video game scene? Perhaps, this nightmare city will become the source of the spread of electronic demons.

I came to the bottom of a city map and finally determined that this city is based on "Las Vegas City", and the English place names on it have been written very clearly. However, at this moment, I seem to be the only person who came to this nightmare Las Vegas. Of course, the scene of this city is very large. If there are people coming, it is likely to be scattered in different corners, but it cannot be maintained in this empty state forever, otherwise, it has no meaning at all. ——This nightmare Las Vegas must have meaning, and this meaning will also be reflected in the way of "people".

After I read each place name on the map, the light in the sky seemed to be brighter. Although it was still dark in general, this change was particularly noticeable in the emptiness of the ‘color’ of the scenery. When I looked up, I saw that the ‘yin’ cloud was blown away by the wind a little bit, and the higher part ‘showed’ another ‘color’ of the scenery. It was not a natural scene such as the sky, the sun, and clouds, but a cold and hard silhouette of an artificial creation.

"Las Vegas?" Although in such a nightmare, any weirdness is not surprising, but the things I saw suddenly reminded me of more things. I’m sure I’m not mistaken. The other end of the sky is another Las Vegas city. Although it takes less time to see clearly because of the relationship between the “cloud” and the distance, it’s better than where I am. The ground is more dilapidated, and the scene like a ruin overlaps with the scene I saw when I rushed into Las Vegas with a large group of troops.

I look over there at this time, there is a strong sense of sight, just like at that time, I was standing at the corner of the ruined building, looking at the upside-down city in the sky. Maybe, where I am now, is the upside-down city we saw at that time? And in order to reach here, the upside-down building that we climbed is connected to the ruined building, somewhere here? I recalled the approximate location of the building, and started swiftly rushing away.

If the actual situation is consistent with my guess, then the behavior of climbing the building at that time is actually the process of entering this nightmare scene from the external reality. The conscious dream and the non-conscious city are connected in a weird way, which can fully explain why everyone in the team failed to climb to the top of the seemingly not far away, but was troublesome. Some of them were directly involved in the world of repeaters like me. Another group of members led by Rivets entered the ruling bureau through other methods ~IndoMTL.com~ and used it as a springboard to find a way to enter the world of repeaters. .

If the upside-down city we saw at that time was this ideological nightmare city, if the electronic demon is really part of the security mechanism of this repeater, and the "mysterious" proliferation that has appeared in the repeater world, And the spread of the electronic demon in speculation is as expected, and there is indeed a relationship between the electronic nightmare and this nightmare city. These various factors have been determined or are just conjectures. If they are all regarded as facts, then this nightmare , There is a 90% chance that **** is the core of the repeater.

No, it’s not very appropriate to describe it. Perhaps it should be said that the core of the repeater "the spirit integration device" exists anywhere, but it can be really touched, and it can be used as a kind of "accessible The place where the form of "object" appears is here.

Although the name of the'Essence' God Integration Device and the Personality Preservation Device are similar, their expressions should be different. Otherwise, the competition for repeaters should be more intense and direct instead of what it is now In this way, even if you enter the world of repeaters, you still have no idea how to start. The reason why the Rivets affirmed that they must enter the world of repeaters before they can implement strategies for Las Vegas repeaters. That also means that they each have a repeater’s network ball and zone 51, and learn from themselves. The characteristics of the repeater I have, I have a deep understanding of the "must do this" point.