Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1157: Ghost Buildings

If you don’t enter the world of repeaters and cannot touch the mysterious mechanism of repeaters, you may not be able to enter this nightmare world, and you will not be able to really get in touch with the spiritual integration device-if I have not been directly involved in the repeater In the world of robots, then, the rivets and their roundabout way of passing through the ruling bureau is correct. They have really made a considerable degree of preparation for the troubles we have to face. The relevant information is also obtained from the Doomsday Truth Sect. (Top) (dot) novel..om

Through the Las Vegas building that seems to be connected to the nightmare world, it should be impossible to directly reach the nightmare world. That connection may be just an illusion, because I am standing on the street in the nightmare world and looking over my head. In the upside-down city of China, I didn’t see any connected places—maybe it’s just invisible, but I’m more inclined. There is no such channel at all. What I have there is just a direct access to the world of repeaters. It’s just that The team is not clear about this channel. The situation of me, John Niu and Zuo Chuan is just a special case. Of course, there may also be people who know this channel and quietly entered the world of repeaters in an active way. Carmen should have come in through the channels of Doomsday Shinrikyo, but I have not forgotten that he mentioned in his words at the time that there are mysterious experts who use a certain channel to enter the world of repeaters faster than the team, and these Humans, like Carmen, have always been preparing for the spread of "mystery".

So, people arriving in the world of Las Vegas repeaters should be divided into three parts: Doomsday Shinrikyo, and the joint team of the 51st district (the 51st district has a small proportion, just some remnants and defeated generals. ), and a group of mysterious experts acting independently. I was in the second category before, but now, maybe I am more inclined to the third category.

I quickly found the building that I climbed to reach the upside-down city when I first entered Las Vegas. Sure enough, as expected, there is nothing special about it in this nightmare. What we saw in the ruins of Las Vegas at that time, perhaps a phantom, a trap. Although it is not clear why the Nazis arranged this way. What is the significance of this "visible but inaccessible upside-down city scene", or it is just a lack of technology, in short, from the results, we still achieved a necessary part of the strategy plan—— Enter the world of repeaters.

At this time, I entered the nightmare city. Based on the above assumptions, I probably entered the second necessary part of the strategy plan. In the time before and after, people should arrive here one after another. Maybe not just mystery experts, even ordinary people will be involved. Time can prove everything. Before more changes occur, all I can do is to wait and see the changes for the time being.

I wandered in the nightmare city for a long time and wanted to run into something. Whether it is human or inhuman, whether it is a mystery expert or an ordinary person, or it is a monster and a demon. It's better than staying alone in this empty, lonely and deserted city, clueless. It's better to be bored. However, before finding those things, I suddenly woke up. Without warning, the scene in the nightmare, and everything I saw when I suddenly opened my eyes, produced a strong sense of contradiction. However, this feeling of "waking up" was strong enough to make me remember that everything I experienced in the nightmare before was really just a "dream". The ceiling that I see at this time is the more real thing-no, maybe I can only say that it is relatively real... No, it should be, in this doomsday illusion, whether it is the outside world or the world of repeaters, China No matter the nightmare made in the relay world, everyone is the same thing. None of this can be said to be completely false, nor can it be called real.

I began to feel that the distinction between "reality" and "illusion" is becoming more and more blurred. I also know that this is something that can't be helped. I am not even sure about the authenticity of "hospital reality". How clearly can the situation of the doomsday illusion be divided? When I think this way, I feel very exhausted. Even if the clock has reached ten o'clock the next morning, I should have slept for nine hours in terms of time. Even if dreaming means that the quality of sleep is not high, it is still There is no such a heavy feeling of exhaustion.

My mind seems to be blocked by something, and even breathing is a bit difficult, as if the discomfort from a nightmare was brought out after I woke up.

If Dr. Ruan Li knew that I was going to have this nightmare, and felt this way, the decision she made to ban the foot before is undoubtedly a foresight. However, even if it was just a mistake, it made me no longer have the feeling of resistance that I felt last night. I know that my current state is indeed not good. This kind of "badness" is caused by nightmares, but part of the cause of nightmares is also caused by me. From the perspective of Dr. Ruan Li, this must be a further manifestation of my "deterioration of mental state", and her view, from the perspective of doomsday syndrome, is not completely nonsense.

After all, the doomsday illusion and everything in the doomsday illusion, including the story surrounding the repeater, and the "nightmare" I made, are the mapping of the patient's condition of doomsday syndrome and the state of consciousness, so am I Patients with Doomsday Syndrome, then, "Because I am a mental patient, my condition deteriorated for some reason, so I will have nightmares, and later because of this nightmare, my spirit will get worse and worse." "Because I am a mental patient, so Only then will you see those weird hallucinations and produce all kinds of delusions" and so on, is also extremely correct.

Doctor Ruan Li plays the role of a psychologist and an ordinary person. She observes things from the angle that I observe things is completely different. There are many ideas that have diverged from the beginning, but this does not mean that she The conclusion reached is completely wrong. Although I feel that Dr. Ruan Li’s decision based on her own position has caused me a lot of trouble, but in many judgments, her views are more simple, or more realistic.

Of course, I can regard my current abnormal state as a series of negative phenomena caused by "mysterious" proliferation and nightmares. I think that it is because of a dangerous situation that it affects me and that I have to do something, and that it is natural to understand the current situation in this way. But this does not mean. Dr. Ruan Li’s own conclusion, “Because Gao Chuan is a mental patient, would he see those things and look at the world from that wrong perspective. It is not the world that is wrong, but Gao Chuan himself”’s conclusion is wrong.

The most fundamental difference between us is:

"Does the end of the world really exist."

and--

"It is the end of the world that caused Gao Chuan's own mental illness." Or, "Because Gao Chuan is a mental patient, he feels that the world is coming to an end. What he claims to see is just because he can no longer distinguish reality, hallucinations, delusions, and nightmares."

In the above differences, the conclusion that "Gao Chuan is a mental patient" is the same.

Therefore, the various conclusions drawn by Dr. Ruan Li based on "Gao Chuan is a mental patient" are also what I must face and accept. If it is simply "Dr. Ruan Li is wrong, she doesn't understand me". Would make me feel stupid. In this long and unexpected conscious adventure, I have not tried enough to look at my own problems from a perspective similar to that of Dr. Ruan Li. And the conclusions drawn from doing so are also full of tempting, which makes people feel real and relieved——

Indeed, if I think it is happening, I have to do these things. It's just my psychiatric delusion, and the real me. Actually living in an ordinary and normal world, then, in this "delusion", the tragic things that happened must be false, right? It has never happened. From this perspective. Mae, Sakuya, Hakjing, Marceau, Shise, and Dorothy may still be alive and well. At least, it should be better than what they encountered in the delusion of "the end of the world caused by the virus." Much better.

But I finally abandoned this idea. A long time ago, the reason for abandoning this idea may also be mixed with a lot of selfishness, such as:

——In fact, I am longing for this kind of exciting life. Although it is not completely beautiful, it is full of heroism and makes myself feel strongly that there is something in this world that I must bear. There are also things that only oneself can do.

——Even if it is the end of the world, I am a special one. In this link of fate, I shoulder an important mission.

Thinking like this makes me reluctant to admit that "the end of the world" is just a delusion, and it also makes me think that "hospital reality" is equally unrealistic. Yes, at first, these selfish thoughts were probably an important factor that prevented me from denying Dr. Ruan Li's perspective.

However, it is not anymore.

I hope that all these are my own delusions, the delusions of a mental patient. In fact, the real Mae and the others, the filers, the colleagues of the cyberball, and the doomsday patients all over the world, are all in an ordinary day. Live well in the environment of The "virus" that causes all abnormalities is just a "fiction" created under negative emotions based on my mental illness. Then, when I "recognize reality", everything will end-it will be a world where no one is dying, but I must live as a mental patient. But so what? I will not become more miserable, because even in this doomsday world, I am also a mental patient. On the contrary, if I only need to admit that "everything is my own mental delusion", and all the pain, abnormality and loss that I have seen and carried on my back can disappear, it may not be a happy ending.

However, it can no longer be done now.

Because, I’m scared, I can’t tell whether all this is a delusion or reality-if the "virus" is real, and everything triggered by the "virus" is real, then, admit that "everything is The delusion of a mental patient" will truly lose everything. But I just couldn't find any evidence to prove that "all these are just the delusions of mental patients."

Without evidence, I cannot deny the possibility that what is happening now is "real". Therefore, we must regard it as "real" and do more things. Because, doing this is the least harmful among all the trade-offs.

Assuming that the "truth" I regard as "truth" is really just "delusion", then everything I do has no effect on the true "truth". It will not harm the happy, beautiful and ordinary lives of the "True Zhenjiang" and others, but I am the only one who is trapped and struggling in this endless apocalyptic reincarnation. Perhaps, in the eyes of others, this is a very miserable ending, but for me. But it is very beautiful. I am alone in sinking. For me who decides to give everything to save them, what is there to be afraid of?

However, assuming that "everything is the delusion of a mental patient" is the real delusion, ignoring the current abnormality caused by the "virus" and immersing in that delusion. There will definitely be things that make oneself extremely regretful.

So, in fact, I can no longer face the possibility that "everything is the delusion of a mental patient". I am afraid that one day I cannot bear the temptation to believe in this possibility, and will involve Sakiya, Hakjing, Marceau, Shise and Dorothy... and "Jiang" and they will have unfathomable consequences.

The perspective of Dr. Ruan Li is like a sweet poison to me. However, I cannot deny its possibility. It's just that we can't face up to this possibility. It's not that it doesn't exist, but it's just buried deep in my heart, and it has never been abandoned. So, when this possibility is presented to me in the form of "judgments and conclusions made by Dr. Ruan Li as an ordinary person from this perspective," it is a compromise situation.

At least, I don't hate this situation. Because of Dr. Ruan Li's observation of me. For me, it is another way to prove that "everyone is living well".

I took off the vest I didn't know when I was wet with sweat. The temperature maintained by the air conditioner gradually made me feel some coolness. I changed into a set of pajamas, opened the curtains, and the room suddenly brightened. The house is very quiet, because I am alone, so it looks a little empty, compared with that nightmare city. But it is full of the breath of life, which makes people clearly feel that they are not alone. Wake up from the nightmare, I just feel that I am more sensitive to this kind of breath. There are breakfasts on the table that have cooled down and need to be reheated and Dr. Ruan Li’s message, there is no important information. It was to tell me not to leave the house as much as possible. When she went out, she had already locked the door.

I tried it, and it turned out that it couldn't be opened from the inside. The window is still open. In terms of ordinary people, there is no need to care that someone can get out of the window, because the outside is a smooth and vertical wall, which is extremely high from the ground, which is not something ordinary people can climb. However, for "Magic Weave Envoy Gao Chuan", it is not challenging at all.

However, since Dr. Ruan Li has done so much work, I am not going to go against her wishes unless there is an abnormality outside that requires me to come out in person. Now, let me take a break. I calmly took the breakfast out of the microwave and enjoyed the daily life of ordinary people after the nightmare. I suddenly found that I was staying at home, and there was nothing I really wanted to do. Maybe I can watch movies, read novels, and study the fighting equipment that I will use in the future, but I just turn on the speakers, listen to the jazz music collected by Dr. Ruan Li, and sit quietly on the sofa.

After a while, I suddenly heard footsteps ringing behind me. I looked back and found that there was nothing. At this moment, the sound of footsteps changed to another place, as if they were on the other side of the bedroom. I listened carefully, and the footsteps disappeared again. If you put it in the eyes of ordinary people, this is probably a suspicious situation, because in common sense logic, this voice should not appear, but for me, it is already accustomed to it. The anomaly surrounds me, this kind of life seems to have been a long time ago, but, including the doomsday illusion that I was born in, and the time in the hospital reality, it is only one or two years. It's just like stormy waves, full of unexpected, vicious, and turning experiences, which gives people the illusion of time. In the world of consciousness, this kind of situation is actually very common when there are violent fluctuations on the level of consciousness.

I knocked **** the coffee table, and the sound drove out the abnormality for a while, as if the thief was frightened away, but after a while, the footsteps rang again, this time very close. I suddenly realized that from the first time I heard this sound of footsteps to this time, I heard the sound of footsteps again. Although the directions and positions are different three times, the distance is getting closer and closer to myself. The goal seems to be me, I can't help but think so. The next moment, there was a distorted noise from the stereo, as if it were going to be broken, and an impetuous emotion emerged from the bottom of my heart. It was similar to that produced in a nightmare. What kind of huge emotion was deep in my heart. Rolling and swelling everywhere, as if to break through the feeling of the body that detained them.

I started to have tinnitus and dizziness, and my nostrils seemed to be burning. I wiped it and there were blood stains on the back of my hand. The thing is right behind me, it feels close, but it's hard to tell how close it is. A strong instinct made me choose not to look back, but to launch a quick sweep for the first time to get away from the things behind me. I broke into the study and did not close the door. The time did not even pass for a second. At this time, I turned my head and looked at the place where the anomaly existed, only to find that there was nothing there. However, the sound returned to normal, and the blues jazz sang lowly, as if it had never been disrupted, and the swelling emotions in my heart were gone. I raised my hand and looked at the back of my hand. The blood stains on it proved that the previous encounter was not an illusion.

There is really some kind of weirdness here. It may hurt me unintentionally or intentionally, but in any case, it is not a good thing to get along with. I would rather believe that this weirdness is full of offensiveness. I don't know what it is, but there is an uncoordinated atmosphere in the house, as if it suddenly became cold. The original warm and bright tone has undergone a sudden change, and it has become that I can't help but think of the gloomy gray tone in my nightmare. This home, suddenly, has become a "haunted house" commonly seen in occultism.

Even if the bright sunshine outside the window is not blocked by curtains, when it arrives in the room, it seems to lose its vitality. The dim feeling is reminiscent of the dusk in the mountains. Large shadows spread on the ground, so thick that things seem to turn things into two feelings of "a little dark" and "very dark", and there are only these two feelings.

I can’t feel the source of the anomaly, but logically speaking, it should be caused by the weird sound of footsteps. The problem is that I can’t see the weird essence, and I can’t find the solution to the current problem for the time being. The easiest way to deal with is to open the window and jump out, but I don’t want to be so embarrassed in my own home. I subconsciously touched my waist, but suddenly realized that the knife-shaped critical weapon was not by my side. Moreover, what makes people even more concerned is that I didn't realize until now that when I returned to this repeater world, the knife-shaped critical weapon was no longer by my side.

I'm wearing pajamas, and I don't have any weapons to defend myself and attack~ IndoMTL.com~ even a knife. The weirdness is still nearby, but I still try to walk towards my bedroom, and I believe in the props in my room more than the props in the kitchen. Moreover, the sound of footsteps sounded inside before, and I wondered if it would also be looking for something there.

The atmosphere has become gloomy and weird, and the unreasonable haze of the environment is enough to prove that the weirdness has not yet left. Because it is possible to be attacked at any time, and this kind of attack is unrecognizable, which also means that quick sweep cannot allow me to dodge before being attacked. This kind of mental attack has the flavor of the city of Las Vegas in a nightmare. I suspect that this thing comes from the nightmare. Perhaps it is precisely because I have entered that place that it can reach this side.

If this speculation is true, then once a steady stream of people enter that nightmare in the future, there will also be a steady stream of weird escaping from it. Is this situation also a sign of the expansion of "mystery"? I don't believe it at all. The weird attack on me at this time has nothing to do with me. In occultism, if something weird is brought out from a weird place, it itself proves that there is a clear and direct relationship between that weird thing and related people. Maybe this kind of relationship will be concealed by too much information and emotion, but it must exist, and the ten phenomena of this kind of relationship reflect the weird nature.

In this world, there is no accident for no reason. (To be continued...)