Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1168: Luoshan City Textbook

Dr. Ruan Li used the camera installed at home to take an impactful image. I don’t want to doubt the authenticity of this image. I would rather just think so. In Dr. Ruan Li’s observation-no matter what she uses What kind of method is different from the world I have observed. And there must be some profound reason, even if I don’t know why. If everything that Dr. Ruan Li proved is to prove that the "mystery" does not exist, and this is the counterattack of this Las Vegas repeater against intruders, then, regarding my previous call of electronic demon Speculations about procedures and nightmares seem to be somewhat untenable.

However, since I believe that my guess is close to the truth, the existence of Dr. Ruan Li is particularly special because of her words and deeds.

On this night, it took me a long time to sort out my thoughts. The impact of Dr. Ruan Li’s words and proofs finally brought me back into the philosophy and outlook on life that I used to maintain my personality. middle. When I think back to the shock and confusion of my thinking, I can't help sweating and deeply realize that if the chaos at the time were more serious, maybe I would become a lunatic who denies myself. Today, I am still a mental patient, but at least the mental patient will not deny myself.

This is the most bizarre and inexplicable attack I have encountered since entering the world of repeaters. If I regard this as an ideological attack, then the nature of this attack involves the wisdom of life. So know the foundation of your own existence. For ordinary people. Such attacks are often ineffective, because ordinary people take self-existence for granted and do not think about it. Just like when walking, you don’t think about every nerve, how each muscle cooperates, and what kind of signals are released from the brain to make the action of “walking” hold true. If someone tries to pursue the fundamental mechanism involved in "walking" itself, trying to control it little by little with subjective will, probably at the beginning of doing so. I'll fall down all of a sudden.

Knowing the self, involving thinking and inquiring about self-existence. It is like trying to understand and control every detail of "walking". When the consciousness activity reaches this level and cannot truly fully control this activity, it is like disassembling a car into parts without the ability to reassemble it. The result is naturally extremely terrible. I was shocked at the time. It's like when dissecting myself, there is a power that denies my method of re-assembling myself.

And this kind of shock, of course, will only take effect when you dissect yourself. For people who do not think about the rationality and existence of their own personality at all, this impact is meaningless. For ordinary people, thinking and even questioning the rationality and existence of their own personality is a meaningless behavior in itself-because of the behavior of ordinary people. It is generally in line with the cognition that "existence is reasonable" without thinking about why "existence is reasonable". so. Even if there is a "existing but unreasonable" situation, ordinary people will turn a blind eye to this "existing but unreasonable" situation and instinctively use the idea of ​​"seemingly unreasonable, but it must be reasonable, but they can't recognize it." Screen all negatives.

People's cognition of self, maintenance of self-personality. It is the most fundamental instinct born after knowing the self. Looking at the shock I received from this perspective, I couldn't help but feel deeply afraid of the source of this shock. Because, although I am a mental patient and cannot restrain the analysis of the rationality and existence of my personality, I don’t think that this kind of behavior will be so frequent when I am normal, and it should be like most ordinary people. In the same way, look at your own existence with a "taken for granted" attitude.

However, I am a mental patient, and my mental illness is part of the doomsday syndrome caused by the "virus", which also means that it is very likely that this behavior of questioning oneself is the vicious manifestation of the doomsday syndrome. Part-I have more evidence and more associations about this, and even the reason why I have been using the word "possibly" is just to fight the deep fear in my heart, and I don't want to admit it. It's the fact.

If the shock at the time was not accidental, but a malicious necessity, it means that the source of this shock was not "Dr. Ruan Li" itself, but a kind of active interference The existence of self-awareness level. What is such an existence? In fact, I also have my own answer-it must be a "virus".

The erosion of the "virus" on the infected person has never been only reflected in the patient's **, but also in the patient's consciousness. In my cognition, "consciousness" is a high-dimensional manifestation, which is a form of higher dimensionality than "**". Then, the "virus" that can be related to the source of self-consciousness cannot be observed, which is just a matter of course. That’s it—it may have a higher dimension than human consciousness. This is the most terrifying part of it. In theory, the unified theory in science should be able to explain everything, including theories of every dimension, However, because its base point is too high, it was born in human consciousness. Human consciousness will naturally restrict the formation of the whole theory, and it is impossible for humans to think about the theory from an inhuman perspective. This is also fundamentally, The real formation of the unified theory was rejected.

In the past, "Gao Chuan", Dorothy, and Seiye have always planned to use "superstring theory" and other theories that can become a unified theory to fight against "viruses" and solve all problems caused by "viruses". The question came, but, can the theory that was born in and limited by human consciousness really fight against existence beyond human consciousness?

In this evening, I finally clearly outlined the worries and anxiety that have been hidden in my heart. I had vaguely realized this in the past, but I couldn’t form a clear outline, and even expected myself to be wrong, but now I can no longer tell myself that it’s hosted by Super Color and Dorothy. There is still the possibility of success for that plan.

Although, super color and Dorothy may be in terms of self-existence and ideology. They have entered the "inhuman" stage, but they are used to maintain the foundation of the plan. It is still the "superstring theory" or "universal theory" born in human consciousness and cognition. Then, I began to feel that they have no chance of victory at all.

Human consciousness can only cope with the dimensions of consciousness and the lower dimensions. Humans have always believed that consciousness has no limit and can expand indefinitely. But this view is actually wrong. Because, in the concept of human consciousness. Even if it is not mentioned, there is already an implicit limitation, that is "human".

Yes, human beings are aware of and proud of self-consciousness. It is naturally confined to the category of "human beings". For non-human consciousness, humans themselves have expressed the idea of ​​"powerlessness" in many philosophies. And human beings have not thought about it. When non-human consciousness is higher than human consciousness, it is just that the kind of transcendence consciousness is beyond the imagination of natural limited human consciousness. It can only vaguely propose such a one. concept.

Suppose that human consciousness is already the highest dimensional manifestation of human existence. So. Not only consciousness, but the entire existence form, a non-human existence that transcends human consciousness. How can human beings fight against theories that are born from their own consciousness and are naturally limited by human consciousness?

The only thing that can fight against monsters is monsters—this is the thought expressed more or less in most occult studies. I couldn't understand the past, but now it seems. This is probably the simplest concept of dealing with "abnormal", "mysterious", "unknown" and "monster". It is also a universally valid concept. Perhaps there are some mystical societies suggesting that "humans can fight against monsters", but in these hints, there is a premise in itself-that is, the existence of those monsters does not exceed the height of the existence of human consciousness. This statement is more crude. , That is, "the existence of monsters must at least be within the scope of human imagination." The "mystery" possessed by these monsters is also limited by the premise of "human imagination".

However, the concept of "mystery", in its simplest state, does not have this premise, which also means that humans have tried to describe something that does not exist in their imagination. In the occult, to deal with this kind of thing is to rely on "luck" and "wisdom" to defeat the "monster" with the help of the power of the "monster".

Now, "virus" seems to be such a simple concept that is absolutely in line with "mystery". It exists in an unimaginable way, an unimaginable existence.

The inability of humans to observe it is the fundamental prerequisite for all cognition of it. If the observation seems to be its existence, then you have to go back and re-judgment what you have observed based on this fundamental premise.

I had such a vague concept a long time ago: "Jiang" and "Virus" cannot be directly observed in the "Hospital Reality", and only through their influence on the "Doomsday Syndrome" Features, to determine whether they exist. In the doomsday illusion, you can further feel the existence and influence of "Jiang" and "Virus".

In the past, I think it was because in the "hospital reality", the high dimensionality of consciousness was limited by the dimension of **. Therefore, when the patient passed certain methods, or like the past Gaochuan, the consciousness was directly Lead into the doomsday illusion, or collapse into it, release the **** of **, expose your consciousness, and become the cornerstone of the doomsday illusion, so that you can observe and recognize "jiang" and "virus" from a higher dimension.

It seems that this kind of thinking is not wrong, but it still has its limits. That is, in the past, I always thought that I observed, recognized or felt the "Jiang" and "Virus". Even in these feelings, observations and cognitions, "Jiang" and "Virus" were not a complete manifestation. It also means that I have found a way to get in touch with them. However, now I no longer have such naive thoughts.

Because, due to the limitations of consciousness, although I have found that point, it does not mean that I can expand from this point to the surface. The channels that I think do not exist at all. From the very beginning, my contact with "Jiang" and "virus" did not have the possibility of extending to all of them.

"Jiang" and "Virus" are incomprehensible, incomprehensible, or even inaccessible, at least they cannot be contacted actively, and even if they are contacted, they are definitely not in the way they can imagine, but in the process of contact. In, the perceptions and feelings produced are all distorted. Wrong, confined to self-consciousness-I used to have such thoughts. However, in instinctive consciousness, it is not regarded as the most fundamental premise.

Even in the most fearful and desperate times, I instinctively suppressed this "absolutely unknowable, unsolvable, and untouchable" idea. And trying to drag their existence from the height of "human consciousness". Deny the word "absolute" in your thoughts.

"Unknowable, unsolvable, untouchable" and "absolutely unknowable, unsolvable. Untouchable", they look very similar, a little vague, and can be regarded as one meaning, but it is really necessary to distinguish one clearly, two meanings There is definitely a fundamental difference.

I just subconsciously reject the meaning of the word "absolute" and reject the reality surrounding myself. The "absolute" of existence. In human consciousness, "absolute" is an abominable concept, because. It is trying to describe the limits of human consciousness. Similarly, human beings do not want to admit that their imagination has an end, and do not want to admit that there is something "absolutely unimaginable" on the dark side. Humanity. The concept of "darkness" is limited to "darkness that can be illuminated one day." Limit "unimaginable" to "imagination that one day can prove", and deny "absolute darkness" and "absolutely unimaginable", even if human beings have created the word "absolute".

This is contradictory, but understandable.

However, now, I must admit, or in order to achieve something, I must think so, "Jiang" and "Virus" are such an absolute existence that I do not want to admit and must face.

So, I felt extremely grateful for my plan to revolve around "Jiang".

Only monsters are the only way to deal with monsters. In the "absolute" sense, it is the only way to deal with monsters. It may be frustrating, but if this is true, then the past plans led by Gaochuan, Shise and Dorothy will definitely no longer have a chance of success even if it is one in ten million. And my plan has also become the only seedling that can succeed.

If I say that before this night, I can still recognize another action of mine, thinking that another plan I implemented and my plan exist at the same time, which is a manifestation of "not putting eggs in the same basket" . So, now is the time to deny this idea.

I have to look at the other project of me, sex, and Dorothy with the most demanding mentality. Perhaps, this is cruel, and in their opinion, it is also very extreme, like a madman, but when I thoroughly realized that when what I had to deal with was an absolute monster, I couldn't change it anymore.

I know very well that between "the facts are not as bad as I thought, I am scaring myself" and "the facts are as I think, or even worse", I chose the latter. Because between these two ideas, there is no possibility of compatibility and simultaneous response. It is impossible for me to sway between the two, or make a plan to deal with both at the same time.

So, I must also bear the hope and despair that this choice will bring.

Because I have a clearer understanding than in the past, the pressure I feel is heavier than in the past. This pressure made it hard for me to breathe, and it made me lie in bed, tossing and turning around all night, hard to fall asleep. So, I didn't have nightmares anymore.

However, even I was surprised that on the next day, my spirit was not a little sluggish, but more sober. Obviously feel the negative impact of pressure, but this negative impact seems to be transformed into a huge force to maintain oneself through some invisible channel.

This is not normal at all. However, the abnormal situation has not existed from the beginning?

In the morning, without telling Dr. Ruan Li, I communicated with Sakuya, Bajing, and Zuojiang respectively. When talking about Fujiang, they did not see Fujiang as shown in the video. Look like. They acknowledged the existence of Fu Jiang both in terms of words and attitudes. This makes it even more obvious that the images taken by Dr. Ruan Li and the camera are extremely contradictory and weird, especially when I confirmed that Dr. Ruan Li did not lie and the images have not been modified. Next, it is even more difficult to identify which party is correct.

Perhaps, both parties are correct, but the same thing, in the observation of different people, shows different manifestations-this also proves that "Jiang" is a weird thing, and It proved that all the observation results of "Jiang" based on itself. Neither will be correct, and any feelings, imaginations, and thoughts directed at it will deviate from its reality.

So. All the plans in the human imagination-including me, the color and Dorothy-should be invalid. But, it doesn't matter, I still love this "it".

"It's a terrible story." Another day later, Sakiya and Hakkei saw the thoughts of that night that I had written in their notes. They always say that they believe that I am a "mystery expert", but they still don't believe in the authenticity of the adventure stories I narrate. Even if the "mystery" once showed off around them. However, compared to things like the electronic demon summoning system. Based on my own experiences and thoughts, the "adventure stories" I wrote still seem too difficult, absurd, and weird, even if it contains their names and the names of people they are familiar with. However, they still feel that these stories contain the hallucinations that I had when I was sick, as well as many story-like modifications.

Sakuya and Hakkei believe that I am a mental patient, and believe that even if the story I wrote is true, it is only because "the mental patient has encountered mystery", but they can’t figure out what is true. mystery. What is my own illusion. Although, when playing together, when talking about "mystery" together. They will not discriminate against me just because I am a mental patient, but they will not fully believe what I say, the truth in the story.

"A Chuan, it seems that you are really very sick." Ba Jing saw the end with a slightly ridiculous smile. He lowered his voice and chanted like a drama: "Even so. I still love it."

"I didn't expect Miss Tomie, who is not even a human being." Sakiya couldn't help but laughed, "Agawa, if you write like this, won't Miss Tomie be angry?"

"I don't know, maybe not." I was ridiculous to their ridicule, because they didn't want to believe the truthfulness of this story, so no matter what I say is useless, let alone I am a spirit Patients, normal people don’t believe in the bizarre stories told by mental patients.

What's more, the "mysteries" I have recorded in the story, especially "Jiang" and "Virus", even those who have been in contact with mysterious people, can hardly accept their authenticity.

For me, this story is a record of the truth, but for people including Sakiya and Hakkei, it is probably just a "weird and weird story written by a mental patient."

Sakuya and Hakkei often read my story, but this does not mean that they like this story. On the contrary, their attitude towards this story is psychologically speaking, it is subconsciously repulsive to this story. . They don't feel happy when they tease me. I can see this from the details of their expressions. They are really worried about my condition.

Fu Jiang also often reads my stories. Dr. Ruan Li still can’t see her existence, and from Dr. Ruan Li’s perspective, no one except me can see Fu Jiang’s existence. She has tried many methods to prevent me from contacting this "invisible friend". "In other words, I hope that through treatment, I will no longer have such a "non-existent friend". However, a week of peaceful time passed by, obviously without any effect. Fu Jiang would come home every day. She always had a meaningful smile when she saw my story about IndoMTL.com and other "Jiang" and "virus". She never expressed her views on the story itself, but, contrary to Sakuya and Hakkei, she liked the story. Moreover, she has been a reader since the beginning of this story.

I still remember very clearly that when we first met and faced the terrible "mystery" together for the first time, she encouraged me to write a story about my own experience. Now, the length of this story is amazing, and it is getting more and more weird and more difficult to understand. Whenever I look at this story, I always feel that it is becoming another thing instead of just a story.

It started to stir the reader’s brains. The seemingly wonderful first article is like a huge trap-like in the "mystery", a kind of ancient monster opens its mouth and pretends to be The cave, waiting for the treasure hunters to walk in by themselves, and then swallow these people in one bite.

Yes, I think this story has begun to have a distorted mystery since it was written, and the story itself has also been distorted by this distorted mystery into a certain abnormal manifestation.

I even worried that it would harm readers, so I don't want to show it to Saki Ye, Ba Jing, and Dr. Ruan Li. However, Sakuya, Bajing, and Dr. Ruan Li disapproved of my concerns and thought it was just a delusion of persecution caused by my mental illness. To be continued