Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1204: Infection deepening
Although I don't know that the human figures in fast food restaurants are made up of human subconscious elements, their appearance and attack methods are similar to the sorrowful phenomenon in occultism. It is as if there is an invisible force rolling up sharp tableware. It is not a physical force. You can't feel the effect of the force field at the scene. There is only a sudden impact without warning that drives the airflow to wind up the hurricane. In the blink of an eye, there was a mess in the fast food restaurant, and it was not only me who was destroying it. The disappearing human figures seem to be transformed into an invisible form, and even the chain judgment cannot be observed. It makes people think of the description of the power of the mind in the occult, as if these human figures themselves are the embodiment of this invisible power. This is just an image metaphor. In fact, it is probably not the case. I thought in my heart that the KY3000's barrage shot in all directions, shooting down all the dangerous objects trying to get close to me on the spot.
Fortunately, although the existence of these human figures is weird, [猪_猪_岛] novels are very old-fashioned in their attack methods. It is not that it is a substance in itself to gain lethality. Compared with their own forms of existence, this method is undoubtedly rudimentary, just like aliens who have the power to cross the galaxy and still insist on using stone tools as weapons. From the perspective of occult, this imbalance is obviously deliberate, which proves that this fast-food restaurant serves as a singular point that connects the "surface" and "deep" of nightmare Las Vegas, even if there are natural factors. , And more are still man-made means of transformation, implementing the ideas of the people behind the scenes.
I became convinced that from being attacked by those suspicious soldiers, until I locked the remote observer. Entering this distorted place through a fast food restaurant is indeed guided by the people behind the scenes. Perhaps, the other party had prepared several hands from the beginning, and my choice was in line with one of his preparations. What embodies is not the enemy’s prophetic wisdom, but based on the enemy’s understanding of me. Detailed and mysterious planning and adequate preparation.
I think this is not the style of the Nazis.
So, are you acting with the Mercenary Association? Or is it what the doomsday truth cult does? I have not recovered from this doomsday illusion for a long time, and I rarely have contact with others. Those who can understand me to a certain extent must have a dense and huge intelligence organization, and a person or organization who knows the "mystery" especially the magic pattern very well. . After the filter conditions are established, there are only a few possible answers left. A person will not act against another person for no reason, therefore. Since this incident can be regarded as a situation that "must be Gaochuan", then the guy who designed me must understand the strength of the fourth-level magic pattern to a certain extent. In this way, Father Edward, who has been missing for several days, is naturally one of the suspected lists.
Actually, based on the "Jiang" action plan. It is impossible to be disturbed by this degree of design, no matter what the other party is thinking. Even what is done, unless at least the power of the monster in the subconscious abyss is brought out, or the entire power of the repeater is assembled for targeting, otherwise it is meaningless.
Even if I understand, this is the truth. It is very cruel to all humans. However, when they do, I can't completely treat it as something that I don't need to care about.
If the power of "Jiang" can be used, I will ruthlessly destroy the monster equivalent to the body of this distorted world. But regretful people. Without a response from "Jiang", even with the strength of the fourth-level magic pattern, it could not maintain its shape for too long here. The mystery of this monster has far surpassed that of the fourth-level magic pattern messenger. Therefore, one can only choose to avoid. No matter the person behind the scenes just wants to test the power of the fourth-level magicweave messenger and this monster, or wants me to bring out the news of this monster, or really wants to use the power of the monster to kill me, he can do it in This time I got a relatively satisfactory result.
I will not feel disappointed because of this. This emotion is so small and useless in the face of deep and long despair and fear. For me, anything that cannot kill me will give me a chance to fight back. What I do best is to brew strength in silence.
I emptied the fast-food restaurant calmly, and the battle was easier than expected. The human figure that appeared in the fast-food restaurant was not the inexplicable weirdness, which is undoubtedly good news. I am not going to guess why these human figures are only of this level. The people behind the scenes are fully prepared and will not easily expose their feet in front of me. In other words, I don’t think I’m smarter than the other person. On the contrary, I always think that I am a stupid person. This stupidity is not reflected in my studies, but it is often reflected in my review of my adventures.
It’s not the first time that I’ve been playing around. Before I knew what happened, it was not the first time that a conspiracy had enveloped me. Facts have also proved that although they are smart and good at designing all the people they feel they need, from another perspective, they are also weak and they can only do this to get close to their goals. In front of him, in front of the time of rotation, all this seemed so powerless. The best way to deal with them is to close your mouth, do what you want to do, and wait for them to catch up with perseverance and expose yourself.
This approach should not be something everyone can do, but it is suitable for me, which is enough to prove that I am different from others.
Acknowledge your smallness and stupidity, but also accept that you are different, dreaming of becoming a hero, but always believe that silence is a better attitude than noise. I think this is what I really look like.
The gunfire went out, and there was a dead silence, but I felt that my mind suddenly became clear, as if it was constantly filling my mind, a mess of things, neatly combed one by one, and placed on the loom. Waiting to knit. The deep and turbid place in my heart also seemed to be filtered, turning into a cold and clear stream, flowing gurglingly. The unbelievable adventure stories recorded in my mind in the past have become more three-dimensional as if there is a backbone running through the front and back. It's no longer a scene from a ridiculous turn, abruptly linked together, but a whole story, now. I understand better than in the past, how to go to the end, follow the thoughts deep in my heart, watch those phantoms, and listen to the sounds that seem to melt in my ears. There is no need to deliberately do anything, because. In fact, I have been guided all the time, walking on the road to the ending, and the ending is not determined by myself at all, but, in the entanglement of countless complex factors, it seems that there are countless opportunities. Change, but actually. No one can explore such a complicated mechanism of operation. Therefore, it is impossible to be sure whether it will really cause future changes when you really do the things you are trying to change, and whether it is good even if there are changes. The change.
Because. Not sure about the consequences of trying to change, so. No need to deliberately change anything. Just do what you want, and then be ready to carry the good and bad that comes with it. Many people think that this is a self-righteous approach and will only reap bitter results in the end. Humans are creatures that have to refer to the ideas of others in order to be prepared, but it is clear that such ideas are nonsense in an unpredictable fate. What people can do is not to choose good or bad, but to be prepared to carry bad results. negative. But inevitable.
I have seen my life clearly. I am unfortunate, but I am lucky. Among hundreds of millions of people, I am not much more unfortunate than others, and not much luckier than others. That’s it. Ordinary but yearning for unusual children.
I don't know why, at this time, I suddenly confirmed this, and my mind suddenly became clearer than before, and I felt that I had been sublimated. I always feel that this feeling of sublimation may be just an illusion, but even if it is an illusion, there should be a certain limit in life, as described in the story, in the life and death communication, you must make When an important choice waits, this kind of sober consciousness will suddenly sprout.
However, it came so unpreparedly, suddenly, and completed it without any disobedience, without any resistance, just like snow melting into water, so naturally. The same is true for the fourth-level magic pattern. It was reached at the moment when the strong thoughts and emotions were unraveled. It was plain and lacking in storytelling, and it was not at all the plot that I had been passionate about in the past.
I just stood in a messy fast food restaurant, silently looking around every corner, confirming my calm mood, and observing every detail of the fast food restaurant and all its abnormalities, hidden in these details In the next time, when you encounter similar details again, you can use this experience to be more fully prepared.
I began to feel that from this moment on, I am no longer a mental patient, because my thinking is no longer chaotic, and I no longer have the feeling that I will be swallowed up by the torrent of thoughts at any time. I seem to have changed back to the self I was at the beginning of mystery, but when I thought about it again, on the premise that patients with doomsday syndrome must be mentally ill, wasn't myself at that time also mentally ill? Being clear-headed and no longer troubled by uncontrollable thoughts does not mean a change in the morbid nature.
Many mental patients don't think they are mental patients. In contrast, if you can recognize that you are a mental patient, your mental illness may be considered mild.
I don't seem to care as much as before, but always deliberately remind myself that I am a mental patient.
I smiled. I didn't think, but calmly, instinctively, accepted this facial movement.
I took out the chalk from my pocket and realized later that there was chalk in my pocket, but this is not something to be concerned about. The quark reorganized the crow's body, appeared on my shoulders, and then flew up again, setting off a gust of wind that was not equal to the size of its wings, pushing the debris on the ground aside, obviously there was no deliberate feeling in the action, but it turned out It seems deliberate, but it's not worth paying attention to. I drew a simple eye pattern on the ground with chalk, and then circled it with inexplicable words and patterns that I didn’t even know why it was like this. It looked like a magic circle. I don't know why I want to do this or what the principle is. I just completed this step by following my inner feelings, and it still looks the same.
I know it will succeed, although there is no proof before it succeeds.
I threw away the chalk and stood in the center of the magic circle, staring down at the pattern of that eye. It seemed that the next second, it moved suddenly. From a static pattern to a vivid dynamic scene, I think. That's because the inorganic material-like floor under your feet is coming to life. This "living" process, perhaps, it should be said that the "recovery" process started from a very small degree. Many small activities constitute a huge overall dynamic. It seems that the entire fast food restaurant is a living thing.
I used to think that this fast food restaurant was just someone’s ghost nightmare, but it turns out that it may be a ghost nightmare, but it is not purely a ghost nightmare.
I seem to be inside a living body, and the eyes under my feet look like simple pictures. But it is really the eyes of this living creature. I watched it, walked into its depths, opened the doors, walked through a long dark passage, and saw the light like an exit. I ran towards the light, and when I got closer and closer, the moment I finally came into contact with it, a horrible emotion wandered through my nerves like an electric current. I couldn't help but open my eyes, just like when I was opening my eyes. Open it again.
The ceiling that was a few meters away became clear. At first it seemed to be spinning, but it soon stopped. My brain is very awake, knowing that I have woken up from a nightmare. I clearly remember everything I encountered in the nightmare Las Vegas, and I knew that I was in the nightmare. There is no such emotion called "fear". However, during and after waking up, I can feel more clearly that this electric shock is as strong as it is, and it almost makes my muscles tingle with fear. But it's completely unclear, exactly what gave birth to. I just feel that it must not be because of the situations encountered in the nightmare.
Think about it carefully, and you will feel that this kind of fear comes from the depths of your body and heart, just like a hidden instinct. This made me feel that I must have come into contact with "Jiang" again without knowing it.
I took a long break before I got out of this strong, unprovoked, but extremely deep sense of fear. As if my dehydrated body had a little strength, I felt thirsty and took a sip from the water cup on the bedside table. The cold water is like a thread, sliding down the throat and into the stomach, and then the body's perception becomes clearer. At this time, I realized what I was holding in my palm.
I opened my hand and looked at it. It turned out to be the floppy disk of the Electronic Demon Summoning Program. This thing, which has been adjusted and used as a test product, has really passed through the world of consciousness and into the "reality" of the repeater world. This is enough to prove that the research on repeaters has made progress very close to this Las Vegas repeater. I don’t think this is the research that mystery experts started after they arrived in the Las Vegas city repeater world. The exploration of the mystery is more difficult than the exploration of science. If you want to reach it in just a few days, it can penetrate. The probability of dividing the "consciousness" and "materiality" of the relay world is too low. On the contrary, if you have considered these things before coming to Las Vegas, let the network ball provide the corresponding technology in advance. The main point, this result is now acceptable.
The technical intelligence resources provided by the cyberball are enough to allow John Bull to have enough voice to influence the entire team even if he does not do anything.
I turned on the computer and did not immediately verify the contents of the disk. I just wrote the things I encountered in this nightmare and my changes into the document. I believe that Dr. Ruan Li can definitely use his psychological expertise to give another non-mysterious judgment. Because, from the perspective of "mystery", I think my change is a good thing, but from the perspective of non-mysterious normal psychology, I can't be sure that this is really a good thing.
When I was finished with these things, the sunlight had filled the room, and there was movement outside for a while. I put on my coat and pushed the door to go out, and saw that Sakuya and Hakkei had put on school uniforms, sitting at the dinner table, waiting for breakfast to come on stage. As usual, Dr. Ruan Li did not go to bed until midnight, but he always got up early without any fatigue. She is wearing an apron, putting bread, milk and vegetarian salad on the stage for breakfast. She always cooks Western-style meals.
Even if Sakuya and Hachijing have already moved into this home, on weekdays, I often can't wait to have breakfast with everyone. It's probably because I have nightmares every day and I don't need to go to school. Unless there are special circumstances, I wake up later than usual. Therefore, when they saw me going out, the three people's relaxed conversation suddenly fell silent, and there seemed to be an untimely surprise floating in the air. After two or three seconds, they greeted each other with words like "Morning." After that, the atmosphere became natural again.
"Why is it so early today? Didn't you have a nightmare last night?" When I was washing, I heard Doctor Ruan Li ask outside. In the psychological consultation every three days, I had already informed about the nightmares. Of course, she would not think that it was because of the electronic devil. Her eyes were always on the normal world and she was accustomed to using her own Knowledge explains those weirdness. Of course, nightmares, even nightmares every day, are not weird situations for psychology.
"Did, but the nightmare is not the same as usual." I replied naturally.
"Did you write it down?" Dr. Ruan Li asked. She still has other jobs during the day, and my condition is a "stubborn illness", so she often starts this part of get off work after work. From the very beginning, Dr. Ruan Li did not feel that my condition could be effective in a short period of time. The past treatment experience also made her very psychologically prepared for the work of treating me. My situation is not very good to her, but it has not deteriorated to the point of urgency. According to Dr. Ruan Li's statement, my condition is like "sponge is in contact with water, and it gets infested little by little." The process is not very fast. Some treatments can be used to make the process not too intense. There have even been signs of temporary cessation of the disease in the past. However, the possibility of truly completing the treatment has not yet been found. .
Modern medicine has overcome some mental illnesses, but compared with the number of mental patients, there are still a small number of patients. For mental patients, mental problems may be entangled for a lifetime. This is not unfamiliar to Dr. Ruan Li or to "Gao Chuan", even if it involves one's own person, but there is no way. There is no way. It is quite a realistic situation.
Because it is useless to be anxious, it is better to treat other patients while looking for inspiration than to study my condition. Now that Dr. Ruan Li's research has reached a bottleneck, she has not concealed it, because this can no longer be solved by simple effort, and most of the success factors have been transferred to the relatively ethereal thing like inspiration. Without inspiration, even if I use up 24 hours a day, it will not have any effect on my condition. What's more, psychotherapy is a long-term behavior.
What I recorded, Dr. Ruan Li will use the fragmented time of the clinic to conduct research, and then use three days as the standard to check and adjust me. Such days are like regular meals and medicine.
"Your complexion is better than usual." When I came out, Dr. Ruan Li stared at me and confirmed this. Sakiya and Bajing also looked at me for a while~IndoMTL.com~ nodded and said yes.
"I also think it should be better than usual." I sat in my seat, rolled up the salad with bread, dipped in milk and took a big bite, muttering, "Although I had a nightmare, I woke up I was scared, but unbelievably, there was a relaxed feeling, like the end of the final exam and the feeling of knowing that I had a good grade in the exam."
"Is it because I have suspended school, and I am not used to the environment without schoolwork?" Bajing cast a joke in his eyes, "Is really a top student, I feel uncomfortable if I don't do exams for a day."
"No, I'm just making an analogy." I tried to swallow the bread and said to her seriously: "Actually, I don't like learning at all. Really, if I don't study, I can live a good life."
"Good day? What is it like now?" Sakiya said, I think she is unkind.
"At least today should be a good day." I gave her a blank look and said. Then I found that Dr. Ruan Li had been staring at me, as if to confirm something. I don't know exactly what she confirmed, but her eyes with no emotions seemed to express the meaning of disapproval.
Perhaps, she thinks, this is not an improvement, but a deterioration. I couldn't help thinking. (To be continued...)