Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1206: European line

I feel that my mental state is okay. A clear mind and an abnormal calmness make me more efficient in dealing with the mystery that is constantly inspiring and the various phenomena caused by the mystery. From this perspective, I think my current mental state is beneficial to my adventure. However, for Dr. Ruan Li, who is completely on the side of the normal world in consciousness, he will undoubtedly regard it as a deterioration of his condition. Of course, since this kind of pathological changes involving patients with "Jiang" and doomsday syndrome, Dr. Ruan Li's diagnosis made me feel a kind of insinuation to a certain extent, and I have to think of the aggressiveness of "Jiang".

The change in my mental state should be viewed from the perspective of "Jiang"'s erosion of me. From the physical and mental aspects of human beings, the erosion of foreign bodies is always a bad phenomenon. However, if it is not "virus" but "Jiang" that is eroding me, I can accept it psychologically. No, to be precise, I was prepared for a long time. When I tried to analyze what "Jiang" is, my particularity and the responsibilities that must be fulfilled have already made me aware of my fate. Accepting "Jiang", including its corrosive nature, in order to seize the glimmer of hope you can see. From the perspective of mysticism, this is an equivalent exchange, and this so-called "equivalence" is not rational. On the level of equivalent, but more full of sensibility.

I use reason to think, but sensibility drives action. I never care whether this is good or bad, because this is my way of life. I have never thought of changing it. It is not that I am afraid of change, but that I have completely accepted this way of life and do not feel the need to change.

Only in terms of current changes. I accept such a change. This acceptance is not a foolish act, but a choice that I anticipated the worst possible and decided to bear the good and bad brought about by it. It will not be shaken by Dr. Ruan Li's worries and theories.

Although I will not waver, I will not resist and fear the erosion of "Jiang". I support everything with my "love" for it. However, Dr. Ruan Li’s worries cannot be completely ignored. She is a good person. Although she does not understand what I really think and cannot see the world I see, her thinking and actions are based on "being good to me". Point of view. Regardless of the result. The starting point alone is enough to move me. I decided to implement a plan that is cruel to everyone in the doomsday illusion, but this does not mean that I am hard-hearted. I have always known why I implemented this plan, why I fell in love with "Jiang", and why I tossed back and forth every day and night, feeling sad and distressed for the expected results, and thinking about my inability to do better. upset. It all started from a good starting point. From this perspective, what is the difference between me and Dr. Ruan Li? We are all in our imagination. Understandably, based on everything that can be done, try to get a better result for the one you love, but you can't judge whether you can really achieve the desired goal by doing this by yourself. The future is for us. It is unpredictable, but it must be believed.

I believe that I am right, and so does Dr. Ruan Li, so I understand her. If circumstances permit, I don't want to use a strong attitude against her. It’s like, from the beginning to the end, I hope that Xi Lu and Dorothy can be on my side. Now although I feel pain and melancholy for their choice, I will not blame them or be blamed by them. Aimed at it and felt it was a betrayal. I believe that my choice also means the same to Dr. Ruan Li.

I was further monitored at home. A camera was installed in my room. In this home, there is no room for freedom. Maybe for others, such a home is a suffocation cage, and for this it must be resisted, but for me, this suffocating measure is also full of a suffocating love. I really can't resist. Although my daily behavior has not undergone drastic changes, Dr. Nguyen Li cannot rest his mind unless I am tested for a longer period of time and prove that I am indeed harmless. Sakuya and Hakkei chose to continue to live in such an awkward home. They have a very deep affection for me. I can feel from their choices and their daily words and deeds that they can ignore the danger and be monitored. The reason for not being free. Dr. Ruan Li initially held a strong opposition to the two who stayed. Her opposition came from the perspective of psychology and personal safety. In her eyes, I am like a docile person on the outside, but I don’t know the inside. What kind of scourges are extremely dangerous and severely mentally ill. They will attack Sakiya and Hakjing under no circumstances. Among the patients she has treated, there is no shortage of such cases-even if they know that they shouldn't be done. However, he couldn't stop hurting his lover, and even finally got pleasure from this behavior and couldn't stop it.

Doctor Ruan Li can’t be sure that I will get so bad, but the problem is that she can’t be sure that I won’t get so bad. It's not just Sakuya and Bajing. Because of me, Zuo Chuan, who often visits home, was warned by Dr. Ruan Li not to get too close to me during this time. If you must contact me, you must always pay attention to my mental state. If it wasn't for Dr. Ruan Li to not be able to see Fu Jiang, otherwise Fu Jiang would not be able to escape her talk. The matter between me and Fu Jiang has long been regarded by Dr. Ruan Li as a strong evidence of mental illness, but now I no longer feel that Fu Jiang’s "disappearance" in certain people and under certain circumstances is how weird and unacceptable it is. Now that I understand, there is no shortage of important figures in the mystery circle in the intelligence brought by John Bull that does not exist in this repeater world that seems to have cloned the outside world. In the final analysis report, it was identified as It is the interference of other repeaters. Since even repeaters can make certain people "disappear" to this degree, why can't Fujiang "disappear" with "Jiang" interference?

I observe "Jiang" and Fu Jiang, and think they exist, but conversely, doesn't it mean that their existence is based on my observations? Maybe, I can't feed back my observation results to everyone. It was the first time that Dr. Ruan Li appeared in the doomsday illusion, and it was enough to prove that Dr. Ruan Li possessed uniqueness that no one else had. From the perspective of the "script", a special role must have a specific mission. It will also take it as the center to produce some special situations.

This world has a certain degree of authenticity because of human conscious interaction, but also because it is only conscious interaction. Therefore, it does not have complete authenticity. When I continued to write stories about what I experienced, I gradually realized the fit between this story and the "script" and the potential for interference. Perhaps, the reason is still the existence of "Jiang", through me, a macroscopic erosion of the world that cannot be confirmed from a single corner.

I don't think about these deep essential reasons anymore. I accepted all this just as people accepted the conclusion that "you must breathe to survive".

Those theories mentioned by Dr. Ruan Li, even if they have an allusive taste, I am not prepared to deliberately pursue the root causes and hide the truth behind them. I do not reject Dr. Ruan Li’s arrangement, nor do I object to her suggestions for Saki Ye, Ba Jing, Zuo Chuan, and even more acquaintances. Therefore, Saki Ye, Ba Jing and Zu Chuan’s decision. It also comes from their sincerity. They think that my mental state is not good. But this was the reason they stayed. They did not directly oppose Dr. Ruan Li’s statement. They only persuaded Dr. Ruan Li to hesitate from the perspective of “maintaining communication may improve the condition”.

Dr. Ruan Li intensified my house arrest, but this does not mean that she will be rigid. I just want to use house arrest to avoid the influence of my possible excessive behavior on others. From another perspective, I think that in Dr. Ruan Li's mind, it compares with me. The safety of Sakuya and the others is not very important.

Just staying at home is about to enter a new track, and I have to stay longer for it. John Bull’s entrustment is naturally to be fulfilled, and what the Doomsday Sect is doing is also very interesting, but its importance is perceptual, not as important as housework. I sent the information I analyzed during this period and my apology for the delay to John Bull. I don’t expect to understand my decision, but the other party’s solution is also quite tough.

A certain psychology circle invited Dr. Ruan Li to participate in a more private seminar, the destination is in Europe. For many reasons, she could not shirk. Although the inviting party has no trace of the operation, no matter the time or place, it is too coincidental and full of conspiracy. I don't think this is accidental. The members involved in all aspects of the social field. After knowing the situation on my side, promoting the development of this situation is definitely not too difficult. It also seemed that they were very urgent. I think it was because after getting my information, they had some anxious emotions. The monster in the depths of Nightmare Las Vegas is not their handwriting, and once it is the enemy’s handwriting, the blow will be very huge. I think that although the rivets and others have prepared many assassins, they should not have reached the level of that monster. Although the development of this repeater world is very rapid, the enemy’s indifference and potential threats have also increased the pressure on everyone. They may have thought that the pressure on their own side will reach the peak and the enemy’s strength Before it is finished, start a big battle to weaken your own pressure and figure out the enemy's direction of action.

For this, my actions have become a very important bargaining chip. When devoting yourself to your own development, you must rely on people who have actions to buy time and intelligence for them. What I have done in the past has reduced my credibility here, but compared to those who do not know the roots and those who are determined to be enemies, I may feel that I am more reliable. A fourth-level magicweave messenger is also trustworthy in terms of ability. Combining various factors, I have a new judgment on the importance of myself in the plan.

I have no special feeling about the possibility of moving my hands and feet behind my back. The seminar is real, and the invitation to Dr. Ruan Li is sincere. Even if there is no mysterious organization behind it, Dr. Ruan Li will go to Europe sooner or later. Therefore, even if the mystery spread in Europe is tending to intensify, it is impossible to prevent Dr. Ruan Li, who completely ignores the mystery, from going there. What's more, as far as Dr. Ruan Li said, even if this seminar is not important, taking me to Europe alone to find inspiration for treatment is also a good choice for the current situation.

After Dr. Ruan Li made the decision to go to the meeting, Fu Jiang had already set off in advance. She has her own ideas. At least in terms of behavior and conversation, there is absolutely no transcendent weirdness of "Jiang", almost no difference from ordinary people. She is my wife and loves me deeply, but it does not mean that her behavior and thinking. It's me as the center. Even if Fu Jiang is indistinguishable from humans in physical form, in its essence, it is still a part of "Jiang", or a cross-sectional representation of a close person. It is not so much a human being, but more like the so-called "contact with organic life" in science fiction works. Connecting devices with humanoids".

The other members of the Whisperer also have their own tasks, but they are basically responsible for local affairs. The composition of Whispers is now complete, after Fu Jiang and I left. Although the combat effectiveness is reduced, in accordance with the agreement, the network player represented by John Bull will provide assistance in this regard. If it is in the name of, you may be worried about any excessive actions behind it, but the cyberball and John Bull can be trusted.

By the time everyone has arranged their own affairs, two more days have passed. During this period, I did not stop observing the nightmare. Marceau's situation hasn't changed much, almost every day someone breaks into the watch shop for one reason or another. Becoming her prey, I suspect that during this time, Marceau secretly recruited more "bait". Although I have done bait several times, I am not keen on this behavior. I don't blame Marceau. I also want to analyze more of her situation from the changes in the ghost nightmare, but this does not mean that I will devote most of my energy to how to seduce more prey. Marceau didn't ask me to do something in this regard, she was not every time I had a nightmare. Will appear before my eyes. I think her attitude towards me is special, but because I haven't seen her get along with other people, I can't compare it.

Marceau is not always weird like a ghost. When we were together, for a long time, she was very quiet, sitting in my arms, quietly looking through the window. Not a real location. I asked her if she wanted to go out, but she was always silent, as if this question never reached her ears, her heart.

I don’t know what she’s thinking. She in this repeater world is quieter and weirder than the ones I’ve seen in the past. She seems to be playing a special and important role, so she spreads He has a completely different aura from other characters, even when compared to Dorothy. Her appearance, temperament and behavior are too different from the impression in my memory. Visually speaking, the style of painting is wrong.

Even so, the feeling from my heart tells me that she is still Marceau, based on the girl I love, Marceau constantly evolving in the doomsday fantasy. Even if there is a difference between personality and appearance, the essence that constitutes the person is still the same.

Because I discovered the terrible secrets in the nightmare, I can't help but worry about Marceau. She is so different, and she is bound to take on some important changes in the "script". Her role made her destined to be involved in the whirlpool, and even become the center of the whirlpool. I am afraid that this whirlpool will touch the monster deep in the nightmare. Although I only touched it once, and only on the surface, I can also feel that it has a natural restraint on the "mystery" that extends through the electronic demon. To be more serious, the electronic demon messenger probably cannot defeat it, and it may be the existence at the apex of this mysterious power system. And its location is so special, even if it should still belong to the "baby" at this time, it also has the home court advantage of this nightmare Las Vegas. If you want to deal with it, you must find to avoid or weaken this advantage. The way-first, we have to find the "door" leading to it in this nightmare Las Vegas.

The "door" is not just the fast food restaurant. I guessed that these "doors" have been related to the inexplicable disappearance of electronic demon messengers all the time. Because the disappearance of the electronic demon messenger is not fixed, the appearance and opening of the "door" should also be more free. I have returned to that fast food restaurant, but the once messy restaurant seems to be updated, there is no trace of fierce fighting, and there is no more ghost nightmare feeling. This also proves that the "door" is not fixed in the fast food restaurant, and even the "door" owned by the fast food restaurant at that time was deliberately made.

There is such a potential mysterious force, watching the changes in the nightmare Las Vegas, and they know more. Not to mention whether they took the initiative to let me know the existence of that monster, and why they did it. Just knowing this information is enough to prove that these people can't completely leave the relationship between Doomsday Shinrikyo and the Nazis.

As far as my personal judgment is concerned, I am more inclined. This is what the Doomsday Truth Church does. Although both the mercenary association and the Nazis give people a more professional feeling in terms of military-style mystery experts and militaryized combat power structure, this does not mean that the Doomsday Shinrikyo does not have an army. It is true that militaryization has never been the core of Doomsday Shinrikyo’s combat effectiveness, but there is no shortage of similar organizations in the subordinate institutions of Doomsday Shinrikyo.

The memories of the "Goat Guild" and the "Hyena Unit" gradually came to mind and became clear. There is no such mysterious organization as the Mercenary Association in the doomsday fantasy before death. The mission performers are often elite mysterious experts who form teams on demand. They have a very close relationship with the national government, but when it comes to mystified troops, The hyena troops of the Goat Guild are still the most common. Whether Mageweave messenger or graystone fortified, they all had the experience of losing in front of that unit.

In this repeater world, the Doomsday Shinrikyo has been operating for a long time. It should be possible to rebuild the Goat Guild and the Hyena Unit. Although, judging from the team's intelligence, the necessary materials for the formation of these two institutions, the psychedelic "paradise" has not yet appeared on a large scale. However, since the white Claudia has been discovered, the "paradise" must exist, perhaps because it has been internally digested by the doomsday truth cult.

Assuming that I entered the depths of the nightmare through the "door" of the fast food restaurant, it was the doomsday truth cult deliberately, then the purpose is obvious, and there is absolutely no shortage of ideas to divert the attention of us people. However, from another point of view, the Doomsday Truth cult chose me as the fourth-level magicweave messenger, which also proves that although they know some information about the monster, they do not know the basics, and even are afraid of the strength of the monster. . Whether it's my first collision with that monster ~ IndoMTL.com ~ which side wins or both loses, it is good for them and harmless. However, I am not angry about their calculations. At least, they let us know that there is such a monster in the depths of the nightmare, which is a very important piece of information.

After getting relevant information, I have mobilized to look for more clues. This incident involved both the Doomsday Sect and the Nazis, leaving quite a lot of traces in Nightmare Las Vegas. John Bull used these days of investigation to determine my first stop after arriving in Europe. However, I actually had a clearer goal long ago—the birthplace of the Doomsday Truth Sect, the home of Mar Jones, the town surrounded by mountains and lakes.

In this doomsday illusion, the town seems to be deliberately ignored, even if it is a cyber ball, it has never been noticed, but since the past doomsday illusion, the Mar Jones family carried out the "Heaven Gate Project" there. "So, in this doomsday illusion, it must have inherited the clues of the time. Furthermore, it is speculated that even in this repeater world, Doomsday Shinrikyo will still be based in that small town. No matter how the environment changes, there is always a certain invariable point. In the mystics, it is also called "singular point solidification". That small town is for Doomsday Truth, a fixed peculiarity is often a key point. (To be continued...)

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