Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1256: Regular diagnosis

The answer of Dr. Ruan Li made me wonder about the source of the weirdness in the nightmare. Are they really all caused by the sick consciousness of this peninsula patient? Although Dr. Ruan Li said that it is normal for patients to have hallucinations and conjectures, but such symptoms are not a common feature of every mental patient. The patients did not die, but lacked vitality, really just because they were all having nightmares? The new drug is a semi-finished product in the research and development process of "Paradise". Its most important ingredient is white Claudia. Dr. Ruan Li and the seminar believe that white Claudia has the inherent effect of influencing people's spirits, and it can make people On the surface, the behavior seems normal, but the source of the behavior, that comes from the spiritual level, is some kind of abnormality. In theory, new drugs have similar effects.

All mental patients taking new drugs seem to lack vitality. They just numb, instinctively and mechanically maintain the most basic daily survival needs, just like the patients I saw in the ward, but their spirit is Very active in nightmares. To put it simply, they are all "sleepwalking" and have not awakened from their nightmares on a spiritual level-such a possibility does exist.

However, I subconsciously feel that there is something inconsistent with this inference. What concerns me most is that the number of patients taking new drugs is actually not many, and the weirdness in the nightmare is several times the number of patients. Excluding the lunatics in residential areas that I have seen, those weird manifestations and presentations are also It is too diverse and does not conform to my observations of all the patients currently in contact with the Peninsula Mental Hospital.

Can the morbidity and imagination of just a dozen or dozens of patients constitute such a crazy, weird and profound nightmare scene?

I don't think it is impossible.

It is not so much that patients taking new drugs constituted this nightmare, I would rather believe it. The patients taking the new drugs only constitute part of the nightmare, or what they constitute is just an entrance to the nightmare, an introduction to the nightmare event. Or a shelter that is slightly more normal than the whole Oggle Dreamland. In fact, this nightmare has already existed, and it is only with these mental patients taking new drugs that it has been observed by people.

If this nightmare of the deepest night had already existed. Then, the basis of this nightmare, of course, may not be limited to this peninsula mental hospital. The nightmare was partly turned into an environment similar to the peninsula just because of the cognition of the patients who took the new medicine. Therefore, it is possible to explain the specious scenes that are currently encountered in the nightmare. The environment is full of instant sense, and it seems to be closely related to the patients in the Peninsula Mental Hospital, but it is only limited to the patients but feels uncoordinated abnormality.

In this way, the existence of the old Hawk and the humanoid "relationship" is even more questionable. The things represented by the two, including the concept of "the deepest night" that has always existed in the nightmare, may not have been created by mysterious organizations. The mysterious organization that is using this nightmare is not the creator of the nightmare, but a group of invaders. only. They explored and unearthed all kinds of weird and mysterious phenomena in the nightmare, and then cooperated with their own mystery to form the current plan.

The "seal" that Old Hawk left on me, of course, may not be a masterpiece of a mysterious organization, but merely a limitation that exists in the nightmare innately, and this limitation is for all "outsiders" "All are valid. However, I still believe that whether this restriction is a masterpiece of a mysterious organization or not, its existence is beneficial to organizational power and has a great restraining effect on individual power. In turn, it satisfies the needs of the mysterious organization.

If "The Deepest Night" was not created by a mysterious organization, but only the mysterious organization intends to use the Deep Night to complete a tacitly promoted ritual, then what is the original intention of "The Deepest Night" Woolen cloth? What does it reflect more realistically?

These questions are crushed by me. A lot of information has been missing. There is no doubt that the mysterious organization that entered the nightmare earlier must have found more things and took these things as their own, without leaving too many clues for the latecomers. The situation in the high tower is about the same. The previous mysterious organization has searched layer by layer for what they can find, anything they think is useful, and then left traps and caretakers on each floor. I may not be able to obtain more information from the tower. If I want to know more, I must find these mysterious organizations in the nightmare.

Despite this conjecture, the actual result must be proved by climbing to the top of the tower step by step. If I am lucky enough, or unlucky, then it is possible to find something that the mysterious organization ignores and is limited to myself and cannot be observed. It may be very evil and critical, but it may also be just something boring.

"How many people have taken the new medicine?" I asked.

"There are no more than fifty on the surface." Dr. Ruan Li said: "However, the seminar has the right to increase the number of people at any time."

"I met Marceau, and her situation seems a bit wrong." I said.

"Her mental condition has always been very bad." Dr. Ruan Li said calmly without any surprise: "The new drug has obvious effects on her, but in addition to the stabilizing effect, it seems to me that it is a side effect... …" She paused, and said, "This is just my opinion." I know what Dr. Ruan Li's words mean. The seminar may instead treat the current situation of Marceau as a benign response, or, although there is There are many adverse reactions, but compared to what she has shown, what they think is "benign", those side effects are worthwhile.

To make matters worse, Dr. Ruan Li only has the power to supervise me, but not other patients. As long as Marceau's nominal guardian permits, she will need to take the seminar's new medicine further. And this new medicine is unqualified in the eyes of Dr. Ruan Li.

"Where are the patients other than me and Marceau?" I couldn't help asking.

"Two of them had obvious rejection reactions last night." Dr. Ruan Li said, "Furthermore, their mental state suddenly deteriorated. I think the changes of those two people can sound the alarm for the seminar. , It is precisely because they can’t follow the bottom line that they originally decided to cause such bad results. I have already contacted some people. I intend to reiterate the minimum standard for drug side effects. I have a hunch that if they continue to lower this standard, even if they eventually find out Paradise is definitely not the Paradise that everyone originally wanted."

"How sure are you?" I asked rhetorically.

"It's a pity." Dr. Ruan Li's calm face showed a slight fatigue. Obviously. She did not have enough confidence to reverse the practice of the current seminar. She regards the stubbornness of the seminar as the result of being influenced by White Claudia. White Claudia is using the hands of the seminar to plunge humans into the abyss, but unfortunately, the person involved did not notice it. Even if you face the warning, you will only be subconsciously rejected and ignored by the other party.

"For today's plan, we can only try to see if we can complete the originally conceived paradise by ourselves before the mutant paradise is researched out." Dr. Ruan Li said, "Fortunately, the seminar also Not all participants are affected."

"I'm worried about you. Mom." I couldn't help but say: "If those people are really affected and break the lower limit, they are likely to hurt you."

"I know, I have already started preparing. Now, I need your help, A Chuan." Dr. Ruan Li said cautiously: "The communication channel between you and me is specially encrypted, but it is still not safe enough. Specifically I will inform you of the situation through other methods. You must be prepared to leave this peninsula at any time. Now, I will give you a map of the entire peninsula and the mental hospital. Although your diary is full of fantasy, you are here The gain from the illusion is not just a vain experience. In some of the most basic self-protection abilities, can I trust you? Achuan."

"Of course, Mom." I nodded vigorously.

"Then, treat this situation as a test of risk." Dr. Ruan Li said, "But you have to remember. A Chuan. In the story you write, you are the protagonist, so, You are omnipotent. This time, the situation you have to face is absolutely real. And you will not be omnipotent. If you fail, you will suffer the most real punishment. You should not take the current situation as Look at the stories you imagined."

"I know." I have always been serious, whether it's an illusion in Dr. Ruan Li's eyes or the reality for Dr. Ruan Li at the moment. A long time ago, I didn't think that crises would really hurt me just because they came from "nightmares" and "illusions." On the contrary, for mystery experts, whether nightmares or hallucinations, as long as the "mystery" exists, any weirdness is dangerous, not an imaginary danger, but a danger that will be personally experienced.

In the early past, death in "nightmare" and "illusion" and death in "reality" can be equated in the eyes of mystery experts.

So, whether it is an illusion or a nightmare, I have always tried my best.

Dr. Ruan Li’s worries are unnecessary. I would neither treat "nightmare" as a joke, nor would I treat this repeater world as "illusory".

After the communication, Dr. Nguyen Li transferred the map of the entire peninsula and the mental hospital to my mobile phone as scheduled. I compared it with the information on the wall and sorted it out again, adding more accurate geographic factors. Dr. Ruan Li’s worries are not unrealistic. From my perspective, the crisis she feels is actually a fate-like inevitable crisis. However, it is precisely because these bad conditions have been considered in advance that I have already had a set of self-insurance plans in my mind to ensure that after failure, I can also take Dr. Ruan Li and Marceau to retreat.

Everything we are doing now, in addition to trying to prevent the situation from developing in the worst direction, is also to further improve the self-protection plan in detail.

After noon, the experts participating in the seminar took a vehicle to the downstairs. Not all experts, I heard from Dr. Ruan Li, that they can choose the patients to be observed in the routine diagnosis, which can be one of them, or more, and generally have quite sufficient autonomy. Of course, all those who came to me this time were planning to obtain information on my condition. They brought me new medicines, and performed physical examinations and talks for me. Although the focus of their research is me, they also need to conduct an examination for the entire ward.

There are only five experts, two men and three women, of which only Mitsui Tsukao is known. However, they all greeted me in a very familiar way, probably in the three days I was lost, they had already had full contact with me.

I approached them with considerable caution. And learned from Mitsui Tsukao about the situation of the fortuneteller and the fitness instructor. They had read the report written by Dr. Ruan Li and thought that my condition was too complicated, so they chose someone else who, theoretically, had a more obvious therapeutic effect. After all, for these experts. My observation of the patients is not the result. Finally, I wrote a well-founded paper that has passed the test of real examples. That is the ultimate goal of this activity.

"So, why did you choose my side?" I asked, and wrote the answer on a psychological questionnaire. The five experts who decided to come to me not only have a common inspection process. There is also a test project of its own. I need to complete five questionnaires with different topics and receive very personalized questions from five experts. Some of the topics and questions do not belong to the scope of psychology textbooks, but what they recognize in their studies can make them use the shortest time. Understand the problem of patient change. The focus of these issues is of course different. When I was talking with me, the tone, speed, words, questions and answers, and even some detailed body movements were all different.

Of course, they also brought enough new medicines for all the patients in the ward.

They asked me to answer all the questions they asked, although sometimes "silence" is also an answer. But in their question design, it seems that they did not consider the option of "silence". For my questions, they will answer selectively, and I can hear their insincere thoughts.

Although they use some better language to package their behavior of collecting data on my side, I also have a certain degree of psychology, and I know how to use words to arouse their emotions in conversation. , Dig out the information you want. Although it is also called an "expert", but. Not every expert can fully equip himself with his theoretical knowledge, and not every individual can reach the level of Dr. Ruan Li in his psychological construction and heart defense.

In the mutual word front test, these experts obviously showed resistance and vigilance. They stared at me with strange eyes. Obviously noticed my little movements. I intuitively believe that among the five "experts", Mitsui Tsukao's level is actually at the forefront. The familiarity between me and him is actually a breakthrough that the other party is trying to use.

"There is no need to be like a hedgehog, Takakawa." Mitsui Tsukao spread his hands, in a helpless tone, and said, "We want to help you. If you cooperate, we can make an accurate report. These reports will determine which drugs you should take."

The problem is that I believe in Dr. Ruan Li more than in seminars.

"You are here for treatment. I heard from Dr. Ruan Li. You hope to return to a normal life. However, if you don’t cooperate and make a diagnosis, it may worsen your condition. "An expert said in a cautious tone: "I heard from Dr. Ruan Li that you understand some psychological knowledge and related diagnostic therapies. Then, you should also understand that the most important relationship between a patient and a doctor is trust. . I hope you can trust us."

"How do you know that I don't trust you? I accept all your inquiries and write all the questionnaires." I answered like this.

"The question is whether your answer comes from your heart." Another expert said.

"How do you know that my answer is not from my heart?" I asked.

"Such sophistry is very meaningless." The expert rubbed his temples, looking very annoyed, "If you need evidence..."

"Your answers are all too normal." Another expert rushed to say very bluntly: "That is the standard answer of a normal person, but obviously, if you are a normal person, you don't need to sit here. , Isn’t it? I heard that you have always admitted that you are a mental patient, and Dr. Ruan Li’s report also confirms this. Your mental state is very abnormal."

"From the normal answers, find out the abnormal doubts. This is your job, not mine." I said indifferently: "I think you should redesign the questionnaire and questions. You think mine is The answer is too standard, why not because the question you asked is too standard?"

The five experts looked at each other and looked a little discouraged.

"Well, if you insist." The experts stood up and said to me: "Come here today. We will come tomorrow, I believe, you will speak. Please remember to take medicine, if you think there is something wrong If you are comfortable, please tell us tomorrow. Some of these drugs are specially made based on the results of your examination. However, because you do not cooperate, they may cause greater side effects."

"Are you threatening me?" I asked.

"No, I just hope--" He increased his tone and said, "I hope you can cooperate with us. We did not come to poison you, but to cure your disease."

"Cure? Do you think you are better than my mother?" I said calmly.

The expert was silent, and said after a long while: "Maybe I will be more lucky than her. To be honest, I have read a part of your medical report from Dr. Ruan Li, I know how your condition is, so I chose You."

"Then, did anyone tell you. Shouldn't doctors speak to patients with such a grieving tone?" I smiled and replied, "You have chosen me, which means you need me, not me. You. This has nothing to do with me being a patient, and you are a doctor. It is not always correct that a patient needs a doctor’s help."

The expert wanted to say something, but he seemed to gradually understand my suggestion, and he couldn't help but widen his eyes. Immediately afterwards, other experts including Mitsui Tsukao seemed to understand something, and they looked at each other.

Yes, although I admit that I am a mental patient, I never feel that I need a psychologist, and I need to adjust my thinking and observations according to what the psychologist says. I may be anomalous, but I can't escape, or that is, I don't want to escape from this anomaly. In the face of all these abnormalities, I have my own thoughts and my own responses, and all of these constitute myself at this moment. I have always recognized myself at this moment, in this form, standing here.

Yes, the most important thing is whether to recognize yourself.

I can say with certainty that I have suffered, sorrowed, died, and lived. I have been thinking stupidly, struggling, trying hard but not getting the results I want, and I have never seen it. , A clear future, but I never deny my existence and deeply recognize everything I have done.

I am Gao Chuan. What I did, what I thought and thought, all proved that I am Gaochuan. I recognize such Gaochuan, recognize such self.

So, even in the face of the deepest fear, darkness, and despair, I can't distinguish between what is illusion and what is real. I have never just felt pain and sadness~IndoMTL.com~ and never lost hope.

I am a mental patient. The world I see is different from ordinary people, but I don’t need a psychiatrist, because no matter where I am, what I see, and what I endure, I have always worked very hard, and I have never Did not give up. I don't need the world in the eyes of others, because I have never seen a beautiful world in the eyes of others. They say that they are normal, but this normality also contains their own pain and struggle. So, what is the difference between this kind of them and the sick me?

Yes, just like the experts in front of me, they are working hard, trying to heal me and correct me. I agree with this effort, no matter how personal the original intention is. However, if I was "cured" by them and became what they recognized, and everything I expected could not be obtained from the world recognized by them, wouldn't it also be a failure for me?

I know what I want, and I use this to filter the path. In their "normal", there is no salvation. Therefore, I refuse.

I watched the experts leave by car and turned my eyes back to the medicine box. Now, I am about to take medicine, and I know that these medicines will definitely not save me. (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point () to vote recommended votes, monthly tickets, your support is my biggest motivation. Mobile users please go to read.)