Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1260: The truth about Ruan Li

What did Dr. Ruan Li say to me? When I disembarked, I still thought about it this way. The emotions left in my heart are not consternation or surprise. It is precisely because I know that Dr. Ruan Li is special, so when facing her, I have already dealt with her words and deeds. Preparation-I think so, but the same words, in different situations, give me different feelings. ●⌒Vertex Novel, .2+3.

I don't know much about repeaters. I can only guess what kind of existence the repeater world has been, but I can only rely on my own intelligence to guess, but there is no absolute conclusion. When my identity changed from Gao Chuan in the doomsday fantasy world to Gao Chuan in the world of repeaters, the multi-level associations that happened to me, and I personally experienced, made people feel very puzzled. Even so, I still used my own knowledge to forcefully explain these situations.

In this repeater world, Dr. Ruan Li’s eyes of me and my perception of myself are completely different. It is assumed that before I enter this repeater world, this repeater world also exists. Gao Chuan, then, Dr. Ruan Li's knowledge of me must have been extended from this Gao Chuan. However, before and after I entered this repeater world, what kind of connection was there between the two "Gaochuan" existences?

My answer is: the world of repeaters is dependent on the doomsday illusion, just as the doomsday illusion is attached to the reality of the hospital. Although the conclusion that "the doomsday illusion depends on the reality of the hospital, the reality of the hospital is the real reality", in my personal view, there are still many uncertainties in the details. I did not carefully search for the details that caused me to produce these. The feeling of uncertainty, but there is a deep emotion that makes me put myself at the height of the "hospital reality" even in action. It is also impossible to fully believe that it is the "real reality" psychologically, nor can it completely believe that "the doomsday illusion can only exist based on the existence of the hospital reality."

Yes, even actions and thinking clearly tend to this conclusion, and. Taking this conclusion as a foothold can also make the purpose stronger and make the action more organized. At least when dealing with the "doomsday process", the foothold of "the hospital reality is the real reality" makes me You can look at the mysterious event that is happening from another angle, and feel that your behavior has a legitimate reason, full of responsibility and possibility.

Even so. Deep in my heart, there has always been such a voice. It is the voice that I was killed by the final weapon and when I woke up in the hospital reality, it was already deeply imprinted: This hospital is full of realism anyway, Is it really reality? Instead of being involved in a certain serious mystery after being involved in the doomsday process?

The concept of "virus" was learned in reality in the hospital. In the hospital. Many materials redefine the world of "Doomsday Fantasy Land". At the same time, it also redefines the identity, experience and relationship between me and Mae, Sakuya, Bajing, Marceau, Dorothy, and Shise. It almost subverted most of my cognition in the past apocalyptic illusion. But at the same time, it also brought some explanations that seemed to make sense. It is these explanations and perspectives that make me have to believe that the hospital reality is the real reality.

But, what if it isn't?

If, when I first woke up in the hospital reality. The kind of distrust that is generated is the real word...

Now, it’s hard to imagine what your life will be like based on such assumptions. However, such doubts do exist.

The amount of information brought by the reality of the hospital is too huge, and the information I have obtained during the last ten years of my birth and growth in the doomsday illusion, as well as the worldview constituted by this information, have been extremely severely impacted. However, when dying in the reality of the hospital and recovering in this doomsday illusion, there is one thing I can never forget

——In the reality of the hospital, I have never seen the world outside the hospital.

The time when I returned to the reality of the hospital made me feel painful. Although the time was short, because of very complicated things, it should have grown to a certain extent. However, all my range of activities and cognition are restricted by the hospital itself.

A hospital is an isolated island located in a certain sea area. External information is basically isolated by the sea. The hospital itself is established with the concept of "top secret research". Therefore, there is always no slack in blocking information. Even, I don't even know the name of the hospital. Everyone just uses "the hospital" to refer to where they are, but that is obviously not a name, but just a code name.

Just as "virus" has no name, "hospital" does not seem to have a name, they are more like a concept. Although the "virus" is terrible, if there were no reports of the "hospital", I would probably never know the concept of "virus". However, the scope of such a "hospital" concept is very narrow, just an island full of weirdness.

What is it like outside the island? Are there still humans and land outside the islands? From the activities of the "hospital" itself, it seems that the world outside the island exists.

However, one thing must be mentioned: Although the “hospital” claims to collect and manage “patients”, I have never seen any signs of “patients” decreasing, and I have never lacked human experiments. However, I have never been able to distinguish which are the new patients, and I have never really seen "patients" being sent to the islands.

Also, my cognition of my "past" has always been in a state where hallucinations and memories are flashing alternately. There is a lot of information that emerges out of thin air when uncomfortable around me, and some of the information comes from reports from the "hospital". Learned from it. However, it is precisely because the hallucinations appear too frequently that the memory is not clear. In psychology, "memory distortion" is not uncommon. I have been thinking, I can really be sure that the information I have learned and the memories that are constantly emerging and reorganized in my mind are really not "distorted" at all?

The split personality of "Gao Chuan", and my own death and recovery, can we find some exact and true evidence of these circumstances?

Unfortunately, no, there is no absolutely true and correct basis for my knowledge of myself.

When I can't believe in the "hospital reality", the information brought by the "hospital reality" is also flawed.

However, the doomsday process of the doomsday illusion. And those exciting but somewhat unreal mysterious events are also more like a dark adult fairy tale fantasy story.

I don't even need to make more decorations, write it in the diary, and it can be regarded as a fantasy novel by people like Dr. Ruan Li.

For me, "Doomsday Fantasy" and "Hospital Reality" are such an interdependent relationship, but for the time being. "Doomsday Fantasyland" is more dependent. However, when I discovered the "repeater world" in the doomsday illusion, and personally experienced the connection between the "repeater world" and the "doomsday illusion" and the "hospital reality", the "repeater world" The relationship between "Doomsday Fantasy" and "Hospital Reality" has become extremely complicated.

The existence of Dr. Ruan Li makes me try to accept the conclusion that "the world of repeaters is the inheritance and reorganization of part of the information that constitutes the doomsday illusion, and can only exist by relying on the doom illusion." It also makes me wonder how strong this dependence is. Because, in this repeater world, not only the completeness of world information is not inferior to the doomsday illusion, but also the "Gaochuan" of this world existed before I took the place of the "Gaochuan" of this world, and. Others besides "Gaochuan" also exist. Living, there are many obvious differences from them in the doomsday illusion, but the whole life is also complete.

Because it is complete and organized, it seems that everything has a cause, and all changes are organized. So this repeater world is very real—before the mystery spread, it was even more real than the doomsday illusion, and it was comparable to the realism given to me by the "hospital reality".

My experience in this repeater world, although not as impactful as when I first entered the "Hospital Reality", gave my own worldview. However, it is undeniable that the impact still exists.

Even if I use "Hospital Reality" as my foothold to observe Dr. Ruan Li in this repeater world, I can also put myself in the place, from her perspective, look at myself outside the world of this repeater, and then Can understand most of her attitudes and words. In theory, she will not be shaken by saying that "this world is real".

But in fact, the shock still occurred.

The authenticity and completeness of this repeater world has been further complemented in Dr. Ruan Li’s words. Now, it seems that we can use it as a foothold to look at the "doomsday fantasy" and "hospital reality". Moreover, it is precisely because of Dr. Ruan Li’s particularity that she is not subject to mysterious interference and her own persistence in dealing with “mystery”, this repeater world reflects more rationality and authenticity in her body. .

"It is me, not you, Achuan who has really experienced some very wonderful things."

"I told you before, but you forgot that the prototype of one of the three giants of the Doomsday Sect in your story is my family, and now I am the only one left."

"The prototype may be weird and weird, but it is by no means mysterious. The world is very realistic, Achuan, there is no superpower.'Paradise' and'White Claudia' are wonderful but not mysterious manifestations. It is the only thing closest to reality in your story."

These words of Dr. Ruan Li have been echoing in my mind even after more than an hour. Whether it is me or Gao Chuan before me, the knowledge of Dr. Ruan Li is very pale in front of these words, and even makes me feel that, in fact, I have never really understood Dr. Ruan Li.

Are these things that Dr. Ruan Li said true to herself? Or is it just an identity assumption made for my diary? For these questions, even if the other party personally gives the results, can you accept that answer?

On the basis of this repeater world, to look at such things as "Doctor Ruan Li is one of the three giants of the Doomsday Shinrikyo" also makes people want to say "What a joke!"

However, in explanatory and theoretical terms, since Dr. Ruan Li has said such words, he can logically explain the story I recorded in my diary from these words-which also means that she can From my own perspective, explain what I encountered in the doomsday illusion and the hospital reality, and even explain the "doomsday illusion" and the "hospital reality" itself.

After all, in terms of Dr. Ruan Li’s personality, if you still can’t figure it out, you can’t say it.

Doctor Ruan Li stood from his own point of view, observing the world. From the perspective of this world, it is quite natural to observe "the world described by the mental patient Gao Chuan". And the reason that makes me feel unsure is precisely because of theory or intuition. There is a kind of authenticity, organization and completeness that can be deeply felt in this kind of natural view. However, once you are convinced of it, all that you have experienced and all that you know will be instantly, like Sand castles are generally destroyed by waves.

"Gaochuan" is a mental patient, if this is the reality. That's fine, but everything that "Gaochuan" cares about doesn't exist, that's a terrible thing.

I carried my luggage and followed Dr. Ruan Li silently. Mitsui Tsukao's face improved a bit, and he was a little excited after disembarking, probably because of physical discomfort when he set foot on land. It calmed down. Fitness coaches and fortune-tellers also looked around curiously. This is a vast green space on the peninsula. On the local map, the shape of the entire region protrudes out of the river bank like tentacles. Because of the lush shade of the trees, when I was on the boat, I could not see the villa hidden in the shade of the trees. However, where we disembarked. You can see a long dam along the bank, spreading towards the distance, and it is said that it covers two-thirds of the river bank.

The entire peninsula is a scenic area developed by villas, but the development of related scenic spots is only half completed. After arriving on the island, many remnants of construction projects were found, the most conspicuous is undoubtedly a piece of scaffolding not far from the pier, and the orange-red lights above the scaffolding. It is already close to midnight, but the sound of construction can still be heard. If the place where the villa is located is also such a semi-construction environment, it won't be great if you want to come and experience it.

Thinking about this, we boarded the sightseeing cars in batches and headed towards the island along the only visible concrete road. After a short while, he arrived at the place where the villas were located. During this period, Dr. Ruan Li did not talk to me about diary and identity. With a kind of worry and curiosity, I want to know more, but I am afraid of knowing more emotions, and accept the assignment of villa rooms with other people.

It seems that the villa group has not been fully completed. The place where we are located is the second phase of the project, and it is the five villas with the largest area and the most luxurious furnishings in the second phase of the project. On average, a villa can accommodate ten people, and the interior rooms are also enough. From here, it only takes more than ten minutes by car to reach the beach where you can swim in the water, and a trading market has been built in the other direction. To be more specific, the person in charge gave each of our passengers a sightseeing guidebook, which even included functional instructions for the villas allocated to us.

The villa has many functional areas, but the exterior does not make people feel luxurious, nor does it have a high-tech feel. The style is more natural and fresh, and there is a softness that favors Eastern culture. For me and Dr. Ruan Li, this style is quite cordial.

Mitsui Tsukao, fitness instructor, and fortuneteller were naturally with us. There were also three of us who stayed at the same room. The other party was also friends we met during the trip. When we exchanged greetings with us, they seemed very polite. We followed the cobblestone path, passed through courtyards and ponds, and entered the house that looked like wood but actually used new materials.

Dr. Ruan Li used his scrutiny gaze to prioritize the structural drawings of the villa and confirmed the specific location of emergency safety measures such as fire prevention and escape. Others did not have such a mood. They traveled a long distance. Everyone was very exhausted, both mentally and physically. They said goodbye to us soon. Even Mitsui Tsukao, who had cheered up a little earlier, had the expression on his face. It wilted quickly. When the bell of midnight and zero o'clock reverberated in the house, I was the only one left, still accompanying Dr. Ruan Li to patrol this large villa.

The voices gradually dissipated, and the interior of the villa appeared to be extremely empty and lonely. The lights decorated as candlelights did not have an obscure taste, but at such a time, there was no surprise at all. In my opinion, it is totally unbelievable if the designer does not have any different ideas in the decoration.

Even if there are lights, the corners still feel dark. It seems that ghosts will pass by at any time. When the footsteps sound, it is as if someone is following behind. These sounds, sights and tastes all constitute a frightening atmosphere, which is completely inconsistent with the normal concept of villa decoration. Even if it is special, it should not be designed to make people unwilling to live for a long time.

The villa interior decoration, which is full of malice for ordinary people, is just a taste for people like me, but I also know it. This kind of taste is quite niche.

Furthermore, from such a niche style, it seems that you can get a glimpse of the inside story of the seminar.

When I think about the identity of Dallas, I feel that this place is not right.

Although I was infected by this kind of "mystery" emotion, the doctor Ruan Li who decided the route in front seemed to have no feeling at all. When we finished a circle in the villa. When he returned to the courtyard again, Dr. Ruan Li suddenly noticed something and walked straight to the flowerbed, where there were a few empty flower pots and some tools for garden repairs. She filled the soil with her own hands, took the white Claudia out of the plastic bag and planted it in a flower pot. These white flowers were rooted with soil when they were uprooted, and they were replanted at this time. After watering, the recovery was immediate.

"What are you doing? Mom." I couldn't help asking.

"Have you seen the real white Claudia? A Chuan." Doctor Ruan Li asked me after taking off his gloves.

"Maybe." I said, "It's not always the same. I wrote about it in my diary."

"In fact, it has only one appearance under ordinary naked eye observation." Dr. Ruan Li threw the luggage to me, picked up the flower pot by himself, and said to me: "Its flower has four petals and is white. You. Have you ever seen a four-leaf clover? Think of it as white, which is a bit similar. But, specifically, the two are completely different. Just now you, the white Claudia that you saw, is it What does it look like?"

"Just as you said, mother." I replied.

"No. You are thinking about it. It doesn't seem to be what I looked like after I painted it, but what you saw before that." Dr. Ruan Li said as he stepped forward.

I thought about it carefully. What is strange is that there is no clear impression, but the description of Dr. Ruan Li, which seems to be replacing the hazy memory.

"Can't remember? Don't care." Dr. Ruan Li said, "Actually, many things you take for granted are not so taken for granted. You think you remember very clearly, so you rarely remember them clearly. But in fact, your memory is not as deep as you think. In fact, you have forgotten many things, so that you can no longer distinguish the information you have obtained, what is its original face." Dr. Ruan Li used A sad, caring and determined look looked at me, "Do you believe me? Achuan. Do you believe that this world is completely different from what you know, see, and feel? Have you ever doubted, Those things that you take for granted the truth?"

"I..." I was interrupted by Dr. Ruan Li before I finished ~IndoMTL.com~. She said, "No answer, no need now."

I fell silent, vaguely, with a premonition of what she was about to say.

"White Claudia looks like a plant, but in our research, it does not completely follow the definition of a plant." Dr. Ruan Li suddenly turned the topic back to White Claudia, her The tone seemed to know Claudia White very well, as if she wanted to prove that her previous words were not a lie—the personal experiences recorded in my diary actually have a story prototype, and this story prototype In fact, it is her own story, and mine is indeed just a mental patient, adapting the story heard from her, substituting myself into it, and creating a huge and obscure world of illusions.

In Dr. Ruan Li’s calm narration, the origin of all this--including the ones I had to believe, about the setting of "Doomsday Fantasy" and "Hospital Reality", as well as the mystery and intertwined in the story Destiny, and even the truth that Dr. Ruan Li knew-actually originated from White Claudia, rather than the "virus" I learned from the "hospital reality". (Want to know more exciting news about "Restricted Doomsday Syndrome"? Open WeChat now, click on the "+" sign at the top right, select Add friends to add an official account, search for "", follow the official account, and never miss every Updates!) (To be continued..)