Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1263: Saving the world in 1 time

I had a dream. It was not a nightmare in Las Vegas. It was probably not a ghost nightmare, but even in a dream, I was pretty sure that it was a nightmare. ∷4∷5∷zhong∷The text n∈top n∈point n∈small n∈says, in this dream, my consciousness is clearer than at any time in a dream, and the pictures flowing around me are beautiful, The white petals are flying in the air, and I am in this sea of ​​flowers, but I feel a certain deep fear hidden behind this beautiful picture. It seems that the flying white flowers also heralded a death and desperate ending.

That's a sense of **** that I can't get rid of anyway, and it makes it hard for me to move. I want to get out of this sea of ​​flowers and escape this kind of despair that erodes my heart. I don't feel tired, it's just that my feet don't listen.

I am familiar with this fear. When I face the "virus" and the "Jiang"—or when I feel that I am facing them—this kind of deep, inescapable, full of The fear of erosiveness will arise spontaneously, as if it has been hidden deep in the body and heart, and I haven't noticed it until I feel their arrival.

"White Claudia." I heard someone whisper in my ear.

I don’t know who is talking. I feel familiar but vague. I can’t locate someone I’m familiar with: Dr. Ruan Li? Is it Zhenjiang? Is it Fujiang? Or is it just "Jiang" itself? Of course, this voice is also very much like my own voice.

I want to recall why I had such a dream. However, the things I thought I could think of were so hazy that I couldn't help but ask myself the "clear consciousness" that I felt at this time. is that true?

My thinking is like embarking on a one-way street. I think it shouldn’t be like this, but it’s totally impossible to turn the mind around or go another route.

My thoughts. It seems to be destined from the beginning. It is running wildly on a destined track. This feeling makes me feel that when I start to have ideas, I am the stupidest time.

However, thinking is wonderful. When I think about it, I always feel that I have a way to escape and save those sadness and despair. Of course, it can't be done in practice. It's another matter, but if I don't think about it, I think I will always be immersed in this fear that seems to lead to an abyss.

"The first word is dream,

From a deep sleep,

Bring out my inner secret quietly..."

The sound rang again...intermittently, but different from the previous content. The sound seemed to disappear from the wind, and the unheard part melted into the air. The white petals are still flying. I took a heavy step, searching for the source of the sound. It seemed to appear directly in my mind, and it seemed to reverberate in all directions, sometimes approaching and sometimes estranged. But I think there must be an exact sound source. I want to find it, I don't know what it is, but I think maybe it is called "Jiang".

"...follow the flow to find the key.

Go down the river to the end. Will eventually reach the "li".

People holding keys should follow the following instructions to set off to the ideal township.

On the first night, present the living sacrifice selected by the key..."

The sound is still ethereal and elegant. In the scene of flying petals, it is full of psychedelic beauty, but the content is gradually becoming unknown. I have a strong hunch, this kind of hunch makes me can't help covering my ears and not listening. However, I can't do this, just like there is another will in my body. When I resist it, this will will become clearer.

I suddenly remembered that I am a mental patient.

"Who am I? I am Gao Chuan." Of course, I have not changed.

So, who is the person who spoke to "Gaochuan"?

The answer to this question could have been blurted out, but when I was about to answer it, the answer suddenly disappeared from my mind.

I only know that the more you pursue this problem, the more fear will become stronger. However, this increased fear also seems to mean that I am approaching the answer.

I had to listen carefully to this ethereal voice.

It sang: "...On the second night, the remaining people, tear the two close to each other. On the third night, the remaining people, praise my noble name..."

I don’t understand, who or what the pronoun refers to.

Immediately afterwards, the content began to change:

"The second word is wind,

Let me swing my wings and fly to the arms of God,

Counting the sad past that has passed away,

The golden apple, another one fell..."

Where is it? I stopped, feeling that the source of the sound was right by my side. I wandered around, but as always, there was a plain of flowers, and the white petals flew into the air like frost and snow. I felt fatigued, and I immediately fell to the ground, and then I lay down.

"The third word is hope..." I suddenly felt that this is actually my own voice.

"On the ninth night, the witch recovers, and there is no survivor. On the tenth night, the journey ends, and finally to the ideal land." The voice became not like my heart's voice, it came from behind, I felt There was someone behind me. Before I turned my head completely and saw the other person clearly, the corner of my eye seemed to reflect the other person's figure. Then, when I turned completely, there was nothing behind except the flying petals. The owner of that voice disappeared like a bubble.

"Do you believe me?" The voice asked again behind him. This time, it was clearer and seemed to be Dr. Ruan Li's voice. I remembered that she did ask such a thing, and I was unable to answer and was silent at the time. Now I am just having this nightmare.

"Ruan...Mom...?" I didn't dare to turn my head, for fear that it would disappear when I had to see it as before.

"Do you... love me?" The voice sounded again, but there was no longer a clear feeling as before. It seemed that it was still Dr. Ruan Li, but it seemed to be transformed into something else...

"Jiang?" I still didn't look back, just asked. In my heart, another memory emerged:

"Obviously, the'Jiang' in the story was shaped by you using me as a model." Dr. Ruan Li once said.

I couldn't respond at the time. But I don't think that Dr. Ruan Li is just wishful thinking. The feeling at the time was so ambiguous and embarrassing that I subconsciously wanted to refute it.

"Doctor Jiang and Ruan Li are not the same person." Such a retort seemed to be taken for granted. But. I did not do this.

The voice behind it becomes very weak, like breathing, which can only indicate that it exists. I didn't look back, just answered: "I do love you, Jiang. I hope you exist."

Then it disappeared.

I woke up suddenly from my dream, completely unbuffered. Suddenly, the scene before him changed from the white petals of Claudia flying all over the sky to a strange ceiling. It was also at this time that I was sure that the "lucid consciousness" that I had felt before was nothing but an illusion, and now my own consciousness. Is really sober.

There is no sense of ignorance just after waking up, and his thinking is sharp and fast. His emotions are swelling, seeming empty and melancholy. The fast-turning thinking can't completely fill this empty and melancholy feeling. I feel that I have many things to do, but I don’t know what to do first. Where to start. There is always a stupid self, no matter what you do, you will only taste the taste of failure and despair at the end.

No, I can definitely succeed. I can definitely do what I want to do. Without this persistence, what is the point of everything I have done so far? Thinking of this, I turned over and sat up, could not help but savor this negative and decadent thoughts and emotions, and then, in this way, let myself be dominated by some kind of cruel reason.

I don’t have much time to waste in this self-pity.

When the mood was sorted out, the window was already bright, and the morning light that spilled into the room was orange-red, gentle and magnificent, and the exquisitely decorated room was immediately filled with a fresh atmosphere. When I went to the attached bathroom to clean up my appearance, and when I applied cold water on my face, I felt more sober in my mind. I leaned on the side of the sink and looked at myself in the mirror—suddenly, I felt that I seemed to be a little strange to the appearance in the mirror. How long has it been since I looked in the mirror? I couldn't help but think.

The self in the mirror is different from the self in my mind in many details. For example, I was thinner than I thought, my face was paler, my body looked weak and unwind, my arms were slender, and I didn't feel like being strengthened by the fourth-level magic lines at all. The obvious morbid appearance, I thought, is more like Gao Chuan's body in the hospital reality. Of course, compared with the actual body in the hospital, there are still some differences. At least, standing in front of the mirror now is not a disabled person.

"Sound limbs and clear mind." Isn't this better than the worst? I twitched the corners of my mouth and smiled at myself in the mirror, and he also returned one—what should I say? I think that the frail teenagers can still get a little extra points in their looks.

Last night, Dr. Ruan Li said a lot to me. Those contents are probably the cause of the nightmare I had before. My heart was shaken more severely than I thought, and the information and observation basis obtained from the "hospital reality" was already very reliable. Although I didn't fully feel that the "hospital reality" was the real reality, and there was some hesitation, I never thought that at this time, in such an environment, a situation of forcibly changing the worldview would happen.

I can’t repeat everything that Dr. Ruan Li said last night, but the impression left by those contents is deeply imprinted in my heart.

This world may be really different from what I always thought.

"The virus... Jiang... doesn't exist?" I took a deep breath and dried my hair vigorously with a towel. Before, I tucked my entire head under the faucet.

However, even if the "virus" and "Jiang" do not exist, the world in the eyes of Dr. Ruan Li still has not been able to escape the doomsday crisis. There is still another existence that replaces the "pathogen". Although the position on which Dr. Ruan Li’s truth is based is full of contradictions with the position on which my understanding of the world is based before, after careful discrimination, we can find that there are actually many situations in which they are real objects and shadows. Relationship.

I combed through those situations that I still remember, not too complicated. For the time being, let’s not mention what “reality” is. Dr. Nguyen Li said before that the world still conforms to the situation of “the end of the world in 1999”, and moreover. Compared with the previous doomsday illusion, the current world-whether it is a repeater world or the real world-is in a more intuitive state of apocalyptic progress, because the real date at this time is actually 1999. middle.

This answer. It also means that before the mystery spread, the world had already begun the doomsday process, and it was not the mystery that caused the doomsday. If you look at what Dr. Ruan Li said from an earlier perspective, you will probably associate the doomsday process with a "Nazi conspiracy." The Nazis are in control of this Las Vegas repeater, and if the doomsday process of this repeater world has already begun before us invaders enter, that proves. In fact, the Nazis intended to directly contribute to the collapse of the repeater.

However, when it comes to Dr. Ruan Li, the situation is not so simple. Even though many of what I have seen and experienced are hallucinations, they must have a basis in reality and cannot be fabricated out of thin air.

She suggested to me last night: "Why don't you try to trust me?" I couldn't give a clear answer to this question. However, it is undeniable. When I tried to believe in the world she described, many doubts in the past suddenly became clear.

Even so, I always thought that the temporary data hedging space attached to the doomsday illusion is actually the real world. Still can't let people accept it all at once. Dr. Ruan Li showed me my diary, which gave me a huge impact. I didn't think about it at the time, but now I think about it and use the power of "mystery". In fact, it is not impossible to do this. However, is it a bit too despicable to use this "no matter what's puzzled, push it to the mystery" approach?

I have to think about the situation if Dr. Ruan Li’s words are true. But that way, the blow to me would definitely be great.

However, Dr. Ruan Li's explanation of the world and my problems, like the "hospital reality", has a very clear and true basis.

"White Claudia... the origin of everything?" I mumbled to myself, pushing the door.

Today, Dr. Ruan Li intends to take me to a nearby observatory. She intends to use "the existence of a macro universe" to prove that the world she is in seems to be real. And I also feel that if she can really do it, I probably won't be able to refute her. Even in the "hospital reality" that was once close to the truth, where I was, it was just a lonely island hospital.

When I left the room, I felt a "mysterious" aura, and when the chain decision started, the aura disappeared. I cannot be like Dr. Ruan Li, acquiescing that this world is real, and there is no mystery. In my perception ratio, although Dr. Nguyen Li’s heavy blow is effective, it is still not enough to replace my previous view.

I know well that Dr. Ruan Li will continue to forcibly instill the truth she knows into my brain. The reason for participating in the seminar and conducting research deals with Dallas is to accomplish this. The reason for using such a drastic method is precisely because the time in this world is running out, and she needs a hero to save all of this.

Doctor Ruan Li is not very optimistic about my rescue action, whether it is the story in the diary or the reality in her eyes. "

I have no reason to hate her. When she stared at me, I really couldn't resist being such a test subject.

To put it simply, what Dr. Ruan Li is doing today is, in nature, no different from the "hospital reality"

Because I once again talked about heroes, the truth of this repeater world, and the "agent of doomsday" mentioned by Dr. Ruan Li, I couldn't help but remember that Carmen once called himself an agent of doomsday.

I remembered our conversation when I first met him:

"Where is this place?"

"Apocalypse."

"Why send us here?"

"To save the world."

When he mentioned the doomsday illusion, I was a little skeptical.

I started to summarize the information I got from him. There are many people who are drawn into this world through special channels like me. The reason why we are here is because this guy who claims to be an agent wants to save the world. His tone was as if the real world would become the same scene as here at some point in the future.

I don't know how many people he has found. We are like brave candidates.

Yes, the Mageweave Messenger, also known as the Chosen One, in the past doomsday illusion, probably shoulders the obligations and responsibilities of the brave candidate. Of course, not all brave candidates will eventually become brave , And the brave will be predicted to die and fall when facing the doomsday truth. In fact, in the past doomsday illusion, there is no "brave who saved the world".

I deeply know how difficult it is to become such a hero. When even "what the world is like" is ambiguous, "save the world" is what a weak slogan.

However, Dr. Ruan Li now seems to be ready to make a desperate bet. Her toughness, sincerity, and resolution, I have already felt strongly in her actions and thinking. Therefore, I did not refuse, even if I still cannot fully stand in her perspective to see the "truth" she thinks, but I cannot refuse her, especially on the point of "to save the world and become a hero".

Today, I will break the silence and tell her what I really think.

It's not about "what's the truth", it's just that she needs me. She needs me to trust her and help her, she will bet everything she has on me, so I must respond to her positively. She may be able to find other people, maybe not, but I think that she can think of me and expect me at this time, which is the most gratifying thing in a series of bad things.

As Dr. Ruan Li said, if you can’t find a real way to save the world from your original worldview, you can only bet on luck. Why not try to believe her and see if there is a new path? ?

I knocked on Dr. Ruan Li's door, and when she answered, I pushed open and entered.

Doctor Ruan Li didn't seem to sleep all night, and his face was full of exhaustion. When he looked at me, his calm eyes were covered with melancholy. She seemed to be quite concerned about what she said last night. It was her who opened up the "truth" and I was the one who suffered the impact, but it was me who adjusted it first.

"A Chuan?" Doctor Ruan Li pulled his coat, the air conditioner in the room turned on a little low, "Why so early?"

"I thought it over, Mom." I closed my eyes, and when I opened them again, all the distracting thoughts disappeared, "I really can't tell where reality is and where is hallucination. I can't deny it. , Everything I wrote in my diary, so far, those contents have not been a fictional story for me. But even so—" I paused and said clearly: "Since my mother needs me , Then, I am very willing to trust my mother. It may be difficult to do, but I will work hard for a while, and then, in the process of hard work, to find the correct answer."

Doctor Ruan Li was stunned~IndoMTL.com~ Although she started to say those things last night, she didn't seem to have thought that I would say this to her in such a tone at this time.

"Mom has also read the diary, read the secrets in my heart, if there is a power that makes me remember things that I should not know, then, the mother who also knows those contents, You must understand how I treated the world originally, right?" I said, "I do have my own plan, and I always feel that my plan is correct... No, I have to do it. But since my mother needs me , I am willing to give up such a plan, for the sake of my mother, to try those possibilities that I cannot understand."

"A Chuan--" Doctor Ruan Li's voice was trembling. She stared at me with her glasses widened, as if waiting for me to continue speaking, saying what she wanted to hear.

"Since my mother thinks I may do it, and chooses me, it proves that I do have such a chance. Even if I don’t know, how many times I have the chance to fail, but even a slight I don’t want to miss this opportunity. Moreover, no matter what this repeater world is, I don’t want my mother and Sakiya to die. I hate this end!” I said firmly.

"Let's save the world together! Use mother's method!" (To be continued...)