Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1280: Seminar schedule

No matter where it is, White Claudia is like a symbol of Doomsday Truth.

If I want to save everything I cherish, I must leave before this repeater world is destroyed. I can’t estimate how much damage the invaders’ battles and conspiracies in the doomsday illusion will bring to this world, but even if it’s 10,000 steps back, everyone’s actions will connect and promote the doomsday process. Function, this point will definitely appear in my past experience-no matter what we do, do or not, we will deeply feel that we have become a link in the doomsday, rather than a link in preventing it. . The terrible ending seems to be here, although it hasn't arrived yet, maybe it will be tomorrow? Maybe the day after tomorrow? In a week? A few months later? It will definitely arrive.

Everyone who knows the doomsday, even if there is insufficient intelligence, can intuitively feel that this time period will definitely not delay 1999. On the other hand, there is also such a feeling-if you can still see the rising of the quled sun and people's daily life after 1999, it means that the doomsday has ended, or that the doomsday process has stopped.

All actions, plans, and ideas can only be verified in the first second of the year 2000. All previous chances, no matter what percentages, are actually meaningless. Because, the closer to the end of the year, even according to one’s own plan, there is a 99% chance that the doomsday process will be blocked, and that one% of the worst possibility will still bring the "99% The same pressure as the end of the day will happen.

Similarly, if this repeater world is not regarded as a special temporary data hedge space attached to the doomsday illusion, the feeling of doomsday will be more serious. Because that means that to prevent the world from being destroyed is completely equivalent to stopping the "doomsday process" in a complete sense. It is not just about the situation of the world itself.

From the perspective of the doomsday illusion, the destruction of this repeater world is due to the actions of the invaders. Then, as long as these conspiracies that can be seen and contacted are dismantled. The situation afterwards. Need to wait to see if the doomsday illusion ushered in the end. However, the world is also regarded as one aspect of reality. The doomsday process is synchronized with other aspects of reality. Then, to prevent it, the opponent is no longer a visible mysterious organization, let alone an average level of mysterious force, but a one. Kind of invisible. I can't touch it, but what is actually happening is like destiny.

The concept of saving a small repeater world is completely different from the concept of saving all the real aspects, thereby completely preventing the end of the world. The difficulty of the latter makes people almost nowhere to start, and my plan has to be implemented. Nor can it follow the order of the past: first stop the end of this world, and then stop the end of the doomsday illusion. Eventually prevent the real doomsday of the hospital.

According to the hypothesis of the "real side", no matter which world it is, as long as one of them perishes, then the other worlds will also perish at the same time. Because they all directly reflect the "truth". It is not a system of who depends on whom.

The complex relationship here includes the relationship between the world and the world, between people, between similar people in different worlds, and between different people in different worlds. Can't sort it out at all. Even if all kinds of speculations, associations, and situations as if seen from the perspective of a third-party **** have been recorded in the diary, it is completely reasonable to me to sort out a completely reasonable, well-organized and well-organized relationship diagram. Can't do it.

Only the relationship between Dr. Nguyen Li, "Jiang" and Ningyo-Jiang, the relationship between Sakuya and others in different worlds, and even the relationship between White Claudia, "Virus" and "Jiang", have already made me Thinking often falls into a deadlock.

I can't help but guess that the clues that may be recorded in the diary, some seemingly objective things, some seemingly things I have seen with my own eyes, have false information brought about by mental hallucinations. In particular, my memory of "Gaochuan" has a large part of it, which is a mixture of hallucinations, imagination, and psychological tendencies.

What is even more worrying is that even if you know these memories, what you see is not completely "real", but you can't tell which ones are "false." Because, in many cases, there is no absolutely true reference.

Although it is a pity, human consciousness is like this. In the absence of a standard reference object, it is impossible to recognize other things.

When I was in the doomsday illusion, I used what I saw and heard and the intelligence of Ningyojiang as my reference. After entering the reality of the hospital, the information of the reality of the hospital is used as a reference. After the resuscitation, "Jiang" and "virus" were used as references. However, all three types of reference objects do not seem so real, or in other words, cannot prove their absolute truth.

Everyone will set a true reference object in their subconscious mind, and after setting it, they will believe in the bottom of their hearts and will not be easily shaken. However, once shaken, in popular terms, it is the disintegration of the Three Views, which is full of terrible destructive power for the survival of mankind and its positioning. But like me, the true reference in my heart is constantly shaking, and my three views have to be revised at any time, but the situation cannot be maintained at a stable level. It is definitely not a normal situation, and it definitely meets the standards of mental patients.

Doctor Ruan Li can see through this completely.

My behavior is not based on the objectiveness of "what is truth", but the subjectiveness of "what I think is true". This is not to say that other people use objective reality to build their own three views, but objective and firm factors are definitely the most important bricks. For me, "objective" seems to have never existed, but it is more in line with the definition of "illusion". For example, how many people feel that when they pick up a stone, they feel that they are not holding a stone, but something else? The reason why the "stone" here is "objectively true" is not because the person who picks it up thinks it is true, but admits that its essence is true, and the name "stone" refers to this "reality". "Named.

But when I put it here, I picked up the stone, and the reason why I think it is real is not because I admit it is real. And just I hope it is real.

I don't want to admit these situations and have done a lot of self-defense, but I think Dr. Ruan Li has seen everything through. And such a world view that lacks real references and becomes vacillating is precisely what I have to doubt even the most real "hospital reality" that seems to be the most real. Even now. The origin of the hypothesis of "true profile" was made.

No normal person will doubt whether the world he lives in is real. Even if you have had such an idea, you will not act upon it.

In any case, I am not a normal person-this recognition is in line with Dr. Ruan Li's expectations.

"I always hope that you can admit this from the bottom of your heart." She said to me, "In your past diary, you even confessed it in your mouth and defended it from this perspective. I thought about some situations, but , Your expectation of yourself as a normal person will greatly exceed this recognition. In many content, you assume that you are a normal person to make judgments. However, you are not a normal person in the first place, even if you have common sense. How can I trust those normal judgments from my own perspective? Oil and water are both fluids. However, oil cannot become water, and it is impossible to see what you should do and what you can do from the perspective of water. It is also impossible to do all the things that water can do."

Initially. My original intention of writing a diary-no, it should be said that writing my own story in my memory is not as a diary. Instead, I hope to write a story full of incredible adventures. Because my own experience has been too mysterious, there is no need to exaggerate it. On the contrary, because there are too many situations that I cannot understand at all, and it is difficult to imagine before encountering it, I will also try to record Interpret the content of the story, trying to find the doubts and clues that I could not find at the time of the incident, and conduct a logical arrangement, but it turns out that doing so will only make the whole story more and more complicated. The more obscure. In the end, I have nothing to do to straighten out these contents.

The story is very large and bloated, and there is no reorganization of the plot structure. Most of them are arranged in their own chronological order. Therefore, if you read it as a diary, it will be easier, like: this time I saw it What, what did, what came to mind. Then, treat the end of this piece of content as a temporary end, instead of forcing a relationship with the following content.

This kind of fragmentation in reading will make the overall content look simpler, but it will also cause more questions. I think that if it needs to be published, in this way, the whole story will be broken down into small stories. Each story is arranged in a way of "dream adventures by the same protagonist in chronological order", maybe more a little better.

I can’t guess how Dr. Ruan Li read the content, because what she needs to sort out from the story is not the plot and setting, but the grotesque plot and setting. Behind it, my psychological changes are implied. She and the readers I envision are not the same type at all.

I don’t think that reading my diary will get too much pleasure. Perhaps, in the content of the diary, there is no lack of descriptions of happiness, but what I have experienced is heavy, depressed and incomprehensible, as well as from my subjective uncertainty and doubts, the logic and difficult to straighten out Emotions, as well as all kinds of mental illnesses, must be important reasons to drive readers away.

Even so, I still can't stop writing, because only these weird, confusing and difficult to interpret parts really describe and prove my existence. These things, good or bad, are proof that I was alive.

I am here.

Anyway, I am here.

Even if it is impossible to distinguish whether things other than "I" are real or not, it is impossible to simply use this "I" as a real reference, but it can give me a real and alive feeling.

Just for this reason, I can’t stop writing, even if the diary will be analyzed psychologically, and ignore what I really want to express, or think that what I want to prove is "for granted, and nothing I have never thought of giving up this kind of behavior. The stubborn behavior and the original intention of the behavior may be "there is no difference between being and not" to others, or it may be "ridiculous and funny", and it may be "difficult to understand", but for oneself, they must have Significance.

When I believe in this and act on it. Those confusing and uncomfortable situations will become as light as feathers.

I’m like this, I’ve been here until now, and I’ll keep going.

I munched on the barbecue, savoring the deliciousness of the meat. Bitten down hard. Tearing and chewing, it's like this is the last day of life, the last meal, turning the life that I should have in the future, but may end, into such a force.

"It's delicious, mom." I said to Dr. Ruan Li, "It's really delicious."

Doctor Ruan Li smiled slightly, but. I think her eyes are not as happy as her smile.

Actually, I don’t think she needs to be sad for me, because although I am carrying a lot now, I am happier than she is now. Well, it needs comfort. It's her instead, isn't it?

I fork a piece of meat. In her mouth.

"Barbecue in the morning?" I asked.

"The morning meeting talked about some activities related to the event. Because of the nature of the competition, the guests need a period of time to sort out." The theme of the activity will start in the afternoon. In the afternoon is the report meeting. Those who participate in the seminar must submit a paper in advance, which will be selected by the experts of the seminar, and then the excellent and characteristic papers will be sent to others. Because They are all invited guests. Most of them are not professional, so this selection will not be too resisted.

After the paper selection, until the end of the seminar, everyone must study the topics given in the seminar this morning, and submit the paper again before the end of the penultimate day, and hold a presentation meeting on the last day. During the event, the seminar will organize everyone to visit the psychiatric hospital. The content of the visit is of course related to the topics given. It is basically based on the clinical diagnosis of the patients on the announced list-that is, patients like you. However, not everyone can only choose the same patient. The candidate patients on the list include you. There are seven people, and they can choose one of them. Of course, the seminar encourages comprehensive discussions to find multiple patients. Similarities and differences in. "

"Sounds like a lot of things." I said.

"Yes, a total of one week." Dr. Ruan Li said, "When the invitation was originally sent, it was said that there were only three days, but due to some reasons, the seminar was temporarily extended. However, for those who really want to participate in this For the people of this event, doubling time is not a problem. Expert-level guidance, collaboration and casual use of cutting-edge equipment are all very attractive. Originally, the slogan promoted by the seminar was to improve oneself through communication. Know the world and look for like-minded companions. People who feel that this is just a cover, people who are not serious enough, just people with the idea of ​​going abroad, have basically given up after encountering those things. Those who can stay, They are all people who are determined to participate in this seminar. Such people will never complain because of the extended time."

"But, what about people who want to leave if something happens midway?" I asked.

"Then I'm sorry. During the seminar, you are not allowed to use your own mobile phone." Dr. Ruan Li said: "The seminar is equipped with a new mobile phone for everyone, specifically for use during the seminar. The seminar ends. You are not allowed to take it away later."

"It feels so strict, will it not arouse others' suspicion and dissatisfaction?". I say.

"Of course not." Dr. Ruan Li said profoundly, "Because, this is originally such a place. And this activity is just such an activity. The relevant restrictions are in inviting the other party at the same time. It has been stated in advance, and the seminar is also trusted by people in the psychology community. I am not the host of this seminar, but this is only because my research is more personal. Most of the time, the seminar On the contrary, it is a kind of restriction. An organization must have its own core idea and force members to follow this idea, and this idea is not something that a few people can shake. Such a situation will make people who join the organization be subject to various restrictions, I I don’t like it very much. I have my own ideas, but I don’t guarantee that ~IndoMTL.com~ will follow the organization’s philosophy and direction. So, as it is now, it’s quite appropriate to work together if you need it and separate if you don’t need it. Of course, in order to achieve cooperation, you have to pay more than the members of the organization. It just so happens that what I have is also extremely precious to them."

The doctor Ruan Li nodded his head and said: "The way of thinking of a top expert, but also a maverick female perspective."

Dr. Ruan Li is very confident and proactive, but this style matches her image very well. I never felt that the confident Dr. Ruan Li was strange. On the contrary, if her behavior was as silent as mine, it would be suspicious. However, even this Dr. Ruan Li, when talking about White Claudia and the end of the world, inevitably smiles bitterly. These things, in her statement, are "the most terrible thorns in your career, very Difficult, but never fear and despair."

In her body, I felt inspired and gained courage. At the same time, I seemed to see Fu Jiang's shadow. (To be continued...)

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