Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1341: Transformation

My story lacks logic, has no evidence and truth, and is beyond common sense. ∑, I believe that if most people have the opportunity to read the stories I made up with my own personal experience, they will definitely be involved in the vortex of confusion, and I can’t believe that all of this was once a fact. Even if it is myself, when I re-read my diary, I often feel that all this is indeed some kind of incomprehensible incredible and superior life, a joke to a humble life.

　　

　　 I have been reflecting on my past and wondering about anything that might become real. In the end I became what I am now, a mental patient, but even so, I don't think how many people can do better than me under the same circumstances.

　　

　　 In order to keep my mind sensible, I can persevere amidst unexplainable endless thoughts, instead of choosing to give up, just taking all the appearances in front of me as the truth, and so from life to death. I chose something very abnormal and extremely crazy in the eyes of others as my support and benchmark.

　　

　　 However, in such a situation, I also cannot simply use words to make others understand.

　　

　　 Even if I describe my experience in a timeline from beginning to end, my understanding of my own experience, and my guesses and judgments based on the intelligence I have received, it is difficult for others to empathize. Furthermore, when I think everything has been explained clearly, the listener will definitely ask more "why".

　　

　　 Why not do this.

　　

　　 Why did you do that.

　　

　　 Why don’t you think so.

　　

　　 Why do you think so.

　　

　　Why these behaviors, thinking and judgment benchmarks must depend on the monster that sounds so absurd.

　　

　　 Does "Jiang" really exist?

　　

　　Besides the world in which I live, are there really other worlds?

　　

　　 If these answers are yes, where is the evidence? It is not based on what a person sees and hears, but the evidence that everyone can actually access, see and hear.

　　

　　 However, I don’t have enough. Let everyone believe that it is true evidence. Therefore, even if I have stated my views countless times, I will still be regarded as the babble of the mentally ill and cannot be trusted.

　　

　　 I have studied psychology and can use it proficiently, I know. Everything I say, even if I think it is true, will be questioned. When someone asks me to give an explanation, if the other person cannot believe the explanation, what is the meaning of the explanation? Is it just being regarded as "ridiculous" by people and letting them get the release of psychological pressure? Or is it to achieve a certain purpose, causing them to suspicion only for the sake of suspicion?

　　

　　 Therefore, I rarely explain things about "Jiang" and "Another World".

　　

　　 Even if "Jiang" is in the form of a human-shaped river, it seems to be elusive. I am also very clear that this is just a representation.

　　

　　Mae’s cancerous reproduction. It made Mitsui Tsukao, fortune-telling and fitness coaches feel terrified. Although they had also participated in some mysterious incidents before, they saw with their own eyes the things that very people can do, just like ordinary people living in the ordinary world. The phenomenon in mysticism was so plainly displayed in front of me, and my mind suddenly became confused. However, at that time. There is also Dr. Ruan Li beside them, with the simplest and strongest non-mystery perspective. Give them a "reasonable" explanation that is more suitable for their existing worldview.

　　

　　 Once Dr. Ruan Li is away and encounters a similar incident, the attitude of the three people in front of him is a matter of course.

　　

　　 The reason why they have become more dazed, flustered, and excited than in the past is that it is not ordinary mystery experts who show the mystery. But "Jiang".

　　

　　Mae is the human form of "Jiang". Once it exists, it will no longer exude a huge influence all the time. Although before that, Mitsui Tsukao and the three did not seem to be affected at all, and only regarded her as an ordinary female mental patient. But this influence still exists, and it has always had an effect on them.

　　

　　 Nowadays, the sudden violent mood swings of Mitsui Tsukao, fortune-teller, and fitness instructor are just the effects of previous savings, just like a flood that bursts a dyke, released in one rush.

　　

　　 I am not at all surprised that they will have such a sudden and intense reaction. In other words, when seeing Zhenjiang's cancerous reproduction, it is surprising to be able to easily understand and accept it calmly. This is not a reason such as "I have thought about it before", or "I have seen a similar segment in a movie", or "Anyway, there are enough surprising things, so it's not bad this time" and so on. You can easily avoid the influence of "Jiang".

　　

　　 This is not so much a manifestation of the destruction of the worldview, as it is the most instinctive fear that is rooted in people's bodies and hearts, as if they have been deeply imprinted in genes since their birth-not The grotesque and terrifying process of Mae’s cancerous reproduction is just a primer, detonating their own unknowingly due to various psychological factors, but in fact they have accumulated a long-standing sense of fear.

　　

　　 "What the **** is this? What the **** is this? Who the **** is she?" The three excited and chattering words repeated the same meaning.

　　

　　 The three people hope that I can give an explanation that they can understand, not just to understand the current situation, but to understand the truth hidden under the current situation, including the truth of Zhenjiang. But I really can't give them the truth, because even myself, I still haven't found it.

　　

　　 I also have a lot of things that I don’t understand, so much so that I know that as long as I explain, I will be questioned endlessly.

　　

　　 "Mae is my wife, she is a monster." This is the only thing I think I can tell them.

　　

　　Of course they would not be satisfied with such a thing.

　　

　　 is the me of the past, and I might think that I don’t need words to explain, because I can’t just use "talking" to explain everything. That is too complicated and incredible. If you have a chance later, maybe you can show them my diary. If you read it as a story, even if it cannot be explained, it is just a story. but now. With a deeper understanding of my diary, I no longer have such naive ideas.

　　

　　 There is an essential difference in understanding between the three people in front of me and Dr. Ruan Li. Dr. Ruan Li can read my diary and treat only the stories recorded in it as the utterances of mental patients, and the three in front of me Once you see those diary stories. Will gradually be disturbed thinking and mentality and become crazy.

　　

　　My diaries, once placed in any conscious world, they will become the source of nightmares. After realizing this, I decided not to show it to other ordinary people except Dr. Ruan Li.

　　

　　 In fact, when I made this decision, I was a little bit sorry. I kept a diary and planned to compile it as a story. It was the first time I met Fu Jiang in the past doomsday fantasy. The period of time with her. As a newcomer who had just come into contact with the "mystery", I was both passionate and naive at the time. With simple and beautiful ideas, I looked at the changes in my life, enjoyed the exciting and novel side, and gave birth to this experience. The idea of ​​a bestseller.

　　

　　 Today, I still keep a diary. Written into a story, but. The content and the craziness hidden behind these things drawn with pen and paper are no longer suitable for normal people to read, and of course it is impossible to publish them as bestsellers. I regret this, but I don’t think, My own records are in vain.

　　

　　 at least. Dr. Ruan Li still needs it, and maybe in the longer future, someone will need it-I look forward to it so much.

　　

　　 With a nervous, but unable to give up, I recorded my story. But it is precisely because of this. I fully understand what qualifications my readers should have.

　　

　　 Obviously, the current Mitsui Tsukao, fortune-teller, and fitness instructor do not have this qualification. Once I read my diary story, it will only make them more unacceptable and even more incomprehensible. The situation they are in will eventually be completely destroyed, fragmented, and no longer normal people in terms of personality, spirit, psychology, and concepts.

　　

　　As a companion, I tried my best to avoid this from happening.

　　

　　 Therefore, in the face of their excited doubts and hysterical emotions, I just insisted on the sentence "Mae is my wife and a monster", and remained silent on any other issues.

　　

　　 I don’t know, what better way other than silence.

　　

　　 The three of them yelled in the storm, waved their arms, walked around, glanced at the motionless female mystery expert standing on the ground in horror, and then quickly looked away. Looking at it like this, it's like being afraid of something, looking for something, confirming something, but not daring to do it openly, for fear that he might also encounter accidents.

　　

　　 Mae is a monster—their peeping of female mystery experts will only make them more sure of this in their hearts.

　　

　　 Although Mae tore the female mystery expert’s back and got in, the female mystery expert’s body shape did not change clearly, and the cracks that should have existed in her back were completely invisible. . After the various abnormalities on the surface of the skin disappeared, her entire body, including the chest that was once pierced, returned to an undamaged state.

　　

　　The absent eyes of the female mystery expert seemed to be the only proof that she had suffered fatal and serious injuries.

　　

　　 However, this state of lack of eyesight did not last long. It was like a machine that was recharged and suddenly awakened. The female mystery expert raised her head, and all the eyes peeping at her at this time seemed to be greatly affected. Excited, they all retracted all at once. Mitsui Tsukao, the fortune-teller, and the fitness trainer subconsciously moved away from her a few steps, and the ups and downs of mood were all written on their faces. However, it is probably because Mae’s body has disappeared. Although it is completely conceivable that Mae is in the body of this female mystery expert, the sense of fear that the three of them have when they face the mysterious Mae. Get a great relief.

　　

　　 They were alert, upset, and panicked, but the expressions on their faces gradually calmed down. Even so, they still have a great sense of rejection of this female mystery expert. This rejection is clearly written in their eyes and movements.

　　

　　 And I think that they have such thoughts and behaviors, which are completely normal and understandable, and there is no need to say good things for Zhenjiang.

　　

　　 I think it is very necessary for them to fully understand the horror of Zhenjiang and understand that this world is completely different from the world they used to know.

　　

　　The female mystery expert moved her fingers, as if she was frozen stiff. However, just by bending the fingers several times in turn, the movement of the entire arm suddenly became flexible, soft and soothing like a snake. Then, she moved her neck, shoulders, hips and legs, and the whole person was like doing rhythmic gymnastics, performing various movements that put great pressure on the joints.

　　

　　 Gradually, these movements are getting harder and harder, and they don’t seem to be the mysterious, confident, and dull feeling that the female mystery experts gave before. There is a surging sense of power like a fighter, suddenly Exudes. If the female mystery expert before was just a cunning cat, now she is like a fierce female leopard.

　　

　　 this kind of breath does not belong to Zhenjiang at all. But there is still a familiar feeling.

　　

　　 "Tomie!?" I guessed. Mitsui Tsukao, the fortune-teller, and the fitness instructor immediately focused their attention on me. I think they have never heard of this name, and they don't know what kind of person this name represents. They may also think that Mae, who has eroded the female mystery expert, will be the master of this body. I once had this idea. But the facts have proved that the personality of another humanoid Jiang will come out.

　　

　　 "Of course it's me, Achuan." The female mystery expert replied with a little excitement. When she said that, the female mystery expert's face and facial features had some minor changes, but it was enough to make her appearance between the original appearance and Fujiang's appearance~IndoMTL.com~Staring With such familiar and unfamiliar faces, the expressions of Mitsuizukao and the three of them seemed even more incomprehensible, what was going on in front of them.

　　

　　 "She is Fu Jiang." I said to the three of them.

　　

　　"Why did you become Tomoe again? Who is Tomoe? Where is Mae?" Mitsui Tsukao was in a daze.

　　

　　 However, after such a blow, fortune-tellers and fitness trainers who can finally calm down by force seem to have new conjectures that they can accept.

　　

　　"This is...multiple personality?" they asked.

　　

　　 "Multiple personalities? Yes, yes, that's exactly what I said. This is one of the multiple mental illnesses she has suffered." Mitsui Tsukao also had an expression of wakefulness, "So, she is now called Tomoe ??" Mitsui Tsukao who said that seemed to have completely forgotten Mae's horrible actions before, and only regarded her as an ordinary mental patient. Although it seems to me that the transition has become abrupt and weird, he behaved very naturally.

　　

　　 If it is really exciting, and subconsciously choose to forget and reassemble the memory, I don’t think there is anything wrong. In other words, it might be better to forget. (To be continued..)u