Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1372: The warm body
readx();Surgery? Severe injury to your right leg? I looked at my body, and the dense stitches seemed to tell me that this right leg was once completely separated from the body, and only in this way can I barely connect it. The roots of the thighs, knees and ankles, the three most obvious wounds, make people wonder whether this leg can still be used.
The pain from the wound is as if he had never been given anesthetic. The operating room I was in was not like a situation where there was no anesthetic. However, what concerns me most is not the condition of my body. My memory of the last second still stays when Fu Jiang is still by his side. Where is she now?
"What the **** is..." I muttered to myself, and Dr. Ruan Li took out a medical flashlight from his pocket and pointed it at my pupil. I was irritated by the strong light and closed my eyes subconsciously, and then she forced my eyelids abruptly. She said to me in a stern voice: "Don't move." Such a tone is not a discussion.
I was silent, still playing with her. After several procedures, Dr. Ruan Li seemed to breathe a sigh of relief and said to me: "An hour ago, your illness had an onset. When we found you, your right leg had already been severely injured. Moreover, You seem to be dragging your injured leg so far, which is incredible. We can only perform surgery on you. But don’t worry, this operation seems to be a success."
"Surgery? My foot?" I tried to move my leg. After another wave of pain, although I felt I could make it move, it actually didn't do anything. This feeling gave me an extremely deep sense of sight.
Yes, a serious leg injury, even after surgery, can’t walk independently—it’s like a replica of the reality of waking up in the hospital.
For a moment, I almost suspected that I really returned to the reality of the hospital, but the last time I woke up, I was in the hospital bed, and this time I was on the operating table.
However, Dr. Ruan Li’s voice. This illusion was quickly dispelled.
"At that time, you were allowed to intercept the patients who wanted to break in, precisely because your spirit and the spirit of those patients once resonated, plus your diary... I guess when the two interact . Those people will not bring you too dangerous influence. But maybe my decision is wrong.” Dr. Ruan Li stared at me and said, “I’m still too naive. The possibility of getting better-there is an old saying that when you feel that the situation has deteriorated, it will only become worse than you expected."
"I..." I seem to understand a little bit. What the **** is going on now. There is no doubt that what Dr. Ruan Li is telling is the battle between me, Fu Jiang and other mystery experts, and even the "monster" Novsky in the 51st district from her own perspective. Observations and interpretations made.
In general, the process and results of the battle with mystery experts and Novsky are not much different from what I know. However, in my own situation. As well as what happened during a period of time after the battle, there is something different from my cognition.
On the current situation, there are two most obvious differences:
First, although in my cognition, Novsky’s abnormality caused the collapse of the dimensionality reduction environment, which in turn restored my right leg to normal, but at this moment, the injury of this leg still stays at the time. The state of being severely damaged.
Secondly, Fu Jiang is gone.
The boundary of this cognitive difference lies in my "coma" after the war.
How did fall into a coma? I have no impression at all, nor did I feel anything wrong at the time. In fact, after waking up on the operating table, it is the feeling of waking up from a "dream". However, such a dream is too clear and too deep, and it is difficult to admit that it is a dream.
Fight side by side with Fujiang, and talk with Fujiang after the war. The ideal hometown mentioned by Fu Jiang-these things are just an episode of mental illness, are they my imagination and dreams?
No, it shouldn’t be like this.
After all, I am not the only one who saw Fu Jiang.
"Fu Jiang...Mom, where is Fu Jiang?" I don't know how to explain my experience to Dr. Ruan Li, because it is conceivable that it is completely ineffective. She never admitted any mystery, nor did she admit the existence of "Jiang" at all. White Claudia is a visible and tangible substance to her, but the so-called "Fu Jiang" in her eyes is just a mental illusion of mine.
However, I have many things I want to say to Fu Jiang, and I have many questions that I want to ask her further. Does the matter of the ideal town really exist, or is it... Although she explained why she changed her past attitude and took the initiative to talk about this kind of thing to me, because of her identity as "Jiang" behind her, I still can't help but guess more.
Do these changes mean that the "Jiang" aspect has undergone more profound changes?
I don’t know if Tomoe will delve into such a topic, but as long as she sees her—as long as her presence can be observed, it will make people feel at ease.
According to my theory, if you don’t keep observing "Jiang" and you cannot observe Ningyo River, you will--
"Fu Jiang?" Doctor Ruan Li stared at him with a meaningful gaze, making people feel uneasy. "It's still Fu Jiang..." She sighed as if she knew everything, "Achuan, Zhen Jiang has long been It's dead. Why can't you get rid of that nightmare after so many years? Even if I say it now, you won't admit it, but I still have to tell you, telling you countless times that Fujiang does not exist."
"I understand, I understand, mother." I have no intention of arguing with her about this kind of thing. The past has shown that even if it is related in meaning, what we see on the surface is completely different. of.
The current dialogue is like a reprint of the "Hospital Reality".
However, this is not "hospital reality" but "inside the Las Vegas repeater". In the final analysis, when Dr. Ruan Li appears in this world, he should be mentally prepared. It is completely conceivable what she says and what point of view she maintains.
"This time, I am not the only one who saw Fu Jiang." I said.
"Of course, but this just proves that everyone who sees Fu Jiang is a patient." Dr. Ruan Li said: "They were invisible at first, but because of you. They have a connection with your spirit. , Becomes visible. When they are affected by you, you are also forced to be affected by them. But in the end, you and them are still different. You are not because you are affected by the white Claudia. Become a mental patient, but you are a mental patient." She paused, feeling dispirited, "Forget it, this kind of thing is good. It is because of my mistakes. It is because of my mistakes that you have suffered such a serious injury. You can live. , Is the best result."
"No! I did it myself!" I can't admit that this is a mistake made by Dr. Ruan Li. Because, from the very beginning, I used my own will to intercept the monster, and I ended up with this kind of injury, and this kind of injury was expected. Although halfway through, I reported to Dr. Ruan Li. But even if she stopped, I would still do it.
Since this is my choice, there is no reason at all to let Dr. Ruan Li bear the title of so-called "mistake".
That's not fair. No matter how Dr. Ruan Li observed this incident, I personally cannot accept it!
"Really? If you think this is more acceptable, then just do it with you." Dr. Ruan Li did not act too persistently, "What did you see at the time, write a report to me. I need More information to determine the mental interaction between you and those patients at that time. After all, if you can’t unlock the secrets, you will never be able to get rid of their influence, although they will also be affected by you. However, once you are too severely eroded by the white Claudia due to their influence, it will be difficult to recover. The reason why you can maintain a certain degree of normality is precisely because of your own spirit The morbid state has rejection, which is not completely compatible with White Claudia’s mental erosion."
I know every word she said. But the meaning after concatenating them into sentences becomes not so easy to understand.
She seems to mean: My spirit was already very serious before Claudia White had a spiritual erosion of people in this world, so instead, she had rejection, and to a certain extent, it repelled The spirit of Claudia White erodes. In the end, it turned out that I and other patients on this peninsula are different in many details of mental illness?
However, if this difference is translated into the difference between me and other mystery experts, it will be easier for me to understand.
"Fu Jiang..." I reminded Dr. Ruan Li again.
Dr. Ruan Li was silent for a moment, turned on the monitor in front of me, adjusted a few options, and the screen that was shown was exactly what happened after me, Fu Jiang, and Mitsui Tsukao entered this area. The only thing that differs from my memory is that Fu Jiang's appearance in these pictures.
No, just from these camera records, it was not Fujiang who accompanied us to this place, but the mysterious expert who manipulated insects. To be more precise, it was such a creature whose appearance did not change at all. Fu Jiang's body.
Those silent eyes, pale complexion, and stiff body all told me that they were just a corpse.
In the picture, I stayed with the corpse, doing what any couple would do. At that time, I was talking to myself, as if I heard something, so I responded accordingly, and even when Mitsui Tsukao and the others were present, no one was surprised. It was as if what they saw was not just a corpse, but more, it was a kind of "completely ignoring that there are other people besides me and themselves". They only reacted relatively normally to my voice and actions, and during the entire video process, they also made behaviors that just looked at the screen and felt weird at all.
Those weird behaviors have made my behavior weird.
It’s like we are making a connection and interacting in a way unknown to others.
While I and I should have been "Fu Jiang", but in the screen, the interaction of a female corpse is relatively independent of the interaction between me and them.
"corpse?" I couldn't help but be stunned.
Dr. Nguyen Li came over with a file: "Born is Crassette Ben Mitterrand, female gender, 32 years old, French-American nationality, engaged in financial fraud, sentenced to more than five years in prison... …The crime code is: Mushishi or Moth. This is a bit interesting. The specific time of the mental illness caused by the influence of White Claudia is unknown, but the extent is the more serious group on this peninsula.” She read. The information on paper, while handing the file to my hand.
In the upper left corner of this personal file, what I am familiar with is the bust of this "Mushishi" before it becomes "Fuji". In the photo, she is wearing a patient gown that I am not familiar with, but the look in her eyes makes her feel abnormal. She doesn't seem to care at all about the state of her photo, her eyes seem to penetrate the lens, photos, and time and space, staring closely at anyone who looks at the photo, such as me.
I raised my head and looked at the surveillance camera ahead. There is no doubt that she is the corpse in the image. And the moment she became a corpse, according to my memory, has a lot of relationship with me, the only difference is that she did not become "Fu Jiang".
Yes, in the observation that Dr. Ruan Li borrowed the monitoring device, the person with me was not "Fu Jiang", but just a female corpse named "Crasset Ben Mitterrand".
I have nothing to say. Although I think Tomie exists and I am really with her, such reasons are completely unconvincing in the surveillance video in front of me. Even if it is not Dr. Ruan Li’s other people, as long as there is a little bit of logic and a little normal scientific concept, they will only agree. It is my mental illness that has attacked ~IndoMTL.com~ and regards a female body as my lover. .
Besides, I'm still a fanciful lover.
"I have repeated it countless times, but as long as you still can't accept it, then I can only say that." Dr. Ruan Li said: "Zhen Jiang has been dead for many years, Fu Jiang does not exist, not only Fu Jiang , The “viruses” and things called “Jiang” you imagined do not exist. There is indeed the threat of doomsday in this world, but the danger comes from a more practical life form, which presents a plant-like life. It looks like, some people suspect that it comes from the universe, but has a growth instinct, and we are affected by this growth instinct. This is a species invasion, and this species that has invaded the human world is called'White Claudia', Its existence will not only cause mental anomalies, but it has also been proved by many physicists to interfere with physical phenomena to a certain extent. But I don’t care about physical problems. I’m just a psychologist and want to Researching out drugs to fight against the mental erosion of Claudia White, that’s all. All the worlds you have experienced, those inexplicable mysteries, are nothing but mental illnesses produced by Claudia White and other patients under the influence of White Claudia. Interaction only."
This world, the world you call the Las Vegas repeater, is the real real real. You think you broke into this world, but in fact, you just re-contact the real spiritually. ——She said so. (To be continued.)