Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1411: The gap between delusional dreams and reality

Looking down from the high tower in the hospital, the scenery a few nautical miles around gives people a kind of open beauty. However, at this moment, in the heart of Dr. Ruan Li, there is no leisure to feel this beauty. She stood by the window sill, all she thought was experiment. These days, she has made dreams of similar content several times. She couldn't remember the specific content of the dream after she woke up, but generally there was a feeling that "the content of the dream was coherent, just like a TV series", and there seemed to be another person in the dream— —The boy who has died.

Gaochuan...

Because the pressure during this period of time is too great, and the energy invested is too much, which leads to thinking day by day and dreaming at night? Dr. Ruan Li thinks so, but in reality, she doesn't believe in the idea of ​​thinking day by day and dreaming at night. However, to say that she is totally opposed to it does not conform to her style. It is just that the theory of "thinking day by day and dreaming at night" explained in a popular way is actually quite wrong in her research theory.

Dr. Ruan Li is a psychologist who is employed on this isolated island to study the psychological effects of a strange condition called "doomsday syndrome" on patients. Of course, using words to describe it, it seems that life in the hospital on the island is very ordinary, but the actual difficulties and dangers that we have to face are far from what ordinary people can bear. That is not because the harsh external natural environment brings people suffering, but because the things that I am studying have been accompanied by the research process, and the things that are gradually unfolding make people feel that they are invisible, but like The pressure gradually tightened like a noose.

In the beginning, Dr. Ruan Li came to this island with a very strong enterprising spirit, but now, Dr. Ruan Li has long never felt that something like “enterprising” is pushing his footsteps. Let alone the intrigue of the island, the research project on the island naturally attracts prying eyes. The members in charge of the project are outstanding in ability, but their hearts are not neat. However, compared to facing that weird and terrifying. The things called "viruses", these complicated situations gradually led by people's hearts, are not so unacceptable.

However, it is precisely because of people's psychology and actions that they begin to give people a feeling of "irrelevant". On the contrary, the threat posed by the "virus" has become even more terrifying.

Nowadays, almost everyone in the hospital, no matter he or she, no matter who he works for, no matter what his calculations are. No matter how dull, it is impossible to ignore the panic that pervades the hospital.

During this period of time, many things happened that almost changed everyone’s mind. Although the situation was too complicated, not many people could sort out a clear outline in their minds, but too many Omen, people have an unclear premonition. Just like in an earthquake, rats and cockroaches will run out in swarms. What is about to happen makes people sensitive. As keen as mice and cockroaches.

Because that was a bad thing that happened to the "person" itself.

Dr. Ruan Li can't describe the whole situation in words, but the death of his mentor, Dr. Hawke, and some puzzling "legacy" left before and after his death, are all It was enough for Dr. Ruan Li to grasp the breath of bad luck better than others.

Dr. Ruan Li’s mentor is Dr. Hawke, however, there are differences in the details of the two areas of expertise. Therefore, the two have not worked together for a long time. After entering the island, Dr. Nguyen Li also retained the identity of Dr. Hawke’s student and held a position different from that of Dr. Hawke. To the patient, he is just a pure psychophysical therapist, and then, to put it further, he is the attending psychologist of the special experimental subject "Gao Chuan".

However, before Dr. Hawke died. Dr. Ruan Li did not intervene in the research on physiotherapy drugs, but only used finished drugs, provided feedback after observation, daily psychological judgment and diagnosis and treatment of "Gao Chuan", etc. There was not much research work.

Of course, in private, Dr. Ruan Li will also summarize his work experience and carry out some research involving his own clinical trial experience and theories. However, because there is not much support, it is only a very small-scale trial.

All this changed decisively within a short period of time before and after the news of Dr. Hawke’s death.

First, driven by many complicated factors, I had to join the lurking team inside the hospital, which allowed me to improve my research salaries by leaps and bounds.

After that, the official official team recognized by the hospital, the front-line research team led by Dr. Ender, decided to transfer the responsibilities that Dr. Hawke had before his death, so that he could be considered as a burden to the researchers of the entire hospital.

The formal identity and the hidden identity are so heavy. If only this is the case, Dr. Ruan Li still believes that with his perseverance, he can overcome the difficulties.

However, the most critical point was that she almost destroyed her confidence.

Doctor Ruan Li found out that he was suffering from Doomsday Syndrome.

Yes, just like my mentor, just like the patients she has seen, I have contracted the "virus" and suffered the same terminal illness.

The despair brought to patients by Doomsday Syndrome is beyond the reach of cancer and AIDS, which are known to be terminally ill. The more you study the "virus", the more you will get along with these Doomsday Syndrome patients and observe them. The more sick he is, the more he is deeply impressed by this despair and terror.

Actually, according to our own investigation of existing patients, the conclusion is that "theoretically, no one in the entire world can be completely immune to the interference of the virus." However, as far as the past is concerned, people who have not been infected with the "virus" and have not triggered the doomsday syndrome account for the vast majority. This is also a reassuring fact.

However, if it's my turn, I won't have this feeling of struggling.

After Dr. Ruan Li confirmed that she was infected with the “virus” and became a member of the doomsday syndrome patient, the emotions in her heart were difficult to describe, but now she has slightly adjusted her mentality. This is also due to her mentor, Dr. Hawke, who preserved some of the latest experimental drugs in the legacy left behind before her death. As the successor of Dr. Hawke in his duties, Dr. Nguyen Li is qualified to preserve and use this inheritance.

After Dr. Ruan Li injected the medicine into herself, the irritation caused by the changes in her body has been greatly weakened. However, she still cannot avoid doubting that this may just be the illusion caused by "paralysis". It's not that the medicine is really useful.

Those dreams these days. Let her have to associate.

Even so, Dr. Nguyen Li did not give up his job and leave this isolated island hospital. This is not entirely based on the unselfish idea of ​​"curing the virus and benefiting mankind", but more complicated and full of personal desires. Consider the conclusions reached.

Doing a thing is not for a purpose. It is to achieve multiple goals at the same time, including goodwill and malice. Under this premise, to choose one's own path-this is a true portrayal of Dr. Ruan Li, and she has been implementing it all the time.

Today's anxiety is probably because I started to waver, right? Dr. Ruan Li thought so. The reason was that yesterday evening, she had become the senior of the research team and received information that most people in the hospital did not know. It is a report on the number of deaths in the hospital and the number of deaths outside the hospital due to conditions similar to the doomsday syndrome, as well as a report and some exploratory conclusions based on the increase in the number.

The content is complicated, but it boils down to one sentence. That is, "the doomsday syndrome is spreading all over the world, and the activation of the "virus" is leading to the end of the world, or at least the end of mankind", which seems absurd in terms of emotional perception.

Even if Dr. Ruan Li considers himself rational and has experienced the horror of "virus", he has never thought about the arrival of "the end of the world". And, in this way, at such a sudden point in time. When I was still studying the "virus", I paid almost all efforts, and then. Before reaching a conclusion, the world is going to perish?

Doctor Ruan Li reviewed the data report and inference process related to this intelligence, trying to find a refutation—in fact, as long as he doesn't admit it. If you stand on the opposite side to argue, there are indeed many loopholes in this report-but a few hours after doing so, she suddenly had this idea: to use words and theory to refute the report’s conclusions and attack those loopholes. What's the point?

People like myself. Probably the group of people in the world who know the "virus" best. However, we still have not been able to find a cure for the doomsday syndrome. We are here, saying "the end of the world will not come", they are over there, saying "the end of the world has come", these words are weak and there is not enough evidence.

When the facts come true, it is natural to see who is right and who is wrong. However, at that time, if it is really the end of the world, can people like yourself come up with a way to deal with it?

No, at least for now, it can't be done at all.

Such a dilemma is the problem that needs to be solved most urgently for myself and others as researchers, and it is also the fundamental problem.

But can your body last until that time? Dr. Ruan Li has mixed feelings in his heart.

Even so, her rationality and actions were not disturbed by this complicated emotion, and she meticulously completed every detail of the research plan.

She carefully studied the manuscripts of the results and inferences left by Dr. Hawke, and a little bit reconstructed the experimental projects that Dr. Hawke wanted to do but failed to complete. The new test is based on the old test theory. This is the core work of Dr. Ruan Li. In the end, the code name of this research project still maintains the name "Deep Night" given by Dr. Hawke.

In this experiment, I tried to use drugs to treat patients with special doomsday syndrome—named "Gaochuan Replica", but not a cloned product, but just a test sample of a by-product of the "virus" common erosion test— -Carry out genetic level stimulation. In the past, there have also been experiments in which drugs were used to stimulate patients to physically interfere with their psychology. However, this time the test subjects and the test drugs are special. It is precisely because the universal sample cannot get the key things, so we try to find something that makes it "special" from the special sample.

Either Dr. Hawke or Dr. Ruan Li, who inherited Dr. Hawke, are not sure what exactly it is, but it is equally certain that it must have a deeper connection with the “virus”. By capturing and studying it, we can get closer to the truth of the "virus". Moreover, even if it fails, this kind of in-depth stimulation of special goals that has never been carried out will surely bring new thinking.

This is theoretically an experiment that will be rewarded as long as you do it. I didn't do it in the past because the conditions were not met. Now that the conditions are met, Dr. Hawke has passed away.

As the successor, Dr. Nguyen Li, whether for himself or for others, must make every effort to advance this project.

Then, now, everything is ready, only waiting.

After the patient has been injected with the drug, the patient’s response must be observed. The various physiological changes in the body will be recorded as data, including changes in the thinking waveform caused by emotional feelings, and will also be expressed in intuitive data. Research the data, find a breakthrough, and then conduct targeted experiments~IndoMTL.com~ and so on, until you have a complete grasp of the secret you want.

Doctor Ruan Li knows what she is doing, and knows that this is a very cruel and painful thing for the Gao Chuan copy, but she also knows that she has no choice-now everyone must face this One possibility: Either defeat the "virus" or everyone will die.

Now, it is not time to start from humanitarianism and enjoy research leisurely, but to race against time and fight death.

So far, no one has observed the true form of "virus", and no one has been able to describe the complete "virus" through theory. However, the impact of "virus" on the world has been reflected more strongly than in the past. Out. No one can guarantee that the "virus" will disappear on its own and return to an inactive state again, and there will be enough time to allow human research to study.

On the contrary, the activity of the "virus" has already made everyone in the hospital experience firsthand that they are struggling with something unknown, and the "unknown" itself is the most terrifying place. The reason why people feel it is difficult to win the final victory. For scientists, turning the "unknown" into the "known" to conquer is the best answer. However, if this time and opportunity does not exist, it will be destroyed by the "unknown"? This is probably the greatest horror that scientists must face. (To be continued.)