Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1423: Evacuation

What Dr. Ruan Li is doing on the console, I can't see her, but I can feel it. ◇↓, the laboratory is filled with the sound of mechanical operation. From time to time, mechanical arms pass above me, various detection machines are rolling on my limbs, and gratings shine into my eyes, which makes me unable to help. Close your eyes. My body's perception is getting more and more acute. I feel the pinholes piercing my skin. These needles with different functions penetrate into my head, neck, shoulders, body, hands and feet. The excretion process is also completely taken over by the instrument. Then, after about a minute, the soreness, heaviness and numbness of the muscles began to subside, and then there was a stronger foreign body sensation and pain.

The tinnitus gradually became stronger, and his head was dizzy, as if the ceiling was spinning.

When I first woke up, my consciousness was in a relatively intense and awake state, but after I got out of my nightmare, I felt more drowsy. I still remember what happened before, from taking "paradise" to entering "the deepest night", then the sacrifice at the gathering place, the fierce battle with Novsky and the moon god, during the mysterious organization of all parties The movement, and the emergence and disappearance of Fu Jiang. I thought that all of this was acceptable, but at this moment it seemed to be turned into a pure information intelligence, stirring in my mind, giving me a feeling of unbearable burden.

I sometimes feel that I have not left the nightmare yet, and sometimes I see a vague illusion. It seems very far away, and it seems very close. If I think it’s the "deep night", it will It has become the familiar blood moon and ashes in the deepest night. At this time, the laboratory is like a corroded, destroyed ruin, and the broken ceiling allows me to see the "Moon God" watching over. I heard the sound of fighting and the sound of fierce fighting. Hearing those crazy and desperate screams, I could still feel the wind blowing, so the doctor Ruan Li behind him seemed to have become a monster in the deepest night.

And when I deny all of these, they will disappear, as if they are telling me with this disappearance. All this is just my illusion.

Actually, I couldn’t distinguish between reality and illusion a long time ago. For me, everything that is happening is deeply affecting myself. I simply treat it as an illusion and ignore the fundamentals. It is impossible to prevent this effect. Therefore, the hallucinations that are happening before me are for me. It is just a kind of daily life.

I am calm, not panicking, nor feeling scared. I quietly felt my weakness, the weird scene of that tooth dancing claws.

It's not about accepting or not accepting, just watching, listening, and feeling quietly.

Doctor Ruan Li came up and replaced me with a new medicine. The needle pierced my spine and vein at the same time. And presented a real-time perspective view of my body in front of my eyes, allowing me to see these medicines entering the body. The picture that urges change. But I know that this is nothing more than Dr. Ruan Li's psychological adjustment to me.

My state went from agitated to weak, and then calm. In the eyes of Dr. Ruan Li, it was probably a "change in line with the theory", so she seemed comfortable.

"Other patients will also have rejection after taking Paradise." Dr. Ruan Li sat beside me and said, "However, this is just my opinion. Others in the seminar paid more attention to this rejection. Regarding it as the right path, we pay more attention to any stimulation and deepening of this rejection reaction."

"Isn't rejection reaction bad?" I asked back.

"How to define good and bad?" Dr. Ruan Li paused and said, "Our philosophy is different. I think it is bad, but others think it is good. I think it is a case of rejection. Some people will disagree."

"I believe in you, mother." I said.

Doctor Ruan Li just smiled. Her smile was a little haggard. Although she was still full of confidence, it made me feel a sense of regret.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"It's a bit late." Dr. Ruan Li said, "They have gone too far on the path they think is right, and I can no longer provide them with any help. No, it should be said that they know that my Research and their research have reached a fork in the road. Since then, there will be no intersection for a long time. Theoretically, our research starts from the same point and will eventually return to the same point. However, How long will the process from separation to return last? This time is enough for them to choose to give up."

"Abandon you? Mom." I asked.

"Yes." Dr. Ruan Li's expression was still gentle, and he couldn't see the seriousness of the situation. "If we had room to use each other before, then now, we are the enemy of opposition."

"Do they already know?" I couldn't help but ask. I don’t know what happened after I entered the deepest night, but I feel a little bit that the key to this change from mutual use to complete opposition does not lie in what I did in the deepest night. It's the situation where I wake up again after taking the paradise. I am guessing whether this situation of my own has verified something.

"Maybe." Dr. Ruan Li shook his head, "I think I have taken security measures, but the equipment, assistants, and venues for these experiments are all obtained from the seminar, so it is also very It is difficult to determine whether these confidentiality measures are really effective. A Chuan, you just need to understand that this time, it is our victory. Your condition is under control because my research has achieved results, and the reason why my research can produce The result is due to the strong support of the seminar. My ideas and theirs are different, and maybe they will become more serious opposition in the future, but this does not obliterate the fact that they have exerted great efforts in my research."

"What are you trying to say? Mom." I couldn't help asking back. What she said to me sounds like an excuse for the enemy. I don’t worry about whether Dr. Ruan Li still remembers the seminar. After all, her identity determines the entanglement between her and the seminar. I’m just worried about her. The idea of ​​will bring her fatal trouble.

Doctor Ruan Li's expression is a little haggard. I think this is inevitably caused by this kind of opposing and understanding complex mentality.

"It’s just a feeling. I just want to tell you, A Chuan. Don’t feel resentful and disgusted just because the opponent is an enemy and stands in an opposing position. Don’t let yourself act. Motivation is based on this kind of stubborn emotion." Dr. Ruan Li said so, after a pause, and then asked me: "You don’t like seminars, do you? So, your choices and behavior. Are they based on This kind of dislike emotion? Is it based on your own principles? Have you considered it carefully? Achuan"

"Yes, I have thought about it." Regarding Dr. Ruan Li’s question, I did not hesitate to say, I know what she meant, but the answer was actually in the last doomsday fantasy. I already had I thought about it, and I still believe so firmly: "I have people and things that I hate, but all my choices and behaviors. The original intention is not because of hatred and disgust, but because I want to save and protect the people I love. .Perhaps, those people did things that are not in line with my moral values, and even hurt the people I protect, so I think they are bad people, but I target them not because they are bad people in my eyes."

I took a deep breath and looked at Dr. Ruan Li with a serious and sincere look: "Heroes may label others as good or bad because of their own subjectivity, but they will never do things because These subjective tags."

"...Really?" Dr. Ruan Li did not comment. She just smiled and said, "Achuan is a man who has always dreamed of becoming a hero."

"But, Mom. I think I will never be a hero." My heart is calm and full of melancholy, because I know how difficult and contradictory the hero's path is. But the things you have to face are often not the result of "everyone is good", and you can't even tell your own choice. Is the impact on others good or bad? Therefore, you can only believe that you are right and act with this belief. But I have also seen that, in fact, what I think is right also brings distress to many people, disgusts others, and even hurts them, making them regard me as an enemy and my choice as a mistake.

There are many times when I can’t convince myself that other people’s choices are wrong, and only myself is right. All we can do is not to admit, but not to deny others, but to observe ourselves, do what I think is right, and not criticize others' mistakes with my own subjectivity. Perhaps, sometimes when fighting, I need this approach to dissolve the beliefs of others, but even when I do this, I don’t take it as justice in my heart. I just take this approach of criticizing others as a kind of psychological. It's just tactics.

"This is fine. This is enough." Dr. Ruan Li said, touching my forehead, and said, "I don't want Ah Chuan to become a hero, because when the hero reaches the end of the story, he always sacrifices himself. Saved others. This is not an old-fashioned story line, but is determined by the hero's own contradictions. No one can convince the hero, nor can he save the hero, and the hero never needs to save. They choose to be in the eyes of others. It’s stupid, but for themselves, it’s just an ordinary end point that they must reach by walking their own path. Therefore, the hero is calm when dying. However, Achuan, I don’t like you to die as a hero, I I hope you can live."

What else I wanted to say, I was interrupted by Dr. Ruan Li. She said, "It seems that your condition has begun to recover." Only then did I realize that the drowsy and painful feeling before has already Completely disappeared. The feeling of the body being pierced by a foreign body still exists, and the pain is the same, but the spirit and strength have roughly returned to the usual level.

Doctor Ruan Li got up and left my field of vision. After a while, I felt that all the needles that had penetrated my body began to break away, and then the restraints of my body were also released. After lying down for a while, I tentatively straightened up without any discomfort. I moved a bit. The series of abnormal physical sensations I experienced when I just woke up before seemed to be hallucinations. There were no traces left in the place where the needle was pierced.

"The paradise stimulates the human body, stimulates potential, and eliminates side effects. It is exactly like those human strengthening medicines in sci-fi works." Dr. Ruan Li said on the side: "Although the process is painful, there is also a great life. Dangerous, but the positive effects are also very significant. In fact, no matter what kind of medicine is, it has both harmful and beneficial properties. Only by looking at the ratio of the two, can you distinguish between poison and good medicine. From now on, you will not do it again It’s a nightmare, and I will no longer be troubled by schizophrenia and hallucinations."

Dr. Ruan Li is very confident, but what I see before my eyes proves her mistake. I don't know if nightmares and schizophrenia will get better, but hallucinations do still exist. The image of Dr. Ruan Li is alienating in front of my eyes. She has not turned into the three-headed six-armed, weird look in the nightmare, but she is melting.

Doctor Ruan Li is like a burning candle. After melting, his hair and facial features become blurred.

I think this is an illusion, but this illusion reminds me of the doomsday syndrome patient-I suddenly felt that Dr. Ruan Li in the hospital's reality was also infected by the "virus" and became a doomsday syndrome patient. So that her image in this repeater world has undergone such a change.

But I can't tell Dr. Ruan Li in front of me about her appearance~IndoMTL.com~ She didn't notice it at all, but believed that my condition had been relieved. I took a deep breath, and Dr. Ruan Li’s image changed back to his normal appearance-wearing a white lab coat, half-rim glasses, a bun rolled up, with the seriousness and seriousness characteristic of a researcher, and The joy after the results came out.

"I think it's good." I stretched my body in front of her and said: "It's never been better before."

"Then, we should also leave." Dr. Ruan Li said, "My friends in the seminar will buy me some time, but I am not sure how much time I can get. So we must hurry up and leave. This peninsula." She said so, pulling a side cabinet and pulling out a huge suitcase from it. She talked eloquently, as if she had forgotten that the peninsula was in a storm. Maybe, she was really ready, even planning to walk through the storm.

For me, she is willing to leave here, there is really a way to leave here, and she is ready to leave, that would be great. I know that everything will not be so easy, but even if only she can leave, I have to try it.

I picked up Dr. Ruan Li’s suitcase. She is now full of confidence in "Paradise" and has no doubt about my strength. (To be continued...)