Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1488: The gap between truth and illusion II

I suspect that this cabin is a world of consciousness, but why would I see Dr. Ruan Li here? In the eyes of Dr. Ruan Li, the world is always the same. It can be observed logically, and the state of matter can be analyzed and understood. For her, it is natural for her to believe in her own cognition of the world.

Dr. Ruan Li, who was talking to me before, is in a state of being the most real to her, but for me, is it just a state of consciousness?

What I lack is the firm observational perspective like hers. After encountering the "mystery", even if the past material science education occupies the vast majority of thoughts, it will still appear when many incomprehensible situations arise. I am puzzled about the truths that were taken for granted.

In my eyes, the world is always changing, and it is always intersecting. The intersection of consciousness and matter, the stacking of the upper world and the lower world, while explaining idealism with materialism, it also treats materialism with idealism. I have never had a fixed idea from the perspective of observation and theory of thought. This is the root of my ideas are always full of contradictions.

The attitude of Dr. Ruan Li in front of me is always calm, whether in the hospital reality or in this repeater world. Of course, it is not to say that the two are exactly the same, the difference still exists, but the thought of hiding under calm always makes me smell familiar. Facing Dr. Ruan Li, who insisted on his ideas, I always felt that I was weak. Perhaps I now insist on my views on "Jiang" and insist on implementing my plan. The idea of ​​"want to be like Dr. Ruan Li" is also a root cause.

By the way, no matter what you think of Dr. Ruan Li, no matter what the world the two of us live in, it is an indisputable fact that I was presented by her, and an urgent problem to be solved.

The room has no doorway, only one window that cannot be opened. This is very strange at first. If you use Dr. Ruan Li's statement-doors and windows are not non-existent, but I am in a hallucination and cannot see-then. I probably can't solve it. However, if you look at the weird and weird things revealed in this cabin from the ideological world, you will feel that this is a very normal thing, and that it is a problem that can be solved.

Confidence. Confidence, thinking that I can solve it, thinking that this is the field I often get along with-this is the belief that I have always implemented. No matter how severe the facts are, if there is no such belief, I don't think I can go to the present.

"Anyway. Calm down first and think about it." I said to myself. Thinking always makes me feel stupid. However, to observe the things around me as consciousness, be convinced that it is consciousness, and then complete the consciousness walk. It is impossible to do without sufficient deep thinking. It is not hypnotizing oneself to believe that this world is ideological, but through thinking, to make oneself complete the argument of "this world is ideological"-whether the process and method of the argument are correct. It doesn't matter whether it really makes sense or not. What is important is that in the process of thinking, you can identify from the bottom of your heart your perspective on the world and the conclusions drawn from this perspective.

How did I do it in the past? I can't help but recall. This is not the first time I have been in a situation where I must use the power of consciousness to walk to get out. It's just that the power of consciousness walking is so unstable, no, a more accurate description, it should be. This new force from "Jiang" is an extremely inert force for me personally. The conditions required to activate it have yet to be mastered by me.

So. Just take a closer look at this room. Look for every place it makes you feel weird, find out all those unexplainable phenomena, connect them, first form a rough outline, start with this outline and fill in the details until you are convinced. This is not a mere material cabin.

Suddenly, the quark standing on my shoulder screamed a few times. I looked in the direction it was staring, and suddenly noticed that there was a pack of cigarettes on the coffee table not far away. I was quite sure that I checked it before. The coffee table was empty. I quickly stood up, stepped forward and took the cigarette in my hand, with a real sense of texture and weight. As soon as he turned his gaze away, he found that there was a diary with a black cover on the coffee table-it did not exist before this one, but suddenly appeared there during the movement of the line of sight.

I touched my body subconsciously, only to realize that the last time I woke up, I was wearing a patient's gown, and this time I woke up even more impeccably. I didn't feel the cold, thinking of "cold", the fireplace in the corner slammed the fire, crackling and splashing sparks. The glass of the window cannot reflect Dr. Ruan Li's figure, and the mirror in the room cannot reflect my figure. Me and her, as if being divided in two worlds, only in this room, at that moment, crossed together?

However, if it were put in the mouth of Dr. Ruan Li, the weirdness I encountered was actually strange to me. These things that appeared suddenly are here, it's just that I subconsciously ignored their existence. She might say that this is not because they are weird and weird, they are just "this came into my eyes" instead of "suddenly appearing in this place." Whether I can't see her reflection in the glass window, or can't see myself in the mirror, it's just because of my sickness that I can only see a one-sided illusion, but not the complete reality.

Actually, it doesn’t matter which one is. What I care about is when I can "see" them, whether they are hallucinations or they really exist here, "their appearance" and "appearance" All of them at this moment must be meaningful.

Yes, my distinction between the material world and the ideological world is first of all whether "existence" itself is more important, or "meaning of existence" is more important.

If you think the meaning is more important, then I have always believed that the meaning should be displayed in a way that can be directly observed, giving it a specific image and movement, no matter how weird the image and movement are. One meaning after another is connected together, not a connection in the material structure, but the basis of an ideological world.

Just like in front of me, quark is a crow, but the important thing is not the bird like "crow", but the symbolic meaning of the concept of "crow" and the image meaning it occupies in my thoughts.

The diary is not a book to record things, but how important its content is relative to my thinking about myself and the world.

The same goes for cigarettes and lighters. They are held in the hand, full of physical feelings. Weight, feel, taste, etc., even from the atomic level. I am afraid it is also real, and it is in line with the scientific principles that I know. However, it is necessary to abandon the recognition of its authenticity and concreteness from this perspective, and cannot treat it as a material with a given outline.

The important thing is meaning. Science believes that non-existence is meaningless. Existence itself is meaning. However, for consciousness walking, the priority of meaning should be above the concept of "existence", and even "nonexistence" itself is also meaningful.

Even if you don't know what the meaning is, you must first think it is meaningful.

I picked up the diary, cigarette and lighter, moved the chair to the window sill and sat down. From this direction, you can look directly at the front of the mirror, or you can turn your head to look at the scenery outside the house, although it is still pitch black outside, and you can't even hear the sound of a thunderstorm. As if the whole world had been destroyed, only the small house where I was left.

The house is warm and lonely.

I lit a cigarette, opened the diary, a natural feeling, let my eyes stay on the last few pages with words.

It is noted above that this is a story that happened in "Hospital Reality".

I don’t remember that I have had this episode, but judging from the handwriting, it is indeed my record. I have always had the habit of recording my adventures in novels since I first met Fu Jiang. On a whim, I left such a habit. Sometimes, I really don’t remember exactly when I wrote what, sometimes. I will also be surprised that I have the time and energy to persevere in recording these stories.

In places with clear memory, what I wrote is actually much less than what is already in the diary. However, when I saw those unimpressed records, I couldn't deny from the bottom of my heart that this is my masterpiece.

I also read these stories from time to time. There are many plots, as if I have not experienced it personally. It’s just written based on imagination-but surprisingly, when I asked others afterwards, there were many clues that showed that I didn’t have a record of my own impressions, and what seemed to be my own imagination was almost the same as what happened in the past. , The difference is more in some areas of novel artistic processing.

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This is a story that happened in the reality of the hospital.

It was about three o'clock in the middle of the night, and Dr. Ruan Li suddenly had a high fever and woke up in a daze. She wasn't sure what she had dreamed of, she just felt like she had gone through a weird, dangerous, and unable to extricate herself from a journey, full of dreams, strange, mysterious and unexpected. When she opened her eyes, she was already sweaty, but the dizziness caused by the high fever seemed to be much better. However, when she reached for the cup on the bedside table, she noticed that her hand was trembling--a kind of turbulent emotion that seemed to be bred from a dream, deeply rooted in her heart, when she didn't expect it. It rushed to my heart, but Dr. Ruan Li couldn't remember exactly why he had this emotion.

It's probably a dream scene. But what exactly is it like?

Doctor Ruan Li rubbed his temples, put on his coat, got up and walked into the laboratory. Her resting place is in a small space specially separated in the laboratory. Recently, she was buried in the findings of the previous experiment, and has not left the laboratory for three days. No one bothered her either. This is her independent experiment and the permission she has obtained. Although she still needs to communicate with other researchers, it can be done only by using the Internet. Whether the team of Dr. Ande, who is the official representative of the hospital, is active in the underground, or the organization of unidentified lurkers, all hope that she can produce results in a short period of time-a large part of these results is Ruan Li The legacy of the doctor's mentor who died not long ago. What she needs to do is to re-examine the conceived things on the basis left by the predecessors and make up for it.

Of course, Dr. Ruan Li also has what he wants to do, and he also tries to take the experiment in his own direction. However, it's good to know this kind of thing by yourself. Such an environment where no one is bothering, and the resource provider who can only consult the progress, is the best research treatment that Dr. Ruan Li has received since he joined the hospital for research.

Even so, pressure still exists, and this pressure is becoming more and more alarming. This pressure does not stem from being criticized after failing to produce results, but from the close shadow of death that a discerning person can feel-the operation of the hospital has begun to become abnormal, and there are more people. Illness makes people feel ridiculous, and the department runs a bit difficult. Anyone staying in this isolated island hospital knows that this slow-starting, unknowingly expanding source of disease comes from, what kind of opponent and what kind of death you are facing~ IndoMTL.com~ it is called " Virus".

An existence that cannot be directly observed, but can be deduced from theoretical data. So far, no one knows its specific situation, and of course it is impossible to find a way to suspend its operation. The activity of the "virus" is directly reflected in the expansion of infections within the hospital. Every infected person will show a series of symptoms called "doomsday syndrome". For patients, not only do they have to endure physical pain when an illness occurs, but what is even more difficult to face is mental confusion and fear.

The research on patients with doomsday syndrome in the hospital has been for a long time. Every researcher is well aware of the horror of this epidemic, and in the data collected recently, the world’s total population is used to count," The "virus" infection is still expanding. This is also a direct reason why hospitals have received more investment but are also facing greater pressure.

Even so, research can no longer be accelerated. The epidemic in the hospital is expanding at a palpitating and extraordinary rate. Dr. Ruan Li is very clear that the infected researcher is not just himself. Such things have happened in the past. In fact, clinical trials for special viruses would have risked their lives. However, the more you understand the "virus" you are studying, the more terrifying it is. To the people in this hospital, it is as cruel as the plague that almost destroyed the entire European country in the Middle Ages. (To be continued.)