Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1722: Dream Story

"Am I dreaming?" I asked Dr. Ruan Li, who was sitting beside me. I have realized that my mental condition is undergoing even worse changes than before. I walked on the ground full of ashes, I fell into the abyss of infinite darkness, I was **** in the hospital bed, I listened to the long-dead doctor Ruan Li telling the story of being the core part of the repeater, all of this Which one is true? Where is the real me? What kind of state is it? I can't tell the difference anymore, I just feel that everything that was once a dream is so lifelike.

From the information I see, I can of course draw various conclusions that prove "this is true", but what is true where I haven't seen it?

Now Dr. Ruan Li, who is sitting next to me and talking to me, has many reasons to prove its existence, but who can be sure that she is not a fantasy of mine? Because I sincerely hope that she is still alive, just sitting next to me. I have a feeling that Dr. Ruan Li in the reality of the hospital is dead. This feeling is so impulsive and so affirmative, as if I once witnessed her death in the reality of the hospital. Of course, I can’t tell how Dr. Ruan Li died in the hospital’s reality, but I can speculate. I can’t tell the details, but there is a strong sadness that makes me believe in this result.

Is this impulsive, heavy, sad, and eager thing the reason why I can see Dr. Ruan Li in front of me? I don't really care what she says, nor do I care if the things I learned from her are true or not, just being able to talk to her like this, even with such a posture of a severely ill patient, is enough. I also want to talk to more people, to Shise, Dorothy, Sakuya, Hakkei, Marceau and more acquaintances, but they are not in front of me. In my memory, this repeater world has collapsed, and this is the price I paid for this Las Vegas repeater-I don’t think I don’t do it, the original Las Vegas The repeater world will not collapse. The doomsday is so obvious and so inevitable in the original Las Vegas repeater world. There are too many factors that determine its ending, but I can’t deny it, and so am I One of the factors.

I feel guilty, even if I think this is something I must do, even if I believe that I have to do these things for a better future.

I am guilty and painful. There is nothing more painful than sacrificing the existing present for an uncertain future.

"Yes, you are dreaming, A Chuan." Dr. Ruan Li said to me, "but, this is the dream you wish to dream."

"No, I hope the dreams should be sweeter than this." I want to say that from the bottom of my heart.

"You just know how cruel reality is, and you can't accept dreams that are too sweet." Dr. Ruan Li said, "However, whether dreams are sweet or bitter, they are not always messy. News."

"I know, I know, my dream is not reality, but it is the reflection of reality." The more I can understand this, the more sad I feel.

"No, what I want to say is that everything you should know is in this dream." Dr. Ruan Li stretched out her hand, she wanted to touch my head, but I was afraid that when she touched her, her hand was There is no temperature, for fear that the cold and frightening touch will wake me up from my dream. I tilted my head unnaturally, but probably I still want her contact more, so I can't avoid it.

Doctor Ruan Li touched my head, and the slightly sweet temperature spread to my skin, making me tremble unnaturally.

"Good boy, good boy." Doctor Ruan Li smiled first after entering the room.

"What do I need to know?" I changed the subject. Although I ask this, I actually don't care about what I can learn. I don’t know how many times I have experienced this dreamlike situation. If it is really a dream here, of course I know how to deal with it. Now, I just want to take a short break and be immersed in this situation of at least one person. In a dream.

"You need to know that you are not alone." There was another voice outside the door, which I would never forget.

I turned my head abruptly, and I saw her, as if we met for the first time. She is like a college student, but also like a social person. She is in the transition between the two, full of ambiguous age. She was wearing a red sports jacket and black fitness pants. The zipper of the jacket was not closed, revealing the white sports vest inside. It grows into a ponytail, has a bare belly, a big breast, smooth and elastic skin, and youthful and healthy vitality exudes from the whole body.

"Fujiang..." I murmured, she was always like this, as if rooted in the depths of my body and soul, whether it was real or unreal, whether it was an illusion or a dream, no matter where I was. , Even if it seemed that she shouldn't be there, she would appear in front of her suddenly, and then leave suddenly. She is like the wind, the clouds, the thoughts in my heart, my desires, the unpredictable emotions and impulses. Of course, it is also my love.

"Jiang", the fire of my soul, the light of my life, the person I love, the inhuman thing I love.

Just like I was never surprised that Dr. Ruan Li would be in my dream, I would never be surprised that "Jiang" would walk into my dream. It has always been here, in that deepest dream, calling me, waiting for me to dream.

Doctor Ruan Li and Fu Jiang are not confused about their respective existence. The feelings between them are very strange. They can't be said to be acquaintances, but they are not strange. They also didn't say hello to each other, although the words were together, they never stopped looking at each other. No, I feel it, maybe it is more appropriate to describe it as "They seem to be unable to see each other". In reality, it doesn’t make sense to treat people as nothing, because whether they are deliberately or deliberately, they only do it on the basis of “aware of the other's existence”, and the two of them give me the feeling at this time, This is not the case. However, since it is in a dream, it is nothing strange.

I've had any weird dream.

"What are you looking at? A Chuan." Dr. Ruan Li asked suddenly, as if implying something.

"...nothing." I said smoothly.

"No, you said Fu Jiang, did you see her again? I have told you many times that she does not exist, Zhen Jiang is dead, Fu Jiang is just an illusion that you miss her too much. "Doctor Ruan Li's words are so missed by me.

I just smiled in silence.

Doctor Ruan Li shook his head and did not continue. I saw Fu Jiang smiling at me. She brought a chair from somewhere and sat beside Dr. Ruan Li.

I asked her with my eyes: Dr. Ruan Li can't see you?

I think her eyes answered like this: No, she just denies my existence.

I can only comfort her with my eyes, because I can’t just say that it’s Dr. Ruan Li’s fault simply because I love her. In my opinion, distinguishing right from wrong for this kind of thing is very boring.

"Look at me, A Chuan." Dr. Ruan Li's words made me look back. She held my face and said to me who could not move: "The paradise has already taken effect. But if you are unwilling to accept the reality, you will never be able to escape from the nightmare."

"Ruan Li...Mom..." I stared at her eyes, smiled quietly, and said: "This is just a dream."

Doctor Ruan Li shook her head, but couldn't see whether it was disappointment or other emotions. She let go of me, nodded and said, "Yes, this is just a dream after all."

"Don't do this, in your dreams, please smile too, mother." I begged.

Doctor Ruan Li raised the corners of his mouth slightly, showing a plain smile.

"If this makes you happy," she said.

"I'm very happy." I didn't lie, "So, what do you say I should know?"

"You should know that you are not alone." Dr. Ruan Li pointed to my heart and said, "I...There are others, right here."

"I know." I won't refute such sweet words.

"Also, you are not nothing." Dr. Ruan Li said.

"I know too." I'm glad she can say that.

"I will help you." Dr. Ruan Li said again.

Help me? How to help? In a dream? I think, maybe I have always hoped that Dr. Ruan Li can help me, because in reality in the hospital, she has always been the attending doctor and psychologist of "Gao Chuan".

"I know." I know that Dr. Ruan Li has been helping me all the time, trying to get me to overcome the sinister suffering and save the lives of me and other patients with doomsday syndrome.

"I'm dead." Dr. Ruan Li said suddenly.

I was a little stunned, because this is something I never wanted her to say... I felt sad again. Her words seemed to persuade me to face the reality and make me better than the past. At any moment, I felt more strongly that Dr. Ruan Li was really dead.

"But before I die, I left something for you. Maybe you will use it, maybe you won’t... But I still think that if you continue to move forward, there will be ten things* *Will use it." Dr. Ruan Li said.

"What is it?" I held back the sadness in my heart and asked: "Mom, what have you done?"

"A hidden door, a hidden door that only you can find, see, and use." As Dr. Ruan Li said, he raised the bed I was lying on halfway and turned it into a chair mode. , And then pushed the chair to the window, so that I could also look at the world outside the window: that is the infinite and far-reaching universe, a huge gray planet, swaying and hanging right in front, although the colors are different, but , I suddenly remembered where I had seen a similar sight.

It's like standing on the moon and looking at the earth, but what lies ahead is not the blue life earth, but the dead earth covered in ashes. It seems to use this gesture to tell me once again that the world of Las Vegas repeaters has collapsed.

The place where I, Dr. Ruan Li, and Fu Jiang are located is a high tower on the moon. Looking from the window, I can’t distinguish the overall appearance of the tower and the approximate number of floors. I just think it’s very tall. , The dry and dusty moon surface is like an arc that can be directly seen, and then it sinks slowly after extending to the front.

The next moment, there was a flower in front of my eyes. The scene of the moon disappeared, and the scenes of the universe and the earth disappeared. The tower room became a closed room, and such a closed room in a certain building The room makes me feel nostalgic. Looking out from the window, the scene you see has also become a cylindrical cultivation chamber. I can even see the contents of the culture chambers from the glass surface: it is a familiar body, and as many cylindrical culture chambers as there are, there are as many bodies that are reminiscent of "Gaochuan". To say that these are all "Gaochuan" bodies, at least from the appearance that can be seen with the naked eye, there is no reason to refute it.

"One year, you will use them." Dr. Ruan Li used "them" instead of "them", "I have hidden doors in their composition. If one day, I hope You will not regret using this secret door, or regret not using it."

"A copy of Gaochuan?" I asked.

"Yes." Dr. Ruan Li said, "I made thirteen, but the secret door is only in one of them. This secret door will not collapse due to the collapse of these Gaochuan clones. , As long as there is still LcL, it will not disappear. If one day...no, it should be said, I think there will be such a year, in order to move towards hope and distance, this hidden door will help you, although , I don’t know how you would use it."

"What does the secret door do?" I asked.

"I don't know, but maybe you will know when you use ~IndoMTL.com~" Dr. Ruan Li said.

"It's really rare, Mom, you finally made something that you don't even know what's useful." I understand what Dr. Ruan Li is like. She prefers to be sure, and she has sorted out her thoughts. This kind of thing that she is not even sure of is actually not her favorite. Even so, she did it and left a possible help for me.

I gave a shock, everything outside the window suddenly disappeared, and I don't know when to leave the window and lie back to the original position, still restrained and unable to move.

"Yes, I made that thing, but I just want to tell you that I will support you at all times, A Chuan, my child." Dr. Ruan Li stroked my cheek. "Don't be afraid, I have always been by your side."

I covered her palm with my palm and said sincerely: "I know, Mom, I know..."

Although this is just a dream, I am willing to believe what she said in the dream. I would like to believe that the cause of this dream is not just because I want to have such a dream, but because they also want to meet in the dream. I am willing to believe that this is a longing for each other, not just a fantasy of self-comfort. (To be continued.)