Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 1921: Face the fear head-on
Explosion, a series of explosions, the explosion produces light, sound, wind and many kinds of substances. The complex vibration is like weaving a beautiful and suggestive melody. The particles intersect in the melody to give birth to a simple structure. , And copied this structure in a very short period of time, extending it to a wider space. When the scope of the structure is expanded to a certain extent, the structure becomes complicated. It is like a certain pattern, a certain totem, It is full of vitality, but it also seems to be a toxin that will destroy the structure of life at any time. Many things that contain positive meanings such as "promotion" and "growth", and those that contain negative meanings such as "exhaustion" and "impediment", are wrapped in an invisible force, allowing them to produce each other. A more complex, incalculable, and difficult to observe every detail of the interaction. As a result, more specific changes have taken place, constituting some peculiar phenomena, and producing some results that can be personally experienced.
Father Xi Sen was gliding in the air less than one meter from the ground, his body lying flat, his neck bent toward his chest, as if he was looking at something, but the direction he was looking at did not see the female monster. Father Xi Sen's feet gradually drooped, almost dragging to the ground, but there is an invisible force supporting his body, making him fly back as if gliding without resistance. The various phenomena produced by the ritual have spread beyond a diameter of fifty meters in less than a second. Even an ordinary person can feel the strong aggressiveness, and it will definitely give rise to goose bumps. This change is far from over. With the passage of time, the effectiveness of this ritual will be further enhanced, and because of the impact of the bracelet-shaped critical weapon, it will become a kind of collapse, which is not friendly to Father Xi Sen and the female monster. The direction is twisted.
This is not a simple ceremony. Father Xi Sen was in a trance for the last time and went to the plausible room and listened to Father Edward's last words. It was impossible to perform such a ritual. Even less than a second ago, he still had doubts about whether he could complete this ritual. More strictly speaking, to do such a ritual was just like a flash of light in less than a second. Out of the decision.
That was a very strong intuition. The trap set by Father Xi Sen had a far lower expected effect than the one displayed at this time, but at the moment when the female monster was about to break the air pressure Rubik’s cube, there was a sudden rush. There was an impulse that made Father Xi Sen at that moment, as if he became a puppet of some existence, and was guided to complete the ritual today—Father Xi Sen felt all this in the moment he acted. It was not only made by "self", but was driven by a very complex will, and from it, he felt Father Edward.
In that instant, Father Xi Sen's thoughts, emotions in his heart, body movements, and the deep voice reached agreement. If you want him to describe it, he will say that it is like a mission, a calling, a heaven-determined cause, and an indispensable plot that has descended on him. It was a situation that was difficult to describe, but very harmonious, and there was no need to hesitate at all. In other words, he never felt that he was put into action, he did not think too much at all, and everything was following the guiding feeling. go.
www#qiuxiaoshuo#com??С??? also when he intuitively put into action, a word suddenly appeared in his heart: hero.
So he felt that only the meaning contained in the word "hero" could explain his impulse-a group of strong wills, very unified, strong, like a diamond-no matter what color it is Diamonds, black, pink, white, and other colors of the color spectrum-these things can be described as "heroic will" from Father Xi Sen's point of view, and pushed him hard from the level of consciousness. .
is like calling a hero. And after feeling this impulse, after understanding the decision he made when he gave up that rational idea and changed from a doomsday’s believer status to a human status, Xi Father Mori also has a feeling that may be an illusion: he has really become a hero.
If you change to the self you used to be, you will definitely laugh and laugh, because from his values, what he is doing because of impulse is definitely not a heroic thing. His own position and starting point are vastly different from what he understood as the meaning of "hero", but even if he judged this rationally, Father Xi Sen could not suppress his passionate heart.
The weight of excitement can only be described in this sentence: When there is fear in one's heart, the degree of excitement is high. The two intense emotions increase in direct proportion.
Father Xi Sen felt that he seemed to be crazy, he was not fighting soberly, not fighting strictly from the "self-will" he recognized, but it was undeniable that he felt that he was very strong at this moment. It is far stronger than I imagined. Those parts that I thought were weaknesses in the past are flaws that were exposed under irrational circumstances. It seems that at this moment, they are all insignificant, because this kind of strength is overshadowed from another level. To overcome these weaknesses and flaws.
From a rational point of view, Father Xi Sen felt that he was swelling. He admitted that there is no conflict between himself as a doomsday believer and himself as a human being, but there is indeed a contradiction between the thoughts and behaviors of the two. In his observations, most followers of the Doomsday Truth sect will give up the position of being human, and through some means, from material to ideology, abandon the contradictory factors and turn themselves into the purest "believers". He had also thought about, and even, approaching a little bit in an inhuman direction. Prosthetization is a concrete manifestation of this tendency. However, Father Edward, who exists in a trance, did not give him anything at all. He chose to break this change, just like a tough father using his own way, using his own ideas, using his most unreasonable violent means, to forcefully break his son back to what he thinks is the "right way." "superior.
is really unreasonable-even if Father Xi Sen has passed middle age, he still has thoughts like a child. He doesn't want to complain, and thinks all this is too sudden and incredible. It turns out that his heart Such emotions still remain in the depths. Obviously Father Edward himself is also using his power in disguised form to transform himself from a human to an inhuman, and to practice his ideas, it is certainly hopeless in the eyes of others, but now he uses that inhuman The power of his godson forcefully pulled his godson back from the road of inhumanity.
w#ww@qiuxiaoshuo~com????? С? Father Xi Sen even considered it, did Father Edward regret his choice? However, the next moment he gave birth to this idea, he denied this idea. Father Xi Sen felt contradictory. He had no idea what his godfather thought. At the last moment like leaving a last word, Father Edward’s words and decisions made were full of contradictions with his own past life, as if to deliberately leave this contradiction, and let Father Sisson himself change accordingly. It has to be contradictory.
Even so, Father Xi Sen could still feel the love of the godfather for him from this contradiction, and he did not hesitate when the other party made this decision.
All of this happened between Father Edward and Father Sisson, like being buried in the mud for a long time, and blooming and bearing fruit at the last moment of life.
The strong sense of destiny has always emerged in Father Xi Sen’s emotions.
Fr. Edward’s contradiction, like the inheritance between father and son, came to Father Xisen, and Father Xisen felt it. Behind the contradiction of Father Edward, there are also more contradictions, but these The "contradiction" is not derogatory, nor is it rejected by those contradictory people themselves. On the contrary, they chose this "contradiction", just as at the last moment of life, they agreed that this "contradiction" was unanimous. Is the most precious legacy.
One pass two, two pass four, four pass eight...... On the boundary between human and inhuman, once stepped into the realm of inhuman, but at the last moment of life, with a terrible will, superhuman Self-torture returned to the human side—this process continued in Father Xi Sen, and he felt this transmission very clearly, intensely, and impulsively.
Father Xi Sen’s back finally hit the ground, as if a sharp stone hit his spine. The intense pain and numbness spread along the nerves to the limbs. He forcibly swayed his body and rolled on the ground. When he tried to get up, the burning sensation from the magic lines on his right wrist was even higher. It was like igniting some substance in his body, and the flame burned along the blood vessels and nerves. Every corner of the body, as if every pore is breathing fire.
Father Xisen felt that he was burning like firewood, but this burning brought both pain and strength. Since it is different from the power at the time of prostheticization, it is not the power that I have touched or possessed in the past. This burning power is echoing with the magic pattern, with the critical weapon, with his consciousness, with his own impulse, with the huge matrix-like ritual circuit formed by the air pressure Rubik's cube by his side. .
All of these are harmonious, harmony born from contradictions, harmony based on irrational things. This kind of harmony made Father Xi Sen feel fearless while feeling his inner fear—yes, the contradiction between fear and fearlessness, at this moment, harmony was also born.
Where is the monster called "Jiang"? Father Xi Sen lost sight of the trap as soon as it exploded, although, logically speaking, this shouldn't be the case. The power of the witch VV and the three messengers materialized the monster, on a certain level, preventing it from showing the weirdness that might make people helpless. To put it simply, it is to turn a "monster that may not be able to deal with by anyone" into a "monster that may be defeated". This is a conceptual "strong and weak" change. Father Xi Sen felt that after the monster was affected by this change, it should not still be able to be "completely unobservable" in action.
W@W@w.qiuxiaoshuo$com That is to say, no matter whether the female monster is injured in the trap or not, when it acts, even if it cannot be directly observed, it should be intuitively felt by the mysterious expert arrive.
However, Father Xisen neither saw a certain change in the monster hidden behind the explosion, nor did he have any obvious feeling, as if the monster didn't exist in that location in the first place-does it exist? When this thought flashed in Father Xi Sen's mind, his body was already moving in a terrible chill.
Numerous chains are interlaced on the surface of Father Sisson, some of which are obviously material, and some are obviously not material. These real intertwined chains are woven into armor covering the body, and are subjected to violent shocks~IndoMTL .com~Father Xi Sen felt the tension of the chain and the power like a rapidly rotating drill bit, and he slammed into his body. Each of his muscles was trying to reduce the impact, but it was impossible to completely harmless. Father Xi Sen’s body had been beaten into suspension. Before the second hit, it was as thin as a spider silk. The thread is already stuck to his belt, and the other one is stuck to a corner of the sand in the distance.
The elasticity of spider silk pulled him back, and the position where he was hit before his body was suspended showed an annihilating material reaction, a visible distortion and hollow phenomenon, tearing a piece of the ritual matrix. .
Father Xisen just felt pain, but, as Father Edward said, this kind of physical pain caused no more to his mind except for a trance state as if he had gone to heaven. On the contrary, the continuation of this pain is also becoming the force that pulls him from heaven back to the world, and it is constantly magnified in the body—maybe it is an illusion, but Father Xi Sen really feels that he is suffering. The moment is stronger than the moment.
Father Xi Sen endured the pain of being beaten, and endured the pain that seemed to be spontaneous. The pain accumulated bit by bit, just like the strength accumulated bit by bit. The more painful, the stronger. The boiling emotions and strong impulses interrupt the unconscious thinking that emerges on its own every moment, so that the thinking cannot form a chain, cannot continue to deepen, and cannot become A clearer idea.
All this is like a dream, in which there is an inexplicable contest-in this dream, the enemy is so strong, and I am not weak. I should be afraid, but I am not afraid, because , This is in my dream.