Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 2009: In a nutshell

We watched the slowly opening door, and a gleam of light burst into the center line of the 300-meter-high door. Although there is not much darkness in the pipeline, the world outside the gate seems to be brighter. The bright center line that grows with the opening of the door even makes me feel a bit dazzling. I can’t imagine what kind of scenery the world behind this door looks like. Even though I’ve been walking in the pipeline, it doesn’t mean that behind this door is still the continuation of the pipeline, even if it’s the end of the pipeline, it doesn’t mean it. It will still observe more pipes with a wider field of view. Maybe the enemy will appear immediately outside the door, maybe not so fast. In short, even if you are used to thinking from the worst angle, there are all kinds of possibilities. I sometimes feel that it is a possibility that is greater than that of human beings—isn’t such an idea a bit romantic in such a world? Romance is really not an appropriate word.

The dialogue and silence between me and I continued as long as the door was open. It didn’t rush, but it seemed that the door would never be completely opened before the silence and dialogue ended—I I think this is my illusion.

"It turns out that Mr. Gao Chuan thought so." She nodded, she seemed to understand, but I don't know what she understood. However, I just tried my best to tell her that I never thought I must make her understand. After all, what can really be understood is not something I can decide, but is entirely her own business.

"Then, can I ask one more question?" she said, as if she was afraid that I would disagree, and emphasized, "Really the last question."

"...what's the problem?" I don't think she needs to be so careful.

"I heard about you from Father Xi Sen...Actually, I have also seen another Mr. Takakawa who is not the same as you." His eyes became sharper, giving me a sense of insight. a feeling of. However, what she said did not surprise me much. My existence is no longer considered a secret, and it is only natural that another Gao Chuan is more familiar. After all, that Gao Chuan is from the perspective of this doomsday illusion, from the perspective of the reality of the hospital today, or even from the perspective of "Gao Chuan." As far as the order of personality is concerned, it is the "orthodox successor" in the true sense. If I could choose to recover or not to recover, I would definitely not recover.

It’s just that I obviously don’t have the right to decide when it comes to my own life and death issues-this is an objective fact that I must face, and it also heralds some more terrifying problems, and these are all problems that I must solve. , To some extent, it may be a problem that only I can solve.

Of course, there is no need to explain to you. On the other hand, I also believe that the other Gao Chuan understands and understands my situation, because although we appear to be "two", in essence, we are still "one". Me and him are a matter of expression and existence. It is only a matter of "form". The key lies in the more essential things behind this "form".

In my silent gesture, Yu continued: "Father Xi Sen told me that you have done a lot of things in the world of outsiders. It can be said that you have stepped in for all the events they consider important. , But some events are just a taste, while others are deep into it. You even snatched a repeater and used it to hit another repeater, causing terrible disasters. Even so, it still happened. There are many people wondering, what is your purpose? It seems that no matter whether you go deep into the incident or the incident that you just tasted, you can’t express your position and goals. The attitude towards Doomsday Truth, although there is a hostile side, But sometimes you will stand by. You are neither a pure bystander nor a pure participant. You are free from every force, but you don’t form your own forces—and your power does not reach a single person. The level of fighting against everyone. Just like now, although you saved me, I am grateful to you, but you make me believe in my instincts, and I intuitively feel that you are not necessary to save me. Moreover, from the previous battles Look, in your actual combat effectiveness, you can only ensure that you retreat in front of the body life, and you can’t effectively defeat them. So, what do you want to do? What are you looking forward to?"

"...What a severe question." I couldn't help but smile, but I didn't expect it to be such a problem. Indeed, what I do sometimes contradicts my goals on a certain level. More precisely, my goal is sometimes the same as the goal of the cyberball side, but sometimes it is on the same track as Doomsday Shinrikyo. From the perspective of humanity and morality, I cannot abandon my former friends, nor can I coldly watch the one I love get hurt. However, in order to achieve my goal, I will inevitably stand by my former friends and have been deep. The opposite of them who are in love, at least, is in what they think of as the "opposite."

I cannot meet the requirements of my friends and lovers in my actions, and at the same time, I am not trusted by my friends and lovers consciously.

Even so, I never saw them as enemies.

This contradiction has always existed, and I know very well that it will continue until the "virus" is resolved, or until all of us are resolved by the "virus".

I have many things I can’t say to others, and they don’t understand when I say them, because they can’t see what I can see, nor can they reach the same perspective and thinking as me—our own limitations lead to The estrangement between us is an objective problem that has always existed, and it is also a problem that no one has ever been able to solve.

However, in the face of serious eyes, I couldn't perfuse or use silence as usual.

"Simply put..." I know very well that what I am about to say will make it clear that we are not friends from a standpoint. "I want to meet that monster in the collective subconscious mind of human beings."

The expression on her face was frozen, she looked like she hadn't heard clearly, staring at me suspiciously, her eyes were almost like frozen lamp oil, even the emotions that jumped like flames It was also a little shaky.

"What, what do you mean?" she said.

"It means literally. When I learned that there are so-called monsters in the human collective subconscious mind, and now, it seems that everyone is making a fuss about this monster in the human collective subconscious mind. I also want to see it. After all, I have never seen this monster you are talking about. I have never imagined the theory about its existence." I didn’t conceal my thoughts at all. The existence of the night of Valpus, and seeing the existence of the repeater with my own eyes, especially what happened after the repeater crashed, surprised me. The human collective subconscious... After the concept is actually confirmed, it is really difficult to describe what kind of thoughts and emotions are in the mind. It is very complicated."

"You mean, you just feel surprised, so you want to see it?" Yu showed a surprised expression, as if he had never thought I would say that.

"No, it’s not that simple. But surprise is also one of the motives... After all, why do you always think that a person will do something and express a meaning, and the motive must be that What about simple things?" I really feel incredible, because even if I do one thing, it is by no means the result of a pure motive. The combination of many reasons leads to a trending result, "Eating when you are hungry, you take it for granted, right?"

"Isn't it?" At this time, she showed some vigilance. It was not that there was no before, but it was more obvious than before. It seemed that after listening to my statement and seeing my evidence, she became more and more right. I became vigilant-I was not surprised at this. In the eyes of other people, what I said and did must be very suspicious. However, it doesn’t matter. I don’t think this kind of vigilance is wrong. On the contrary, this is just a proof of the limitations of people and the estrangement between people. The “wrong” situation is the “objective existence” situation.

"For you, it's just that, but for me, it's not." I said with certainty: "I never eat simply because I am hungry, even if I am hungry, it will be affected by different circumstances Choosing to eat or not, there is no absolute connection between the two. On the other hand, even if I am not hungry, I will eat. Hungry or not, has never been my only motivation for eating."

"...It's too complicated, do you even have to think about eating?" Yu's expression was a bit heavy, "I think this is wrong. There may be many reasons, but there are many reasons that you don't need to go into. . What’s wrong with eating because I’m hungry?"

"Nothing is wrong." I laughed. "As you said, there are many reasons why you don't need to go into it. Then, in the same way, you can actually not get to the bottom of many things, right? It's not correct Did I tell you before? But, look, you chose not to find out why you ate, but to find out more about the things at hand."

"Some things should be investigated, but some don't need to." Shi was very cautious, but said without hesitation: "It turned out that I was a little confused, but I am sure now. Mr. Gaochuan, you are judging There has been a deviation."

"I have made a deviation--what are you using as a reference?" I asked back.

"Ordinary people." Zhen said.

"...So, this is the reason most people think I am mentally ill." I was not angry because it was obvious.

"Thinking like this is dangerous. Sure enough, Mr. Gao Chuan, you are just as dangerous as Father Xi Sen and the others said." Yu's alertness is no longer on her facial expressions. She took the initiative to pull away from mine. Distance, holding the box behind with his hands. Just before we got out of the elementary life, this box fell in front of us, and she didn’t feel strange at all, so she picked it up—obviously, she knew the box, or what was in the box, and said deep down , Even if she was disappointed that there was no foreign aid, but this box was originally a kind of support. When she picked up the box, although her expression was heavy, she should not be completely lost in the kind of desperation alone in a small corner of her heart.

She held the box and stared at me, as if she would attack if a word was disagreeable, or if I did something misleading. I have a feeling that she will not be merciful or hesitate. Her hostility, if not, but it is real.

"Are you planning to attack me with that thing?" I asked calmly.

"If Mr. Gaochuan, you are going to do something stupid." Yu said, "I feel dangerous."

"You should know that my speed will give you no chance to even do it~IndoMTL.com~ At the same time, you are not as hard as a pixel body." I said gently.

"You mean, do you really want to do something?" Said, "But now it’s not so surprising, because, Mr. Takakawa, you really want to see that monster But I definitely don’t want to see that thing. The people who fight with me now don’t want to see that thing. They have paid a lot for it, not just us, even you outsiders, have also sacrificed a lot for it. ."

"Yes." I will not refute it because she is telling the truth.

"That's a bad thing. Once it appears, everyone will be out of luck, right?" said Fu.

"Yes." I admit it.

"You outsiders see it even more as a symbol of the end. It's like as long as it appears, everyone will die, and the whole world will collapse, right?" She continued to question.

"Yes." I admit.

"But, you still want to meet. You are very contradictory, Mr. Gao Chuan. More often than not, you are standing on our side, but you are against us on this most critical goal. Opposition." Yu asked: "Just like everyone else, I can’t understand your contradictory thoughts. But if you want that monster to come out, it’s our enemy. No matter what you think, your behavior They are all on the side of the Doomsday Truth, as you outsiders said, even if you are against the doomsday, but what you do is actually promoting it... I finally understand now."

"You don't ask why?" I asked back.

"No, I don't need it." Said this: "I will choose what to find out, but I choose not to find out here. Mr. Gaochuan, my instinct is warning me, just like you did before Tell me, I choose to trust my instincts here."