Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 2015: Stupid and blind

Fujie rarely talked to me about philosophical topics. Her attitude was always very straightforward and she had no interest in other people's ideas, but that didn't mean that she never tried to figure out other people. In terms of her fighting style, it is indispensable to read the thoughts of others. Even so, she rarely talked to me about these topics in the past. She just watched, watching my thoughts and troubles deeply. Even though she seemed to have talked more deeply about these topics at this time, it did not make me feel that there was a "caring" element in it, nor did it make me feel that it was out of "worry". I don’t understand why she said these things to me. If it were her usual time, she would stop talking about the level of "those who don’t like torchlight", but now she goes deeper and talks about it. Why don't you like them... Later, I explored the essence of thinking and behavior more deeply.

I can’t help but say, her depth makes me feel a little strange, although I do not shy away from talking about these, even when talking about these, it will only expose my stupidity and contradictions-and those real philosophers and Compared with thinkers, my knowledge and depth of thinking cannot even be called a "half bucket of water", and others will only laugh at the things I think about. The things I fear are all useless delusions.

Fu Jiang, why at this time, with such a serious attitude, dig out all the random thoughts that linger in my mind?

However, I did not ask this question. There is a power rooted in my sensibility that prevents me from asking questions like this-if there is enough rational proportion in my thinking, I can probably ask, because from a rational point of view, this is very obscure but also very Important questions. However, although there are rational parts of thinking, but when implementing actions, they completely follow perceptual behavior. Then, this kind of emotional pressure is irresistible.

What I wanted to say rationally lingered in my throat until I was deeply pressed back by the pressure.

"Those who give up thinking but still persist in acting may be foolish and blind, but they are also exercising, aren't they?" I finally said something like this: "A Jiang, why are you doing it?" Hate them?"

"The exercise performed by thinking and the exercise performed without thinking are similar but not the same. The exercise methods and performance of the two are different." Tomie replied: "I don't think their sports are aesthetic."

Ah, I suddenly realized that Fu Jiang was really not perfunctory. She did not like it because she felt that the sport had no "beauty". It is really very self, full of humanity.

"So, do you think I should go to them?" I asked her.

Fu Jiang suddenly showed an ambiguous and calm smile, and said to me: "It's up to you, A Chuan. I'm just by your side, nothing more."

"Then, I still want to meet them." I said to her: "I need enough references to compare myself and my plan, so that I can understand myself and my plan. What kind of state is it in the scope of the world. My behavior, my self, and my strength all need to be referenced to confirm their existence."

"Isn't I the reference object?" Fu Jiang smiled and said.

"Of course, Ajiang, you are. But I want to have more." I replied, "If I only use Ajiang as a reference, I think I will become weird, because Ajiang you are too different It's normal."

"Um..." Fu Jiang scratched his head and said, "Although I always hope that Achuan has me only in your eyes, but since you think so, I won't stop it. After all, I am still compared to other people. Very enlightened."

"...it is true." How else can I answer? I felt that I knew who the "other people" she was talking about were, but in the end I didn't confirm it.

I can't confirm that all the issues involving the relationship between Fu Jiang and "Jiang", as well as the more humanoid "Jiang", have all been suppressed by some kind of force generated in my heart. I sometimes feel that this power comes from me, but sometimes I can't feel that way.

"I still have to go and see." I affirmed my decision again. I seldom do things that Tomoe doesn’t like. I think the idea of ​​taking care of her is a responsibility that I must stick to. However, from a perceptual point of view, it has been expanded to include love, family affection and other emotions that can be called "love". In China, the love for her is not the only one, and the responsibility to hold on is not the only one. I can’t forget the Sakuya, Eight Views, Marceau, Dorothy and Shishi in the doomsday illusion, nor can I forget their state as seen in reality in the hospital, and loving Fujiang has never been my abandonment of other people. reason. If it’s an insignificant situation, it’s fine. However, according to my inference, the doomsday illusion and hospital reality that I can observe have reached an extremely severe situation, which makes me unable to lean too much towards Fu Jiang even emotionally. Likes.

...I will succeed, no, I must succeed. Otherwise, the one I love will not be able to escape this endless cycle of pain. Even if I can't be sure of my correctness, but when everyone can't be sure that my choice is completely and absolutely correct, I have to stick to my plan anyway. Furthermore, if my plan can succeed, it proves that other people's plans will not succeed. If the plans of others succeed, then my failure is not unacceptable.

I have repeatedly confirmed that if I relax, my will and actions will definitely be overwhelmed by despair, madness and exhaustion—I know, I know, the closer to the end, the more you have to repeat Confirmation, can't relax.

"Huh—" I took a deep breath, imagining that the pressure that was accompanied by repeated, layering, entanglement, knotting, and contradictory thinking was all released from my body, "I decided, A Jiang. I love you, but I also have things I must do."

"..." Fu Jiang's face suddenly stuck in front of my eyes, she suddenly stretched her head over and frightened me, because the distance is too close, I can't confirm, what kind of expression is her current expression, just listen When she said as if she was joking with something else, "A Chuan is not the only one in my heart, which makes me a little uncomfortable."

"...I'm sorry." Other than that, I don't have a better excuse. In fact, I am still a little worried, because in my plan, the most important bargaining chip is the love for "Jiang" and the frantic thoughts in my mind, as well as the perseverance and roots that have been tempered in the deteriorating situation. I want to Everything about me, I inject everything about "Jiang" into the "virus" and become a primer—if everything contained in the current self is destroyed before "Jiang" is activated, then nothing will be mentioned. In the past, if the spiritual things contained in today's self are not pure enough, they will definitely be easily diluted by the "virus".

I must confirm my love for "Jiang" and let "Jiang" understand and believe in my love for her. This is the key to the real final battle in my plan.

For this, I must constantly "filter" and "concentrate" myself.

Like now, even if Fu Jiang doesn’t like it, what I have to insist on doing, is it beneficial to the state I pursue? I can't be sure. However, starting from "whether it is beneficial" to determine behavior is a rational level of thinking and action, and I can no longer carry out this kind of rational level of thinking and action. If I start from the perceptual level, I cannot ignore other things. People can't even simply compare the weight of "Jiang" with other people.

Contradictions always exist. How many times have I encountered conflicts now?

"Since A Chuan insists, let's do it." Tomi Jiang said in an indispensable tone, looking lifeless, but also elusive because there were not too many emotional changes, "I Know where they are."

"Where did you hear it?" I couldn't help but ask, because, in the information I have, no one can confirm what the state of the torchlight is today-it's like they are constantly increasing Surrounded by big "deviations", all the detection of their intelligence will only lead to increasingly strange clues, and careful analysis will only lead to some specious results.

Obviously, before actually contacting them, all the detection of torchlight through mysterious power channels had a huge cognitive shift.

"I naturally have my intelligence channels." Fu Jiang replied.

"Is it the information system of the Doomsday Shinrikyo?" I continued to ask.

"The Doomsday Shinrikyo Church has not been able to fully grasp the current situation of the torchlight." Fu Jiang's answer carried a lot of information.

"From this point of view, the people of Torchlight are also quite powerful." I tried to ease Fu Jiang's view of those people.

"Foolishness and blindness can also generate tremendous power." Tomi Jiang shrugged with a boring expression, "Even in some cases, the power generated by it can be beyond imagination. If everyone's heart can be compared A string, and this string inevitably participates in the operation of everything, then the string in the heart of the foolish and blind is stronger and thicker than most people's inner string, and has a stronger influence. Think about it, Achuan , All the things that can be called “miracle” in the world, no matter whether it is good or bad, the creators who practice it by themselves are basically foolish and blind people, right? Those sober-minded guys can't do it."

Fujiang raised his index finger, a cautious expression appeared on his face, and continued: "Total'indifference and blindness' is itself a distinctive rhythm. As the saying goes,'If you don't think, you won't be forced to think. Suffering'. The world in the eyes of the foolish and blind is different from you, Achuan. You must remember that the world you see is different, and don’t use your thoughts to speculate on them, because no matter how close it is, After all, there will be deviations. Don’t think you can fool them, because the concept of “fooling” you know has no meaning to them. They have always existed, constantly operating at their own unique rhythm, just like in poetry Described as'the rocks do not move, the scene remains the same', the'rocks' here are not simply physics and material stones."

I understand Fu Jiang's meaning. To understand her words completely literally, it will definitely make people feel like clouds and mists. However, just like the "things" in poetry are not pure objects, they are more of borrowed objects. Like Yu, many meanings in her words can only be understood by understanding the metaphors. However, even though she was very cautious, I couldn't really deeply understand how cautious she was. Before witnessing it in person, my own understanding was imprisoned by an invisible upper limit, and I couldn't break through this limit with imagination alone.

"I will pay attention." I can only answer as carefully as possible.

"...it is not enough to pay attention. Many things happen quickly and suddenly, completely beyond pre-imagination and immediate reaction. People's imagination and reaction ability are always at their limits. People It's something that is so fragile and full of limitations." Fu Jiang said here, paused, and returned to his nonchalant expression, "Forget it, I'm here anyway, it won't be a problem. Achuan, you don't need to worry too much. Up."

"That's what I said." When I said this, I didn't have the slightest hesitation in my heart. Many times, I trusted her more than myself. Because I have seen my limits, but I have never seen her limits.

"Let's go, then." Fu Jiang pointed out a direction at random and said: "This direction."

However, I don’t really think that this is really a "random direction." Fu Jiang is so different, even if it is "random", it will inevitably have a chain reaction in this doomsday illusion, and then produce the effect of "speaking out the law" in the occult. I don't think she has delved into this kind of thing~IndoMTL.com~because it is like a person's instinct to raise hands and feet. She said before that what she knows is because she has her own intelligence channels, and I believe so.

In my induction, the invisible high-speed passage began to spread again. Fu Jiang put his hand on my shoulder, and I seemed to have an instinctive feeling, naturally knowing where this invisible high-speed passage should extend, even if the distance is beyond the field of vision. I deeply feel that the will of'Jiang' that has always existed in my body is showing in this way.

Then, I grabbed Fu Jiang's hand and jumped into this invisible high-speed passage.

The quick sweep begins.

The world seems to stagnate. I just ran at my own pace, and the scenery that seemed to be frozen was different from the scenery that was moving backwards quickly when sitting on a high-speed train. These landscapes are relatively lacking in color and texture. Even steel is fragile. The thin lines that are almost white, gray and black outline the outlines of things, and these outlines are so scribbled, like graffiti. Even so, it was not messy enough to be able to confirm what these outlines were. In this scribbled landscape, I saw more corpses, dead soldiers, Nazi soldiers...Almost most of them were enemies, and The other side fighting with them is always in the minority.