Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 2058: Resurrection

The file thinks I am a monster. Perhaps in her eyes, the so-called monster is my level. However, although I sometimes feel like a monster, regardless of mental state, way of thinking, and existence There is a huge difference from normal people, but only in terms of human nature and the fragility and limitations of being a human being, I am still a human being. What a real monster looks like is completely beyond my imagination. Even with "virus" and "Jiang" as a reference, it is precisely because I am far from understanding how "virus" and "Jiang" exist. The essence and operation, its intelligence and inhumanity, have only a vague impression. Therefore, I cannot sum up the answer to "what a monster is like" from the two.

Predecessors have summed up the three laws of monsters in the past: first, monsters will not die; second, monsters are not understood by people; third, monsters are not human in nature. These three laws are reflected in "Virus" and "Jiang", but I can still feel that the weirdness of "Virus" and "Jiang" is far from being covered by these three laws, even, Even if "Jiang" has a specious performance on the third point, showing an observable human form and humanity, it is precisely because of this performance that the three laws summarized by the predecessors appear to be incorrect.

It's not that "Jiang" shows human form and humanity, it means that "Jiang" is closer to humans, and maybe the opposite is true. How other people understand it, I don't know, but as a member of the closest distance to relieve "Jiang", I fully accept this understanding.

So, the file said I was a monster, and I didn't even have the slightest idea of ​​refuting it, because the real monster is not just me. But now I drag her into the depths of this consciousness, showing that the power she is not suitable for is not my own power at all, but the power given by a real monster. I arrived here, I adapt to here, I have an advantage here, this is not something to be happy and proud of at all, but it will only reflect how huge the gap between humans and real monsters is.

The gap between me, who is called a monster, and the real monster "virus", is no longer visible within a period of time, and can be made up only by struggle, hard work, and luck. Knowing this deeply once again will only make me more sure that Dorothy and the others’ plans are not perfect. There is a fundamental error in the cruelty of the final battle. It is not that everyone underestimates the enemy, but that they are unwilling to think about the possibility of "if this enemy is beyond their imagination", and wishfully believe that their own height and some strategies and tactics can at least achieve a level of competitiveness. Height-Of course, I can understand this kind of wishful thinking. Maybe for them, just trying to imagine the strength of the enemy is enough to make them collapse, and not to include the height of this incomprehensible enemy into their imagination. Inside, it will only fall into endless despair.

However, this kind of thinking and imagination, this kind of wishful thinking attitude, may be able to maintain one's own rationality not to collapse immediately, and it can also squeeze a trace of false hope from the boundless fear and despair to continue one's own survival. , But it is impossible to truly achieve the original wish-defeat the "virus", obtain the serum, and let everyone out of the pain of the doomsday syndrome.

I don’t mind if they think and act like this, because I don’t know what they can do. However, I can’t think and act like this, because, as Gaochuan, I have to do it. what.

This time, the doomsday illusion is closer to the "doomsday" than the doomsday illusion I have ever experienced. The state of affairs I have observed is from the cognition of acquaintances like the file and the cognition of me from other strangers. In, from the attitudes of all people and inhumans that I have relieved toward me, and from the regularity of the frequent disappearance and appearance of "Jiang", I feel more and more that I have seen some key things. Maybe these things are still not the truth. But it also made me feel more and more determined that I must carry out my plan with a firmer attitude-people cannot fight monsters, and only monsters can fight monsters.

My thoughts swelled crazily and constantly diverged, and even gave me the illusion that a part of my inner body is no longer limited to the constraints of my human body, and the body is no longer the basis for inner support. In reality in the hospital, Gao Chuan's body has collapsed, and the "Gao Chuan" self has already wandered in the LCL, and the self felt in the doomsday illusion is producing another form from a non-physical perspective. The change and collapse of the material state from the reality of the hospital to the doomsday illusion is like a process in which the essence of existence changes. I cannot understand the details of this process, and the result of this process is beyond imagination.

I don’t know what I will become, but I have a strong intuition that no matter what I become, I will never be stronger than the "virus", and even the speed of my change is not at all The progress of the "virus", even if I have completely become something I can't imagine, I can't guess the true face of the "virus" on the basis of myself at that time.

The gap is too big.

"The gap is too big." I said.

My mumbling seemed to be heard clearly by the file, but she didn't understand it. Instead, she smiled mockingly at me and said: "I don't think it is too big to resist." Maybe she thinks it is. I'm underestimating her.

Of course I can’t underestimate her, nor do I feel that the gap between myself and her is something she can’t make up for. The advantage I have in the depths of this state of consciousness will be smoothed out with a file every time I wear it out. I know that she was talking to me just to delay time, and my state is indeed inefficient and full of flaws, but this is the weakness that I must have under the drive of sensibility. It's totally expected to drive behaviors entirely with sensibility, but I never wanted to stop there.

In order to complete the plan, I myself must have a strong enough paranoid single sensibility. All sensibility-driven behaviors are to filter and polish sensibility. All the injuries caused by sensibility will inevitably become the food of the plan. .

Human reason cannot understand monsters, but it is precisely because of a clear understanding of this that he changes his perspective and tries to do something with his sensibility. Although, in fact, I am not too sure. Regardless of sensibility or rationality, in theory, it is still something that can be completely resolved through information in the length of time, and it is not something beyond imagination.

I chose sensibility, not only because people in the past failed rational resistance, but also because of the existence of "Jiang".

From this point of view, if you can really do something with sensibility, to complete a project with little hope, then probably only I can do it at the moment — I don’t want it, because, This particularity will only make me feel the despair and sorrow of human beings even more.

"This is a desperate hell." I said to the file in a deep voice: "Are you ready? File."

"What are you prepared? Is it possible that now, you still want to say that everything you have done is to break despair and save sentient beings? Gao Chuan." There is no idea on the face of the file, here In a few words and a few thoughts, her image of existence has undergone terrible and unfamiliar changes. The most obvious is that her face has lost the outline of the five senses. It is not that the five senses have disappeared, but a vague feeling that is infinitely close to nothing. Her human form is also changing. Although the female sexual characteristics can still be identified from the outline, the details of the individual and personality used to embody the "file" are all disappearing.

The "file" disappeared in front of me, leaving behind a "female"-this feeling is very strong and pure.

As far as I understand it, it is from a deeper depth that the information radiated from the human collective subconscious interferes and distorts the existence of the file. This is of course an unusual and mysterious phenomenon, but I am not sure that it happened naturally or was deliberately induced by the file itself. But in any case, the female body in front of me is giving me a stronger sense of existence and oppression, making me more willing to believe that this is the method that the file finally chose to use against me. She even gave up her life, so she doesn't mind the distortion of her own existence. She is more involved in this battle than I am, just wanting to defeat me.

From a rational point of view, this is certainly not a good change for me. However, from a perceptual point of view, I sigh for it. I can deeply feel that in the reason for her decision and behavior, an extremely strong sensibility is becoming the core driving force. When I feel this sensibility, it is as if my own sensibility is also absorbing this. Nutrients and fuels.

The sensibility of the file is growing my sensibility.

"You are about to become not you, file." Out of sensibility, I warned her.

"...Really?" The sound of the file is losing its personality, making people feel that it is no longer a human voice. Her voice is clearly low, but on the ground presented in this dark void, there is Roaring echoes: "Who do you think I am?"

As far as I can perceive, everything is shaking. Only the file with a female human profile opened its eyes suddenly. It was an eye that appeared again on the face whose facial features had almost disappeared, and everything was right. Observations made by the face can't help but focus on this eye, as if this eye represents everything about her. What kind of eye is that, as far as I am concerned, it does not appear on a human body at all—this is only one eye, located at the left eye, the eyeball is outlined by the scarlet red, and the eye socket is It is as deep black as this dark background. It gives people the feeling that they are similar to and different from the abnormal eyes that I have seen before. It reminds me of the incredible existence of "Jiang" and "Virus".

Moreover, its pupils are spiral.

The terrible force is stirring everything around me, whether it is the solid ground or the endless darkness, it seems to be rotating under the drive of an inexplicable force.

In the hands of the female humanoid, the roaring, rotating power is converging, forming a visible outline in the blink of an eye, like a huge drill.

This is obviously not the form of power that files possess. The origin of the mysterious power is unknown, and its mechanism cannot be understood. Only the phenomenon caused by it can be partially observed and the effects of it can be actually experienced. Nevertheless, this uncertain possibility does not happen suddenly by coincidence. Seeing the change of the file at this time, I am quite sure that it is definitely not her own that caused the change of the file, nor is it simply the result of her own driving mysterious force~IndoMTL.com~Although it looks like some people are doing it. The outbreak of the desperate counterattack, but its essence is fundamentally different. There are other things that are contributing to this change in the file, and the file itself has a channel to accept this promotion. My instinct is sounding a strong alarm, not because of the magnificent and delicate power of the file at this time, but because of the factors that contribute to the change of the file.

What the **** is that? I can't be sure, but I have some ideas. Powerful and abnormal power will never come to someone out of thin air, and the changes a person produces due to mystery absolutely need to have corresponding factors in themselves, just as my power is reflected in me as a magicweave messenger. , And the more powerful manifestation is the existence of "Jiang" in my "internal".

What is on the file? The first thing I thought of was that she was also a magicweave messenger. However, it is impossible for the Mageweave messenger to suddenly produce such amazing performance in the world of consciousness. Her actions have surpassed many consciousness walkers I know, so does the file suddenly become a consciousness walker? From this question, another question arises: what makes the file a conscious walker?

With myself as a reference, it is the power of "Jiang" that gives me the power to walk in consciousness. So, what makes the file suddenly show such power in the depth of this ideological world is at least not much worse than "Jiang". I thought of "virus", but from past experience, "virus" rarely produces such a sudden sense of presence in someone, and it is often through the doomsday truth to teach this behemoth to carry out some activities and make use of it. The final weapon is adjusted. It can be seen that the way in which "viruses" exist is more of a movement toward a macroscopic whole.