Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 2072: Wind evil

Although the researcher responsible for the psychological work of "Gao Chuan" is Dr. Ruan Li, since "Gao Chuan" voluntarily cooperated with the hospital research and highlighted his particularity, each of his injuries, growths, withdrawals, pains and pains Despair is under the observation of most researchers. To many people in this hospital, "Gaochuan" is nothing strange. His every move, and why such a move occurred, the mental changes behind these actions, and the pathological changes behind all the observable physical and mental changes, are all eye-catching.

　　 Even so, reviewing what "Gao Chuan" himself had recorded again, Dr. Ander still felt a strange empathy, not strange, but it was definitely not as familiar as he thought. Under the crimson moonlight, he read those handwritings on the paper. From the lines between the lines, he could see the face of "Gao Chuan" and every pain he suffered. It seemed that he could feel something that he had never felt in the past.

　　 It was painful, desperate, crazy, distressed, helpless, but still struggling... When Dr. Ander realized that his eyes were a little fuzzy, he felt the cold tears from the corners of his eyes. . He certainly doesn't think the things left by "Gao Chuan" are of any use, but even if they are not useful, they still make him resonate-this kind of resonance is not because he wants to harden his heart subjectively and he can not feel it. Arrived.

　　 Dr. Ande seems to be able to see himself in these contents, but compared to "Gao Chuan" who wrote these contents, he doesn't think he is similar to him. In the depths of himself and this young man-that excluding the depths of the physical body-in addition to personality, there is also a deep commonality. This sense of commonality makes him feel that he can be with the moment he knows. "Gaochuan" is integrated.

After 　　, he suddenly woke up. This kind of feeling that people can't help but blend in, made him unable to help but produce some indescribable horror, and made him think of the end of the doomsday syndrome patient.

　　 Every doomsday syndrome patient will turn into a pale yellow LCL in an incurable collapse, and there is no observable material difference in the LCL liquid that each patient turns into. This made Dr. Ander couldn't help but imagine that his feeling of being integrated with "Gaochuan" at this time, and whether the urge to empathize with him is also a sign of the nature of LCL? In the work of studying "viruses" and patients with doomsday syndrome, there will always be many subtle clues. They are not independent, but people feel that they will always be related to each other on a certain level. This kind of correlation always makes people unable to help but produce all kinds of associations.

　　In the past, researchers generally believed that this obscure, subtle, seemingly accidental but inevitable connection is precisely the breakthrough in the difficulties of research work, and the embodiment of many conceivable possibilities. However, In the circumstances at this moment, Dr. Ender only felt terrible. He couldn't help but retching, and the thoughts that were constantly emerging in his mind that he couldn't even see were so messy and seemed to be connected to the truth, as if connected to the truth but it was like a cloud of mist. , Some facts that make me feel terrified and unwilling to accept are like hidden in these thoughts. It's not that I can't see clearly, but I don't dare to see clearly. No matter how much my subjective consciousness wants to go into it, there is a stronger power that comes from my own subconscious or instinct that prevents me from going into it.

　　 There seems to be a voice whispering to himself, discouraging himself, and admonishing himself that once it gets deep into it, terrible things will happen. The terrible thing is not reflected in external factors, but in the internal factors of the self. If you use psychological theory to describe it, it would be the collapse of self-concept. However, in terms of the vague answer that this fear directly brings to Dr. Ender, it is more terrifying than "self-collapse." matter.

　　——Yes, something is about to come out of my mind.

　　 Dr. Ande's hands were trembling, and he couldn't even grasp the paper firmly, and desperately pressed his head. The thing to be drilled out is not some kind of tangible matter, but another form of expression relative to materiality. It is intangible, something parasitic in thoughts, imagination, and thoughts. At this moment, only Dr. Ander feels that it is precisely because of reading these contents recorded by "Gao Chuan" that these things have been awakened and made them become active-they are actually in their own thinking, imagination and I was thinking about it, and I was infected a long time ago.

　　 "Ah, it's a virus, it's a virus, it's a virus..." Dr. Ander heard himself muttering to himself. In the almost crazy feeling, there seemed to be another third person's perspective, observing this Almost crazy myself.

　　 Dr. Ender resisted the huge fear and the madness and despair that bit his heart, grabbed cards, papers, and notebooks, and stumbled in a direction that he didn't even realize. The crimson moonlight, which was originally weird, seemed to become more tangible, and it also gave him a more substantial sense of horror. He didn't want to stay in this exposed field, wanted to escape into a room where the moonlight couldn't reach, or even wanted to go underground and be in the darkness without light. It seems that only by doing this can we avoid the indescribable horror.

　　Doctor Ande ran like this, and when his reason returned again, he found a towering tower in front of him.

　　 This high tower is a landmark building in the isolated island hospital. No matter where it is on the island, or even outside the port, you can at least see its outline and use it as a positioning coordinate. However, the emergence of this high tower is of course not as simple as a beacon to guide the direction. In the hospital, many people, including many researchers, feel that more secret and cruel experiments are hidden in the tower, which is where the experimental products that violate human ethics ultimately go. The things hidden in it should be dark, incomprehensible, and full of human negativity. In the content recorded on the paper by "Gao Chuan", he once thought that the secret of Dorothy's disappearance was buried in this tower. .

　　 However, as the highest person in charge of the hospital, Dr. Ander knows very well that there is nothing in it that fits these dark imaginations. This high tower was not used to store experimental items, nor was it used to imprison prisoners, nor was it a base for secret research. As far as he knows, there is actually nothing in the tower-yes, unlike other people’s malicious guesses, this tower has not been opened many times, not because there are secrets hidden in it, but because it is really not How to use the building.

　　 There is a lot of space in the tower, but even Dr. Ander doesn’t know what kind of thoughts the people who built it had in the first place. The space inside seems to be superfluous-no, no, Ann When Dr. De had such a thought, he immediately felt a strong sense of disharmony. Did he really not know what was in it? Are there really unnecessary buildings in this hospital? No, it seems that I know what's in it, it seems to be a very important thing, but suddenly I can't remember it, or in other words, my memory is a little confused.

　　 "Is it the infection again?" Dr. Ender muttered to himself. When he stood firm and tried to look at the tower, the inexplicable feeling hit his mind again, and he still couldn't describe it in detail. However, compared to the sense of fear and despair that made him mad, the inexplicable feeling brought to him by this tower seemed to have some comforting effect.

　　Doctor Ande didn’t hesitate for too long. He felt that he had to open the door to the tower. He made those weird opening and closing doors in the dormitory where the three girls, Sakiya, Hakkei, and Marceau were located. The behavior, and the strong hunch that arises when opening the door of the room where the three girls are, is like being connected to the door of the tall tower in front of you by some invisible wires-you have to open it, not because of other The reason is because I did those behaviors in the dormitory where the three girls are, and also because I unearthed something hidden by "Gaochuan".

　　 And this kind of realization is not all what I imagined, but it seems that there is another myself telling myself that I must do this.

　　Dr. Ande felt more than ever that his every move, every thought, was not completely belonging to the "self" he could recognize.

　　 The huge red moon that is crumbling in the night sky seems to be still far in the sky, but also seems to have been pressed onto the spire of the tower. The crimson light flows down the tower with a fluid consistency, and penetrates into the texture of the tower. Gradually, too complex and indescribable patterns emerge.

　　 "This is an illusion, it must be an illusion..." Dr. Ender witnessed this bizarre sight, a malice that made his hands and feet cold, seems to be penetrating his skin, deep into his internal organs, and into his heart. In the depths, there was a certain non-mechanical, but also non-biological chewing sound--this maliciousness was like chewing his own mind, he couldn't help but think so.

　　 Dr. Ande is extremely convinced that even if he sees conclusive evidence, he is not so sure: he did not come here by accident, but was driven here by the invisible malice that enveloped the entire hospital island. .

　　 An irresistible and fateful sense of powerlessness made him feel like he was suffocating.

　　 Dr. Ende seems to have seen something. It may be an illusion, but the violent response of the body makes it difficult to continue to think that it is just an illusion.

　　 This malice, the certain entity behind this power, is so unimaginable, so grand and ruthless. In contrast, the overall humanity on this planet is so small and small. Powerless. Just like when an ordinary person is caught in the storm of the ocean, when facing the surging flood, when he feels the ground under his feet, when looking down at the planet from outer space, when looking at the endless universe from the space station, the same is true. The weakness and smallness that can be felt.

　　 made him yell, call, and express it in a hysterical mood:

　　 "KAEKESA! Fengxie, Fengxie, KAEKESA!" And he didn't understand the meaning of these syllables. He just desperately wanted to escape into the tower, as if only in this way could he escape the great malice that was foreshadowed by the syllables he shouted out.

　　 This time, Dr. Ender did not stumble or hesitate anymore. He staggered to the front of the tower and pushed open the door that had been soaked in crimson light. However, he was not sure. Is the door pushed open a material door? Whether it is the touch of the skin or what I see, the door seems to lose its texture. The texture soaked in the crimson moonlight is expanding in the field of vision. It is not so much that I hit the door, it is better to be affected by this piece. The dense and dazzling, red light that makes people look dizzy is swallowed.

　　 Dr. Ande held "Gao Chuan"'s relic tightly. Even though he encountered such a horrible, incomprehensible, and scary thing to think about, he couldn't abandon these cards, papers and notes~IndoMTL.com ~ He can't even explain whether his emotions are based on a self-interested instinct or some other thoughts. He just trembled, and when he felt that he "has entered the tower", he dodged aside, leaned back, and naturally leaned against the cold and hard object that should be the wall.

　　 At this moment, there is darkness in front of his eyes, and nothing can be seen.

　　 Dr. Ande was panting in horror, trying to say something to himself to regulate his nearly collapsed psychology, but he didn’t know how to do it. The firm will that he had been proud of in the past is in his consciousness at this time. So fragile, and those who once believed to be rich in theoretical knowledge and practical experience, it seems that it is difficult to help comfort themselves. The weird call he made in front of the tower made him feel that he had done something wrong, but he was helpless when he did these wrong things. There is no need to make himself feel guilty, just like he can't decide when the natural disaster will come. .

　　 He wanted to treat all of this as an illusion that he frightened him, but, to be honest, he couldn’t do it—even though he wanted to, he couldn’t do it, and it didn’t matter whether he could do it or not. There is no situation more frustrating, frightening and desperate than this.

The experience of 　　 made him deeply realize that he is more vulnerable than he thought.

　　 Even so, he still hopes he can do something, at least not to let himself die in this kind of depression, fear, madness, and despair.

　　 But, what can I do?

　　 Dr. Ande's mind was swelling again, and then he decided to look at the last legacy of "Gao Chuan" again. Don't know what else was written in that notebook? 89