Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 2153: Winner so far

I have been thinking about why Torchlight has such an eager tendency and staggering obsession with the concept, phenomenon and meaning of "deviation". "Bias" is not a good thing for everyone who has planned actions. Everyone who tries to make a dream plan for his own life will be very disgusted with "bias." Only from the small group of "humans", no one is completely unorganized and planned, because the structure and thinking of "humans" themselves are all produced from an orderly structure. The movement that constitutes a person is orderly, the matter that constitutes a person is orderly, the energy that constitutes a person is orderly, and order must be the basis for human beings to recognize themselves and foreign objects. Even if many people claim that human thoughts are chaotic, this kind of "chaos" is, in a more sense, an exaggeration of the complexity of people's own thinking.

People always regard "a dazzlingly complicated order" as chaos, but it really is not chaos. Just like the idiom "a mess of hemp", even if a person can't pull the thread from the mess of hemp and sort it out clearly, it doesn't mean that the mess is disordered. On the contrary, no matter from a larger macro perspective or a smaller micro perspective, it is bound to be seen that the so-called "mess" actually strictly abides by order.

Therefore, from a human point of view, complete chaos is like a fantasy that exists in theory but cannot be observed in reality. Furthermore, the meaning of "bias" that will lead to disorder is absolutely undesirable.

I have always believed that it is normal for everyone to hate "deviations". The torch light, who is keen on "deviation", is naturally abnormal from the beginning. Even, I have always felt that the torch light that yearns for "deviation" and always creates "deviation" should be a villain who has been resisted from the bottom of my heart by many people. It should not have the soil for growth, nor should it be a positive example, standing on the front line of fighting against Doomsday Truth. Conversely, it should include the existing "both the enemy and ourselves" that should be subconsciously excluded.

In the past doomsday illusion, there has never been a mysterious organization such as "Torchlight", but the fact is that it not only exists in this doomsday illusion, but also very strong— —Just this one example is enough to make people feel that the current doomsday illusion is somewhat different from the past doomsday illusion.

Of course, it is difficult for me to explain the more specific situation. But after learning about the mysterious organization "Torchlight" that pursues "deviation", I have always had a strong feeling.

The Torchlight is not a friend or a companion. It does not stand on the side of any existing camp, nor can it be simply classified into the signs of apocalypse that have already appeared. It is independent, unique, and another crisis that is completely different from the crisis that has already appeared. Even more, is it really the influence caused by the "virus" and the comprehensive manifestation in the spiritual world of patients with doomsday syndrome? I also have deep doubts about this.

I have always felt that sooner or later the torch light will become a different kind of enemy from Doomsday Truth. Now, this intuition has come true. What's more frightening is that I may have been underestimating the nature of the "deviation" that Torchlight yearns for.

In front of my eyes, the members of the Torchlight were almost distorted into another form of inhuman existence in a short period of time, not only the performers of the deviation ritual, but also the guardian of the ritual. Defenders have inevitably become a distorted part. If you say, in the past, I can see to some extent that behind the disasters brought about by Doomsday Truth, there are still some logical things and orderly and progressive performances, and I have also felt that this logical, orderly and progressive part possesses. He believes that it is this unique charm that keeps mystery experts as part of it.

Then, there is a logical horror of the consequences and phenomena caused by the deviant ritual in front of us. It seems scattered, but in fact, there has always been imagination based on memory and logic, which is absolutely impossible to cover and understand. fear.

I’m Gao Chuan. I have experienced too many mysteries, the changes that can take place in myself and the changes in others, and I perceive the seemingly sudden chaos from the "virus", but the actual threats are organized, but Because of this, I can be so sure that the existence of the torch light and the deviating rituals it induces is most likely not directly related to the "virus", but something similar to the "virus" at the level, but Something that is very different in nature.

Unfortunately, my language can neither accurately describe "virus", nor can it accurately describe another thing that is different from "virus".

In the past, in the process of dealing with mysterious events and fighting against the "virus", the experience I gained was of little use to the torchlight deviation ritual. I even doubt whether "Jiang" has the power to overcome it.

Now, in the underground hall where the torchlight is used for deviation rituals, three phenomena are being entangled together. Within the observable range, the same distortion can be seen but it seems to be intuitive from this distortion. Feeling different phenomena, and within the unobservable range, you can still reason and imagine the twisted confrontation that is also occurring normally. I don't know how many "normal thinking" existences like me are still at the center of this confrontation.

Besides myself, there is no other thing that can barely be called a "human form" before my eyes, and I don't think there is anything else that is a "living individual". It seems that in addition to myself, other things that were once "human" and "human corpses" have melted from their bodies and changed in nature. They are not pure matter or pure energy, but some kind of A complex phenomenon that has never been seen before. I know very well that before not knowing how much time, these indescribable things are all things I have known: the wizards of Doomsday Truth, members of Torchlight, and even non-torchlight mysterious experts.

Now, they have all lost their original nature. In self-observation, I am the only "person" who still maintains a human form and is thinking. It is closer to the concept of "people" than everything around here.

What is being born here are at least three rituals: the "Jiang" ritual, the torchlight ritual, and the doomsday Shinrikyo ritual. And the characteristics and things of each ritual are interpenetrating, entangled, and changed, like mixing the three primary colors of paint together, turning them into more colorful colors, and then becoming a deep and inexplicable muddy and chaotic. black.

However, this kind of black is not completely integrated. If you observe carefully, even if it is a small existence like me, you can still distinguish the layering with the naked eye. Some blacks are lighter, some blacks are more intense, and some blacks seem to have other colors, but these levels that are visible to the naked eye are gradually shrinking. From the perspective of thinking, I can infer that "this complex and deep struggle in front of me" is spreading to other places, and I can even imagine that compared to the reality of the hospital in the doomsday fantasy, it is unavoidable to be affected by this battle. But in fact, I cannot directly observe these influences and changes. In observing all this, I feel that I am becoming some kind of incompatible being-only I remain in human form, and only I am still thinking in a human way. Under the circumstances here, it is as conspicuous as a black sheep in a flock of white sheep.

Of course I know that I am the foothold of the "Jiang" ceremony, and my observations are likely to be part of the "Jiang" observations. Although I have emphasized many times that I am not a puppet of "Jiang", I still know how much influence "Jiang" has on me. Therefore, I can also imagine that I am the weakest point of Jiang's ritual-if I am destroyed, then Jiang will be kicked out of the battle.

However, even if I am really the weakest point, what can I do? The battle that is happening here has completely exceeded the limit of my ability.

I can only wait for the verdict of fate. Such waiting is painful, helpless, and even more boring. I can only think, other than that, I don't dare to do anything, for fear that the extra actions will lead to worse results. As for the contest between this ceremony and the ceremony, the entanglement of different meanings behind the ceremony, and the indescribable and incomprehensible existence behind these different meanings, when will the attack on each other stop? It is totally unimaginable.

Everything that is happening around me, as well as the peace of my own area, seems to tell me that I am in the eyes of this terrible storm. I feel that as long as I throw even a small stone into this storm, it will cause different and far-reaching changes. That's why I decided not to do anything.

Compared to the phenomenon of vigorous exercise, I actually feel that I am falling into a certain sense of "stillness".

Then, all of a sudden, every phenomenon I could observe changed from a violent motion state to a frozen static state. The concealed blackness seemed to be torn apart, swirling layer by layer, and dissipated within the observable range in a short while. The color and state of things are being reconstituted, and the scenery that the eyes can see is revived. I realized my breathing and heartbeat again. Just two or three seconds after my heartbeat, the distortion of the three rituals in front of me disintegrated like a mirror.

I don't know the specific outcome, but I feel that the violent and distorted phenomenon has collapsed, and it is better than it continues. At least after it disintegrated, I can feel more substantively that "self" is not an empty word, and the material foundation that supports "self" is returning to normal. What surprised me was that I didn't feel tired at all at this time.

Is it over? Is it over like this? I looked around in disbelief and touched myself again. Even if all the feelings had returned to normal, I couldn't regard everything I had experienced before as a fantasy.

In the underground hall, I am the only one left. Everyone except me was gone, as if they had never appeared in this world. For a while, I couldn't find the enemy, and I didn't know how to react. The huge, natural, unconfrontable battle still has a frightening aftertaste.

If possible, I really hope someone can explain to me. However, without such a person, he can no longer feel the existence of "Jiang" from the depths of his body and soul. These vaguely confused feelings only make me feel that no matter which side it is, no real victory has been achieved. Even so, the feeling of "deviation" pervading the underground hall has been significantly different.

I know that deviant rituals must have had a huge impact on the outside world, and every impact is definitely not in a good direction, but it is completely unclear what kind of chain reaction will be caused.

I can only say to myself: "At least one little life was saved."

I waited for at least five minutes in this underground hall where calm was restored, and there were no new people entering the hall. So, I plan to leave like this. For me, the beginning of this battle is inevitable. The process was conceivable earlier, but it became inexplicable and indescribable in the middle, and the result is also indirect.

In the battle I have experienced~IndoMTL.com~ The impression of this battle may not be so intuitive, but it is impressive, making me even more suspicious that if there is no "Jiang" power, we really Can the "virus" be defeated? No, now even the "virus" is not the only threat. The deviation ritual of the torch light has attracted terrible things, which is completely different from the "virus", but it is enough to resist the existence of courtesy. If you can't confirm what the end of this thing is now, you can't calm down and implement the plan against the "virus".

When the doomsday factor is no longer a "virus", it really makes people feel extremely desperate. In this huge sense of despair, I even felt that even the emotions have become blank. The strong sense of fear that has always existed is like being diluted by this huge despair, and it is even more difficult for me to be touched.

I once felt that my plan was more reliable and more likely to be implemented than the plans of the others. However, my plan was not tolerant enough to accommodate the second doomsday factor besides the "virus". From this perspective, the torchlight pursuing "deviation" is the victor, although none of them are left at this time.

　　

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