Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 2159: Deviation diffusion

Ideological struggles, ideological struggles, and all the factors that make up the "self" are also struggling. Compared with physical wounds, these invisible wounds are more frightening. I don't know how many Nazi soldiers and security guards I have killed. They seem to be endless, and the killings they bring are monotonous and full of mechanical feeling. I was involved in this war and became one of the screws. In the super huge sacrifice ceremony I imagined, the observation of myself and the logical self-consistent in the observation are also becoming monotonous. A person’s imagination has a limit. The longer I stay on this battlefield, the more I can clearly feel this. Every time I am logically self-consistent, every time I think, I squeeze my own imagination. Power and logical thinking ability. When the imagination begins to dry up, the logical thinking ability can no longer produce more contradictions. All things that can be thought are compressed into only a few questions-these questions look like It is the ultimate question of philosophy, but I feel that this is only the ultimate within the limits of my own cognition and thinking, not the ultimate in the true sense.

I don’t know how long it has passed, and it is becoming more and more difficult for me to find novel things from my imagination and thinking. Whether it is something that I think I understand, or something that I can't understand, it keeps repeating. I just feel that I am like a fish wandering in a drier waterway. Without the injection of new water, it will only make me feel that the range in which I can settle is narrower and more and more muddy. I can clearly feel that my thinking is starting to become rigid. The harder I try to think, the more dull my head is trapped.

My body is still breathing, still metabolizing, and all physical activities have not been slowed down due to the injury, but have become more and more intense. On the contrary, all activities on the level of mental consciousness are like a rusting machine, constantly making a crunching sound. I feel that my current predicament is unavoidable, but if I have more knowledge and more active inspiration, it will definitely delay the arrival of this feeling.

I can't solve such an attack. I can't see the enemy launching this kind of attack, and all the mysterious powers can't lock onto a specific target. What is the use of killing Nazi soldiers and security guards? The pressure on my mind and consciousness has never been weakened by the reduction of enemy individuals. Self-observation cannot expand imagination from the foundation, and cannot solve the problems of thinking and thinking, so self-observation cannot reverse this invisible danger.

This kind of invisible and invisible attack is so effective, it even makes me think that the doomsday truth cult has already planned it, and it will defeat me in this way, so it will not send the final weapon. I must admit that under such tremendous pressure, I hope that the opponent is the ultimate weapon that can be seen and touched, rather than such an erosion of the ideological level.

I can't see the end anyway. I can feel the other direction I am in, but even if I keep moving in that direction-I don't know how long it has passed-the black Nazi soldiers and security guards still stand in front of me. I feel like I'm going crazy. My imagination, my thinking ability, and my self-awareness seem to be emptied, leaving only a shriveled skin. If you don’t think about it, if you don’t think about it...

If I don’t think about it, can I take a break—?

Almost when I stopped thinking subconsciously, I suddenly struggled out of this temptation behavior. Even so, I could not confirm how long I stopped thinking. When I think back, I can clearly feel that there is A blank space was inserted into his memory. What did you do during this blank time? What was done again? There is no way to know. All I know is that when I was forcibly awake, I was still killing the enemies before and after, as if my body was still driven by a kind of inertia to do such things even when I stopped thinking.

I know that I might suddenly stop thinking again, and fall into that unconscious void. When all my conscious behaviors cease, even if my body is still active, my "high river" will no longer exist. This fate may not have a direct impact on others, but the impact on the final Gaochuan plan may be quite fatal.

In the project of Dorothy and the series, such a situation was definitely not envisaged, because in every doomsday illusion in the past, there was always only one "Gaochuan". I now hope that when Dorothy and Shise were targeting "Jiang" and denying that I was "Gaochuan", they also imagined that I would disappear like this. Their final Gaochuan plan should be rigorous, and they should know the impact of my disappearance if I am not only a puppet of Jiang, but also Gaochuan.

If before, I thought I was a fish struggling in a drier waterway, now, I think this waterway has completely dried up. My consciousness is blurring. It's not the situation in the past like falling into a nightmare, nor is it falling into the confusion during sleep, but a heartfelt and thorough feeling that my self is diminishing and disappearing. When a person is unable to recognize the self, the self may still exist. However, now, I feel that the succession of self-recognition is weak, precisely because the "self" is gradually disappearing.

Where did the lost "self" go? What has become? I can't feel it at all, maybe... is becoming part of the sacrificial ceremony.

"I am going to disappear..." Deep in my heart, I heard my weak voice, as if from a distant dark heart, there are other voices, but I can't hear it anymore. NS.

I don't know when I have been standing in this darkness. I know that this is my soul, and this clearly dark space is becoming thin. This is not what I see directly, but I feel it, and the feeling is fading. I tried to find the existence of "Jiang" here, just like in the past, feeling its pulse at the bottom of the dark and deep abyss. However, I did not find it, I think it has always been here, and it always tells me with its own sense of existence that it is here. But now, I can't find it.

I am completely left with me. Now, it seems that I don’t even have myself.

I tried to think about it, but what should I think about at this time? When I was thinking, I felt that I was a mental patient, but when I couldn't even think, I wasn't even a "mental patient" anymore. If, if... at the end of this last, I still have to say a word to someone, then it might be:

——Eat me, Gao Chuan.

Eat me, then, I will still be part of "Gaochuan".

If there is still time...It turns out that this is the deviation of "Gaochuan", and it is here, in this way...

The last moment when I can still feel myself, is the dangling little spark before the candle goes out, and after a sudden light, it is completely dark.

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The heart is beating violently. No, it is not the physical heart beating, but the heart of the heart, which is like the "heart" beating. Yitai Gaochuan felt that something bad had happened, but he couldn't guess what it was by instinct. He knew that this battlefield was undergoing drastic changes, because in the corner that did not know how far away, the torchlight was completing the final deviation ritual. This time, the torchlight has invested all of it, and it will inevitably create an unprecedented "deviation", and it will inevitably affect every factor on this battlefield. The places that can be predicted are originally logical and supposed to exist, and there will be some unpredictable changes.

Torch Light has always been a core member of NOG. Gao Chuan does not intend to doubt the position of those people who are making deviations. It is even conceivable that when they make the strongest "deviation", it is very likely. Subjectively, we want to use "bias" to reverse all factors that are beneficial to the enemy. All the mysterious experts who know the light of the torch, and even the light of the torch itself, are very clear that the "bias" they create does not distinguish between the enemy and the enemy, not only will the enemy fall into unfavorable deviations, but also their own people into unfavorable deviations. middle.

It's just that, even if it doesn't create deviations, the enemy now has an advantage. If the deviation is created, there may be a fluke that can make the enemy more severely damaged when it hurts others and disadvantages itself.

However, this kind of fluke has never occurred in Torchlight's actions over the past so many years. Yitai Gaochuan didn't expect them to succeed this time. On the contrary, probably no one except the torchlight itself would expect the torchlight's deviation ritual to have a good direction.

The only certainty is that the situation that gradually becomes clear will once again fall into chaos. All the order that should have been formed will once again fall into chaos.

Gao Chuan never has the idea of ​​fluke and feels that he will not be affected. Moreover, the facts have proved that this kind of influence has already taken place. An incredible monster that has never been seen before, so powerful that Sanxian Island can't handle it.

The heart palpitations that are suddenly appearing now must be due to the influence of the deviation once again causing a bad change in some aspect of my own side.

The impact of "deviation" is such that people are caught off guard, because what can be prevented in advance can be regarded as "deviation" at all.

What happened? This feeling...It's like knowing what I have forgotten, but it is difficult to remember what I have forgotten in the first place.

The prosthetic body Gao Chuan firmly grasped the pipeline that penetrated the body. The pain from the body gave him a feeling that he could reduce the burden on the mind and consciousness. He felt this was an illusion.

His will emerges from his heart, transforms into a signal that shuttles between the prosthetic body and pipeline, and spreads in the huge Sanxian Island. Countless information pop-ups that only he can see unfolded before his eyes. Sanxiandao’s feedback was so rapid that when flying on the new route, the Nazi soldiers and security guards who followed suit were crushed to death in large tracts like a colony of ants. Sanxian Island has an essence that exceeds the accumulation of the number of individuals on both sides. If there is no Sanxian Island, Gao Chuan does not feel that he can easily survive on this terrible battlefield.

The mysterious phenomenon that occurred on this battlefield seems chaotic, but in the statistics of Sanxian Island, it is complicated and orderly. Utilizing powerful observation and calculation capabilities, as well as a high degree of mystery, 99% of the mysterious phenomena that seem to be generated out of order on this battlefield can be classified. Although the process of their generation cannot be analyzed, they can be classified. Roughly identify the effects that these mysterious phenomena can produce within the observable range. Analyzing only by the results, there is no doubt that this is a super huge ritual structure-because all the observable effects and the meaning conceivable from the effects, when combined, basically fill the place of a sacrificial ritual. Basic and extended properties necessary.

The entire battlefield is part of the sacrificial ritual. The various struggle behaviors, rescue behaviors, seemingly crazy behaviors, etc., all behaviors and the meaning of behaviors, and even the macroscopic distinction of camps , The meaning represented by each camp, and the meaning contained in each individual. All the parts that can be observed and analyzed can rise to a metaphysical level, and then coexist in a contradictory and unified way, and are connected in a philosophical sense.

I have guessed from the beginning that this war is inevitable, and the Doomsday Shinrikyo will inevitably use this war. What we observe, understand, and feel now all prove this conjecture.

We defeated and sealed the incredible monster, leaving Gao Chuan with bruises, but after that, there was no enemy of the same degree on this battlefield. However, if this incredible monster itself is regarded as a "deviation", then Yitai Gaochuan has to wonder whether he has really solved the "deviation"~IndoMTL.com~ in this huge, full of gunpowder, death, and mystery. In the vortex, in other places that cannot be observed, something is likely to be happening, and has the behavior of defeating this incredible monster become part of the "deviation"?

He is very clear: Deviation will have a chain reaction, and any seemingly correct action may become a link in deepening the deviation.

The depth and intensity of the Torchlight’s deviation ceremony can only be known from the subsequent chain reaction and the pressure brought by it if there is no place to participate in the deviation ceremony for the first time.

However, the current situation...Although it is hard to imagine, the boy Gao Chuan carrying "Jiang" seems to have failed to prevent the completion of the deviant ritual.

"...Young Gao Chuan?" When the image of the protagonist Gao Chuan flashed through his mind, there was a panic of goose bumps in his heart.

　　

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