Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 2202: The Silent Magical Girl

In the days when Xiaomei struggled to survive on the battlefield, she had become a qualified mystery expert, and like every qualified mystery expert, she trusted her intuition more than evidence.

Although she only calculates from the time in her memory, and probably hasn't even passed half a year, but now she has rarely recalled the days when she was a female high school student.

She witnessed what happened on the earth with her own eyes, and from a fairly close distance, she realized what mankind is becoming. Before being involved in the night of Valpus in Las Vegas, those peaceful and everyday times now seem to be more dreamy than any dream-she sometimes doubts the past in a certain state of confusion Are those normal times really just a dream?

Everything that was good has disappeared. The things that once felt troubled, troublesome, painful and boring, look like dreams now. Compared with the pain and despair that I have experienced now, what can be the setbacks I have suffered in daily life in the past?

She wanted to go back to the past in her dreams countless times, but it would only be more painful when she woke up. By now, she can't even shed tears.

Compared to people who are still alive, maybe people who are dead can find peace? This is what she thinks from time to time when she is constantly struggling to change something after witnessing the death of people she knows or strangers.

Now, as a soldier, as a survivor, she is standing on this battlefield-this situation no longer allows her to think too much about "if" things. She is not very sure what impact the actions of herself and others can have on the situation, but she knows that what she is doing is the only thing she can do.

Why are you different from others? Is this just my own illusion, or does I really have some kind of mission? Or maybe Madoka who stayed in the London repeater and didn't know how he's doing now is what Madoka expects of her?

I must do something.

Because I seem to be a little special, it is necessary for me to use this speciality to do something. For some people in modern times, this is not the correct logical relationship, but for Xiao As far as the United States is concerned, on this battlefield, there will be nothing special that is different from others, and it will appear for no reason.

It's like in a script, all characters who show particularity can't be just passers-by.

The magical girl Xiaomei has linked the disappearance of the senior sister to the influence of the execution engineering components. When the two things are connected in a line in her brain, she can't ignore it anyway. The degree of her concern, in her own view, is more than the combat plans against the Nazis.

She must find out the man behind the scenes, because this is likely to be the key to saving something. As for what to save and what can be saved, even she herself doesn't know. Maybe it's just a senpai? Maybe it's this cosmic joint experimental fleet? Maybe the scope is larger, but too large a scope is also unimaginable, and it is always impossible to "save the world".

It's just that when she tried to confirm where the enemy is and who the enemy is, more and more companions have either actively or forced to stop activities and stop thinking. Of course they are not dead yet, and they will still fight when necessary, just like the things they did in the past. From this perspective, this "enemy" hidden in the joint experiment fleet of the universe may not be an outright enemy either.

It's just that, what position does this "enemy" who has plunged the space joint experiment fleet into the current situation? What is the plan for all this? The other party obviously didn't intend to let others know too much, and this kind of secrecy was what made Xiaomei most disturbed.

To the mystery experts who have survived today, even if everyone has their own ideas, the actions taken in collective actions are by no means purely following their own ideas. The practice of collecting people’s ideas and wisdom to check for missing vacancies has always been strictly followed. It cannot be said that the results are better than other methods, but from the facts, there is nothing bad about this approach.

Mystery experts, mystery organizations, all people and groups with the word "mystery", believe in and implement secretism, it is not a special case. However, even if people in the past took it for granted, now things have changed and Xiaomei doesn't think it is still right to do so.

Nowadays, there is such a guy who may be an enemy or not, who is still pursuing this kind of secrecy, and this has caused a serious impact on the interior of the Universe Joint Experimental Fleet. Far from it, nowadays, there are fewer and fewer people who can think normally and provide suggestions. Once the situation develops, eventually, the time when everyone must implement someone's ideas will inevitably come. And what determines the fate of everyone is no longer the people's own thoughts, but the last remaining thoughts.

Probably it will be the thoughts of this man behind the scenes.

Xiaomei is unwilling to put her future in the hands of this secretist behind the scenes. Even if there is nothing but pain and torture in front of me, I am like a boat in the wave, and can only drift with the flow. But she still wants to decide for herself how she should act to a certain extent. I also hope that other people can speak out their ideas and implement their own decisions.

She has various reasons to be dissatisfied with the actions of the black hand behind the scenes.

It's just that, before she finds this guy, she can't act too special to avoid being exposed to the other person's field of vision.

Even after becoming a mystery expert, Xiaomei never thought that one day she would need to do something like a spy. Moreover, she has never had experience in doing such things. Those who are accustomed to secretism should easily adapt to avoiding and hiding. However, as a new generation of mystery expert, she grew up in a semi-military organization "Magic Girl Crusade" that believes in collectivism. He is not a secretist, but also consciously opposes secretism.

So, when she had to act in the past and focus on disguising herself and sifting out the enemy in secret, she didn't have much thoughts.

Before and after becoming a magical girl, Xiaomei worked with the maverick mystery expert Mr. Gao Chuan. Because it was a special encounter and a special experience, that period of memory was very deep, including her and Xiao After joining the Magical Girl Crusade, the three of Yuan and Senpai also paid close attention to Gao Chuan's activity. For the three of them, Gao Chuan himself is the textbook of a living mystery expert. When the three of them encountered difficulties, they would often think: if Mr. Gao Chuan encountered such a thing, what would he do.

In Xiaomei’s impression, the mysticist Gao Chuan is not a secretist himself. Although he is not a secretist, he is full of secrets. Although in memory, Gao Chuan has experienced frontal battles, but what impressed her most was the silence of the other party.

Gao Chuan's silence does not seem to be hiding something, but rather like carrying something too heavy to speak to others. Xiaomei feels that her own personality may not be so introverted. It is just that he has to face things that make him have to do it-just like the current self, of course, she is not a person who likes to remain silent, but in this At that time, keeping silent may be the best course of action.

You don’t need to express yourself, you don’t need to deliberately hide yourself, watch more than talk, and stay silent, just like you are just an inconspicuous screw in this declining group of mysterious experts.

Xiaomei is neither a person who dislikes talking, nor is she a person who likes to talk. All of her personality expressions will not be prominent among all high school girls, and she considers her mediocre personality. When she deliberately speaks, she feels uncomfortable. However, compared with the feeling of deliberately not speaking, this uncomfortable feeling makes her feel that it is better to be able to speak.

Xiaomei doesn’t know how other people feel when they deliberately remain silent. For her, this silence is like putting all the bad things in the bottom of her heart, and everything that makes her feel distressed can’t freed. My emotions and feelings become extremely sensitive when they are silent. More than ever before, I can clearly feel the pain, madness and despair permeating everything in front of my eyes, and all these are like being unable to vent, accumulating more and more. The flood brought her a kind of fear that sooner or later, the dam in her heart would be destroyed.

The more silent, the more clearly I can feel the pressure, the more clearly I can feel some terrible situation, and I am approaching step by step.

It turns out that Mr. Gao Chuan was fighting under such pressure in such a world? Xiaomei felt that she gradually understood why the other party was able to make something incredible in the eyes of other mysterious experts. At the same time, after she passed the initial suffering caused by silence, she also began to realize that silence is poisonous.

When a person begins to be silent and bears the pressure of silence, and continues to continue the silence for a long time, it becomes increasingly difficult to speak again. The things accumulated in the heart seem to deteriorate in the process of silence, and become things that even if you speak, you can't talk out. They are so hard, so deep, and so complicated, even if you deliberately let others see it. When it comes to it, other people can only see the surface and cannot understand what it has become for themselves.

The toxicity of this kind of silence will not only lead to the disorder of the language system, but also the disorder of the mental and spiritual level. When Xiaomei feels this more clearly, she cannot stop it, because, in addition to silence, She couldn't find a better way to conceal her particularity.

Before she was corroded by the poison of silence, she couldn't help speeding up the investigation. She wants to hide herself, but she must do some more powerful temptations. The two are contradictory, and she must strike a balance in this contradiction.

She has only one person to act. Although she has thought of finding one or several allies and telling her worries and speculations to the other party to obtain the cooperation of the other party, this idea seems to be still After the companion who can think normally, he has given up.

The so-called "normal thinking" is also relative. As long as the enthusiasm of these companions for "implementing engineering components" remains unchanged, they still have the idea that they must rely on it to face increasing pressure, as long as their vision of the joint experimental fleet of the universe is still in consciousness and behavior. , With "execution engineering components" as the center, many of their ideas and plans have been skewed in Xiaomei's eyes.

Their seemingly "normal thinking" is just a skin, a part of the "executive engineering component". The core of their thinking is not their own, more like the "executive engineering component" has replaced theirs brain.

No, rather, they are all becoming part of the "executive engineering component"~IndoMTL.com~The conclusions drawn by those "normal thinking" are from their selves or hidden in What about the executive engineering components behind this "self"?

Is it a collective of surviving mystery experts who are currently leading the joint experiment fleet in the universe, or is it the man behind the scenes represented by the "executive engineering component"?

However, perhaps it is because most of the mysterious experts who are still active have stopped discussing them, but have been working around "executive engineering components". Even if they don't communicate, they are as sophisticated as machines. The decisions and ideas implemented by each person are being combined in an efficient way, making the operation of the Universe Joint Experimental Fleet more and more smooth.

Xiaomei can clearly feel that the space joint experimental fleet that she is in is changing from a relatively scattered whole to a meticulously crafted individual in a more tangible sense. This shows more powerful and concentrated power than the previous state.

The "three light-years" distance between the Nazi lunar repeater and the space joint experimental fleet due to the mystery of time and space has brought sufficient time and opportunities for the transformation of the space joint experimental fleet. Just in terms of the changes within the fleet that can be observed and felt before her eyes, Xiaomei can say that she does not like it, or she does not think it is correct, but she cannot deny that such changes are not just what she thinks. The advantages of those disadvantages are also obvious.

After soberly aware of this, Xiaomei can finally silently examine the behavior of this man behind the scenes from a more objective angle.

However, this objective examination could not shake her out of the other person's thoughts. This kind of thinking has nothing to do with what the reason is, but in silence, it has become a certain deep-rooted goal.