Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 288: Incomplete combustion (1)

288 incomplete combustion (1)

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Gao Chuan learned the truth of "Doomsday Syndrome" from Dr. Ande, which is a kind of infectious malignant cell reproduction and mitochondrial mutation in the body, as well as the new personality and original personality based on these two changes. The abnormal state caused by the collision. The treatment and research conducted by Dr. Ande is based on the human body research "Human Completion Project" based on this condition. Gao Chuan and the girls are the experimental subjects of this study, and Mae is more likely to be the original carrier of the pathogen. , And Gao Chuan is the closest experimenter to success. In order to take the surviving girls out of the hospital and the experiment, Gao Chuan, who saw the opportunity in a series of recent accidents, decided to continue dealing with the hospital in order to launch a further escape plan.

(It’s been a long time, so let’s first mention the previous situation. This content is not included in the billing content. Although the update is intermittent due to various reasons, please forgive me for the pressure of life, but no matter how much the manuscript fee is, this book will definitely Complete, even if some readers think that this kind of intermittent update is better than no change, but this is already determined to complete it when I started writing this article, please be considerate to readers who are bored.)

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I have someone I want to save.

"So, I have someone I want to save." I looked at the figure in the mirror and said, the boy in the mirror also opened and closed his mouth, as if talking to me. I know this is an illusion, isn't it me in the mirror? However, sometimes when I stare at the naive and pale face in the mirror—the face that is not completely similar to my inherent perception of myself—it will produce a sense of strangeness.

This body isn't mine, no, it's not right to say that. It's just that the original owner of this body is not the current me.

The soul is different, together with personality, even memory...

And among the people I want to save, the original owner of this face is one of them.

When did you develop the habit of saying this to the mirror every day? I can't remember. To be precise, I didn't remember it subconsciously. This is probably due to some kind of psychological disorder, and I even suspect that my "doomsday syndrome" disease has worsened.

Three days have passed since Dr. Ender learned about "Doomsday Syndrome" and "Human Replenishment Project". These three days and the past period of time are two different lives for me. Especially after knowing that the world I once thought of as "real" was nothing more than a healing method for manipulating memories and dreams, the shock I suffered was completely beyond words.

And these three days of thinking made me even more suspicious, feeling that I was really based on this body's mitochondria and other things, artificially produced. Although it didn't show up in front of Dr. Ender at the time, as time went by, it seemed that some foreign matter was fermenting in emotions and thinking, just like the original color was mixed with extra color, and it became confused.

When did I feel that the original owner of this body-another "Gao Chuan"-would come and take away this body?

Only by constantly saying "I have someone to save" to the strange self in the mirror, can the restlessness in my heart calm down.

I feel that I can fulfill this promise, "but I need to be patient." I continued to say to myself in the mirror, as if I was comforting a wronged soul.

Really ridiculous behavior.

I turned on the faucet and slapped myself on the face with cold tap water to cool the scorching flame that seemed to exist in my body.

After the doomsday syndrome broke out in the original dormitory inexplicably, I can clearly feel that my condition is getting worse.

When I think that I might also turn into that kind of irrational beast, and then be killed by someone, it is impossible to not feel the slightest panic in my heart. Although, in the words of Dr. Ruan Li and Dr. Ande, I am already a special case among patients with doomsday syndrome, and it is possible that antibodies have been produced in the body-they said, this may have eaten my former girlfriend "Zhen Jiang" For the sake of.

I want to believe what they say, but a voice is always preventing me from believing that kind of rhetoric.

Among the patients with doomsday syndrome I have seen, either died or went crazy. None of them are normal. This is the final outcome of the patients. Maybe I just delayed it longer than they did.

The three girls who still live next door to me: Sakuya, Hakkei, and Marceau. They are also patients. Didn't they also participate in Dr. Ande's treatment? Their appearance now suffices to explain a lot of problems. There are also colors and Dorothy, aren't they missing now?

The girls who are truly "Gaochuan" companions are either dead, crazy or missing. Even "Gao Chuan" himself can't say that he is still alive.

"Too cruel."

On December 26, 1998, it was four days before 1999—the end of the world in my false memory—and employees who were moving debris and cleaning the courtyard could be seen from the window. Yesterday was Christmas, but accidents occurred frequently in the hospital, which caused the festive atmosphere to be in a depression of wind and rain, and both patients and employees felt uninterested.

I have to say that the life in false memory has a great influence on me, and that world is like real to me. No, that’s not right. In the three days of contact with Dr. Ender, according to his statement, I was born through the role of that world. In this way, the world is like a mother to me-when I think this way, my heart will settle down and I feel I have a place to stand.

Even Dr. Ruan Li and Dr. Ande have persuaded me to distinguish between what is real and what is false, and to live in reality, so that I don’t care too much about the world. Dr. Ruan Li even told me that this false and real confusion is the reason why she disagrees with Dr. Ander’s treatment method—I don’t know whether she knows that the treatment is nothing more than the "Human Completion Plan". Complete the experiment with his personality.

However, for me, it is completely impossible to give up that world. Even if it is just a fake fake in the eyes of others, to me, it is my mother, my past, and my future. If you deny its authenticity, you are denying your authenticity.

Falseness can never give birth to truth.

I am not false, so the world that gave birth to me cannot be false.

I must prove this.

Therefore, the closer I get to 1999, the stronger my premonition about the end of the world becomes stronger. I even can’t wait to see the end of the world before my eyes.

I know, I know, this world is different from that world, but I can’t get rid of such thoughts anyway.

After washing, I took psychotropic drugs again, and now I take these drugs more and more frequently~IndoMTL.com~ I know this is not good, but I have to do it, just like an addict. I think the treatment received by Dr. Nguyen Li is the culprit for the current situation, and Dr. Nguyen Li thinks so too, but she did not hesitate at all. She said to me: "If it weren't for these drugs, your condition would be worse. As in the past, your body will soon become resistant to these drugs, and then you will quit... Maybe you will commit suicide again before the new drug is developed. Of course, I don’t want you to lose your memory again. Once."

"Have I lost my memory many times?" I asked.

She turned the subject off, and that attitude made me feel that the answer was clear.

When you think of waking up in this world, if every memory loss means that a new "Gaochuan" is born, repeating the life of the previous "Gaochuan" is really a sad and painful answer.

Of course I don’t want to become a part of it.

"I will remember you, Dr. Ruan Li." I said to the female doctor.

"I hope so."

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