Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 368: Memory Corridor (3)

I took a few deep breaths, trying to stop myself from thinking about the messy things, and then I patted my cheek hard. {http:

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Friend upload update} Dr. Ruan Li looked at me for a long while with an inquiring look.

"How many do you remember?" she asked.

"What?" I don't quite understand.

"Your last illness was very sudden, and we had to adopt a temporary plan. In all respects, our preparations were insufficient, just to save your life. In fact, we are not sure whether we succeeded or not. Don’t expect too much..." Dr. Ruan Li said, "I thought you would forget more things, but now it doesn’t seem to be the case."

"I don't think there are many things that I have forgotten. For example..." I looked around and asked, "What is this place?" because her previous question revealed some alarming information , I didn't dare to ask her directly about the relationship color and Dorothy, and other girls. I don't think I can hide the memory recovery problem because I don't know how I performed before the last treatment, but I can say as little as possible.

Try to keep silent and listen to what they say, I can only plan so temporarily.

"Secret." Dr. Ruan Li said unceremoniously.

"Even the patient is not allowed to know?" I have some differences, "Is this a hospital?"

"Of course, in the hospital, it is just a facility with a strict confidentiality system." Dr. Ruan Li said, "In order to develop a more reasonable treatment method, you participated in the experiment as a special case, so you will be here. . Of course, I hope you have not forgotten that you have obtained your permission in advance to participate in this research."

I disagree with this. Maybe it was indeed my willingness, but it may not be, but it doesn’t make sense to go deeper into this matter. After all, I have been involved and will continue. I may be able to fulfill Mae's last wish here and make a serum that can save them, but for now. They have studied me for a long time, and it seems that they have not found a way to make a special serum-they have not even studied the type of virus in my body. Although generally speaking, there are relatively simple methods for making serum. But I do not have professional medical knowledge, nor do I have relevant experimental equipment, so before thinking that "they don't want to make serum at all". I have to think about it, does my body already have the factors to make serum?

Anyway, there must be related reports in the hospital's research, and I want to get it.

"What disease am I suffering from?" I asked.

"Doomsday syndrome." Dr. Ruan Li said: "A syndrome caused by a special virus that has never been seen before."

"Well, I won't ask what this special virus is. I'm not a researcher. However, I heard that if you don't die after being infected with the virus, your body will gradually develop resistance and be able to produce serum." I Said: "I seem to have been suffering from this disease for a long time. Since you can keep me alive many times, why haven't you made a serum?"

"To be precise, your body does not develop resistance." Dr. Ruan Li said: "The reason why you are or is not because your body is able to fight the virus. It is the activity of the virus in your body. It’s not as severe as other people’s bodies. Except for you. No one infected with this virus can survive that long. From the data point of view..." She squinted, "It’s like the virus in your body does not intend Kill you then soon."

"So, you have been looking for the reason for this special reaction of the virus?"

"Yes, you are a special case. Something must have happened to you." Dr. Ruan Li said calmly. "Unfortunately, we still haven't found... The good news is. Your last treatment that was not successful gave us hope and allowed us to verify a conjecture."

"Can you tell me?" I stared into her eyes.

Doctor Ruan Li didn't seem to intend to conceal this in the first place.

"We suspect that the virus you have infected is fundamentally different from other patients.{http:

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Upload updates from friends}” Dr. Ruan Li explained. “One type of virus is likely to produce multiple variants. This is a very common thing, just like influenza has many branches due to different virus strains. "

"Do you suspect that the virus I infected is a mutant virus?"

"Yes, it’s not that you don’t have the conventional virus that other doomsday patients infect in your body. However, you have a lower activity, but it is less active against other branch viruses and cells caused by infection. And the activities at the genetic level have a stronger influence, rather it is a mutant virus with control power.” Dr. Ruan Li said: “This virus is temporarily called a heterosexual virus factor by us.”

"The opposite sex?" I am puzzled by this prefix.

"Yes." Dr. Ruan Li had a joking smile on his face, "It was negative...you can think of it as a girl." After saying that, her expression became serious again and said: "We also suspect that it is actually the mother of other viruses. However, we cannot be sure for the time being because we did not find it, but just proved its existence. Listen to me, Gao Chuan, we must find this heterosexual virus factor, which is effective for doomsday syndrome. It is of great significance to patients, and even ordinary people. It can control other branch viruses and symptomatic reactions, and its activity is not strong. It is the virus that the human body is most likely to adapt to, and it is also the best serum material...infected, um, for the time being Known as the "doomsday virus", after being infected with the doomsday virus, the human body will produce many wonderful changes. Although it will eventually cause the gene to collapse, there are indeed many incredible phenomena before the collapse. If we can grasp the virus of the opposite sex, we can Control these changes so that everyone has the opportunity to become a superman."

Although she said so, I don't care if anyone can become a superman. I guess that this heterosexual viral factor comes from the blood of Zhenjiang that he drank. Did Zhenjiang know that the viral factor in his blood would undergo such changes? Now, about her thoughts, it is impossible to study.

"Is it okay to tell me these things?" I asked tentatively.

"It's not a very important thing, and it's not said in the confidentiality mechanism that I can't tell you, but it's better not to publicize it everywhere." Dr. Ruan Li said very bluntly.

"I will." I can guess the actions of these hospital personnel with all kinds of malice, but I still thank Dr. Ruan Li. She revealed a lot of important information for me. Although she said it was okay, Knowing to other people might still have some negative effects on colleagues' impression of her. I don't know what purpose she is telling me these things, maybe she is a kind and kind person. Perhaps it is simply to make me "amnesia" more active in cooperating with the hospital's experiments in the future, but I can't be so sure.

"Can I stand up now?" Dr. Ruan Li said, her eyes falling on my right foot.

I just found out. When talking to her, his right foot no longer trembles anxiously.

"Come on, I'll take you to see Dr. Ande." Dr. Ruan Li said, turning and leaving the room. I quickly followed.

The corridor we were passing through was very narrow and there were no straights. They were all curved, as if they were around the edge of a circular center, and there were no windows. There are thick metal walls on the left and right, and it is impossible to see the scenery outside. The walls are smooth and monotonous, all silver-white, and still dazzling under the soft yellow light. I learned from Dr. Ruan Li that the people in this high-secret facility are not only the patients, but also the staff. Seldom get the opportunity to go out.

"This building is like a large observatory located in Antarctica. It is self-sufficient. We have a greenhouse and a clean water and air circulation system. Although we cannot receive most of the signals from the outside, computers and There are a lot of resources stored in the server, and you can also watch the channels in the hospital. The hospital has bought the broadcasting rights of a large number of programs from the outside world, and we even have a ** news team."

"But it's impossible to go outside at all. Isn't it? Even I know that staying in such a closed and monotonous space for a long time will have a bad effect on people's spirit. Work efficiency will be greatly improved. Lower." I was not confused by her words, and asked: "Doctor Ruan Li. How often do you go out?"

Doctor Ruan Li glanced at me and smiled seemingly helpless to self-deprecating.

"One month." She replied, "Do you want to go out?"

"I hate this place." I bluntly said.

"I can give you a certificate if you behave well." Dr. Ruan Li said, "However, another certificate needs to be issued by Dr. Ander. If you want to go out, don't deliberately trouble him. ."

"Why should I trouble him?" I said in surprise.

"Because he might tell you something you don't want to hear." Dr. Ruan Li said mysteriously, "Maybe not. It depends on your own performance. Dr. Ender has his own set of judgment methods. , He knows when to do something to make the patient’s behavior meet his expectations."

I have a bad premonition, but this premonition has been there ever since I woke up. I probably know what it is related to, but I am also unwilling to think deeply.

I have always been very scared to know the answer, especially the answer given by the doctor here.

"What you say will make me feel that you are at odds with him." My way of speaking became a bit sharp, "You don't see him right?"

"I personally have a lot of respect for him." Dr. Ruan Li was not angry, he was still as calm as before, "However, our research philosophy is inconsistent."

"Ah, I feel it a bit." I experienced some kind of memory resonance caused by this sentence, "Although I don't remember very clearly, you don't agree that Dr. Ande is in the end. The theory of syndrome treatment?"

"Yes, I don't like his method." Dr. Ruan Li blinked at me, "However, he was the first to achieve a breakthrough in results."

The performance of Dr. Ruan Li made me feel that she seemed to be suggesting something to me, is she asking me to help fight Dr. Ander? I vaguely think that Dr. Nguyen Li wants to replace Dr. Ande and become the leader in the research work of "Doomsday Syndrome". However, this idea may be just an illusion. Although her words are somewhat imaginative, I still realize that it is precisely because of such an ambiguous attitude that I should not take the initiative to get involved.

Although Dr. Ruan Li is my attending doctor, and in a personal sense, the relationship between me and her has always been very good. However, this kind of intimate bond between the doctor and the patient still cannot make me deny that she is a woman full of mystery.

I even subconsciously suspected that the sense of competition she showed in front of me with Dr. Ender actually had no purpose.

Dr. Ande is my psychologist, but it may be affected by the memory that has not been fully recalled. I think that Dr. Ruan Li is also a psychologist who is not inferior to Dr. Ande. I studied psychology systematically in the "Doomsday Fantasy", and it is because of this that I feel that the accomplishments of these two people are beyond the reach of myself.

They are like professors who teach me psychology in the doomsday fantasy, every action. Every look and every word can exert the influence they want on others. Ordinary people can't detect it. Instead, half a bucket of water like me is more sensitive. What is worthy of caution is that the professor once warned me with practical actions that, for a master of psychology, it would affect a fledgling psychology student. It is not harder, or even easier, than affecting ordinary people-because beginners are always too neurotic, and quite clingy, always self-righteous, regardless of whether they are adequately prepared. Always make assumptions about the thinking mode of others in the first place.

Assuming that other people’s thinking patterns are not always the best way to study human psychology, it does not work every time, and it is very dangerous. A well-prepared and careful thinking person can change the external appearance of the thinking mode in many ways-and before there is enough time to collect enough information, a person who thinks he is proficient in psychology will always be the first Acquire this external appearance for a time as a basis for establishing a thinking model.

Because they are familiar with some psychological knowledge. So it succeeded most of the time. This actually deepens this dangerous habit, which is always the hardest to change, and it is the first thing that comes up when the most urgent time comes.

Psychology researchers with this dangerous habit will always fall into the sense of urgency created deliberately by others.

I recalled what the professor said: "When you build a person’s thinking model, you have to ask yourself, do you really know him? Build a model, and then analyze the other person based on the model. This is the worst mistake. The method. Before we analyze the target to a certain level, we simply cannot make the correct model."

So. I asked myself, do I really understand Dr. Ande and Dr. Ruan Li?

The answer is of course "no". Therefore, I tried my best to suppress the urge to use intuition and memory to build a thinking model for these two people in order to analyze them. In the doomsday illusion, I also like this way of directly building models. Although I know it is full of loopholes and dangers, it is very useful in most situations. Therefore, in the words of the professor, I have developed a problem. Good habit. However, I dare not let this habit be here.

I understand that in the face of these psychologists, I don’t have a second chance.

You must be cautious, and then cautious.

The outlines of Dr. Ruan Li and Dr. Ande began to blur in my heart. I decided to discard my past memories, intuitions, and prejudices, and interpret their appearance more objectively.

"You seem to be very cautious." Dr. Ruan Li suddenly said, "Are you nervous now?"

"No."

"Let me guess..." Dr. Ruan Li tilted his head, his gaze fell on my face, "Are you thinking-who is this woman? Does she have other plans?"

"No, I didn't think about it." I denied it.

"You are still too tender." Dr. Ruan Li shook his head and said, "You are suspicious of me. I don't mind, but I advise you not to do such unnecessary things. If you are suspicious all day, here It’s a good thing in the facility. And, Dr. Ender likes your crazy thinking the most."

I don’t want to tell her more. I have a feeling that no matter what I say, even if it’s a lie, the more I say it, the more I will expose my true attitude. The reason they talk to me is because I am in a state of "amnesia" and think that I need to update the previous thinking model about me. They want to find out the truth from me-if I know the truth, they will not give up this possibility, even if it is a very small possibility.

In the past, I didn’t seem to provide them with too much information, but now I feel that my recovered and unrecovered memories hold vital truths, such as Zhenjiang's things, such as genie and peach. The things that Le Si is planning...These things will be the key to determining our future situation. We should not let anyone know ~ IndoMTL.com~ I even think that the reason why I have lost too much memory is precisely because "there is this need". The strange behavior of Shise and Dorothy is just gradually completing the plan made by me and them in the past-a huge and precise plan that can only be carried out in the dark, and my state, whether it is losing memory or gaining memory , And even the situation of becoming a special experimental subject, are all necessary parts of this plan.

——The plan is proceeding smoothly.

This kind of thinking has made me feel more at ease and calm.

Speak less and think more, try to remain silent, I warn myself again.

Along the way, the atmosphere became silent and depressed. Although I am not disgusted with Dr. Ruan Li, my sense of vigilance is very obvious. I think Dr. Ruan Li must also be able to see it. But she did not appear embarrassed. She put her hands in her pockets and was as calm as ever. The pace and breathing rhythm seemed to have been precisely measured. Finally, she stopped in front of a corner and said to me:

"Here, Dr. Ande doesn't like seeing me either. You can go in by yourself." Dr. Ruan Li glanced at the corner, and turned away without waiting for my answer. (To be continued...)