Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 387: Gaochuan Gaochuan

Is the so-called "understanding" just an illusion? Is the knowledge and understanding of others just my own illusion? Is the study of the nature of the world just a joke? I don’t think so. How can I trust someone who doesn’t understand me? How can we make progress if we do not take a scientific approach to dissecting the world? For me, "understanding" may always be one-sided before a certain stage arrives, but it must not be an illusion. Upload update

I try to understand the reasons why things happen and change, and try to find explanations for these reasons. Perhaps these explanations will be so naive and ridiculous, but without such a simple naive starting point, it is more in-depth Understanding is even more impossible to talk about.

I hope I can understand some of the things around me and the impact between these things. This is not because I lack trust, but because I want to do better and want to make me care. Everything becomes better.

So, even if it is only one-sided, naive, and seemingly joke-like "understanding", I also hope to achieve it, and go deep into this, and then really dig out the truth about things, so that I can use a better way To protect the ones you love...

——The question is, do you think a better way is needed for them?

"They are not gods, and they will also have mistakes and omissions. If possible, I hope to make up for the evil consequences of all these mistakes and omissions."

——Sure enough, "Gaochuan" can never be persuaded. "Gaochuan" always has its own opinions and guidelines. Then... the other me, just do what you think, because you may be incorrect, but not necessarily wrong... If you die, your... thinking and experience will definitely... become new The nutrients of "Gaochuan"......

"Yes, just like the me in the past, I created the present me, and the present me. I will definitely create the future me." I replied, "I can’t tell that I’m right, but just like you Having said that, I don’t feel that what I think and do is wrong. And this stubbornness and thinking are the foundation that can really allow'Gaochuan' to be passed on from generation to generation."

I looked at the endless dark void, and felt more and more that a premonition of "failure" and "death" was eroding myself. Of course I understand that I have already been in an extremely cruel, extremely fragile, and extremely contradictory environment. Everything I want to do and prove may be too late.

Everything that has happened is like an invisible undercurrent, which makes people unable to truly understand. Also unprepared speed surging forward.

If possible, I hope this will stop and let me see clearly. However, its progress is not driven by me, or my participation is just a trivial factor.

Because, I am at this point in time. It is a truly complete Gao Chuan, but in his lifetime belonging to Gao Chuan, it is only a fragment of memory loss.

I understand that I am not complete. And the reason why I want to become a super Gaochuan, become the ultimate hero. Isn't it because you are not a hero? My current self is full of defects, not just memories. There is something deeper, maybe faith? Maybe it's the spirit? Maybe it's power? It is also possible that what I insist on is not wrong now, and I am not so bad now, and I am not lacking in the qualifications to go to the end, but maybe it should be described as out of date?

There are no answers to these questions, because, compared to the difficulty of understanding others, I think understanding myself is the most difficult thing.

So I don't understand, what exactly went wrong that gave me a premonition of "failure" and "death". I worked so hard to act in the direction I expected, and I wanted to be the last Gaochuan, but there was always a feeling of powerlessness.

Even a thought "even if the cause can be found, it can no longer be corrected".

Analyzing myself according to psychology can get a simple answer: this is because I have deeply understood in the dialogue with another "Gaochuan"-the reason for all this is probably because of the previous ones. The fusion of deep memory information has not only transformed Er Zhoume Gaochuan into the current Gaochuan, but also shaped the current Gaochuan.

No matter how much information is given, it is very likely that it will not be able to make any further changes in the nature of who I am now. Upload update

Even if you understand your own shortcomings, it is difficult for a formed personality consciousness to change and make up. What's more, time is so tight, maybe there is no time for a formed personality consciousness to make further corrections.

But, as another "Gao Chuan" said, this answer is too crude, too crude to the point that he can't even accept it.

What a joke! Obviously it should have become stronger in the process of receiving information from deep memory. Obviously it should have been able to strengthen confidence after inheriting the memories of the past. However, the integration so far has made oneself vulnerable. If it is said that this is because the information fused is a kind of weak and extreme information from the past, which results in the present result. If all this can be reversed in the subsequent information fusion, then the temporary weakness and defects can be tolerated.

The most ridiculous thing is that when my will and strength are falling to the freezing point in my memory, even when I feel that I am inferior to the second week of Gaochuan, I actually think that I have been shaped-yes, consciousness It's such a strange thing, but when you think you have reached the limit, you have reached the limit.

So that's it...

Is this thought the source of the premonition of "failure" and "death"?

No matter how you tell yourself how to become aware, how to take on your own responsibilities, and how to make any vows, you can't change these things. These things are not derived from "confidence", but from the nature of "unconfidence."

This "not self-confidence" is a side effect that is inevitably caused by the initial fusion of deep memory information hidden deep in the body.

Perhaps, the changes I have made now. Something I realized. It did not exceed the expectations of the "Super Gaochuan Project."

Perhaps, it is precisely because I will make such a change, and will think like this at a certain moment, I will be called "initialized Gaochuan".

My birth is not without meaning, but this meaning is not the final result, but only means the beginning of "Super Gaochuan".

The display screen of the brain hardware once again appeared in the field of vision:

——50% progress of information loading......

——Passive loading will stop after 60%;

——Whether to enable active loading?

——Are you sure to actively load: yn, are you ready? Gaochuan

The cursor is blinking.

I did not confirm, but this time, I no longer feel guilty for not confirming, because I suddenly realized that I have the right to choose. This is why it is called "initialization of Gaochuan".

"Gao Chuan, always know yourself."

——"Gaochuan", always knows himself.

The auditory hallucination repeats.

"Gao Chuan, always must make a choice by himself. Instead of being forced to make a choice."

——Gao Chuan, always have to make a choice by himself, rather than being forced to make a choice.

"There is no understanding, no courage to try other options. It is only a confirmation made out of fear and lack of confidence. It is meaningless."

——I don’t understand, I don’t have the courage to try other options. It’s just a confirmation out of fear and lack of self-confidence. It’s meaningless.

So, if one day I die suddenly. So, I hope today’s words can be conveyed to the next Gaochuan, even then, maybe it is already "Super Gaochuan"......

The voice from another "Gaochuan", the same voice as an auditory hallucination, seemed to be the echo of my words.

"I hope..."

——I hope...

"No matter what happens,'Gaochuan' don't give up thinking."

——No matter what happens, "Gaochuan" don't give up thinking.

"Perhaps, the result of thinking is funny."

——Maybe. The result of thinking is ridiculous.

"But thinking itself is not a joke."

--But thinking is not a joke in itself.

"The process of thinking may make people vulnerable."

——The process of thinking may make people vulnerable.

"But the result of thinking. It will make people stronger."

——But the result of thinking will make people stronger.

Such sounds echoed in my ears and in my heart. At this moment, I seemed to be hammered by a scorching force. This kind of heat, this kind of forging, seems to be refining something more tough and intangible into this reflection that was fragmented because Eruka was stripped off-it must have also been refined into the body that is about to collapse, and the incomparable Among the fragile will.

I began to feel that new power was gradually growing in this body in this dark void.

It seems that what has been stripped out is being filled by new and more powerful things, and this power is derived from these new things.

I force my arms in the dark void. I imagined myself propped on a hard and cold floor, and then with the help of this support point, I made myself stand up again.

I'm just struggling, no matter how embarrassed, I have to stand up.

The auditory hallucinations still echoed in my ears, but the tone gradually became hollow and pale.

So, I knew that the other "Gaochuan" was going to disappear, maybe not really disappearing, but he had to return to the deep world of body and consciousness.

Because, it is me who is in charge of this body now, "initializing Gaochuan", not "a certain Gaochuan in the past".

——Whether it is an activity factor or a sleep factor, it is an important component of the human body. It is just that in countless years of natural selection, for the survival and needs of "people", it has to be more active, or not Don't sleep temporarily. But it is still undeniable that the relationship and images between them must be beyond imagination and close and cumbersome. Even the sleeping factors, once removed from the human body, will cause irreparable images to the human body. Then, how can all of the doomsday illusion that reflects the factor war in the body of the doomsday syndrome patient be explained by pure symbolism? Perhaps it "looks" as you understand it, but the nature of these reflections is even more complicated.

——"Jiang" is not mitochondria either. It is superior to human genes. Whether it is the "virus" of the activity factor or the sleeping factor, it is the inducement and dominant factor that causes the mitochondria and other sleeping factors to mutate and wake them up again.

——Science and Dorothy are patients with doomsday syndrome. Only with the power of sleeping factors such as viruses and mitochondria can they become "super chromatic colors" and "Super Dorothy". How do they represent normal human activities? What about the will of the factor?

——But what's the point of using these? After all, all this is too complicated to understand.

"Perhaps. This is so complicated that I will never understand it, but the act of trying to understand itself is not meaningless. It is not because you know this that you let me follow my own Do you want to do it? And, you also expected it. Because, as long as you think and try to understand, no matter what the result is, it is better than not thinking and not trying to understand." I said loudly, "I have I understand why I am still Gao Chuan and why you chose to pass on the power. It is not a replacement for Gao Chuan who is the second week's goal and me now. Because the four attributes of trust, thinking ability, understanding and action constitute the personality of Gao Chuan. The essence of ours, our difference, is only the difference in the weight of these four attributes." I answered the auditory hallucination, "You have failed, so it can also be regarded as "If you are resurrected like this, it doesn't make any sense." Because you are already in your shape, "A guy who stands still is not enough to become the ultimate hero." That's what you think. then. You, who consider yourself a loser, must want to see it. It is different from you, but not completely different, although not excellent. But what exactly can a new guy with no potential do? "

"Whether it was Gaochuan in the past or Gaochuan in the present. Taken separately is an unqualified defective product, but the degree and composition of the defect are different. However, different Gaochuan must be able to complement each other! If everyone has Combine them in an orderly manner, and it must be more perfect than a single one!"

……

There seemed to be pleasant laughter, but I couldn't hear it anymore.

Although I was aware of my own limits, so I had a certain limit. But, at least at this moment, I haven't reached that limit. I can still think and fight, then, at the last moment, before the ultimate limit comes, let me think, let me fight!

Let me, now Gaochuan, do what I want!

Not good enough, there is a limit, I don't want to become like this myself.

But life is like this, it's unfair and unreasonable to everyone.

Even so, I will keep going until it is light.

I bow my head in silence but firm, and will use a different method than you to step on the thorny thorns in front of me.

"I am Gao Chuan! I am Gao Chuan! I am Gao Chuan!" I roared loudly, finally leaning on my knees and standing in this dark void with only a pair of legs.

I just stood trembling like this, standing silent after roaring, maybe small, maybe smiling, but as long as I can stand up, I will never let myself succumb to my fragility.

I only have one roar. I want all "Gaochuan", whether it is the past or the future "Gaochuan", to know that no matter how rough my life is, I must live proudly.

The dark void world, which had been slowed down by the appearance of another "Gaochuan", became vivid and sharp again.

As soon as everything returned to normal, the huge magic circle formed by the eyeballs was fully formed.

And this is just a bigger "eye" shaped magic circle. The dark void began to vibrate, as if a transparent land was breaking.

Just when the super cannon of Super Dorothy completely left the display, the dark void where the "eye" magic circle was located was completely "stripped". A huge sphere-shaped dark void, which is distinguished from the surrounding dark void because of the distortion of the edge. The spherical dark void and the "eye" magic circle form a black eyeball with crimson pupils as magnificent as a super cannon.

Compared with the mountain-like volume of the cannon and the eyeball, the distance between them is like a narrow canyon.

Compared to these two behemoths, I am so small, but I still stand and don't escape. I let go of my hands on my knees, straightened my back, and watched what was about to happen.

"Am I just standing here?"

"Who is afraid of death?"

"Who is afraid of failure?"

"This fragile will must be reformed."

I felt a familiar and powerful will emerging from my body, and a scorching heat was igniting my body and soul.

"I have come a long way."

"Perhaps, this is just a small step compared to the past."

"Maybe, I am still weak and immature."

"However, I will continue to move forward, and the present me will become the past, and then become the foundation of the future me."

"I don't know where I can go, but at least, in this place, at this moment..."

"Let us join together temporarily."

"Who am I?"

——I’m Gao Chuan! The auditory hallucination said so.

"I am Gao Chuan!" I said in a consonant voice.

"Then, please give me strength, the past me, and those I know and those I don't know."

"Let us speak out and declare our existence."

"Don’t you want to see, Super Gaochuan, no, just close to the power of Super Gaochuan, does it meet our expectations?"

"Don’t you want them to know that what they did was not entirely delusional?"

In the self-torture, in the dialogue with the "past", the body that has been refined into a certain new material is bursting out new power. Although this body still hasn't completely made up for the deficiencies after being stripped, although this force is new and weak, it is still a temporary new, tough and powerful force.

Naturally ~IndoMTL.com~ I understand, this is the power of the will, the power of the soul, the Gaochuan of the past, the Gaochuan I know and don’t know, and the present me, facing everything in front of me Time, perhaps for the first time in my life, and the last time, with the help of very special encounters, environment and resonance, I have obtained the power closest to "Super Gaochuan".

Because of the incompleteness, I have gained something new; because of thinking, I can be recognized; because it is a world that can use the power of will to interfere, it is possible to show this power of will.

——60% of information loading progress...

——reaching the tipping point

——Information overflow, error! mistake! mistake!

——Temporary synchronization rate 400%

——Gaochuan annihilation artillery preparation!

——The countdown begins...

Beside me, the dark void began to twist, and a rectangular fuzzy outline with no specific shape was taking shape. To be continued. .