Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 61: Remembrance

Shirai opened his arms, breathing deeply as if he was trying to inhale all the scent of Morino remaining here.

　　"How long have you been there? Shirai-senpai."

　　 "I want to think..." Shirai turned around, put his hands in the pockets of the school uniform, "It's been about two hours. I came here after school, bought bread on the road, and sat in that tree Next, Komori seemed to jump out suddenly. I was there and waited and waited... but Komori never came out. It was you who came. What are you doing here? Gao Chuan."

　　 "I want to find out the cause of Morino's death." I said.

　　 "Why?" He was a little surprised, "From Komori's usual words, you didn't get along well with her, right? Ah, yes, you saved Komori last time, thank you very much."

　　 last time?

　　 I remember, he was referring to the incident where Morino and Sakiya were surrounded by members of the Whisperer. Although I don't know how Morino said to him, things are a little different from what he thought. I don't dare to say thank you.

　　 "Even if I'm not there, Morino will be fine." I said.

　　 He nodded thoughtfully.

　　 "Anyway, I still have to thank you, thank you for being considerate of her willfulness." Shirai smiled bitterly, "In fact, Komori would like to say thank you personally."

　　 I have many things I want to ask Shirai, but there are so many things, I don’t know how to say it for a while.

　　"Do you know about Morino?"

　　 "I know everything about her." Shirai answered without thinking.

　　 "I'm curious, there are always strange rumors in school, are they true?"

　　 "Rumors? Ah, you mean Komori drug trafficking, sex, blackmail?" Shirai said casually, as if he didn't care about these unpleasant gossips.

　　 "Do you think it’s weird that I am not angry?" He said, "However, things are not like that. I want to be angry too, but since the hardest person didn’t say anything, I’m not angry. Position."

　　 "I want to know if it is true or not."

　　"What do you think? If it is you, you should have your own judgment?"

　　 "I don't think Morino is like that."

　　 "That's right." Shirai smiled, "Although the rumors are very close, they are not the same, just like the unfinished truth is not equal to the truth, the truth of the fragment does not equal the truth."

　　 Next, Shirai explained to me why Morino joined the mysterious religious organization.

　　 About a year ago, Morino's parents were tricked into joining the rat club. When they were on the verge of bankruptcy, they were the sect's helping hand, so her parents became fanatical believers.

　　"Because I’m a fanatic, I can’t stand my daughter’s non-belief. It feels like a stranger at home. This has nothing to do with blood, purely treating Morino as a spiritual alien. **** seems to have the same In one sentence: I have come to make the world full of disputes, so that parents and children will turn against each other."

　　 "No, I never heard **** say that." I don't know where he heard this.

　　 Shirai just smiled disapprovingly.

　　Due to the pressure of her family, although she was reluctant, Morino still became a member of the sect. When she wanted to quit, there was no other way.

　　 is not because she herself was threatened with life and lack of living funds. If this were the case, she would not be able to stop her determination to leave the organization. But the sect transferred her parents out of the country and used their lives as a threat to let Morino continue to work for the organization.

　　Because they are optimistic about Morino's talents.

　　"Xiaomori has the ability to make friends. As long as she wants, she can be friends with anyone, no matter whether the other person is good or not. But don’t be wrong, she didn’t mess around." Shirai smiled melancholy, "Yes. A true friend."

　　 That is really a tragedy.

　　 "Yeah, it's a tragedy. I have clearly become a real friend... But it turned out that I dragged my friends into the abyss and had to sell drugs to them. Therefore, she has been very painful. She told me more than once, Don't be friends with others anymore." Shirai said lightly.

　　 "But, isn’t Sakiya very good?"

　　"She said that she only has Sakiya as a friend. In any case, she didn't want her to follow her footsteps, so she was always annoyed."

　　From his words, I can’t tell if he knows what happened to Sakiya. Will Morino be the kind of girl who will tell her boyfriend no matter what, she regards her boyfriend as the backbone of her soul? After all, Shirai knew her past and the scene, and seemed to have never complained.

　　 "You know, Sakiya quarreled with her." I said.

　　 "Well, I probably know a little..." Shirai sighed, "It looks like I'll talk for a long time. Would you like to go to my house to have something to eat? I have something I want to show you."

　　 So Shirai and I left the park, walked on the road opposite to our home, and bought take-out beer and snacks at the barbecue stall near his home.

　　 The street is very lively, and the strong aroma of roasting and fireworks is in the air, even if you enter the community where Shirai’s family is located, you can smell it clearly.

　　 Shirai said that these vendors are usually open until four in the morning, and if the windows are not closed at night, they will be awakened by the noise in the middle of the night.

　　 I took out the cigarette and handed it to Shirai. Although I don't know if he smokes, but at this time, men usually won't refuse.

　　 Shiraito thanked him and took the cigarette. After I lighted my cigarette, I helped him to light it. The bright flames jumped on his face, and the swaying light and shadow seemed to deepen his facial features.

　　 was probably because of smoking for the first time. He took a hard sip and was immediately choked with a cough. It seemed that tears were coming out of his eyes.

　　 "It's bitter and choking." He said ~IndoMTL.com~ I really don't understand why anyone likes it, Gao Chuan..."

　　 "Just call me Gaochuan."

　　 "Ah, you can also call me Shirai." Shirai fanned the smoke that precipitated in front of his eyes. "I didn't expect you to smoke too. Look at your appearance. Have you been smoking for a long time?"

　　 I nodded without speaking.

　　 "Do you like smoking?" Shirai asked curiously.

　　 "It's just not resisting." I replied.

　　 "Because I don't resist, I keep smoking? Why don't you choose to quit? If you don't resist, it doesn't matter if you have cigarettes?"

　　 "It doesn't matter much." I was brewing the rhetoric in my mind. Although the reasons for not quitting smoking are not complicated, the emotional factors are difficult to explain in words, but it is precisely the emotional needs that are the most important point. , If this point cannot be explained clearly, it will definitely be misunderstood by the other party.

　　 "If you can accept it, why not accept it?" I said.

　　 "So that's the case." Shirai nodded as if he could understand, "Takakawa, you are better than nothing. Even if it is harmful, as long as you can accept it, will you accept it?"

　　 "Smoking is not totally harmful."

　　 "Anything that is completely harmful... doesn't seem to exist at all?" Shirai said with a deeply emotional expression, "However, it is clearly not a completely harmful thing. Once it is classified as harmful, it will be disgusted by people. I hate it. Such a world."

　　 He turned his face and stared at me, and said very seriously:

　　"So, you who do not decide whether to accept or not because of the qualitative nature of things are the type I admire."

　　 I looked at him in surprise, not knowing what to say.

　　 In the silence that followed, I came to Shirai’s home.