Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 612: Transmutation II

I understand that when Sakiya is not clear about the truth of "Takakawa", her emotions towards "Takakawa" at this time are the continuation of the previous one, although I, as the current "Takakawa", also occupy these Part of the emotion, but most of it was born from the last Gaochuan. шШщm|No *pop*windows*small*said*net|I have inherited the information of the previous Gaochuan, but it is not the continuation of the previous Gaochuan in the full sense-I have this kind of recognition in the boundary line After learning, I became a little uncomfortable with the interpersonal relationship that I inherited from the last Gaochuan. This feeling of incompatibility is like mixing sand in a quiet device, and every time I have a relationship with the previous Gaochuan. When getting along with each other, even with the unification and suppression of the brain and hardware, the creaking noise cannot be completely erased.

This kind of noise is illusory, but to me, it is real. It is like a poison that penetrates into the soul, so I can't ignore it. It is true that under the control of my brain hardware, I will not have any negative emotions due to this, but these noises are quite an eye-catching, and it does produce some subtle interference to me. I sometimes even guess that this feeling of discomfort is precisely one of the purposes of "Jiang" pulling me at the border of entry, and these noises will eventually become a factor that will destroy me.

Even so, when I thought that I should become "myself", not a continuation of the previous Gaochuan, nor a collection of other Gaochuan's memory information, these noises brought by inheritance became a must to carry Things. Because these inherited from the previous Gaochuan people, but they are extremely important, the things that cannot be discarded are the important factors that constitute the existence of "I". Putting aside these things completely, stubbornness makes oneself "clean", on the contrary, it makes oneself incomplete and no longer the current "self".

More importantly, I don’t have time to complete myself in a “clean” but “incomplete” state. Moreover, the trend of the world-the development of "scripts" and the deeper and deeper intervention of "Jiang"-made it impossible for me to make a difference after discarding all the information from the previous "Gaochuan".

So contradictory, so confusing, I want to prove myself. I also want to be recognized, and I want to be accepted by others as a Gao Chuan who exists at this moment-I know, in fact, these are some false propositions, and it is impossible for me to do this. All these contradictory and chaotic ideas can also be called yes. Deceive yourself and others. However, thoughts did arise, and indeed, I did not have any emotions due to it. All these confused, contradictory and self-deceiving thoughts have no color. However, these thoughts cannot be completely erased from my mind anyway.

I think, maybe I want to fall in love again, and once again say to those people, "I’m seeing you for the first time, please give me some advice." Like and hate all of this, and be liked and hated by all of it.

But. I can't do it. For those people I value, the time that belongs to me does not start over, nor can it be reversed. Moreover, for me now, "like" and "dislike" are not emotions, just thoughts. As I said to Sakiya here, "I like you". However, I cannot produce the specific emotion represented by the word "like", it is just a kind of pairing that cannot be generated or expressed. A description of the emotions that intuition should exist.

This kind of description is so pale, I should be painful and unwilling for it, but there is no such thing in my emotions.

I still remember that when I was just born, I was not so cold as a machine. In my memory, the brain hardware is not always the same as it is now, every moment, indiscriminately suppressing all emotions. Although at the beginning, I thought that I was very much like a machine and would not be bad anymore. At that time, my only thought was “that’s good”—maybe, if I can express my emotions at will, I am The feeling of thought must be a very complex emotion.

I’m a bit confused. I obviously have a lot of things worth thinking about. The situation is obviously complicated, and I don’t grasp everything, so I don’t have time to think about these "self" philosophies in theory. However, I just think about these things, thinking about these things unstoppably, just like looking back, wanting to keep something that belongs to me.

Sakiya's confession is not pure to me, but I really hope she will tell me often. Her words made me feel that my existence in this world is meaningful. Not only her, but I also want to hear what Hakjing said, listen to Omi, and listen to other members of the whisperer. Listening to them, how much they care about me, how much they like me, and how indispensable my words are.

What then?

Then...

I thought of "then", and suddenly I noticed some moisture in the corners of my eyes. The coffee can in my hand was deformed by the creaking sound because it was gripped too hard.

"Agawa?" Sakiya's low voice seemed to be speaking to my soul. I was already awake, turned my head and looked at her, her head and face covered by the mask and the "stargazer" helmet double layer, and asked me with the voice that seemed to be filtered by the obstruction and became free of excess impurities: "How? Yes?" As she asked, she stretched out her hand and wiped the corners of my eyes.

"Then..." I whispered, but I don't know what is behind "then", or I don't want to know, I don't want to think about it. In fact, I already knew what was behind the "then", but at this moment, in the time I can live in the future, I was determined to abandon it.

I know that as long as I am still implementing the Super Gaochuan Project, the word "then" will definitely be followed by a cruel text for the world. As long as you still regard yourself as a member of this world, you must endure the impact and contradictions brought about by "reality", and endure the cruelty caused by it. No matter how unwilling to face it, it is bound to see, no matter how unwilling to say it, the result is still doomed.

However, at least at this moment, the corners of my eyes were wet, and I thought, I am willing to accept this cruel and ostrich-like behavior.

My life is so short; what I desire. How hard to get; how ridiculous my choice is; but I hope that this is my life, even if it is just a life like a clown.

The corners of my eyes are moist. It turns out that I am really not without emotion or sensibility. I am just a machine. It is not so beautiful to be a machine. It will not be where I belong in the end.

Brain hardware suppresses emotion, but it cannot obliterate sensibility. I also know that every time my emotions boil, I will give birth to a variety of thoughts. When my sensibility works, I can also make behaviors that ignore the cold quantified calculation results of the brain and hardware, and say Words that violate reason.

And the remaining 40% of my body that has not been prosthetized is not just decoration. It will still cause the body to produce corresponding physiological reactions because of these emotions and sensibility.

I am Gao Chuan, and I have both the brain and the brain hardware. Sixty percent of the body is transformed into a prosthetic body, and 40 percent of the body is in the original ecology of Gaochuan.

This form of dual structure should be the first time in all "Gaochuan". However, it is not because of the redundancy of the "reality" factors that constitute my mapping body, nor is it just for the convenience of implementing the plan, and no part is just a cover-up useless thing. The brain and the original body, the brain hardware and the prosthesis, the mode of coexistence of the two. It must have profound meaning.

"It's okay." I said to Sakiya: "I will protect you, and I will be your hero."

So--

"No matter who, what, or monster, I can't stop me from getting a mental unity device."

——Even if the enemy is "Jiang", even if the enemy is "Gaochuan" with abnormal existence.

"I want to protect you in my way."

——Because. I don't trust "Jiang", so I don't trust the choice of "Gaochuan" which is abnormal. So, I can only believe in myself. Even he is at stake. To become a hero, you must become a hero, you can only become a hero.

"Let’s go, Sakuya, the rest time is over." I stood up and threw the coffee can into the trash can more than ten meters away. "Even if I die, I can’t take you Separate."

Not long ago, I was very vigilant about this state of absent-mindedness. I thought it was a manifestation of the deterioration of the condition and was involved in "Jiang". However, now I feel that it is not the case. Perhaps, I should cherish the time of loss of consciousness, and cherish the thoughts that arise when I lose consciousness. A voice said to me softly that these ridiculous and unknown, contradictory and chaotic thoughts are the real precious things.

Yes, I now believe that this is indeed my most precious thing, only for me, Gaochuan, the most noble thing.

"Hmm." Sakuya nodded slightly, grabbed my arm, and walked with me to the wall where the entrance and exit of this service center are located.

I haven't told Jung about my decision, and I don't know what they plan to do, and whether they have made detailed preparations. Because I have to tell the file of my decision first, and I have done my duty as my allies and employers. I know that my decision has not been discussed with the file, but I also know that this decision will not change. And this will, after we returned to our room, was definitely conveyed to the file.

"It seems that you have already decided." File didn't have any negative emotions because my arbitrariness might put my team in an unfavorable situation. I thought she would complain at least a few words, but in fact After listening to my story, the calm and calm expression on her face has not changed.

"Yes, although we will continue to cooperate with Jung and others, this cooperation is not driven by their will." I said, "I know what is hidden in this 51st district. "

"So, we should get it, not give it to any other party." The file nodded, as if implying something, and said to me: "Until now, I have not received any of the headquarters. Notifications."

"Are you not with Father Xi Sen?" I said: "For such a big thing, he can't have any contact with your headquarters..."

The file interrupted me, staring at me with piercing eyes, and said word by word: "Here, no one is from my organization except my team."

"So?" I already know what she meant, but I still need to confirm it verbally.

"So?" The file smiled and licked the corner of his mouth. A mercenary's stubborn aura rushed toward his face, "So, our cooperation is still in the honeymoon period, and your whisperers are still the employers of our team, and my team has never taken advantage of loopholes, not in the past. Not now, and not in the future."

"Even if my employer's decision will bring unpredictable danger to your team. Even your organization?" I asked.

"No, it's not a danger, it's just a crisis." The file drew out the cigarette, lit it, and sprayed smoke at me. "During the cooperation period, we are one, if your decision will hurt my team, also It will definitely hurt you. And I think. Gao Chuan, you are not a fool, nor a reckless man. So. This is not a decision to surrender, but a decision that makes people feel a little crisis. There is a whisper from you. Those who are truly worthy of our alliance. The intention and sincerity of cooperation have not changed from beginning to end." The file said heavily to me: "Your sincerity, through your actions, has been conveyed to us. . Then, please also believe in our determination and sincerity."

The tone of the file is so solemn and full of emotion. Even if the brain hardware concludes on her words and deeds. There is no one hundred percent certain value, but I still believe her. This kind of trust does not come from the memory information of the previous Gaochuan, but only comes from my current judgment of the file himself. It is not because of the reliability of the brain and hardware, but the result of the operation of my personal will.

Yes. It does not rely on the memory information of the previous Gaochuan, nor does it rely on the quantitative calculation of the brain hardware. This is a decision purely from the "self" personality, a decision that is almost perceptual. Although, the more specific emotions that represent sensibility are still suppressed by the brain hardware at this moment. And this trust is also the first step I took once again as myself, as the Gaochuan of this world.

"Yes, I have received your determination and sincerity." I said to her in the same solemn tone: "Then, let everyone be prepared. We will soon have a fierce battle."

"Do you already know where that thing is hiding?" the file asked.

"Not yet, but I will know soon." I said.

"Should Jung be notified now? He is ready for everything?" the file asked again.

"Notify Jung, but I don’t think he has all the preparations." I clicked on my temple and said to her, "I will soon know where that thing is hidden, but, This is our own intelligence, because we didn’t plan to play a supporting role from start to finish, did we? Even if it’s cooperation, it’s just because our actions happen to complement each other at a certain stage."

"Oh—" The file stretched out his voice, and said with interest: "Sure enough, it's the same as I thought, you seem confident?"

"No, I'm not sure, it's just that I have to do this." I looked at her impartially.

"I'm very curious about how that thing exists. It's worth so many people crazy about it." The file nodded and said, "Almost every organization with decisive power has joined. This is incredible. The headquarters don’t know what they think."

"The specific situation is not clear to me. How other people plan to use it, and I have not heard the slightest word. However, what I can tell you is that this thing is likely to be related to'Valpus Night’s secret.” I once mentioned the Valpus Night that appeared in Las Vegas with File. However, without personal experience, it is difficult for her to feel the horrible and weird activity temporarily. Data hedging space generates intuitive cognition. What impressed her was probably only this sentence: "Its power may directly interfere with the ‘reason’ of this world."

"Li?" The file frowned, but soon realized what this "li" meant, and gradually opened his mouth, "You mean, it can change the rules of the world at will? For example, let Gravity becomes bottom-up?"

"At least, it can be used to build a live temporary data hedge space ~IndoMTL.com~ and in this temporary data hedge space, it can make gravity become bottom-up, time into a cycle, and The disappearance of death makes the concept no longer have its original meaning." I said: "This is not the 51st District operating the temporary data hedging space where it is located, dividing a ground laboratory, and maintaining a space corridor in the base. Such a superficial interference power. Although the 51st District kept this thing, it was obvious that they did not make good use of it. Even so, they still built this temporary data hedging space of their own."

"In other words, as long as you make good use of this thing, you can become a **** and create the world you want?" The file still said in an incredible tone: "No matter how bad, can you get a base for whatever you want?" "

"Yes, I think this should be the reason why those big organizations are fighting for it." I said in a deep voice, "Although it is unlikely to interfere with the whole world's "reason", but if it is just to build a semi-permanent Mysterious organization base, a sacred place that belongs to my own people, is more than enough.” (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point (.) to vote for recommendations and monthly tickets. Your support is my greatest Power.)

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