Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 693: Schizophrenia

When the wizard of spades looked at me, her gaze and her language might contain the power of consciousness spells. When this kind of power manifested in me, and it actually caused the deviation of my attacking movement and consciousness response, I couldn't feel the influence of this power on my body. It seemed that this power had a mysterious switch. Before it was turned on, everything was normal, and the wizard of spades himself did not turn this switch on often. I don't know whether my inference is correct, but when I rushed away in an instant, she didn't disappear immediately, but chose to form a shield with gray fog.

This shield was cut off by me in the blink of an eye.

It wasn't until the arm blade continued to slash at her body that she reproduced the same phenomenon she had in the first fight, and disappeared without a trace in my eyes without a sound. I know very well that the spell of consciousness has already had an effect on me, but it is still impossible to clearly determine the time of this effect.

Nevertheless, I am still happy. No, it should be said that there is indeed a "excitement" factor in this complex emotion and thinking. Only this opponent can focus his attention again-deep down in my heart, that must be what I think. Hard fights, chaos, dangerous fights, any crises of the last minute, I didn't want to encounter in the past. I had hoped for everything to go well, but at this moment, I yearned for the opposite situation.

It's ironic.

In this ironic situation, I seem to see the path of fate. Since when and when did my fortune have such an ironic change? In the process of capturing the mental integration device and the personality preservation device, there are many things that cannot be expressed in words. Let yourself deviate a little bit from the original idea, until in the end, walked on another road that was completely different from what I expected.

It shouldn’t be like this.

Although, I can't help but have hesitation, hesitation, repetition, in countless confirmations. Only then have I strengthened my self and beliefs, and have the real consciousness that belongs to me. This should be the process of my growth, but in this process, there is no "rising". In other words, the feeling of "sublimation", on the contrary, is like falling into an invisible abyss. The process of this falling is growing, but it has no positive effect on "falling into the abyss" itself. Even, it makes me feel that the speed at which I am falling is advancing with the progress of my growth. It's almost like that your own growth will only accelerate the fall, or-does the acceleration of the fall create the illusion of growth?

I pressed my mouth tightly. Hold your breath, try to use an inner strength to contain these divergent thoughts. Why, in front of such a powerful enemy, at the moment when fighting her and falling to the wind, he still can't focus his attention? The schizophrenic split into two halves, the feeling that each has a confused consciousness, I am becoming more and more distinct.

I seem to be able to hear voices that do not belong to me, no, I should say. Feeling that voice, as if it would ring in my mind at any time.

The wizard of spades appeared within the scope of the chain judgment observation. She was standing behind me. I don't know if it was an illusion formed by consciousness spells in my perception. However, I didn't hesitate at all, and without any precautions, I rushed towards her. I wanted to make a little more judgment. After all, the quick-grabbing super power can give me enough time to act, but I dare not think at this time, or in other words, the uncontrolled divergence of thinking cannot be fully invested here. In battle.

It must be under pressure-this kind of instinct made me completely ignore what traps the enemy would have waiting for me, so I attacked it without any plan. Maybe, I was expecting that she could be a little more sinister. , Make a more terrible trap, put me in a great pressure, facing death.

Only in this way, only the fear of death stemming from the instinct of life can suppress this subconscious thinking divergence. In any case, for life, "survival" and "reproduction", even if not the most important one, are the most important part, are they not? Since it's the most important thing, then focus my attention!

The wizard of spades is clearly in front of me, but the fluctuation of the attack is coming from the side. I have grasped it. This is a fleeting opportunity in the high-speed movement, as long as I continue to run in this direction. , It is inevitable to eat this note sturdily. However, even so, I was still thinking about other things, doing those philosophical self-questions and answers in my mind. I'm ready to take it hard. If pain and serious injury, or the feeling of "doing nothing, will make myself pain or serious injury", can force the divergent thinking to hit again, Even if the enemy's attack is really unavoidable, it is not a big deal.

I have decided that as long as my thinking continues to diverge, I will not dodge the enemy's attack and use this pressure to oppress myself. However, under such circumstances, the body still moved naturally. At the moment of the moment, around the hand suddenly deep from the side, staggered footsteps, rotated the body, the arm blade drew a sharp arc.

Just before that hand touched the body, the blade felt like cutting into something. The gray mist spell in the hand of the wizard of spades also produced a violent explosion at this moment, and a cloud of fire almost rose up against my body. However, my body was already galloping at high speed. The scorching heat and the impact of expansion, although they followed closely behind, couldn't really catch up and really hurt me.

How fast does the explosion impact spread? I have never confirmed it, I just know that it is very fast. In the state of prosthesis of the normal world, even in the case of pseudo-rapid, the explosion close to your side is almost unavoidable to withstand its impact, but the pseudo-rapid can transform this impact into impetus. , And the prosthetic body can withstand the impact of this shock. However, the situation today is definitely not the case. My speed exceeds my imagination of the limit of the ability to quickly grab the superpower. At this moment, I felt that myself and the world where the impact was located were cut apart by this terrifying speed. The impact was chasing me, and the difference between them seemed to be a little bit, but it was the difference between Tianyuan. It will never affect me.

There are only two colors left in the world, black and white, as if solidified at this moment and turned into an old photo. And I am in this image frozen on film. The only existence that is still on the move. It is also like an electron leaping out of its original orbit through violent movement. If, what I observe, and affect everything, is the atom surrounded by my electron. So, at this moment, my observation angle of my surroundings, and everything I am involved in, this "atom" is precisely because of the transition of my electron. Produce an essential change.

I can't describe it more vividly and accurately. My language ability is incapable of describing the situation at this time, and it seems extremely pale.

In this situation, my attention is still not focused on the enemy. Involuntary movement of oneself, and the resulting. The strange sights I have observed are full of a sense of deja vu but taken for granted.

Thinking like this, beating:

——It’s too fast.

Thinking is presenting content in a form of dialogue full of sense of sight...

It goes on to say:

——The so-called ‘fast’ is a reference phenomenon, and it can also be said to be an illusion of rhythm.

It’s not like thinking, but talking to someone...

——It does not need to be faster than every reference object at every moment, but at this moment, faster than what is used as a reference object.

——In this immediate range, you need to use mystery. Let you reach a faster rhythm than the reference object.

Isn’t it obvious who you are talking to? This memory is so vivid.

"Gaochuan!" I know it's you! The boy Gao Chuan who had died but was eaten by "Jiang" and the old Gao Chuan. Gaochuan is walking on the opposite road!

When I called the name and thought of the figure, he stood there vaguely, right in front of my eyes, in this solidified, black-and-white photo world, like a ghost, vainly , Vaguely, standing there!

I know, I know it, I shouldn't think about it, and everything related to him shouldn't enter the scope of thinking at this time. However, nothing can be stopped. My thinking is like a wild horse running out of steam, a gear that rotates too fast to stop. Perhaps, from the beginning, I shouldn't have seen him, or, after seeing him, I should forget him.

However, I cannot forget, because his appearance is not the result of his own power, and because he is also "Gaochuan".

Yes, this guy was dragged back by "Jiang" abruptly. This is something that even Super Color and Super Dorothy could not predict.

Who can imagine that a "virus" can actually eat the concept of "death"? Although the superstring theory can indeed explain this phenomenon, it is nothing more than re-adjusting the structure of the "energy string", but this level is completely beyond the cognition of "Jiang", or the ability of "Jiang". Speculation of scope.

Eat "death"-such a vivid statement, but it is definitely not incomprehensible, and it can be taken for granted as a real situation without hesitation.

My impression of "the strongest Gao Chuan to date" and my meeting with him are definitely not accidental, nor is it merely an illusion caused by information left over.

That voice rang in my mind again:

"I had a dream. When I walked up the stairs, I saw a faceless person standing there, but couldn’t walk to him. I talked to him, but he just stood there to I smiled silently. I want to know who he is, so I walked up this staircase again today. Today he is standing there again..."

Now, he is standing there, standing in the self-world of "Gaochuan" that only Gaochuan can see.

He said this:

——Did you know? Gao Chuan, quick sweep is faster than anyone else.

My thinking is like his talking, his body is hazy and chaotic, it seems to exist, and it does not seem to exist, but my thinking is like he is talking:

——The real quick sweep, it may be difficult to feel this secret from the surface phenomenon and direct experience, but there is no doubt that the nature of its operation is such a thing, a kind of deception, interference, and even forced change The sense of rhythm between yourself and the target, or the power of the rhythm itself. In terms of superstring theory, it is also the closest force to the essence, because the core of superstring theory is the vibrating energy string. Isn't it? Rhythm and frequency are the inherent properties of vibration.

"This is not something humans can do." I replied.

——Yes, so, this in itself is not Gao Chuan's power.

The young Gaochuan Phantom, borrowed my thinking. Speaking of this: as a special doomsday patient, the only doomsday patient who has a real human body but can enter the doomsday illusion is actually rejected in the doomsday illusion, and cannot obtain the superpowers and even magic lines like other people. Such a mystery.

"But. We still have it." I said.

——Yes, what we have is not something that belongs to us. That is...

"The interference of Jiang, super color and super Dorothy."

So, the mystery held by "Gaochuan" in the doomsday illusion is the same as a plug-in. No, that is not entirely appropriate. Because "Jiang" is in "Gaochuan", in a sense, it can be regarded as part of "Gaochuan"-part of the disease.

"So, Gaochuan is special."

"All Gaochuan are special."

"Before'Jiang' wakes up, this kind of speciality lurks, but it exists. After'Jiang' wakes up. In any case, this kind of speciality cannot be avoided."

"This kind of special, powerful, almost essential power is not a power that Gao Chuan can control. In the doomsday illusion, it is embodied as a mystery, beyond imagination, that can interfere with the essence of the world, but when When it comes into play. In fact, "Jiang" is active."

"Everything involving'Gaochuan', once separated from'Jiang', it is ridiculous and wrong to treat it as two situations. It is meaningless. The influence of'Jiang' on'Gaochuan' is from The moment the virus is infected, it has already existed. And this influence is far more profound and closer than the relationship between the virus and the patient."

"'Jiang' and'Gaochuan' are two sides of one body, different parts, but the same whole existence, are inseparable, they are so complicated that it is impossible to separate them."

"To doubt'Jiang' and reject'Jiang' is to split oneself, from physical to mental, forcing oneself into an extremely unstable and incomplete state."

The phantom of Gao Chuan, a young boy who seems to exist and does not exist, stands in front of me like a ghost, telling me the secrets rooted in the essence of Gao Chuan-these words, although they are my thinking , But, it was both my thinking and he was talking to me—this feeling made me believe in it irresistibly and take it for granted.

Human consciousness is so wonderful and so complicated. When it changes, the resulting feelings are taken for granted. Even if you can think of it, to analyze and understand, it is always presented to yourself as an established fact. Just like destiny, the destiny you can feel. When you can feel the existence of destiny firsthand, determine the reason for its existence, and know the clues to its existence, which is "the row left when you walked across the beach before." Footprints."

The same is true for consciousness. When you perceive that you are different from before, when you perceive that you are changing, you have actually completed this stage of change. And let you know the "change" itself, not the prediction of the future, but only the footprints you left in the process. To say "resist this change" is actually ridiculous, because the change is completed from the moment you notice and decide to refuse, the moment before.

I can't resist, I can't reject it.

The appearance of the phantom of the young Gaochuan is so, and so is the influence of "Jiang" that has always existed.

If, this is true.

The battle I once envisaged, the battle with myself, the battle with the young Gaochuan phantom, and the battle with "Jiang", in fact, had already begun long before the battle was decided. When he was ready to fight, the battle had come to an end. When I realized I was fighting, the result was born.

I suddenly understood the reason why the ironic life and the growth in the fall exist.

It is this kind of deviation between "consciousness" and "consciousness unfolding" that keeps me from growing up and walking on the path I expected as I wish. It is always a step slower.

The essence is that I always distinguish myself from "Jiang", so that I can't keep up with the changes that "Jiang" is the core and promoted by "Jiang".

——"Gaochuan" is unchanged~IndoMTL.com~ However, "Jiang" is changing constantly, violently and at a high speed.

The phantom of the young Gao Chuan, in my mind, tells it like this.

——If you can’t keep up, you will die. If you distinguish between the two, you will die. I am already dead. However, if it doesn't want me to die, I won't really die. Because I and it are not two separated, but one with one heart and one body.

——I love it, so, knead together, love it.

——Gaochuan, will not die, so it will not disappear. It will not disappear, so I will not really die.

——I am Gaochuan, I am walking on my own path, and I think I am right. So, are you also correct? Gao Chuan, I am watching your death.

My spirit is split into two halves, and a clear gap appears in the dialogue of thinking. On this boundary, standing here is me, and standing there is the faintly young Gaochuan Phantom. (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point (m) to vote for recommendation and monthly pass. Your support is my biggest motivation. For mobile phone users, please go to m to read.)