Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 789: Sickness

In the boundary line, all changes are inevitable. Although it seems chaotic, there are inherent laws. Everyone’s perception of the world will not be exactly the same. Even with a unified concept and deep-rooted education, the differences in details are greater than people expected. What's more, people's cognition is not exactly the same as the feeling deep in the subconscious. When a person’s ideological contradictions are presented in a more vivid form, that form must be muddy, and when the ideological contradictions of a plurality of people are combined into the boundary line, even if the elements that constitute the boundary line are only part of the selection. , The scenery it constitutes cannot be so beautiful.

Unless, you can freely control the consciousness and subconsciousness of the people who constitute the boundary line, distinguish between contradictions and differences, and file the same and similar one by one, and this approach is undoubtedly "data-based" beginning. What is peculiar is that the constantly changing things I observe in the ideological world, although indeed muddy and chaotic, sometimes show a certain kind of order in the depths of this chaos. This kind of organization is like being born by following an intangible will. This will does not exist in the depths of the consciousness of a certain person or some people. It is more like a cluster consciousness-in short, it is like a single individual. The ants do not have wisdom, and groups of ants will behave like "wisdom" in their actions.

I don’t know whether this kind of organization, which is hidden in the chaotic consciousness of the plural human set, is the so-called "deep subconscious" or "collective unconscious", but it does look like this kind of thing. In the terms of occultism, there is also a similar title "Alaya".

Patients with doomsday syndrome will turn into a pale yellow liquid "l" in the late stage of the disease, and thus lose the "personality" that distinguishes each other, these patients. In a sense, the integration of "**" has been achieved. However, their personality consciousness has not been destroyed because of the loss of sex-because l can also be regarded as a kind of abnormality of sex, and it meets the conditions of carrying personality consciousness, even more. It is more suitable for the growth of personality consciousness, which promotes a personality consciousness to split into more personality consciousness.

And these personality consciousnesses in l are not integrated like **, they are constantly differentiated, just like asexually reproducing fish, wandering in l lakes. The formation of the doomsday illusion has nothing to do with the state of these doomsday syndrome patients at this time. It can even be said that they are transformed into l. Only by surviving in this state and completing the birth, growth and death of the personality can it meet the conditions for constructing the doomsday illusion.

However, only these patients with doomsday syndrome cannot constitute a doomsday illusion. It is true that they are the key link, but not the most core link. The same color as a patient with doomsday syndrome, but because he took a failed product that was suspected of being a "viral serum" extracted from Gao Chuan's body. As a result, the end-stage state of the disease is different from most patients with doomsday syndrome. And this kind of color has been transformed into a biological computer by the "hospital". As the pillar supporting the doomsday illusion, the color at this time is called the "super color" in the research code.

Probably because they are all patients with doomsday syndrome, even if their external representations are different, their internals are very similar. Super series of colors successfully completed the expected work, all kinds of those in l. The complex and chaotic personality consciousness is ordered. However, this ordering is not to forcibly reverse the characteristics of these personality consciousness, and to integrate them in a strong posture. It is more like a glimpse of the hidden laws in this chaos, and these personality consciousness according to their own needs. Arranged in an ordered grid.

It is precisely because of the composition of the super color and the doomsday illusion that the "hospital" has a glimpse of the incredible situations that happen to patients with doomsday syndrome, and presents a part of it in a "data-based" form, so that Normal scientific research can continue. After all, the foundation of scientific research is mathematics that is easier to recognize and pass on. It is difficult for scientists to think about something without mathematical methods, and it is very easy for scientists to fall into the "metaphysical" trap in philosophy.

Because, most things in cognition can be transformed into cold and certain data, and logical thinking can be completed through these data. The so-called "science" is developed on this basis and shows Powerful.

Even so, not all things can be converted into data, or that it can be observed and felt, does not mean that it can be covered by the current mathematical foundation. As for things like consciousness and thinking, because the information is too large and the form of existence is difficult to access, the doomsday illusion, which can transform the personality consciousness activities of patients with doomsday syndrome into data, highlights the importance of its existence. Sexuality-even though, these data are actually incomplete, cumbersome, confusing, one-sided, and the preface does not follow.

The super series supports, monitors and manages the doomsday illusion to a certain extent, and transforms the activities within it into incredible and incomprehensible data for researchers. According to their own needs and ideas, the researcher further activates and guides the activities in the doomsday illusion through the super series to obtain more important and orderly data. In this process, the super color bears the most central role.

However, even such a super-color is not a "deep subconscious", "collective unconscious" or "alaya", even if its abilities, functions and results seem to be similar . The super-race color has not surpassed the essence of its personality. It still maintains the personality named "the family color" and has its own personality, and this personality is just that it is not a "combination of all people's consciousness", nor is it " Proof of the unconscious union of all people.

On the contrary, if there is something that transcends individual consciousness and possesses the power of unity, it is most likely the source of the "virus" that causes the doomsday syndrome. Because of the influence of the "virus", patients with doomsday syndrome were born and metamorphoses into their current state. It is hard to say, this is just an accident. In fact, the formation of the doomsday illusion has not yet been fully resolved. No one can find the law and find a way to create a second doomsday illusion. However, the argument that "the doomsday illusion is the inevitability of virus infection" cannot be falsified.

To put it simply, "the infection of the virus will lead to the formation of the doomsday illusion. Moreover, the formation of the doomsday illusion is not the final result, but only an important step to achieve the final result", even if it is not correct It is by no means completely wrong.

So, what does the "virus" want, or what instinct drives it to achieve? At the biological physiological level, viruses basically "damage something in the human body" or "change certain cycles of the human body" as a result. This result will lead to human death. But in reality, death is only incidental, and the work of the virus is over before humans die. However, the "virus" that causes the weird disease of Doomsday Syndrome does not end after only destroying the original structure of the human body. Even if it turns into l, the effect of the disease is still continuing, but. l The abnormally stable structure itself did not continue to be alienated and deteriorated in this process. l seems to be the end result of ** lesions. Therefore, the researchers of the "hospital" naturally set their sights on the patient's personality consciousness.

It is very difficult to confirm a person's personality consciousness activity state, but the personality consciousness activity state in l can pass the doomsday illusion. Presented with more direct data, this allows researchers to see the dawn of hope and be more convinced that when the state of these personality consciousness reaches the same stability and integration as l, it is the final result of the disease. Or the completion of an important stage in the disease.

They are looking forward to the posture of the doomsday syndrome patients at that time. At the same time, it is also hoped that in the process of this research, the body of the "virus" can be found-because the "virus" cannot be observed from the physical level, and the researchers have used the most advanced observation methods, and they cannot Its body was found only by perceiving the existence of such a "virus" from the law of the disease, but they were also equally convinced that as long as it was still active, they would be able to find it out by themselves. The existence of the doomsday illusion has made them realize that the so-called "virus" may not be an ordinary physiological virus.

In early studies, the initial mental illness until the split of personality was triggered by "physiology"-physiological changes lead to psychological changes. This is indeed in line with the current physiological and psychological sciences. .

However, after recognizing how stable the physiological state of l is, this mainstream scientific cognition has been subverted in a certain sense-l has no senses in contact with the external world, and no changeable physiological activities. However, personality awareness shows complex and active changes in the presentation of data. The preconditions of mainstream physiological and psychological sciences have been almost completely subverted.

In order to figure out what happened and what they can do with this possibility, the researchers are ignorant and stubborn, and even unscrupulously walked on a path that they were afraid of. ——Yes, not all researchers are as cold as machines, or as fanatical as fanatics. Even Dr. Ander, who is leading the "Human Completion Project", will be scared when thinking alone. , Because you can't see what you are looking ahead, this kind of fear from the "unknown" is the most original fear of mankind.

Unknown "viruses", unknown "lesions", and the researcher's plan can only be based on what he knows, similar to a brain-filled plan without sufficient feasibility proof. However, as a scientific worker, in the face of this fear that originates from the unknown, he has a stubborn motivation to move forward—because I don’t understand, I have to figure it out, and because I can’t see the end, I have to persevere. Coming to the end. Every researcher knows that because of his own ignorance, it may lead to some terrible results, but even the terrible results are results. The result itself is what they pursued and insisted on.

This kind of process, this kind of mentality, this kind of theory, this kind of cognition flows in the memory of "Gao Chuan". I looked at the scenery of the boundary line, felt the chaos, the unknown and the gloomy, and fully realized that, like those researchers, no, it should be said that I was closer to the "result". Because those researchers are observing and conjecturing everything from an external perspective, and I not only have an external perspective. Participating more internally has become an important factor in promoting all of this.

The result to be accomplished by the "virus" has been reflected in this doomsday illusion to some extent. The existence of the personality preservation device and the spiritual integration device, the name itself has a deep meaning, and I heard it at first These two names. It's in the super color. As the pillar of the doomsday illusion, the super color probably understands what the appearance of these two names actually means.

"Jiang" wants a spiritual unity device, in a sense, "virus" wants a spiritual unity device. Observing the actions of "Jiang" and trying to understand its thoughts is the process of understanding the "virus".

First is the integration of **, and then the integration of personality consciousness. In the end, all the "individuals" and "differents" become the "only" "commonality". People can't help but wonder whether this only common thing is the final result. However, it is for the "virus" to transform human beings with different personalities into a unique and common existence. What is the significance? It must be meaningful, whether it comes from intelligent thinking. Or instinctive operation, there must be a meaning.

Much of the intelligence from the "reality" level and the "doomsday fantasy" level comes from the memory information of other "Gaochuan". These things originally belonged to Gaochuan, but I exist. It is based on his personality consciousness, therefore, everything that settles in his mind is also everything that settles in my thinking.

The relationship between us is not after the normal split of personality consciousness. They became two independent individuals, but a dough was pinched from the middle, and two heads appeared. One head was filled with meat and the other was filled with red bean filling. However, it cannot be said that they are two steamed buns. It can only be said that it is a "weird" bun.

Even now, Gao Chuan and I, a world facing a normal doomsday fantasy world and a world facing an ideology, cannot sense each other's existence and state, nor do they feel completely independent of each other.

The amount of information stored in Gao Chuan’s mind is many times more than what I had obtained before my death. I clearly feel that my perspective on "reality" and "doomsday fantasy" is no longer the same. original appearance. My character was inevitably affected. There are too many changes. Although the outline is still the same, the details gradually change. Moreover, this change is still continuing until now. I sometimes feel that if something hasn’t changed, it must be an emotion for "Jiang", and it is this constant and strong emotion that allows me to maintain a certain level despite the changes in many details. As it is.

I am happy that I have found something in this ever-changing world that will not change with time or with cognition. Even if it is belief, it will collapse and change, but I insist on the same emotion, perhaps because I long for some kind of eternal existence.

I hope that this sentiment for "Jiang" is like this. In the ever-changing world, it is also the most special and precious treasure. It is the best gift I give to "Jiang", and it is also me. The source of confidence in it. I must admit that my confidence in "Jiang" is not rational, but the result of an extreme sensibility. I don't even rule out that being infected by a "virus" is the reason for this extreme sensibility.

But, I believe, that must not be one of the reasons.

I once imagined that the "virus" urges human beings to belong to the only commonality, and that the only and common thing will be a hotbed for the growth of the "virus" and the nutrient for it to maintain activity. However, the appearance of "Jiang" made my guess less sharp. Because, I love it, I want it to live, the only thing I stubbornly recognize, the only thing I can persist, is "my love is not a physiological change"~ IndoMTL.com~ I have lost a lot, and I In order to redeem what I have lost, there is very little that I can do. No matter how strong I am in the doomsday illusion and how special I am on the level of "reality", what I see is still "I am just a fragile patient". I have entered the level of "reality". My psychology, even at that time, was very powerful, but that couldn't make me change anything, and even died if I couldn't do anything at all.

I have learned how fragile and powerless my true self is. I have been thinking, if there is something that can allow such a fragile and powerless self to see the dawn of hope, and what kind of effort can be made to make myself win the final victory. The end of thinking, after confirming everything that I can give, did I come to the conclusion that the only thing that a weak one can give is actually this scorching and morbid emotion. The "Jiang" who can accept this emotion is a variant of the "virus", with possibilities that I can't estimate.

So, I gave the only thing I could give.

And I am quite sure that there is no other way besides doing this. Therefore, the only thing I can do is to achieve the ultimate. To be continued. .

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