Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 803: Everyday King

On the night of Valpus, in the Zhonglin area of ​​consciousness, a gleam of light appeared in the gloomy sky, and the mist flowing in the streets and alleys seemed to melt a little, like a layer of tulle covering the blocks. The environment here is closer to reality than the environment of the boundary line, probably because the human subconscious condensed by the spiritual integration device does not extract only the negative part to construct this ideological world like "Jiang" does. For most humans, Light, daylight, and sunlight are indispensable, and they are also accustomed to existence. Even if you hate light because of some psychological problems, your body's survival and growth cannot completely avoid the shining of light.

Therefore, after leaving the boundary line and entering the night of Valpus, the gloomy environment gradually changed, like slowly transitioning from night to dawn, or the sun finally tore through the obstacles of the dark clouds, and invested A little light and heat. The outline of the light and shadow became clearer. I sat by the window of the house and watched the shadow gradually elongated, moving on the wall like an extremely slow revolving lantern.

Compared with Gao Chuan's memory of two Valpus nights, the Valpus night I am now feeling is closer to the normal urban scenery than the previous two in many aspects. I am not complaining about the environment in the boundary line. I have already decided that no matter what the boundary line is, I must accept it. However, after entering the night of Valpus from the boundary line, I still can’t stop this "return to normal" "a feeling of.

Although there is a change in light, this change has not been complete until now, and one has to wonder whether this Valpus night really exists during the day, or whether it is the brightest and warmest time. Duan is just the dawn of the present. No matter in the boundary line or in the night of Valpus, it is difficult to accurately grasp the passage of time. I exist in ideology, and there is no physical time to speak of. On the clock dial in Zhonglin District. The hands are still moving, but the time points are the same, adding to the confusion of the sense of time.

How long has it been since the end of the last battle? I don’t need to sleep or eat, I have too much time to do anything, but that’s why. In addition to writing your own adventure story, there is nothing else to do most of the time. I am not a mental patient, but I am not a lunatic. Of course, I don’t want to fight every moment and find myself an enemy for no reason. On the contrary, in many cases. I am a pacifist, and I fight only because life requires me to fight, nothing more.

So, now, I just sit by the window, watching the slowly changing scenery.

What is Zhen Jiang doing? The problem is obvious. She has almost no free time, but it can also be said that she is in a more free state than me all the time. She is "Jiang", no matter in the form of relative materiality, or in all ideological worlds, she possesses absolutely powerful power, theoretically, in the illusion of apocalypse. There will be no more powerful existence than it, and even on the "reality" level, there will be no more powerful existence than it. However, this kind of power is like being sealed, and it can't be displayed in front of people all the time, making everyone tremble. How powerful it is, only in the hearts of people who really have the ability to feel its existence. To get close to the truth.

"Jiang" seems to be omnipotent, and theoretically, it is also omnipotent. Its existence has gone beyond the scope of science. Coming to a "mysterious" situation, however, in the time I spent with it, it has very few opportunities to show this kind of omnipotence.

Fu Jiang likes fierce hand-to-hand combat, and she will only appear on the stage when fighting straightforwardly; Zuo Jiang likes leisurely daily time, so she will appear in a truly peaceful time until things get up again; Zhen Jiang is always a **** God talks like a real mental patient, hiding in a dark corner or talking to herself on a bed. What she likes most is the depressive environment before the storm and the occasional moments of calm in the fierce battlefield. . There are other "Jiangs", but they didn't appear for a long time, and sometimes they only appeared in the blink of an eye. I have noticed a long time ago that Zhenjiang’s neurotic self-talking, and that vague language can actually be seen as an expression of "talking to other Jiang". She is like an administrator of a personality platform. Responsible for regulating the personality activities on the line. I think this is really heavy work, because no one knows how many personalities the "Jiang" has. It can even be thought that personalities are born every second, just like the tip of grass after a spring rain. Slightly showing signs, grew up crazy, and therefore can't let him take care of himself.

Many times I feel that it is precisely because of the existence of the "administrator" that "Jiang" can maintain the personality of "Jiang" instead of being self-destructed by the constantly multiplying personality. Zhen Jiang is so busy that although she is always crazy and can always show a mystery far beyond the other "Jiang" personality, she can hardly find time to spare. Even her madness, in my eyes, is more like a catharsis of pressure, a means to regulate personality conflicts.

I don't know how to help her, because I have never had too many personal worries. After Gao Chuan died, a new Gao Chuan would be born. In the past, there was always only one Gao Chuan. Although there are two at the same time now, it really fits the "split personality" which is the most common and most common mental illness in patients with doomsday syndrome, but at this time I still can't understand that more than three personalities exist at the same time and appear at the same time. , What kind of scene will it be, and how to maintain self-existence in the rapidly splitting and constantly multiplying personality system.

There are many things that seem very simple, but in practice, they will make the scalp numb, especially the psychological and spiritual problems, and it will make people retreat and have a headache. Even the best psychologist, There is no guarantee that there will be no problems with your mentality, nor can you guarantee that if you have a problem, you will be able to heal yourself. In psychology, there are too many examples of medical practitioners not self-medicating, and there are too many mentally ill criminals who are themselves excellent psychologists.

Psychology, spirit, consciousness, and personality, these are invisible and intangible, and the traces can only be captured through examples and imagination, and the things that can be deduced from the traces are so varied. Sometimes it is as hard as diamond and as vast as the sea, sometimes it is more fragile than glass and softer than cotton. It is this variability that makes people see the potential for growth. It is like quantum mechanics that advocates uncertainty. It has an upper limit that human beings can't even imagine. At the same time, it makes the ideological world dangerous beyond imagination.

The existence of the ability to control the mental consciousness of patients with doomsday syndrome, named the "mental integration device", possesses such an ability-although such a statement does exist in the memory of the prosthetic Gao Chuan. The intelligence comes from the super color and the super Dorothy, and the actions of "Jiang" also seem to prove this. However, it is difficult for me to have a deep understanding of this cognition. It can even be said that I can't understand at all, even if "the world is big. There are no wonders", it is hard to believe that there will be such a thing.

Because, after studying psychology, I understand how unreasonable this kind of thing exists. Theoretically, it doesn't exist the condition of formation-the subconscious. It restrains outer consciousness and individual behavior, but does not restrain itself. Although it always conceals itself, it is not itself hiding itself, but its own existence. Especially the collective subconscious, it may be very broad, like the deep sea, invisible to the border. You can't see the bottom line, but its depth will not be uneven, and there will be no stones that can control the ebb and flow of every ebb and flow.

In short, if the sea of ​​consciousness can be refined, then every component is absolutely important. And there is no one ingredient that completely overrides other ingredients.

Yes, there is no difference in personality, psychology, spirit, and consciousness, just different forms of expression.

This is my cognition after studying psychology. I cannot confirm whether it is correct or wrong. But this kind of cognition generated through learning makes it difficult for me to change my concepts, unless there is absolute evidence, or the most essential truth is placed before my eyes.

It's a pity that there is no absolute evidence, nor the most essential truth, to refute my perception.

So, even if there are many people's actions and words telling me that the mental integration device and the personality preservation device exist, I can't regard it as a real thing. Even so, I must cooperate with "Jiang" to fight for such things.

The "virus" infects humans and leads to the emergence of patients with doomsday syndrome. In the mental consciousness of patients with doomsday syndrome, things such as "mental integration device" and "personality integration device" are born, but they are not owned by the "virus", so " "Virus" must obtain them because they are the result of the hard cultivation of "virus"-judging from the perspective and cognition of human beings, we will reach such a conclusion. However, it is difficult for me to prove that this is the end. The truth is that "viruses" are not human beings, nor are they mortal things recognized by humans. They are monsters that cannot be resolved at the "realistic" level.

Does "virus" really need a mental integration device and a personality preservation device? Does "Jiang" really need a mental integration device and a personality preservation device? Judging from the actions of the two, it seems that something is true, especially when thinking from the perspective of "Jiang", it will come to the conclusion that "the mental integration device and the personality preservation device are very important and have the power to change everything." .

"Jiang" seems to really need them, not just a spiritual integration device, because "Jiang"'s spirit and personality are both unstable and not unified.

The "virus" also needs them, because it is already facing the unstable personality phenomenon of "Jiang".

However, I still cannot be convinced by this reason...

I always feel that there are other reasons, maybe those reasons are closer to the truth. I'm always thinking, though, I can't do anything. I am just a human being, one of the many patients with doomsday syndrome that is both special and unspecial. What I can do, "Jiang" and "Virus" can do it, and can do it better than anyone else-it is under this understanding that I cannot feel at all in the actions they take. There is a sense of urgency-whether it is a "virus" or a "Jiang", they are just walking slowly at their own pace. The seemingly fast-developing doomsday illusion should actually become faster, even in a blink of an eye. Just come to the end.

Even in Gao Chuan’s memory, there are super-colors and super Dorothy restraining their actions and sealing their power. However, super-colors and super Dorothy are essentially doomsday syndrome. Patients, in their bodies, all the lesions that patients with doomsday syndrome should have exist, how can it really fight the "virus"? If they can do it, there must be seroplasma in their bodies, but no matter how powerful and important they are, they cannot be changed. The fact that they are seriously ill patients who "almost become l". In my memory, there is no lack of the reflection of the relationship color and Dorothy in the doomsday fantasy. To a large extent, they are only one step away from the collapse of personality such as Sakiya, Bajing and Marceau.

Referring to Zhenjiang's situation, we can understand how dangerous their personality state is. It's like a balloon about to burst. Although this extreme pressure of personality consciousness will make them show extraordinary power in the doomsday illusion, it also means that they have reached their limit. From the performance of Zhenjiang. "Jiang" and "virus" are far from the limit.

Moreover, if "virus" is extremely binding on patients with doomsday syndrome, it is the same for racial color and Dorothy, even if their names are prefixed with the word "super". The fact that they are patients with doomsday syndrome cannot be changed. Therefore, under this principle. The "Super Gaochuan" project they presided over also faced the same flaws.

Super Gaochuan is still Gaochuan. Gaochuan is a patient with doomsday syndrome, so Super Gaochuan is also a patient with doomsday syndrome. Without serum and antibodies, patients with doomsday syndrome cannot avoid the erosion and destruction of the "virus". The inability to resist a series of symptoms caused by the "virus" may further cause worsening symptoms.

Will Super Gaochuan get antibodies? At least, I don't see this possibility. Their plan is nothing more than to condense the personality of each generation of Gaochuan through the mental integration device and the personality preservation device, and then swallow the personality consciousness of other patients with doomsday syndrome, from the level of spiritual consciousness. It's just to guide the fusion of l. Furthermore, they may be able to verify the superstring theory or the correctness of the unified theory in this process. Try to create a combat weapon with up to eleven dimensions-even so, the possibility of further progress is still extremely low. After all, the superstring theory itself is not necessarily correct. At present, it can only be said that it has not been proven wrong. It’s just because humans can’t find examples and don’t have enough means to verify it.

Furthermore, even if it becomes the power to absorb all patients with doomsday syndrome and gain a high-dimensional existence, it does not necessarily mean that it is free from the existence of virus erosion. Exactly what kind of "virus" exists has not yet been proven, although the doomsday syndrome patients produced by it and the doomsday illusion generated by the doomsday syndrome patients are an excellent verification of the "superstring theory" and even the "university". The platform of "theory" does not mean that "virus" can be demonstrated by superstring theory and the so-called unified theory.

To fight against "viruses", the best, most direct and effective way is to produce "antibodies"-this is the simplest principle that I have always adhered to. When all the factors for obtaining "antibodies" are already in place, there is no need to go around it and make detours.

"Virus" cannot be observed, so "antibody" cannot be observed. However, as long as it can fight against the "virus", it means that the "antibody" has been acquired. My rebirth, the essence of "Jiang", and the antagonism that appeared in the doomsday illusion were originally a symbol of resistance to "virus".

So, all I have to do is to win in the confrontation, not to seize the mental integration device and the personality preservation device. That kind of thing is not the center of gravity at all, not even a way, it is just a symbol of confrontation. My enemy is not the doomsday truth sect, not all the mysterious organizations and personnel trying to compete for the spiritual unity device, and it is not the doomsday illusion itself. The "reality" is even more distant.

In this Valpus night, I have nothing to do and no pace to follow. If I must say yes, it is to cooperate with Jiang’s actions and maintain its will. Regardless of Zhenjiang, Fujiang, Zuojiang, all kinds of "jiang" that just flashed and disappeared, all have their own pace, their own ideas, and to exclude these human personality mappings. There is a kind of "Jiang" in my perception.

That is ~IndoMTL.com~ as if sinking in the deepest abyss, which can only be vaguely perceived, a kind of more essential, almost suspicious of the existence of the "virus" itself-in contact with it. After a long time, I began to feel that it was an existence closer to the essence than a "virus". Although "virus" is a manifestation of instinctive nature, it is possible that its height does not surpass "Jiang", but, like "Jiang", it only shows the opposite existence, or in other words, it is only a manifestation of nature. Just as human beings have instinctive behavior, subjective behavior, rational behavior, and inertial behavior, it cannot be said that a certain behavior represents the essence of the person.

Perhaps, the lurking "Jiang" is the most essential thing in the beginning.

I don’t have enough knowledge to describe it truly. I can only say that I really feel that there is such a thing.

The problem that I have to face has long been beyond what I can handle. It did not start when I was born. In fact, it already existed when Gao Chuan was infected as a patient with doomsday syndrome. Everyone, as long as they are patients with doomsday syndrome, no matter how good their name is and how powerful they are, they must face this embarrassing situation. The problem itself needs to be solved by the culprit who caused the problem, that is, the so-called ringer must be tied to the ringer. This is a contradictory but actual situation. To be continued.

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