Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 876: Muddy and stubborn

At that moment, he vaguely returned to "reality". He saw that in just a few seconds, his body became the same as the soaking solution. He saw the figure of "Dr. Ruan Li" standing outside the container. He also saw more things, even if only separated by The semi-permeable wall of the container had far more information in just a few seconds than he thought. It was so much that he wanted to remember it all, but the collapse came so quickly and so violently that there was no room at all.

He fell into the darkness again, a deep fear and despair pinched his heart, he had never experienced such an emotion like this.

Did patients in the late stage of doomsday syndrome fall into the abyss with such a mood? Does every patient with syndrome have such a clear-headed experience of all this? It must be, because this feeling is like bursting from the depths of the soul, an instinctive wailing when life is alienated and withered. Even if the sane becomes a lunatic and the ** enters the dying, there is absolutely no way to escape this kind of feedback like the head of the doomsday.

Falling, falling, no ladder, no place to put your hands on, at the moment of falling off the cliff, even the cliff itself disappeared, and all that can be realized is an endless darkness.

Becoming l, for Yitai Gaochuan, is almost an announcement of the disillusionment of a dream. It seems that in this fall, countless Gao Chuan's previous efforts, any plans he has made, the tasks he is performing, and his own path forward have been completely annihilated into a meaningless blank.

What a fear, despair, no one can save oneself, and no one can save others anymore.

The prosthetic body Gao Chuan can't make a sound. There is only one thought in his mind-why? Why is it so at this time? Although, I was prepared for such a possibility, but when the fact happened. He still couldn't ignore the surging sadness, pain, and feeling of depression. He questioned everything, only to find that there was nothing he could question, as if this was destiny, a cruel sense of destiny. Engulf him in an instant.

No matter how much I do. Imagine how good and how hard you have to work, but fate is making fun of people, at the moment of seeing the end. Wiped everything out.

Why? Why? Why? There are so many reasons, but there is only one pale answer——

It’s not why, it’s developed like this, just like a predestined script.

When Gao Chuan could make a sound, he had lost his sense of time. When he heard his wailing, he couldn't believe that he was still alive, in other words, his personality. It's not over yet. He couldn't recall any circumstances in which he had fallen in the dark. However, he was very clear that what he realized that "Gaochuan" had become l in reality was not an illusion.

He almost forgot when he fell in the dark. That kind of sentiment that swarms, but that is not because those negative feelings have been eliminated, but because they are too many, almost blocking all emotional channels. He felt that he had become extremely dull, and the prosthesis seemed to be rusty. Those things that had accumulated in the mind left him at a loss.

This is an experience I have never had before.

Although he has always been mentally prepared, when Gao Chuan re-entered the Doomsday Fantasy Land before, "Gao Chuan"'s body was already on the verge of collapse. The "Hospital" has already emphasized that any emergency measures after that can only fight luck. However, when the worst result appeared, he still felt too sudden, too unexpected, and too untimely.

The prosthetic body Gao Chuan raised his hand tremblingly. The fear and pain did not know when it had subsided, but there was only one thought in his mind-what a joke!

"Gaochuan" died in a physiological sense and became a doomsday patient. In terms of physiology, he is no longer a human being. The so-called "alive" only refers to the theoretical "personality in l" "Floating" state only. There is no precedent for recovering from l. Basically, for a "hospital", a doomsday patient who becomes l is tantamount to giving up by default.

Is it like this? Is the current self, like the others here, completely just a personality projection floating in the sea of ​​l? Have you completely integrated into the doomsday illusion and become a member of this world? Yitai Gao Chuan is a bit at a loss. It is clear that the worst has happened in the "reality", but it seems that it has no influence on the way of existence in the doomsday illusion.

The prosthetic body is still a prosthetic body, and there is nothing wrong with the brain hardware. The gear that constitutes my own existence now rotates, bites, and works as before, without a trace of slack, no sluggishness. That feeling of weakness and dullness is like pouring up from a deeper, deeper, and more essential place.

Yi Tai Gao Chuan wanted to concentrate, but a strong sense of emptiness seemed to penetrate the body and soul, making him feel light and light, without any real feeling. He didn't shake his head vigorously until he noticed someone shaking himself vigorously, trying to focus his vision.

Then, he saw a bleak scene—Sakuya, who was transformed into an Ashbringer, couldn’t make a sound, so she could only shake him hard; Gregya slumped on the ground, and the ground was wet; Omi barely supported the one on the side. The instrument, looking at him with a strange look.

It's a bleak scene. He can't remember anything about the process of this scene. However, on the retina screen, the process has already begun to replay, as if he was dragging him to prevent him from fleeing. The scenes of the scenes were not finished yet. He had already confirmed that whether he or others, the pain he suffered was all brought by "Jiang", the "virus" lurking in the body of "Gaochuan" was finally completed. A stage of change. The impact of this change is so strong that even his body, super color and the seal placed by Super Dorothy can't be completely isolated.

In a garbled retinal screen, the prosthetic body Gao Chuan saw the self-image after the self-examination, the external outline and complexion, and there was no change due to the psychological impact, but only the left eye has been completely Become a crimson-how do you describe this crimson? It is not transparent at all, nor is it warm, on the contrary, it is extremely muddy and makes people feel extremely dirty. It makes people feel that the components of this color are so complicated that they cannot be distinguished. It is like going to the side of a heavily polluted water channel and seeing those dark and gorgeous water colors. Underneath the gorgeousness, it is fatal filth.

Not only that, this dark red. Whenever it turns. It often evokes a touch of brilliance, just like a burning tail flame.

It's burning.

Like the flames of hell.

Prosthetic body Gao Chuan feels sick. For the first time, he has such a strong feeling that he wants to dig out this eyeball. Throw it aside far away. Because of it, I have lost too much, because of it, I seem to have completely lost all hope. For "Gaochuan", what could be more desperate than becoming l in "reality"? Gao Chuan could not think of it. What he knew was that being able to stay in shape in the "reality" is the most basic condition for the execution of any plan.

He has always had a sense of urgency because he is not clear. When will I lose this foundation. And now. Everything may have been irreparable.

Even at this time, he still uses vague descriptions such as "probably", "seems", and "may", but it is not that he thinks there is a real chance. But it's just that this is the only way he can see the light in this incredibly deep darkness. He could not express his feelings at this time, he could understand the feelings of anyone who committed suicide because of despair. Even so, he still can't just fall down, because--

Sakiya helped him up.

He finally stood up with the support of the girl.

Because you can still stand up, so you can’t fall down—this kind of will has almost become the instinct of "Gao Chuan". He has been asked to do this for all the time that the body Gao Chuan can recall. , Is also being demanded, supported, and reformed by them in this way. The most important people in "Gao Chuan"'s life are all women, but "Gao Chuan" is a man. Therefore, as the only man in this group, he must have the hardest will and responsibility.

Anyone can expect to be rescued, "Gaochuan" cannot.

Anyone can escape pain, but "Gaochuan" can't.

"Gaochuan" must be a person who saves others, must be a person who overcomes pain, and must be a person who can be trusted by others.

Without knowing how many times of pain, torture, grief, and failure, this belief has already been imprinted in his spinal cord.

So, as long as you can stand, no, even if you still have the strength to climb, you can never fall down safely.

Can't escape! Can't escape! Can't escape!

The voice, in the depths of the most desperate silt, came out like a ghost.

"I must cheer myself up!" Such a thought suddenly appeared, like an electric current, running through every nerve of his, once again giving his spine a straightening force. He looked around at everyone here-Sakuya, Omi, Gregya-and he raised his gaze, as if he saw more people-Eight Views, Marceau, Shirishi, Dorothy... Everyone is the object he has been struggling with and trying to save.

Before myself... Yiti Gaochuan thought that before himself, more "Gaochuan" had paid a lot for this wish. If such a work is interrupted by himself, then there will be another What's the point? What is the meaning of one's own birth and existence?

No gain, doomed to despair, does it make sense? For such a question, Yitai Gaochuan has not had his own answer until now-sometimes, giving is a meaning in itself.

If the hero's desire is to give everything for someone, then, no matter how miserable and desperate, the hero should not fall here!

Absolutely! can not! People who are saved by oneself see their own despair and fall!

Yita Takakawa pushed Sakiya away hard, he knew how stiff his expression and movements were; he knew that there were too many questions to answer, but he couldn’t answer it; he knew what he saw How dark is your future, but you can’t let others know about it. He must carry it all by himself.

"If, this is the price of becoming a hero--" Yitai Gaochuan said softly to himself suddenly, so softly that even Sakiya, who was close at hand, did not hear clearly, "I am willing to bear it."

"Agawa..." Sakuya's Ashbringer quickly faded away, as if he had received an excessive blow, and he could no longer support the Ashbringer's transformation.

"I'm okay, how about you guys?" Yita Takakawa replied grimly. He patrolled the expressions of Sakiya, Gregya, and Omi, and the garbled state of the brain hardware still did not return to normal. However, his brain has started to function again.

Sakiya didn't think that the man in front of her was really nothing, but she couldn't speak, and asked the man what happened? She is very clear. What kind of person is Gao Chuan. Although. The present Gaochuan seems to be completely different in temperament from the past Gaochuan, but the essence is still the same-Gaochuan. Never speak, complain and explain things that others cannot bear and cannot solve. Therefore, if Gao Chuan doesn't speak, then it must be something that people like him have listened to, and they can only do nothing-Sakiya is willing to believe, this is the truth.

I cannot do more for Gao Chuan. This is something that Sakiya has always been worried about. But what is the solution? What can't be done is can't be done. If you don't do it anyway, you can only trust the person who "sticks to oneself to do it".

She loves such Gaochuan so much. She couldn't imagine the days without Gao Chuan by her side.

Sakuya stared into the eyes of the prosthetic body Takakawa. She naturally saw the abnormality in the man’s left eye, but she didn’t say anything more, what she wanted to do, what she was able to do, she already knew well-I was by your side, no matter when Where, staying by your side, watching you, this is the only thing I can do.

"Fa, what happened?" Gregya finally came back. She could hardly concentrate on her wet pants, and murmured incredulously: "Gao Chuan, in the end...what are you... …"

"Except for one problem, I said before that a powerful conscious walker moved his hands and feet in my consciousness, but was rejected by me on the other side." Gao Chuan repeated the old excuse, "You are I forged a wall in my consciousness, and even I couldn’t get past the other end of the wall and the other side couldn’t get over. But just now, that guy cut a big hole in the wall and I almost got to Has been eroded."

"That's it?" When Gregya was still unable to turn his mind, Omi, who was in a better state, pressed his chest, his face was a bit bad, but he stared at the body Takakawa with interest and asked. She didn't seem to be corroded by fear at all, but Gao Chuan felt that this should have been the case. At first, he felt that Omi might be a kind of personality manifestation of "Jiang", but at this time, this kind of thinking was slightly deviated.

If Omi is really a part of "Jiang", then, during the explosive impact just now, Omi should be greatly affected, or it should have no effect, like the current negative side. On the contrary, Gao Chuan felt that his understanding of the strange existence in front of him was not completely correct.

"That's it." Gao Chuan's voice softened. The previous coldness was just because of his emotions, but he didn't want the current already stiff enough atmosphere to become dry and shriveled, "It's okay. , Gregya, don't worry, it's just a small mistake. You were just taken aback. It's not a big deal, isn't it?" He turned to Gregya who was finally relieved and said.

Gregya took a few deep breaths, and suddenly felt that her crotch was wet and cold. Only then did she realize what embarrassment was happening on her body. She stared down at the wet crotch, which was still dripping. , I only felt that my face was already burning, and the flame seemed to turn all her brain into steam.

She wanted to do something, but she had no tools at hand to redeem or conceal this miserable situation. Such embarrassment and shame made her almost forget her previous questioning. After a long while, she raised her head and said to Omi, who was still sane and indifferent, "Are there any clothes to change?"

"Follow up." Omi nodded, and went on without any muddle. "Don't make any more troubles like this. Mr. Takakawa, the whisperer, it's not a gentleman's behavior to embarrass women."

"It was just an accident~IndoMTL.com~Gao Chuan also gave Gregya an apologetic look. As soon as the other party almost met his gaze, he immediately turned his gaze and looked constipated.

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I was in Valpus’ night, looking at the gray sky. I feel that a certain change is taking place, not only because there is a huge negative emotion, sweeping towards me from a place that seems very far away and very close, but because of this feeling of change. , To make the feeling of "body" become more substantial-in this conscious world, I am tangible, but the real sense of the real body is not just tangible. I know very well that so far, I am still a ghost wandering in the ideological world, not even an independent personality, but just a tumor attached to another Gaochuan personality.

However, at this moment, this indescribable feeling seems to tell me that everything is about to change.

I feel that I am going out and returning to the normal world embodied by materialization. And such a change must be brought about by "Jiang". Therefore, in any case, it cannot be a completely good thing.

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