Restricted Doomsday Syndrome Chapter 890: Reunion through time and space

His body Gao Chuan has lost the power of a conscious walker. Although there is no instance to let him know about this situation, the feeling in his heart will not deceive himself. When the young Gao Chuan left, he felt like he had lost the other half of his soul. Although the prosthetic body would not get tired, he still couldn't eliminate the tiredness that grew from the bottom of his heart. It's just that, at the same time, he also has the same feeling of accommodating thoughts, as if the whole soul was washed with water. The previous feeling of mixed thoughts in his mind, like weeds, was completely eliminated.

He doesn't know whether this is good or bad for him. The only certainty is that this state will not last too long—before the world is destroyed, even if the young Gao Chuan doesn't come to him, he must find him. Gaochuan must have only one, and may be separated temporarily, but after all, there must be only one.

There are many things that Yitai Takakawa could not tell the people present, nor could he answer the questions raised by Omi. Regarding Omi's speculation, Gregya's overwhelming, and Sakiya's worries, the only response that can be made is silence. And silence is not always pleasant, nor is it what I want.

Omi turned on the computer on her desk, and when the fan sounded, she asked, "So, what do you want to talk to me? Mr. Takakawa."

Without hesitation, Gao Chuan took out the personality preservation device from his pocket and placed it in front of Omi. When Omi held it quietly with his fingertips and observed carefully, he said: "This is a personality preservation device. I hope you can restart it."

"Personality preservation device? The name is very straightforward. I got it from the ruling bureau?" Omi asked, turning his gaze back.

Gao Chuan was silent. The origin of this personality preservation device was a bit peculiar to this world line. He didn't want to deceive Omi. But, can you really tell her the real situation in this world line? After Omi became a researcher of Cyberball, did he still persist in his research on time machines? If you still persist, how much enthusiasm is for this research? Will this kind of enthusiasm be after hearing his situation? Let her make some unexpected decisions? These questions made Yitai Gaochuan had to hesitate.

"Whose personality do you plan to use this thing to preserve?" Omi asked again.

"I'm not from this world line." Yita Takakawa finally spoke. His words made both Gregya and Omi surprised. Only Sakiya, who had heard him say that, didn’t have anything. movement. In fact, it is difficult to understand the world line jump, because it can hardly be observed by anyone other than the jumper himself. Even in the world line theory. There shouldn't be a situation where the jumper can clearly recognize that he has already made a world line jump. Just like Sakuya’s eyes, Gao Chuan never left. The change in her attitude, although a bit weird, did not break away from her cognition. The man who had always been by her side said that he was not the same Gao Chuan she knew. , Is undoubtedly very confusing.

Human cognition and understanding. Very dependent on self-observation and experience, those that cannot be observed. It is also very vague to experience things that are clearly different. Take the world line jump as an example. Even if there are some weird differences between the attitudes and behaviors of the front and the back, but this difference alone cannot convince the other party. I am not a species that the other party recognizes as someone—because human beings are the species that is extremely prone to change of consciousness due to some small factors at some point, and it is also the species that is most adaptable to change. Even if it is human inertial cognition, it will naturally produce resistance response when it is impacted. However, this does not mean that every impact will be resisted.

Before and after differences in attitude and behavior, when they are not completely different, they cannot produce a clear outline in cognition.

Although Gao Chuan did not know what the “Gao Chuan” was like before he arrived at the world line, judging from the performance of whisperers and others, perhaps, before he jumped, the world line was What does not exist, there is no other Gaochuan. His so-called "jumping" is more like a "script" from the point of time when he jumped, and in an instant, based on his existence, he completed the construction of another "past".

So far, it is still difficult for him to understand his "jump". The use of Omi's world line theory is only to allow oneself to adapt to this change. From the "reality" level, the world line theory is not even correct. However, when you encounter this situation when you are in a doomsday illusion, there is only an explanation such as the world line theory, which is easier to have a cognitive outline.

In the past world lines, Omi’s world line theory has many conjectures about the existence of the world line itself. However, Omi himself and Yoshitaka Takakawa, for the simultaneous existence of multiple world lines, tend to be more, when they exist in one world line, the other world lines are between "existence" and "non-existence". In the meantime, maintaining the ambiguous possibility, or in other words, this theoretical possibility, is the essence of these "other world lines".

From this point of view, the prosthetic body Gao Chuan can better understand how the inability to experience the world line jump and observe the world line jump is a big obstacle to understanding and believing in this situation. Because, if it is really at the moment of "jumping" that the world line changes from "possibility" to "real", it also means that one's own existence is also coherent in this world line-this kind of coherence , Will not let the "jumping" self, produce a strong before-and-after contrast in the eyes of others. In other words, no matter whether you are "jumping" or not, there is nothing for people who observe yourself, such as Sakiya. What's strange, even her strange words and deeds, are the traits she possesses in her cognition.

So, can Omi, the creator of the world line theory, know his own truth? Seiki Takakawa stared at Omi, but Gregya chuckled and laughed: "You are here again, don't be so in the second grade, okay, you are such a big person, I feel embarrassed."

Yes, Gao Chuan knew that Gregya would react like this, because he hadn’t done experiments without him. And if he observes his own self-defense from the perspective of a third party, he will also feel like "this guy is really a serious patient with secondary disease". However, in terms of my own experience, what happened to me is so wonderful. Such a wonderful experience. When you can’t get the recognition and approval of others, you will never have much good feelings, let alone refute, because the basis of refutation lies in "consensus", and your own experience is an absolute self and cannot reach a consensus. .

No matter how you explain it. How to try to persuade others, since the foundation for doing so was lost at the beginning, the result is already conceivable. Yitai Gaochuan knows that, in many cases, his silence is not caused by his own personality, but simply that he has no room to speak.

He thought suddenly. Perhaps, I choose to be here. Speaking to Omi is also because he hopes that the other party can understand it, even though this understanding is still far away from the "truth" he has seen. Sakuya and Bajing believe in themselves. However, believing in itself does not mean understanding. Among the people that Kokawa can come into contact with in this world, only Omi is the one closest to understanding him.

At the same time, Gao Chuan seems to be able to understand the behavior of the young Gao Chuan better. Because. Maybe the other party is also facing the same situation as himself-isn't Omi also part of "Jiang"? Yitai Takakawa has always believed that Omi is a manifestation of "Jiang". Even oneself yearns for each other, hopes for each other, then, how can the young Gao Chuan who gets along longer and deeper, not choose the other party and trust the other party?

However, if Omi is a manifestation of "Jiang", how ridiculous my own mood at this time is.

Gao Chuan stared at Omi. The identity of the other party, the reality of the other party, the perception of the other party, and his own perception of this woman made him unable to explain the complex feelings in his heart.

Having eager to see the other person, hoping that the other person will walk towards him, but he resists the truth hidden in the depths, thus resisting the closeness of the other person. Yitai Takakawa never thought that when he saw Omi again, he would have such a complicated mood. Even for a moment, he remembered a saying in the Central Duchy: It is better to forget each other in the world.

"The look in your eyes... is really weird. Did we know it in the past?" I don't know how long it has been. In the sense of Yitai Takakawa, when I heard Omi say this, it seemed to have passed Like a century.

Omi switched to a sitting position, straightened his leaning forward body, and leaned on the back of the chair, as if observing a jewel, facing the light of the personality preservation device. The surface of the chip, when the angle changes, occasionally there will be texture-like reflections. Only at this time, this seemingly ordinary chip will give people a sense of mystery.

"Maybe, as you said, we have had a deep intersection in another world line." Omi's voice is very calm, just like her emotions, but this kind of stability is also As expected by Takakawa, because this was originally Omi's style he knew, if Omi was immediately emotional, it would make him feel the difference between her in the two world lines.

"Do you like the world line theory? Mr. Takakawa." I only heard Omi continue to ask: "I have liked science fiction stories since I was a child, especially stories about time travel. I am not afraid of your jokes. I stay here because This can provide me with the necessary conditions to study the time machine. I have imagined many times when a person, like a mysterious person in the story, suddenly stood in front of my eyes and said that he had come through time and space. However, from another From one perspective, I don’t want him to appear, because 99% of those guys are liars."

"Agawa is not a liar!" Sakiya spoke suddenly, her voice very firm, without any hesitation.

Omi turned his gaze, looked at Sakiya, and said with no expression: "Do you think he is real? Then, do you think that he who is standing here is the same person who has been with you in the past." Right?"

"I don’t know about the world line or something, but Agawa is Agawa. No matter what time, place, or what happened, Agawa will still be Agawa." Sakiya stared at Omi without any retreat. : "I believe him."

Omi nodded, and the corners of his mouth twitched slightly: "It turns out that he is such an eternal role in your eyes-no matter how time, place and circumstances change, the essence will not change? This is really what I heard. Ever, the best praise, and the strongest trust."

"He told me about you, so we came to you." Sakiya said. She just accepted what Omi said for granted.

"Really? This is really difficult to accept." Omi's eyes fluctuated a bit, "I can't observe, experience, or absolute evidence, so I can't tell the truth from the false." She paused. The smile at the corner of the mouth suddenly widened, and the calm tone of voice, as if thrown into the stove, exuded a kind of thorough and pure fanaticism, and said: "But, it doesn't matter, it feels good and interesting! Although emotional and Reason is unacceptable, but I will accept that since it is a situation beyond cognition, it may be necessary to exclude perceptual and rationality. I will help you, and I will use a time machine to prove what you are saying. Is it true or false."

Gregya opened her mouth wide, and Omi once again said something she couldn't understand: "Excluding sensibility and reason. How can we talk about accepting and believing? There is no basis for trust at all."

"There is some trust, no need to think to prove. No intuition to push." ​​Omi pointed to his heart, "It exists here."

"I don't understand." Gregya still shook her head, "If you are not recommended by the fire escape, I really think you are a mental patient."

"Of course, I’m a mental patient. Not only me, but also the Internet ball, the doomsday truth teaching, it’s the same. I stayed here for a long time and studied many things. I have always felt that probably the whole world is one The world of mental illness. There is no normal person who comes into contact with mysterious people, because normal people are already dead." Omi didn't care, but said something like this: "Actually, I think you are like this. It’s a miracle that someone who is rigid, accepts death, and pays attention to everything logic can survive in this circle."

Gregya was dumbfounded again. She felt that she couldn't keep up with the other person's thinking at all. This kind of person is definitely a real mental patient.

"However, even a normal guy like you is actually mentally ill." Omi stared at Gregya with a strange look, which made her feel very uncomfortable, and even gave her a sense of horror.

Yi Shi Gao Chuan has been silent all the time, but this time, he really wants to sigh-if the woman in front of him is not a projection of "Jiang", it would be weird! The levels she touched, the things she guessed and thought about, had surpassed the heights inside the doomsday illusion.

"Personality preservation device--" He planned the conversation between the two. At this time, Gregya was already at an absolute disadvantage. No, perhaps it would be more appropriate to describe it as "a chicken and a duck." Gregya could not imagine and could not accept everything that Omi showed and explained. The methods and angles of the two observing the world and understanding the world are different from the beginning.

"I'll fix it. It shouldn't be difficult. You can come and pick it up tomorrow." Omi didn't sell the gates anymore, and directly replied, "Will you come over tomorrow?"

"I will come." Gao Chuan nodded.

"Then, if there is nothing else, let's talk about it for now." Omi stood up and made an attitude of seeing off the guests, "Today's conversation is very interesting, I haven't been so happy in a long time. Mr. Takakawa, I hope you Can be my research assistant."

"Assistant?" Yitai Gaochuan suddenly felt a trance, because this word reconnected the disconnected place between the world lines. He paused before saying: "I have no research ability."

"No, I'm talking about the research assistant of the Time Machine Project. This is my personal research. Didn't you say that you are a world line traverser? I believe you are. If you are, then you can My research has a stimulating effect. From various angles, your existence is the basis for success." Omi said calmly.

"I need time to think about it." Yi Ti Gao Chuan did not directly agree. There is indeed hesitation in his heart. This hesitation is precisely the conflict caused by his guess about Omi's true identity. Although before I saw Omi, I really longed for Omi to be by his side, but when I saw her again, this longing was full of contradictions.

"I will show you some good things." As if implying something, Omi pushed on the gold-rimmed glasses and said, "I know what you are looking for. If you come over, I will let you see To her."

Yita Kokawa paused, turned his head, and wanted to ask her: "Is it Marceau?" But in the end he didn't say anything. He knew that Omi's personality was the same as the last world line, and it hadn't changed at all. She would never answer here again.

"I'll think about it seriously." Yi Ti Gao Chuan just replied, and walked out of the office without looking back.

The door closed behind the three.

Along the way, the three whisperers were silent for a while. Although Omi agreed to his own plan, the feeling of this negotiation was definitely not pleasant. Although there was no direct hostility or confrontation, the other party did not deliberately find fault, but the content of the conversation and the way of speaking , But the three of them have a feeling of "not smooth".

"It's really uncomfortable, that woman, it's so weird." Gregya complained first: "I don't even know what she is thinking. She is really a genius researcher? Shouldn't it be? Did you run out of the mental hospital?"

"Indeed, but, there is a...familiar feeling." Sakiya glanced back, "Agawa, is she really a member of our Whisperers?"

"Yes." Yitai Gaochuan replied without hesitation, "There is no doubt about this, she has not changed anything." (To be continued..)

ps: Looking at myself in the mirror, that face frightens me.

It is difficult for me to fall asleep in the dark, so I only slowly wiped away the tears.

The restless mood is dragging me to the edge of the cliff step by step~IndoMTL.com~ On the tear-stained face, the traces of the years are being written.

Look at the drizzle scattered, slowly falling to the ground.

It feels like traveling through time and space, the past has come before you.

Your appearance is as brilliant as a rainbow, illuminating me every day.

Thank you for your sunshine-like warmth, which has awakened all the love in my life.

Looking at yourself in the mirror, slowly wipe away the tears,

I don't know what can make me remember.

There is infinite emotion in my heart, I am looking forward to a bright future,

I don't know what else will keep me going.

——"In the Mirror", original song: Distorted Machine