Return To 1977 Chapter 145: The courage to love

lnmao.org, the fastest update to return to the latest chapter of 1977!

The road of life is never smooth sailing, it is full of ups and downs as well as opportunities. In the same era, some people will have regrets about love due to the tricks of fate, and some people will rekindle the courage to love because of the persistence of the other person...

Three days after Hong Yanwen arrived in the capital, Chang Xianzhang, who was far away in the "May 7th Cadre School" in Xingkai Lake, also had to face his true feelings.

Chang Xianzhang really did not expect that in addition to a sister who stayed in the capital where he had been away for eight years, there would be many people who were thinking about him deeply. They were his two former students, Hong Yanwu and Chen Liquan, as well as his former lover who he had voluntarily cut off all contact with and thought he had married someone else.

On the table were eighty-nine letters written to him by the "head teacher", which were specially brought to him by Hong Yanwu and Chen Liquan. According to them, the class teacher could not send it out, so in order to express his thoughts, he had to put a small part of it in his old book at home.

Yesterday, whether out of fear or guilt, he did not dare to look at it at that time, or even ask in detail. It was not until this morning, after he put the two students who came to see him on the train, that he finally got up the courage to open the letters when he returned home.

This was out of control, and he didn't miss every word. It was like tears and sincerity, which had a huge impact on his soul.

"...I know you love me, and I love you crazily. Love is a flower that has been watered since the beginning of mankind. Why should we suppress our respective emotions to make this flower What about withering? You said that our situation is bad, but no matter how bad the situation is, it can always accommodate this little flower of love. Do you know that when we are separated, the only thing I hope for is your reply. You are so cruel that you stopped writing to me and sent all my letters back. Tell you, I can't find any other happiness as you said..."

"...My family forces me to meet a lot of people, but it doesn't work. I will think of you every time I see you. You should know that emotions cannot be fake. True love only comes once in life. , apart from you, it is impossible for me to fall in love with another person..."

"...I advocate freedom, and first of all I advocate the freedom of love. Petofi's poem pitting love against freedom is so ridiculous. This world full of thorns is indeed too bad, but you know there is another word called ' A duel? This kind of courage is the test of the authenticity of love. Why can't we duel with the hateful external world? Frankly speaking, even if you are not willing to fight with me, I will. I have decided to declare war on the world, even if I am alone! Even if you are willing to form a family with someone else in the end, I will never marry another person. This may be what you often say is my stubbornness..."

In a daze, Chang Xianzhang recalled many long-lasting past events. Those memories were only indifferently avoided but never forgotten. They seemed to be illuminated by a bright light source at the same time, all as vivid as movie scenes. vividly before his eyes.

He remembered the whispers with her under the old elm tree on campus, he recalled the joy of watching lotus flowers with her by the Tongzi River, he remembered the small boat with her on Fanzhou Lake in Beihai, and There was the rain that day, the umbrella that day, those two hands holding each other, and the sweetness that will always linger in my heart...

Yes, he finally thought clearly about the emotion that had been troubling his heart. It was clearly a kind of separation and regret. What shocked him was that he had never felt anything like this before when he was so old. This feeling came so suddenly and so strongly that he couldn't control himself for a moment.

He thought that returning the letter from the "head teacher" would make the girl change her mind. But who would have thought that the "head teacher" would be such a passionate woman with such a rich and colorful relationship. After so long, she was still waiting for him.

To be honest, for so many years, he has always used "for her own good" to strengthen his belief. But now that I think about it carefully, I am afraid that the truth is not that he has the courage to sacrifice for love, but that he is avoiding love out of an unbearable burden. He not only broke her heart, but also delayed her youth! What he did was so cowardly, so low-level, and so bad.

When Chang Xianzhang thought of this, he couldn't stand it. He suddenly felt a lump in his throat, and a hot stream of heat spurted out from the depths of his heart. At this moment, his stubbornness over the years completely collapsed... …

He had never cried like this before. It was a heart-wrenching pain. He tried his best to suppress himself and bit the corner of his mouth hard to prevent himself from crying. This feeling was too uncomfortable. He felt that it was difficult to breathe, and he couldn't breathe at all. The heat that was eager to spurt out could not find an outlet, so it was tumbling and rushing in his body, causing his body to twitch violently. And he couldn't control it in the end and couldn't help but howl...

Chang Xianzhang’s father, Chang Zhongkun, and mother, Xu Meimei, entered the house at some point. When they saw the letter on the desk, they couldn't help but look at each other. In fact, through Hong Yanwu, they also learned something about this matter yesterday, and they are not completely ignorant now.

Xu Meili couldn't help but comfort her son, "Xianzhang, just cry. It will feel better if you cry. Men have to cry too. It's not a shame."

Chang Zhongkun also said, "It's not shameful. It's worth it for such a girl. What's her... name?"

"Gu Lingye, her name is Gu Lingye."

Chang Xianzhang finally had enough crying. He wiped away his tears and calmed down. He was silent for a while and made up his mind completely.

"Dad, Mom, I have to go back to the capital to find her."

Unexpectedly, his parents seemed to have expected this, and they were all very supportive.

Even Chang Zhongkun said in agreement, "In my opinion, it's time for you to go back. Didn't your two students say that the capital will change drastically? Maybe you go back and try your luck, maybe I I really have a chance to take off my hat as soon as possible. If that happens, the matter between you and that girl will not be a problem."

Chang Xianzhang was very surprised when he heard this and couldn't help but ask his father.

"Dad, aren't you the most disgusted with running relationships and going through the back door? Why are you now..."

Unexpectedly, Chang Zhongkun sighed softly and whispered, "I think so now, and I am opposed to relying on favors to get things done. However, there will be exceptions in life. Still your student named Hong Yanwu, Yesterday I made it clear. If I don't think about myself, I have to think about you. If I don't think about you, I have to think about that girl. You will be forty in a few years, and the girl is also over thirty. I can wait for redress step by step, but you and that girl can't afford to wait. After all, I am a mortal, how can I let you two completely delay your life? It's a pity that friendship alone is not enough, but we are. The current situation of the family..."

"Dad, don't worry. I have money. When my two students left today, they left me five hundred yuan and one hundred catties of food stamps, just for me to go back to the city to run connections... ”

Chang Zhongkun and Xu Meimei were surprised again. After looking at each other again, they couldn't help but sigh sincerely together.

"Son, your job as a teacher these past few years has not been in vain. In our half-life education, we have never met a single student like this..."