Return To 1977 Chapter 207: Empathy

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So far, Yang Weifan has not finished complaining, and he has followed up with another article about his depression in the army. The deeper reasons for these things were even more difficult for Hong Yanwu and others to imagine.

"Also, maybe you also think that it is a good thing for me to have such a father. I can join the army and my future is like a safe. But you don't know that this kind of future is not exciting. Comfortable.”

"First of all, I have loved painting since I was a child. My personal ambition has always been to go to an art school and become a professional painter. Even if I can't go to college or become a famous artist, I can still become an art teacher. But in In my family, this is not allowed."

"My father believed that his children should become soldiers. And my mother, she was even more enthusiastic about it than my father. Because she only had me as her only child, she wanted me to have a brighter future than my brothers and sisters. This way she can only raise her head in this family and have someone to rely on when she is old."

"Our Chinese people believe that filial piety comes first. Well, for the sake of my mother, I am willing to give up my ideals. So I came and enlisted in my father's old army. But what I didn't expect was that here was actually Will be calculated and excluded."

"I went to the Naval Academy at first, and after graduation I was supposed to be a member of the boarding force. But I never expected that my brothers and sisters seemed unwilling to see me graduate smoothly. I don’t know who it was. , he tricked me behind the scenes and instigated one of my classmates to deliberately get me drunk outside the school, causing me to be expelled from the school for staying out all night.”

"After my mother found out, she used some connections to transfer me to the grassroots unit. Unexpectedly, it was even worse. Because the story of my expulsion from the naval force spread not long after, and the grassroots leaders didn't know what I was. For whatever reason, they all regard me as a backward example among the back-door soldiers, and they don’t want me from the bottom of their hearts. Although I work hard in everything, they are prejudiced and don’t like me no matter how they look at me. They gave me guidance and kept me from committing crimes. If there was a small problem, they would cause trouble and they would like to take me somewhere else.”

“I was not convinced at first, and I made a point of reporting this differential treatment to my boss once. But I didn’t expect that the company I was in was a place where Shandong people gathered together. From the instructor to the company commander, platoon leader, and squad leader, they were all fellow countrymen. . I was scolded immediately and saw what it means for officials to protect each other."

"Actually, it would be okay if it were just the cadres who treated me like this, but ordinary soldiers also had feelings of repulsion towards me. There is a situation that you may not know. In the army, rural soldiers and urban soldiers are extremely difficult to deal with, and There is a disparity in strength. Just because of the differences between urban and rural areas, urban soldiers are regarded as "alien" in an army where rural soldiers are dominant. If they want to be promoted and join the party, urban soldiers must first put their tail between their legs and then compete with rural soldiers. You have to work harder and be more positive. But even so, because of different living habits, such as urban soldiers washing their faces with soap, loving to wash clothes, being picky about eating, etc., they often get ridiculed by the 'young master'. ”

"My company, including me, has no more than twenty urban soldiers, which is the hardest hit area in this situation. I am also the focus of the leader's deliberate care. As time goes by, I feel that I can't stay any longer. My mother once told me that I would be fine as long as I survived the recruitment period. I thought about it and decided to just avoid it, so I offered to do the dirtiest job and just raise pigs for the army. When it comes to exercises and running, no one can tell me what to do. This is exactly what our company leader wants, and we will approve it immediately.”

"In this way, I started to raise pigs. I was really willing to live a very practical life. But I didn't expect that my mother's words had other meanings. As soon as I was out of the recruit period, I could be promoted. Deputy Commander of the Military Region Entrusted by my mother, he came to the company specifically for me and wanted to see me by name. When he saw my situation, he was furious and punished all my company leaders immediately, and then immediately arranged for me to join the party and be promoted. . But because of this, my reputation in the army was completely ruined."

"First, this incident made many grassroots cadres hate me. In their eyes, joining the army is a very glorious thing. How many outstanding young people can't win this opportunity, and promotion is even more important. It’s difficult. It’s so easy for me to achieve it, which makes them feel very unbalanced. To be honest, I feel unfair, but this is not something I can decide. I am really forced to do so. ."

"Secondly, everyone in our company, after knowing that I was related to the higher-ups, thought that I was responsible for retaliating against the company leaders. There were constant rumors behind the scenes, saying that I was a rich man and it was intentional. I set up a trap for the company leaders to get in. Even the city soldiers who were nice to me at first started to avoid me."

"In anger, I simply broke the can and went to the deputy commander again, begging him to give me a place to stay at home. Just like that, the deputy commander asked me to come to the shore of 'Lao Tieshan' The service troops are here to look at the warehouse. The company commander is responsible for the lighthouse on the mountain. The responsibilities below the mountain are not important. They are all under my control. To put it bluntly, I only have a name, so that I can suppress the platoons under me. Don't be angry. In essence, you are still a platoon-level cadre who gets fifty-two yuan."

"But you also saw it just now. Cui Tiezhu, because he is from Shandong, still has a good opinion of me. He probably thought that I squeezed his promotion opportunity. So since I came here, he gave me a promotion I've made no less than ten reports. It's a pity that he didn't understand that I came here to be free. Although I don't do anything, I only get drunk once a day, but no one can do anything to me. The less motivated I am, the nicer my brothers and sisters are to me. They send me food, drinks, clothes, and everything in the mail, and they also send me money. Are you envious of me? OK, you can get whatever you want..."

At this point, Yang Weifan became excited, and his voice actually rose a little higher, as if he wanted to take the opportunity to vent all the depression in his heart.

"I have told all my story. You can all analyze it for me now. Who should I be? A son of a cadre? No! No one in the compound cares about me, nor do my brothers and sisters. Think of me as a thorn in your side. Those old friends have become strangers to me. What about the city soldiers and the rural soldiers? I can't protect my family and my country! What I didn't expect is that even you two fellows from the capital despise me... Why am I so disgusting? I'm not a thing, am I? You shouldn’t live..."

Listening to these emotional words, the other four people present felt extremely uncomfortable.

This kid is so pitiful! It's so pitiful that no one can tell how pitiful it is.

Especially Hong Yanwu, from a certain aspect, Yang Weifan is so similar to him.

This is not to say that the specific life experiences are similar. But the helplessness of being ignored by others and the loneliness of not being understood! Even from the bottom of my heart, trying to anesthetize my own emptiness and confusion!

This gave him an instant "empathy" experience, and it also made it difficult for him to remain calm and watch.

He picked up the wine bottle and poured half of it into the bottle. Sympathy and understanding were released in an instant. The ice of inherent prejudice and defensiveness also begins to melt.

"Brother, my judgment of people is too limited! Can I take back what I just said? I gave you this wine to apologize, can I just drink it all?"

Yang Weifan drunkenly grabbed Hong Yanwu's hand to drink. "No, you don't mind me?"

"You're not interested anymore. Okay, do you want to hear it? Now I have to say that you are indeed a person worth getting along with. You are quite temperamental! The problem is that I am a 'Black Category 5', and you are still Do you want to be friends with me? ”

Yang Weifan finally turned from anger to joy, laughed loudly, and picked up the wine bottle.

"I don't care if it's black or red! Well, I won't say anything, just for your sincere words, treat me as a friend! Drink, I will accompany you! Not only these two bottles of wine I’m going to finish drinking today, and I still have ‘Bincheng Laobai’ in the car, so don’t pretend to be a bear!”

When Chen Liquan, "General" and "Dead Corpse" looked at it, their expressions were relieved, and they all raised the wine jars one after another.

The "general" even joked boldly, "Drink! Get drunk and you'll stop! We 'Hai Pengzi' know how to repay our friends, as long as 'Yang Zi' can still get up and return to the army."

Yang Weifan said coaxingly, "Don't worry. It doesn't matter if you can't get up. Whoever is still awake will help bring a message. Just say that the uncle drank too much and won't go back today. What's wrong?"

Hong Yanwu smiled.

"What the **** are you doing? Aren't you just a little platoon leader?"