Return To 1977 Chapter 523: Heart knot

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Meeting Hong Yanwu was really a great accident in Xuan Ye’s life. In her previous life, the sun had always been bright.

She was born in the same year as Hong Yanwu in 1960, but since she was born, as the youngest and only girl in this family of senior cadres, she has received special care and protection from her family both at home and outside.

Her parents wanted stars but were afraid to give her the moon. They would stick to her first for any good thing.

For example, the imported chocolate candies at home are always owned by her alone, and no one else is allowed to touch them.

Even if her son was so greedy that he would drool while watching her eat candy, her parents would never give them a piece of her chocolate.

Say "Go!" and they will go away obediently with a greedy look on their face.

And her three brothers also truly love and care for her. Not only did she let her do everything at home, but outside, even if other children dared to lay a finger on her, they would definitely fight to the death if anyone dared to make her cry.

So she did not suffer from lack of nutrition during the three years of natural disasters, nor did she suffer any bullying during the chaotic years of the "movement".

Since I can remember, I have been living in the military compound. Everything is so simple and worry-free. She has been a class cadre from elementary school to middle school. She is a proud girl in the eyes of teachers and classmates. She is used to hearing praises and compliments.

As for when her hula suddenly grows up, the "movement" is over. Her family also moved up the ladder again with her father, moving from the small western-style building in the General Logistics Courtyard into a large courtyard.

It goes without saying that her future has been arranged by her family a long time ago. She is still the darling of the army, and she only needs to wait to join the party and be promoted.

To put it bluntly, she can get things that others need to put in a lot of effort and may not be able to get without any effort at all. Her understanding of the objective world is that as long as she likes it, she can get it.

It was in this fairy tale world that she fell in love with Hong Yanwu.

As a young girl’s face heats up and her heart beats, life becomes brighter and more beautiful.

During the time the two of them got together, she was in a happy mood every day, humming songs and having bright eyes. What I look forward to most is every Tuesday and Friday.

Every time Hong Yanwu appeared, her heart would beat wildly and her brain would be in a state of hypoxia, making her dizzy.

She was willing to do anything for him, so she took the initiative to help him find connections with his father's old subordinates, just to make him happy.

She couldn't explain why she liked someone like him. Hong Yanwu and the prince charming in her dream were not the same thing at all.

But she liked him, and Prince Charming quickly faded away. She began to put the definition of happiness in Hong Yanwu, thinking that their future should be connected to each other.

It's a pity that after that heavy rain day, the rose-colored dream weaved by the girl's feelings was shattered. She never thought that something like that would happen at that time, and Hong Yanwu's feedback to her was a flat refusal.

This **** was so heartless that he actually claimed to know nothing about her feelings and told her that their relationship could only be a normal friendship. Then he ran away in the heavy rain as if running for his life.

This made her feel extremely uncomfortable. I blushed for my own boldness and rashness, and I couldn't accept that my purest and softest emotional part was rejected so easily and hard.

She did not go back to her home that day and cried almost all night in the unit "three doors above". She called her home and lied that she was soaked by the rain and the road was too muddy to walk on, so she wanted to stay here overnight.

This was the first time she had lied to her mother. She didn't want her family to see her looking sad. She felt so embarrassed about it that she didn't want to tell anyone.

In addition, she really needs to think carefully about her relationship with Hong Yanwu.

Is there really something wrong with me and is it completely unrequited love?

Is it because her charm is not as great as she thought? Maybe the boys who like her have too narrow vision, so they rate her as "Admiral Ye"?

To do this, she looked for clues from every word and every detail since she came into contact with Hong Yanwu.

But her way of thinking is immaturely idealistic and emotional, which will inevitably lead to problems. She always unconsciously magnifies the things she is willing to discover and ignores the details she is not happy to see.

So she had to come to the conclusion that Hong Yanwu didn't dislike her, but didn't dare to like her.

Perhaps Hong Yanwu had low self-esteem because of his status in the labor camp, felt that he was not worthy of her, had no future and no results, and could not bear to delay and hurt her, so he did not develop a romantic relationship with her!

This made her feel a lot more comfortable, but at the same time she was disgusted with Hong Yanwu's cowardice, and absolutely hated the inferiority and limitations of this kind of common people. Thinking again about Hong Yanwu's speech at the Yang family and his unprogressive mentality, I felt that he had no future.

Okay then, since you have no courage and don’t know how to make progress, then I’ll just ignore you as you wish!

She finally made the same decision as Hong Yanwu, although the starting point was completely different.

It's a pity that people are born with contradictions. Emotions will always conflict with reason. Even though you have already thought about things well, you still have to fight with yourself.

She soon realized that she was the one who was worthless.

Because she couldn't help but think about Hong Yanwu, and she couldn't forget the days she spent with Hong Yanwu.

This was the first and only time in her life that she felt the taste of love, and it was so wonderful, so sweet, and unforgettable no matter what.

This caused her to be in a very contradictory state of mind in the next few days.

On the one hand, when I think of Hong Yanwu, I don’t get angry at all.

This coquettish **** caused a huge mess and made her lovesick. He actually ran away with his hands and didn't even call to ask or say a few words of comfort or apology. Acting as if nothing had happened is too much.

On the other hand, she couldn't help but find reasons and excuses for Hong Yanwu. On the contrary, I think he is a self-respecting person who knows how to love himself.

This is just like those ancient stories where a famous lady falls in love with a poor boy. The poor boy rejects the love of a famous lady. Although he is stupid, his image will be higher. This is called wealth and wealth cannot be promiscuous, and poor people have endless ambitions.

The more she thought about it, the more she hated herself. The more he grudges him.

Finally she figured it out. No matter what, she had to find Hong Yanwu and talk to him again.

If they could really be together, she would forgive him, and she would work hard to help him overcome all kinds of difficulties and make him a person worthy of her.

And if we can't reconcile as before, we have to meet again, even if we scold this kid and vent the bad breath in our heart.

Otherwise, if this continues, she will be the only one who is in trouble, and she will be the only one feeling sad. What a loss!