The Deadly Hitwoman: A Lady With Special Abilities Chapter 1111: No complaints in this life, no regrets in this situation (3)

Ning Xu curled his lips and gave Shui Jingmo a cheerful and soft smile, just like when they were still together, when he faced him, he always raised his lips unconsciously The corners, and the fundus of the eyes, are full of affection that is about to overflow.

"Ah Jing," Ning Xu called softly.

Just these two words made Shui Jingmo's heart tremble, and the words that fell on his lips couldn't be said at all.

"Have you ever loved me?" Ning Xu looked at him, with longing and expectation in his eyes, just like when he hugged his waist and acted like a baby.

Shui Jingmo's fingers in the wide sleeves were tightly clenched together, and he didn't even feel it when his nails dug into the palm of his hand.

His face was calm, and his eyes were even more calm.

But at this moment, he already felt so strenuous even standing facing him like this. He clearly knew that even if he blinked his eyes now, all his persistence might collapse.

Let all the persistence in the past ten years be reduced to ashes.

He could not answer.

He knew that he must love him. Xiao Xu was the only person he loved in Shui Jingmo's life, and he loved him to the core.

But he can't say, he can't.

The mother who had been dependent on each other for many years had been threatening him in various ways, even at the cost of her life, so he couldn't turn a blind eye to it. He married Feng Peining, so he couldn't be irresponsible to Feng Peining.

All his cruelty can only be used on the person he loves the most, Xiao Xu.

That's why people are such a jerk, often all the harm will only be done to the person who loves you the most and you love very much, it's like an instinct.

He can't say he loves him.

But if he doesn't love, he can't even say it. He has already said the most hurtful thing to him, and the thing that hurt him even more, he really can't say it. This is much harder than letting him die.

So all these years he has been avoiding, avoiding Xiao Xu, and also avoiding himself, because he can't give the answer to this question, including himself, he can't give the answer.

Looking at the silent Shui Jingmo, Ning Xu suddenly smiled lightly, walked forward, and gently hugged Shui Jingmo.

That's great, it's still the familiar temperature and smell on his body, nothing has changed.

And this moment, it's all real.

It's not the illusory dreams he bought with the puppet grass, it's not his stiff body, stiff eyes, and numb temperature in the dream.

Now it's all real, he's real, hug him.

Ning Xu raised his head slightly, Shui Jingmo's face was very close to him.

"I like you very much, Ah Jing." Ning Xu bent his lips, and some cold lips fell on Shui Jingmo's lips. He wanted to stay longer, and wanted to caress his familiar temperature , wanting the kind of attachment of lips and teeth and the integration of mutual absorption, but he just touched it lightly and left.

Shui Jingmo just stood there, but his heart was already shaken.

As long as Xiao Xu's lips stay there for even a second, he may not be able to restrain himself from wanting to hug him crazily.

Ning Xu let go of Shui Jingmo, took two steps back, and quietly stared into his eyes, so deep and nostalgic.

"Xiao Xu, what's the matter with you today?" Shui Jingmo's fingers clenched even tighter, and he tried hard to relax himself.