The Deadly Hitwoman: A Lady With Special Abilities Chapter 964: How ridiculous

In the past three days, Han Litong has never entered the underground palace.

She has been thinking about the life she has lived in these years, wondering whether she likes her self-righteously, whether she really likes Fengxi, whether she is really in love with Fengxi, or whether she feels too much guilt towards him a little.

She found that she really didn't know.

She thought that after he left, she finally fell in love with him, even more deeply and caringly than falling in love with that person back then. She thought so.

But all these years, she still doesn't have him in her life.

She couldn't help but ask herself, what exactly is she doing?

If it is said, who is the best person in this world to her, then there is no doubt that it must be her brother Fengxi. But she never really cherished his affection, until finally, he finally had no affection for her. She has been particularly clear about the words he said before he died, if there is an afterlife, let's not meet again.

If there is an afterlife, let's not meet again.

The moment he closed his eyes and lost his vitality, she felt that her world was dark, and from then on, she was really helpless.

She was so self-righteous and stubborn, she didn't get anything back.

At the beginning, she thought that she had sacrificed the people she saved, but now probably no one remembers her.

And the person she once loved deeply died long ago.

She felt that she had nothing left, and in the end, her elder brother Feng Xi who loved her the most also died, and she no longer loved her.

In the past few days, she has thought countless times, what is the point of her being so immersed in these irreparable pains and feelings? Just like what Han Jing said, what is the point of her not letting him go and not letting go of herself?

No one has harmed her, but she has harmed herself.

She is too proud and self-righteous, she always thinks she can do anything, but in the end she did nothing.

Even her own two daughters have no affection for her, because she has never fulfilled the responsibility of being a mother, and even Qingjue, who grew up beside her, has never been embraced by her. She never gave her the slightest mother's warmth. She is not a qualified mother, she didn't care about these before, but when she saw Han Jing getting along with Su Yaozheng, her heart was really hurt.

She thought she didn't need anything, she was lonely, she was not favored by God, she stayed in her own world to enjoy herself alone, never thought about why she fell to where she is today.

Who does she love? She really didn't know.

"I know, even if I apologize to you, even if I admit my mistake, it's meaningless." Han Litong walked to Fengxi's coffin, staring at Fengxi's face quietly, but her words The words were spoken to Han Jing.

"I admit that as a mother, I have never loved you or Jue'er. I used to think that all family relationships are like this. They are responsibilities, not feelings. My own eyes did not take a serious look at the world."

"I have been covering all my true emotions with superficial vanity, forgetting that the human heart is the softest thing."

It's as if she naively thought that the mutual love and interests between her and Ninth Brother were earth-shattering and unswerving love, how ridiculous.