The Epic Revenge Chapter 1447: Too deep feelings
At that time, when Pei Cheng heard Si Qiongzhi's words, his whole body froze involuntarily.
It seems like a room full of candles, suddenly a rush of cold wind blows, blowing the originally bright and warm room into dark and cold.
Pei Cheng felt that his voice was far away, very empty, as if it came from other places, with an unreal feeling: "Did I not explain it clearly?"
Si Qiongzhi was silent and said, "No, it's me."
Her feet stepped on the warm beach, and the light brown fine sand slowly wrapped the soles of her feet. It was a very gentle touch, but she seemed to be stepping on the tip of a knife.
"In my heart, you've always been a bit of a mystery. I can't see through you, I can't guess your personality. And, if something happens, the first thing I do is take you to the most vicious places Think." Si Qiongzhi said.
Pei Cheng followed her and looked at his feet with the help of the moonlight: "I can understand it later."
"I think the beginning of a relationship should be a good one. But we... when you first saw me, you definitely didn't think I had anything good. I've always been mean, yes Other men are like this, especially for you." Si Qiongzhi lowered his head.
If she hadn't been so mean, she wouldn't have imagined him that way.
When there was a little trouble, she subconsciously did not defend him, but doubted him first.
If it goes on like this, Si Qiongzhi feels that she will exhaust this person, **** the light out of him, and make him become as vicious as her.
She doesn't want that.
This relationship may have many desirable things, but she lost the opportunity to go up.
"I'm sorry, Dr. Pei." Si Qiongzhi said, "In the future, you may be glad I said this at this time. You still have fantasies, but you just don't understand me."
Pei Cheng tried to say something, but Si Qiongzhi turned around and got into the car.
Later, she stopped talking to Pei Cheng.
Pei Cheng is a gentleman in this regard, and it's almost ten o'clock in the evening. If he doesn't send the girl home, his family will be worried.
He drove Si Qiongzhi away.
Since that day, they have reverted to their former indifferent relationship.
Si Qiongzhi avoided him as much as possible.
Pei Cheng thought about it a lot, he guessed her thoughts: Does she think she is unworthy?
At the same time, he felt that his guess was ridiculous. That is Miss Si, she is always very proud, how could she have an inferiority complex?
"Do I know her?" Pei Cheng also doubted her.
He hates that he has never been involved in love before, does not understand a girl's mind, has no experience, and can't handle it.
In short, the relationship was temporarily put on hold, and there was nothing he could do.
He returned to the former Doctor Pei, a little silent, a little cold, meticulous in his work, and dull and old-fashioned.
Pei Cheng was lying on the window sill at the moment, thinking about everything, except "go with the flow", he had nothing to do. Fortunately, he has had a long-term crush experience and knows how to deal with his own crush.
His thoughts ran wild, and he returned to his office top-heavy.
As soon as he entered the door, he saw Si Qiongzhi sleeping on the sofa.
He takes a breath.
After a long while, he moved his feet, walked into the office lightly, and closed the door.
He sits behind his desk.
At this position, you can see Si Qiongzhi.
His ups and downs weren't enough for him to take advantage of others, so he just watched without blinking.
When Si Qiongzhi woke up, he opened his eyes and saw such affectionate and nostalgic eyes.
She quickly apologized: "Why did I fall asleep?"
Fleeingly glanced at her watch, she said, "I have to go."
Pei Cheng nodded, stood up and opened the door for her, with a little embarrassment on his face, because she was hit by the voyeur.
Si Qiongzhi was also in a trance that day.
Whether she was going to work or going home, she always had those eyes in front of her eyes: such a deep and strong nostalgia, with such a deep pain, fell on her.
She dreamed of Pei Cheng when she slept, so she cried and said to him: Don't look at me like this, put away your feelings, and don't feed the dog.
When I struggled to wake up, I realized it was a dream.
Si Qiongzhi counted his life for more than 20 years, over and over again, and asked himself: "Who loved me like this?"
The feeling was so deep, it never bothered her or disturbed her, but it was there all the time.
Like the trapped beast in his heart, he was firmly locked up. Only at a certain hidden moment would it reveal its roar, which made people's souls hot.
Si Qiongzhi shed tears and sat on her bed crying: "Si Qiongzhi, I hate you, you are such a bad thing!"
Why do you always doubt him?
Why can't you be like other girls who understand the kindness of others and give it up?
Why are you so ruthless, like a handicapped person with a natural lack of affection?
The more sober Si Qiongzhi became, the more ugly she felt—that waitress, a person who had nothing to do with their lives, made any provocative words, and she became suspicious all the way.
Really, if you think about it from another angle, Si Qiongzhi thinks such people are utterly hateful, and they don't deserve to be loved at all.
She did not dare to face Pei Cheng directly.
The deeper Pei Cheng's feelings are, the more afraid she is, and she feels that she is not qualified.
She flinched and didn't dare to go forward. It was like a pure white snowscape, so majestic and vast, the heaven and earth could accommodate it, but she didn't dare to set foot.
Stepping on a mud spot with one foot only ruined Pei Cheng's feelings.
Si Qiongzhi cried this time, and his tense emotions were vented, but people became more energetic.
She still remembers Ruan Yanfeng, thinking about going to see him when she is resting.
At the same time, she also misses Xu Pei.
She has not discussed Xu Pei with anyone again.
Xu Pei died, so unexpected, but no one wanted to mention it. Si Qiongzhi didn't want to be the one who didn't wink, so she didn't mention it.
A few days later, Si Qiongzhi finally met Ruan Yanfeng.
Ruan Yanfeng has lost weight all over his body, and there are only skinny bones on his handsome cheeks. His eyes were gray, and all the spirit in them was drained.
"Yan Feng?" Si Qiongzhi pushed him.
Ruan Yanfeng looked at her for a long time, but her eyes could not focus. It took a long time to recognize her: "Why are you here? Are you not working?"
"I'm very worried about you." Si Qiongzhi said.
Ruan Yanfeng's face was expressionless, and it was difficult to move his lips: "Don't worry. No matter how worried, I can only do this."
"You need to get better." Si Qiongzhi said, "Did you get his suicide note? Do you know why he committed suicide?"
"I got it." Ruan Yanfeng said.
In his life, all the torches were extinguished, even the ashes were cold.
Xu Pei told him in his suicide note, let him live well and see the new world.
The world in the future may be different from them. People who experience the same feelings as them may have a way out.
"Yanfeng, I have something for you." Si Qiongzhi said, "It belongs to Abei, he gave it to me before, and I will transfer it to you now."
Ruan Yanfeng looked at her suddenly. There seemed to be a ray of light in his gray eyes.