The Righteous Player(s) Chapter 35: The awareness of being abandoned by the world
This is even the memory that Annan peeked from Nicholas's heart, and it is not exactly the same content.
Until his death, Nicholas believed that he had killed his adoptive father, Isaac. And carrying this awareness of "no turning back", we moved forward without looking back.
——Compared to his biological father who never cared about him except finding him an adoptive father after giving birth to him, Isaac is undoubtedly closer to his real father and his mother.
But only after the "dead man" himself explained the matter, did Annan know that there was another aspect to this history.
Nicholas did indeed murder Isaac.
But Isaac did not die.
Even though he was betrayed by his adopted son, he did not become angry, desperate, or full of resentment. Instead, he rationally wants to explore the reasons behind this.
So he turned into a soul state and looked at Nicholas's countermeasures in a condescending manner - I'm afraid he was still in the empty spiritual world, with his hands folded and evaluating Nicholas's actions that were inappropriate and his words that were inappropriate. Leave something to talk about.
Until the end, when Nicholas buried Isaac's "ashes".
...Nicholas finally realized what he had done.
But there is no turning back.
If you turn back at this time, it will be equivalent to admitting your stupidity... It will be equivalent to turning your father's death into a joke.
——After he woke up, he realized how stupid his initial move was.
What creates a new world and something beyond human intelligence...
That was obviously just a child's outrageous remark, and even he himself had never believed it. The reason why he fought so hard against Isaac was just out of anger from the emptiness that had been accumulated in his heart for a long time and was not recognized by others.
It's just that he doesn't want to admit that Isaac is right.
Because of this, he couldn't turn back - but he had to complete a goal from the bottom of his heart, which even he himself thought was impossible.
Let history no longer decline.
We want this world to keep getting better, and reach the [infinite realm of perfection] with an infinite spiral. If the world cannot fulfill his wishes... then change him.
"——Human beings have been living in hypocrisy since ancient times, deceiving others and deceiving themselves. The so-called "wishes" are just nice words.
"——The motto passed down from the Jade Tower to this day, 'sublimate everything to a more perfect state,' is a motto that cost me my whole life... In the end, even the owner of the tower did not take it seriously."
In the words that the demon dragon Nicholas uttered to Annan with hatred...if the "others" part was removed. The rest of the words are equally true.
Because he is resenting himself.
It's not "even Isaac didn't take it seriously", but "even the Lord of the Tower didn't take it seriously".
Because when he became the master of the tower... even Nicholas himself no longer believed in that absurd wish.
But knowing this, we must move forward. He could not betray the crime he had carried - it was his attitude of a ridiculous fool that was recognized by the Jade Tower.
"It's not that he killed me and stole the identity of the tower master, but that he inherited my position and responsibilities in another way.
“The election of the parliament is a kind of inheritance, the change of blood is a kind of inheritance, and the passing of the flames of the Black Tower in the Zedi is also a kind of inheritance. The strong rise, the losers fall... naturally it is also a kind of inheritance.
"Nicholas also knows nothing about this. But he doesn't need to know this, because there is actually no difference to him. After all, in terms of the result, he did kill 'me'. ”
"Isaac II" said, turning back to look at Shisanxiang.
Although there was no difference from before, Shisanxiang suddenly understood the rationality in Teacher Isaac's eyes.
Issac warned seriously: "The first thing you should have when becoming a wizard is to give up the old concept of being a mortal. The good in the eyes of ordinary people is no longer the good in your eyes, and the evil in the eyes of mortals is no longer the same in your eyes. evil.
"What you desire, what you hope for, and what you firmly believe are all different from ordinary people. If you care about the morality of ordinary people, you will definitely not be able to go too far on this road.
"When you find your true desire, do you still think 'this is too weird' and give up? Don't be kidding... Not only wizards, but also extraordinary people should have such a realization.
"——The awareness of being abandoned by the world!"
Issac's voice was not loud, but it seemed to give Shisanxiang and Husky a thunderous shock.
Even Annan's pupils on the side shrank sharply - he seemed to understand something.
This is undoubtedly a very helpful reminder for Annan who is looking for desire and trying to find a way to advance to the gold level.
——Why do extraordinary people almost never choose to show up?
It is not arrogance, nor is it indifference to fame and wealth... The way to sublimation is not to cultivate immortality, but to tap into people's desires.
The real reason is... they are no longer in the same world as ordinary people.
"For example, my grandfather, the ancestor who has become a god... He was a male and a great nobleman at the beginning."
Issac looked at the three people who were stunned, nodded with satisfaction, and continued to give examples carefully: "Although he is a believer of the woman holding the cup, he actually does not understand the way of desire. He is just greedy for pleasure. , lacks artistic pursuit and talent, and has no feeling for the opinions of other righteous gods, so he chose the cup-holder woman as his faith.
"In other words, he was actually charmed by the appearance of the cup-holder and chose her. This is a blasphemous act for other gods, but for the cup-holder it is a sign of recognition and recognition. Respect.
"Until a certain absurd and chaotic banquet ended, the drunk ancestor came out to sober up alone. He walked to the river, but suddenly had the urge to jump. ~IndoMTL.com~ It was just a momentary impulse. That's all. But he began to wonder, why did he have the desire to die? He was obviously living so happily and carefree, and the only thing he wanted to do was enjoy a luxurious life.
"He started thinking. And at this point, he quickly realized that he didn't even know how he could get happiness from this luxurious life.
"He wanted to know what the relationship between desire and happiness was. So he began to abstain from **** and diet, and began three years of asceticism. However, his journey of abstinence made him a persistent Bishop of Cup Girl.
"At the end of his ascetic journey, he realized that he knew nothing and could do nothing. So he wanted to 'become someone else'.
"He first reversed his gender and made himself a girl. Then he ran away from home without a penny... Amidst the suffering in the world, she was promoted to the golden level. She understood a lot, but she didn't realize I realize there are more things I don’t understand.
"In order to have a deeper understanding of the desires of different people, he cut himself up and divided himself among nine people with different genders, ages, and origins.
"And after the death of these nine people, he was reborn again - through personally experiencing the lives of these nine people, he finally understood the way of desire. And obtained the Book of Truth, using himself as a grand banquet, offering To everyone she came into contact with.
"He is the Feaster, the God of understanding and resonance. Our Lord of all banquets. Since that great feast, time has moved on... and no more books of truth have fallen from the sky. ”
Issac looked at everyone and said word by word: "The way to sublimation is the way to change and alienation.
"From a mediocre mortal to a god. He is no longer the original him... You will naturally change too."
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